thedevilwithin
anima vestra
- Oct 4, 2023
- 98
i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.
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Very very anxious. I miss the numbness I had a couple months back.
Myers
I just want a hug please.
- Apr 15, 2023
- 29
Extremely angry, sad , lonely, frustrated, I'm in pain ,I just want a hug, I'm scared.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 19,026
Feeling confused as to why this thread exists when one with an identical name has been around for awhile already. Is it just because that one is on off topic?
Revising traumatizing things, revising terrible things I've done, They seem like they happened to someone else, though. Thinking of drinking my SN on the patio tomorrow but I have to wake up early enough to do it. Constantly telling myself I'm a very cool person despite everything that's happened to me or what I've done. Dealing with health issues, trying to get them away. Can't actually talk about it out of fear it manifests more in my body.
Having to constantly hold myself back out of fear someone, some person is going to take offense to what I say because this happens every single time. Can't speak my mind without someone getting mad or complaining about it. Afraid of saying the wrong thing. Afraid of getting yelled at, trying not to get yelled at.
Having to constantly hold myself back out of fear someone, some person is going to take offense to what I say because this happens every single time. Can't speak my mind without someone getting mad or complaining about it. Afraid of saying the wrong thing. Afraid of getting yelled at, trying not to get yelled at.
alone, awful, anxious, sad, hopeless, suicidal, depressed, angry, miserable, frustrated, bored. in mental agony
skreewie
its over
- Apr 16, 2024
- 12
thedevilwithin
anima vestra
- Oct 4, 2023
- 98
no real reason. this is the only place i express myself without holding back and id like to engage in conversations with others who feel the same as me.
why is that important at all?
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 19,026
Why not just use that thread then?
@thedevilwithin I liked this thread from the start but at some point just couldn't find it anymore for days. That's why I started a similar one, because I like it, too to express the current state.
thedevilwithin
anima vestra
- Oct 4, 2023
- 98
lifeispain0216
Member
- Jul 23, 2023
- 42
desperate for a way out. i feel empty and tired of feeling the way i always do. nothing feels fulfilling and i just want to go.
What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.
I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it. I'm...
www.sanctioned-suicide.net
oofuf
hope is the seed of despair
- Feb 13, 2023
- 48
I feel like I'm sinking in an ocean. it keeps getting colder and darker.
bookgirl
𝐉𝐮𝐥𝐲
- Mar 31, 2024
- 309
arnxxx
Student
- Mar 8, 2024
- 186
Im beyond desperate to recover. Just cycled with my mom and I was in tears under way because I feel like this. Every day I feel like this and it just won't stop. What did I do to deserve this??? I'm just a regular guy getting destroyed by his own feelings.
Anxious, tired, and desperate. Got foggy brain.
AkaRed
Come on! Let’s go, we’ll make our future together.
- Apr 20, 2023
- 204
So, so fucking alone. I am going to die alone. I have nothing. Im alone. Im going to die alone. Im literally going to fucking die by myself with nobody and nothing. Im going to die alone.
<3
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BlendedHeart
It is what it is
- Mar 9, 2024
- 149
I'm never enough. My efforts are worthless.
AnonymousL
Specialist
- Apr 5, 2023
- 358
Im writing without reading the comments of others to not let me get influenced by them.
I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.
i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.
I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.
It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.
I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.
i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.
I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.
It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.
ijustwishtodie
death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 2,439
I'm in so much pain and suffering. I feel shitty and trapped
thedevilwithin
anima vestra
- Oct 4, 2023
- 98
i cant begin to explain how much i relate to your words. it's so hard. i feel so much guilt for the way i feel. i wish this would end..
AnonymousL
Specialist
- Apr 5, 2023
- 358
Oh yes.. to look people you love and people that love you in the eye knowing that you want to end this existence is causing an awful guilt every single day.
I know I will cause them so much pain but existing is causing me too much pain to handle it.
xinino
I love to be sick
- Mar 31, 2024
- 259
Regret due to my horrible sadistic love fantasies, I feel like a monster this morning. I need to reassess myself.
astrichaoz
And if I were someone else, would this be easier?
- Apr 15, 2024
- 10
I don't know. Numb or empty I guess?? It's been like this for maybe a month now I wanna say. I don't like it. It stresses me out. This probably sounds crazy but I prefer the intense emotions I usually feel than this numbness.
Time4Peace
What the hell I'm doing here?
- Apr 9, 2024
- 67
"Current temperature has broken the record high for Apr. 17"
Let the skyfall!
Let the skyfall!
justcallmeJ
<3
- Nov 9, 2023
- 341
Very nervous.. but also a bit excited? Idk i just feel weird because my attempt is tomorrow
