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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
Very very anxious. I miss the numbness I had a couple months back.
 
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Myers

I just want a hug please.
Apr 15, 2023
29
Extremely angry, sad , lonely, frustrated, I'm in pain ,I just want a hug, I'm scared.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,408
Feeling confused as to why this thread exists when one with an identical name has been around for awhile already. Is it just because that one is on off topic?
 
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ultrasharpy123456

Wizard
Aug 18, 2022
636
Revising traumatizing things, revising terrible things I've done, They seem like they happened to someone else, though. Thinking of drinking my SN on the patio tomorrow but I have to wake up early enough to do it. Constantly telling myself I'm a very cool person despite everything that's happened to me or what I've done. Dealing with health issues, trying to get them away. Can't actually talk about it out of fear it manifests more in my body.

Having to constantly hold myself back out of fear someone, some person is going to take offense to what I say because this happens every single time. Can't speak my mind without someone getting mad or complaining about it. Afraid of saying the wrong thing. Afraid of getting yelled at, trying not to get yelled at.
 
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Dayrain

Mage
Feb 3, 2023
527
There is a megathread with the exact same title.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,217
alone, awful, anxious, sad, hopeless, suicidal, depressed, angry, miserable, frustrated, bored. in mental agony
 
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skreewie

skreewie

its over
Apr 16, 2024
13
I can't feel, just dull and empty.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
Feeling confused as to why this thread exists when one with an identical name has been around for awhile already. Is it just because that one is on off topic?
no real reason. this is the only place i express myself without holding back and id like to engage in conversations with others who feel the same as me.
There is a megathread with the exact same title.
why is that important at all?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,408
no real reason. this is the only place i express myself without holding back and id like to engage in conversations with others who feel the same as me.
Why not just use that thread then?
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
@thedevilwithin I liked this thread from the start but at some point just couldn't find it anymore for days. That's why I started a similar one, because I like it, too to express the current state.
 
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lifeispain0216

lifeispain0216

Member
Jul 23, 2023
51
desperate for a way out. i feel empty and tired of feeling the way i always do. nothing feels fulfilling and i just want to go.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,309
 
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oofuf

oofuf

hope is the seed of despair
Feb 13, 2023
56
I feel like I'm sinking in an ocean. it keeps getting colder and darker.
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
I want to leave this world
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
334
Im beyond desperate to recover. Just cycled with my mom and I was in tears under way because I feel like this. Every day I feel like this and it just won't stop. What did I do to deserve this??? I'm just a regular guy getting destroyed by his own feelings.
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
453
Anxious, tired, and desperate. Got foggy brain.
 
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AkaRed

AkaRed

Come on! Let’s go, we’ll make our future together.
Apr 20, 2023
251
So, so fucking alone. I am going to die alone. I have nothing. Im alone. Im going to die alone. Im literally going to fucking die by myself with nobody and nothing. Im going to die alone.

<3
 
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BlendedHeart

BlendedHeart

It is what it is
Mar 9, 2024
295
I'm never enough. My efforts are worthless.
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2023
438
Im writing without reading the comments of others to not let me get influenced by them.

I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.

i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.

I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.

It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I'm in so much pain and suffering. I feel shitty and trapped
 
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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
Im writing without reading the comments of others to not let me get influenced by them.

I can't explain how I feel. I feel numb but some part of me feels angry another part feels sad, an excruciating pain. Like I'm screaming but nobody can hear me and it never stops.

i feel like I want to die so badly but at the same time I'm so scared for the process and the fact that we do not know what happens after death since nobody ever came back from the permanent death to tell us.

I feel trapped.
I feel unsure. I feel like I'll never heal. Like I'll never be good enough.

It's hard to put my feelings into words. I just can't find the right ones to express it like how I exactly feel. I don't think I'll ever be able to do so.
i cant begin to explain how much i relate to your words. it's so hard. i feel so much guilt for the way i feel. i wish this would end..
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2023
438
i cant begin to explain how much i relate to your words. it's so hard. i feel so much guilt for the way i feel. i wish this would end..
Oh yes.. to look people you love and people that love you in the eye knowing that you want to end this existence is causing an awful guilt every single day.

I know I will cause them so much pain but existing is causing me too much pain to handle it.
 
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xinino

xinino

Anti humanist
Mar 31, 2024
397
Regret due to my horrible sadistic love fantasies, I feel like a monster this morning. I need to reassess myself.
 
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astrichaoz

astrichaoz

And if I were someone else, would this be easier?
Apr 15, 2024
44
I don't know. Numb or empty I guess?? It's been like this for maybe a month now I wanna say. I don't like it. It stresses me out. This probably sounds crazy but I prefer the intense emotions I usually feel than this numbness.
 
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Time4Peace

Time4Peace

What the hell I'm doing here?
Apr 9, 2024
112
"Current temperature has broken the record high for Apr. 17"

Let the skyfall!
 
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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
417
Very nervous.. but also a bit excited? Idk i just feel weird because my attempt is tomorrow
 
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