Shotgun CTB

[sighhh]

Hi guys,

I don't really know what to say except I fucked up, I caved in and bought a shotgun I don't know when I'm going to Ctb but I want to do it right. I don't want to die at all yk but I feel forced in a corner. I'm honestly scared idk what to do or how to do it. I wish I could get some type of help or just something to make Ts feeling go away Im getting choked up writing about Ts tbh. I feel like I've been trying to convince myself to do this for a while but I haven't been able to go through with it. I just stop short because I'm scared of failing or doing the wrong method. I just need guidance in whay to do om one hand if I Ctb I can free but on the other if I don't I'm Just stuck suffering

American Tactical Inc. Nomad Single-Shot Shotgun - 12 Gauge

SKU: ‌4014429‌

 

[k41tlynn]

ctb should be something that feels euphoric and peaceful, if ur all emotional ur not ready. why are you doing it if you said you don't wanna die at all? what is forcing you? also its pretty simple just center of forehead and ur immediately out. but are you even ready?

 

[parabellum_]

wait until its the right moment to do it. maybe you will find the will to live. if not, then ig aim well

 

[sighhh]

ctb should be something that feels euphoric and peaceful, if ur all emotional ur not ready. why are you doing it if you said you don't wanna die at all? what is forcing you? also its pretty simple just center of forehead and ur immediately out. but are you even ready?

I'm just scared of messing up, and I don't want people to be angry at me or make their own assumptions on how I feel. I bought the gun in a panic I feel like if I don't end things on my terms I'm just gonna have a shitty life and then I freak out and don't wanna do it anymore it's hard to work up the courage when you have time to think about it. I just wish there was an easier less violent option I just don't want anything to go bad

 

[k41tlynn]

I'm just scared of messing up, and I don't want people to be angry at me or make their own assumptions on how I feel. I bought the gun in a panic I feel like if I don't end things on my terms I'm just gonna have a shitty life and then I freak out and don't wanna do it anymore it's hard to work up the courage when you have time to think about it. I just wish there was an easier less violent option I just don't want anything to go bad

I feel the same way about life. I am having fun now because I'm young, but I refuse to work a job and whatever all the way until I'm 70. You would have to purposely try to mess up shooting your forehead its a very straightforward method. And who cares about people being angry with you? we r all gonna be dead, humans r not that important. we actively make the earth sick. also there are tons of less violent methods if you wanna be prettier about it. such as the sn method. just calm your body down and do ur research. bliss is waiting for you, also have fun while ur still young

 

[k41tlynn]

 

[BradGuy123]

You said you don't want to die. You said you are scared and get choked up even writing about it. It sounds like you're not ready. I think someone should be 100% sure before they do it.

 

[sighhh]

I think it's just how long it takes, bc id have to get a gun (another one bc I returned the one I just bought), then find a good place to end my shi n work up the strength to do it. It's hard to get to that last bit, the idea of dying is peaceful, actually trying to do it for me is not I feel like the shotgun is just a scary method to me I wish I could go to one of those countries where they put ya in a chamber and u can Ctb that way. I feel like it's more human
I just wish things could be easier