Venting numbness and venting stuff idk

[favouriteworstolive]

i feel so numb all the time. everything that used to excite me—my dreams and passions that i've had since i was like 4.. they're so reachable and yet i don't have the emotional drive or even like. the energy to do it. i'm so fortunate and it makes me feel so ungrateful that i think abt killing myself and hurt myself when they're people out there much less fortunate than me. i have everything i could need, i have all the resources, but fuck, man. i can't feel anything but anger these days. it's been like this for years, and i've been acting normal through it all, but it's to a point now where i have to either kill myself or power through or stay where i'm at and give up on my dreams. the latter two end the same way anyhow. idk i just feel like shit and it's so difficult to feel emotion or even give a fuck about people i'm supposed to care for nowadays. i hope i'm not alone in this feeling.

 

[aunaltravita]

i feel so numb all the time. everything that used to excite me—my dreams and passions that i've had since i was like 4.. they're so reachable and yet i don't have the emotional drive or even like. the energy to do it. i'm so fortunate and it makes me feel so ungrateful that i think abt killing myself and hurt myself when they're people out there much less fortunate than me. i have everything i could need, i have all the resources, but fuck, man. i can't feel anything but anger these days. it's been like this for years, and i've been acting normal through it all, but it's to a point now where i have to either kill myself or power through or stay where i'm at and give up on my dreams. the latter two end the same way anyhow. idk i just feel like shit and it's so difficult to feel emotion or even give a fuck about people i'm supposed to care for nowadays. i hope i'm not alone in this feeling.

Give it a shot, if it doesn't go well come back here. Trust me at least you'll have one less regret, it's worth it if you are already on edge you don't have nothing to lose anyway

 

[otomedissection]

Having more fortunate circumstances than others doesn't make what you feel any less valid. Being in a spot where you have lots of resources at your disposal but being held back by mental hardship and just finding where to even start is truly exhausting. I hope you can find a good entry into slowly working toward your dreams and passions again! Don't rush yourself and just do what you can. It sucks that it's not feasible to fix something that's weighing on you so severely overnight. It's unfair and stressful but it doesn't have to stay that way, even if it takes time. Sending you lots of love, friend.

 

[favouriteworstolive]

Having more fortunate circumstances than others doesn't make what you feel any less valid. Being in a spot where you have lots of resources at your disposal but being held back by mental hardship and just finding where to even start is truly exhausting. I hope you can find a good entry into slowly working toward your dreams and passions again! Don't rush yourself and just do what you can. It sucks that it's not feasible to fix something that's weighing on you so severely overnight. It's unfair and stressful but it doesn't have to stay that way, even if it takes time. Sending you lots of love, friend.

thank you so much, i really appreciate your words. <3

Give it a shot, if it doesn't go well come back here. Trust me at least you'll have one less regret, it's worth it if you are already on edge you don't have nothing to lose anyway

i might, i js cant drive and i really dont want to attempt unless theres a 100% chance i'm gone, yk? cant drive either sigh </3 thanks for the advice tho