How did you first hear about and/or find your way to this site?

[the_last_race]

Tantacul's video. Never watched the guy neither before nor after i got his video on SS in recommended, saw some guy in the comment section calling BS on him and went to google the site itself to take a look first hand.

 

[chuerdhmproton]

tentacruel vid of course

 

[TheMetalhead]

Never seen Tantacul's video before I got here, what got me into this website was searching for suicidal forums where I could express myself or talk to similar people.

 

[Lydia12]

was in the ss telegram group first

 

[chris1979]

Google search, but not on first page of search results.

 

[weisel]

I found out about the site while exploring one of the incel sites looking for stuff to post on Reddit. They were not allowed to post the name on the site, and when I attempted to find the site thru Google it would not pop up

 

[Morgengrauen]

Found it mentioned on a gore site while doing research on methods

 

[nottheend]

After watching the a documentary about a former member here it referred to this website without naming it obviously then found it after a few days searching can't actually remember how I eventually found it though

 

[ClaudeCTTE]

It was a strange moment...

One day I was eating pork and ended up on this website.

Basically, my path was something like...
>Eat pork
>Take my phone
>Go to Wikipedia
>Pork
>Pork belly
>Bacon
>Curing (food preservation)
>SN
>SS.
>Read some threads
>Sign up
>Be accepted

 

[wasted__life__23]

I was looking for - and found - help, hope and inspiration.

 

[newave3]

I don't remember. What site are we referring to?

 

[Louise Payne]

I was searching for information on suicide. Then I came across a YouTube video by PBS News Hour about a website on suicide. Then I googled the article and authors Megan Twohey and Gabriel Dance in the New York Times. And that is how I finally found this site. I am so grateful to feel less alone now.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

'Find a Grave'


sorry can't recall details
was via my phone
1 year ago

 

[countdown3210]

NYT Article led me here

 

[sserafim]

I found this website a few days ago when I was researching methods (specifically bridge suicides and the height needed to kill you). It popped up in the search results and I lurked for a while before officially joining

 

[voyager]

Was looking into the "Exit Bag" method after watching a Louis Theroux documentary titled "Choosing Death" (recommended, btw).

Btw, considering looking into methods is the second most popular path to this site, I do hope this site and the suicide section in particular will remain open to the public forever, since it's those people who we should care about and not catering to the fuckers who won't be satisfied until this site is shut down for good.

 

[HazyMind]

Found this site while searching for methods relating to hanging, and god im glad i did. My account was sadly apart of the data loss, but this place is truly so helpful. I never thought that knowing how to end it properly would actually help my mental state, but it does.

 

[duwangJEff]

I saw the tentacrul video a few weeks ago, and wanted to find this site since he tried to gatekeep it so hard. I feel a sense of satisfaction in being able to find it, despite his best efforts to hide it. I also hate his moral high horse. He used this website for personal gain, despite claiming to oppose it so much, which I'm sure he does, but I'm sure he's profited off of it quite a lot

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I searched for suicide methods and found this site. I joined about 5 months after discovering it because it allows me to vent and find like minded individuals.

 

[FallenGrace]

I watched Tantacruls video and allthough this site was slandered it was what I've been looking for.He shouldn't be judging people's choices.Its wrong to force someone into suffering.

 

[MentalStefan]

The story how I found my way to this site is quite funny and maybe a bit bizarre.

It was a few years ago. I watched a lot of memes about differences between Google's search engine and Bing's one. According to these memes, Bing provides far more controversial searching results than Google and doesn't censor anything, even if the results are very brutal or illegal. I wanted to test this myself and I typed "how to commit suicide" in both search enignes. I was surprised that these memes were actually right! Google outputted links to sites like "Don't kill yourself", "Talk to National Suicide Prevention Hotline", etc. However Bing as the first result outputted link to this website :D It naturally caught my attention and I started to lurk here more and more.

 

[CoffeeCrow]

I seem to naturally come across these places, I remember getting a PDF of PPH back in like, 2010-2011. There's also been other sub-boards for advocacy I've come across.
I came across SS while looking for methods and the general topic in Wikipedia. Ironically, Tantacul's video was always suggested by YouTube to me but I imagined it was another alt-imageboard or something he referred to and never watched the video, or plan to. Turns out he referred to this place after all. Seems he's doing a lot of people a favor.

 

[wildflower27]

searching for methods

 

[star_cell]

Tentacrul fs was my direct link. I wonder though. Back about 13 years ago I used to use a similar forum that was something along the lines of 'nowayout.com'. Not sure if this site has anything to do with it.

 

[Lys_C15H25N3O_d3]

i was inconspicuosly reading pubmed articles about certain pharmacological synergy-like. came across some weird amateurish yet curious topics and questions like (how much CO is fatal (cant blame but realize life in general has taken a downcurve since the last decade, when i hoped i was leaving a dark past of mental hospital stays and "failed attempts" (lack of instruction, "luck" or lack of depending on the point of view. Anyway ive been awake for several days, having some 30, to 40mins naps (sometimes with eyes open, i could see myself sleeping with an unlit smoke) anxiety has showed its true form ? *nah it can always be worse i know but everything will be fine we wont need to find out it was.. saturday? now its wednesday.. i don't think i can make it . i mean, i dont want to.. sorry it seems every post i'm robotically repeating all the monologue..
Cut things short , searching for technical information on fatal interactions between 2nd generation ops dont know if i can talk about it but yeah you guessed. anyway with my lucky i m liable to wake up throwing a whole drugstore on jets, every 30 min the body begins twitching, stomach gets uneasy and out of "nothing" (out of an empty stomach i mean) i'm impressed at the amount of ... gastric reflux.. most time i spent knocked out was like 3 days straight, then stood up and tried to walk through the door except i actually tried to walk through the wall (blurred vision) made me lost part of a tooth somewhere around here, and there was so much blood but damn those meds hangover would not let me wash it so i just dropped back on the floor and waited "till i was better" ... nah i don't recommend . (of course i messed up)

 

[Garf125]

This is partly why I believe Tantacruls video to be so dishonest and "harmful" by his definition. He introduced thousands of people to the forum he wanted them to stay away from where they would've never encountered it otherwise me among them.

Of course I'd consider myself fortunate to now have a place I can discuss such an uncomfortable topic in a comfortable manner with people who level with me and in that way I'm grateful for having watched his video. Doesn't stop me from recognizing how counterintuitive manipulative and bad faith it was.

 

[JordanF]

I googled "noxacusis" and scrolled down to the very bottom. There was a previous post here by somebody who also had this condition.

 

[Ashe]

Honestly Tantacul's video is the only reason I found out about this place and if I hadn't seen it I would've kept suffering in the blaring silence

 

[Princess Picta]

I was looking on Reddit but no one told me anything. I figured there had to be some old skool internet chat room for people who want to die and not get talked out of it or reported on.

I found some article it might even be the one listed but I remember seeing that this forum exists and all the noise they said about it. I didn't even finish the article, I came right here.

 

[stink]

found this website in 2015 maybe? haven't been here since maybe 2018; yet! i tried working through it man, and now i just wonder if it ever truly goes away or if suicide is just a matter of circumstantial determination