Discussion How did you find this forum and do you regret joining?

[Gangrel]

i found this through the church of euthanasia website, before that i was reading about serial shooters and this girl said she was interested on it, searched for it and stumbled upon this website

 

[tinyhotot]

I was looking for a method and came across an article talking about the site without a name. After some reddit digging, found a wikipedia article with the name of the forum. I don't regret it at all but I am new here. Its weird but I hope I make friends here.

 

[thetruetato]

The funny thing is I actually forgot what initially brought me here, but no I don't regret joining.

 

[TheEndofAllThings]

Funnily enough, I found it through my job, completely by accident. My job is to rate webpages. This particular task was to flag whether or not a page is harmful. The page was a thread on here. I don't remember what the particular post said, but I actually marked it as harmful. To me, at the time, this felt like a toxic place that encouraged suicide.

However, as I became more and more depressed and suicidal myself, I came back to the website out of curiosity. I discovered different peoples' experiences and methods I never heard of before. I felt empathy and realized that for some people things just don't get better despite trying.

Overall, I'm not sure whether or not I regret joining. I'm now obsessed with the thought of suicide to the point where I don't want to try to recover anymore. I have put all my hope in escaping this hell. But I'm glad I found a way that might end things more peacefully because I might have ended up going out in a less than ideal way.

 

[untothedepths]

a certain well known video, even if the creator didnt name drop. little did he know some people watching were probably unironically suicidal. didnt even know there was a place to talk about suicide in depth until now.

 

[MettleSpirit41]

I was suicidal and searching for painless ways to die on google where I came across an article by NY Times, which at first I logically thought would not mention the name of the website because the article was about preventing usage of SaSu but the name was clearly given in it.

Finding SaSu has worked wonders for me. It has become my safe haven and an outlet to let out all the pain I am holding within. No one judges you here, everyone is kind and always there to listen to what you have to say. I came here and found there are people who have suffered far more than me but are still going on. And I also find peace in knowing that I am just a few right steps away from finding eternal peace. Just having all these methods and knowledge at hand has made me evaluate everything in my life with a different perspective. It has been kind of therapeutic for me, having a last resort, that is. In short I do not regret joining.

 

[BlockHammer]

There's a youtuber who make a video misrepresent this site, im curious what that youtuber is talking about and try to track down this site, note that im already suicidal back then and curious about the methode, so finally im join this site so i van get some methode eventhough im not gonna used that for now cause i still want to fight.

My experience? Well i can't say too much cause i'm not often log in to this website but i do feel glad that i can share my thought about suicide without being judge by some pro-life asshole who can't accept nuance in suicide discussion or overoptimistic guy that will tell you everything will be okay

 

[Randy Savage]

Found the site through /that/ video and lurked a bit before finally joining. I could tell the fella had little to no insight on the experience of being suicidal pretty early on in the video so, I had to check it out for myself.

I don't regret my choice to browse this forum at all. There are genuinely thoughtful messages being shared all the time and since making an account I've been able to enjoy how much of a safe space SS is to speak your real thoughts compared to supposed safe spaces in real life

 

[Kusogaki]

Funnily enough, I found it through my job, completely by accident. My job is to rate webpages. This particular task was to flag whether or not a page is harmful. The page was a thread on here. I don't remember what the particular post said, but I actually marked it as harmful. To me, at the time, this felt like a toxic place that encouraged suicide.

However, as I became more and more depressed and suicidal myself, I came back to the website out of curiosity. I discovered different peoples' experiences and methods I never heard of before. I felt empathy and realized that for some people things just don't get better despite trying.

Overall, I'm not sure whether or not I regret joining. I'm now obsessed with the thought of suicide to the point where I don't want to try to recover anymore. I have put all my hope in escaping this hell. But I'm glad I found a way that might end things more peacefully because I might have ended up going out in a less than ideal way.

That's kind of Ironic that you end up joining the website that you deemed as harmful.

 

[ropearoundatree]

I actually found out about it, by accident, and while researching SN. And this was back in, maybe Sept. of '21? Or '22... (it was before things became so very difficult to acquire, at least where I am currently residing). Plus being a techn-O-phobe; doesn't really help in that manner/or matter~* / on top of that, I probably don't deserve to die so painlessly! ;) but seriously, I never know any of the references that anybody is making to more topical converstations regarding or around the method that have been in various outlets (or mediums) in the news. Anyway? That is how I found, or discovered this place. And "NO!" I don't regret it, one-bit~> :D

 

[Edouard]

I've been lurking on and off since the reddit days. Before that it was the suicide threads on certain imageboards, and before that it was good old suicide methods hideout.

Considering this is my first post I think it's a little early to say whether I'll regret joining, but I doubt it.

 

[Schmopo]

Zero regrets joining here. This place reminds me of the best times of the Internet pre-2010 when things of interests were found in discussion forums and you could discuss literally anything about the 'interest' without some major conglomerate taking control over censorship and removing things deemed triggering or whatever. This forum is the very example of why the internet worked best back then. I never realised until I came here just how all too common we think alike regarding depressions, suicide, life, death, afterlife, and many people here are extraordinarily insightful and intelligent. Everyone is so helpful and respectful to each other, regardless of the subject.

I have never had a conversation - online or in real life, pertaining these subjects as deep and confronting because nobody associated with me wants to talk about the idea of losing me or the idea of death because it's a 'bummer' so to speak. I'm bad at socialising and haven't been involved here much but man... this place is kinda my sanctuary. And I had not really felt that online in a very, very long time.

 

[Hotel]

I think this website is important. It needs to exist. It's only seen in a negative light by those who do not understand our situation just like their first reaction to seeing self harm is shame or to call someone reaching out as attention seeking or drama queens. This is a place where people like us can come and chat and discuss topics involving our situation and often just off topic things with people like ourselves. Free of judgement of those that do not understand. For me it's honestly refreshing to see people who hate life too rather than people who constantly tell me I should be grateful for it and it's a gift. Overall this place does more good than harm and I know it will be helping so many people find comfort and support.

 

[Emeralds]

I came across one of the news stories when I was looking up method information. I don't regret joining because I learned about methods and other practical information about suicide. I do regret spending so much time on here though. I realize now that I could have spent that time better.