
Gangrel
Mage
- Jul 25, 2024
- 504
i found this through the church of euthanasia website, before that i was reading about serial shooters and this girl said she was interested on it, searched for it and stumbled upon this website
That's kind of Ironic that you end up joining the website that you deemed as harmful.Funnily enough, I found it through my job, completely by accident. My job is to rate webpages. This particular task was to flag whether or not a page is harmful. The page was a thread on here. I don't remember what the particular post said, but I actually marked it as harmful. To me, at the time, this felt like a toxic place that encouraged suicide.
However, as I became more and more depressed and suicidal myself, I came back to the website out of curiosity. I discovered different peoples' experiences and methods I never heard of before. I felt empathy and realized that for some people things just don't get better despite trying.
Overall, I'm not sure whether or not I regret joining. I'm now obsessed with the thought of suicide to the point where I don't want to try to recover anymore. I have put all my hope in escaping this hell. But I'm glad I found a way that might end things more peacefully because I might have ended up going out in a less than ideal way.