How are you REALLY doing right now?

[Ferret77]

Just in case anyone here would like to vent or share their point of view

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

This evening I'm numb and blank.

 

[cscott]

awful trapped and hopeless

 

[Xaeniak]

Bad :D

 

[Lost Magic]

not sure anymore. I guess conflicted is a good word.

 

[sash]

Not good at all but being on here with you all in similar situations reading the chat and info helps focus a bit rather than being alone in my head.

 

[MiMif]

I've been wondering the same thing....I was awful a few days ago but now I don't feel real...I don't feel like I'm in reality it's wierd.
I guess conflicted

 

[SmollMushroom]

I'm feeling fine! I'm one day closer to my death! And you're all too! You guys need to stay positive :>

 

[Sunoo]

Just in case anyone here would like to vent or share their point of view

I feel like I don't belong anywhere and that no one wants me to stay

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

Apathetic towards everything. I feel like I've seen everything and there's nothing new. I don't feel sad or dreadful currently but it's just all so pointless.

 

[azo]

feeling lonely.

I'm feeling fine! I'm one day closer to my death! And you're all too! You guys need to stay positive :>

this! peace is inevitable and always approaching (whether one ends up hastening the process or not).

 

[FuneralCry]

Just tired of existing and wishing for the peace of eternal sleep, it always fills me with dread to think of how this existence could potentially continue for a long time, existence truly is a hopeless, undesirable curse.

 

[RoseQuarts]

I have exams next week. Long story short, tired. Hope ya'll are doing well though.

 

[Faith_No_more]

terrible. I've tied a noose.

 

[Meteora]

Horrible. I feel left alone. Just wanna quit. Too coward. I hate myself.

terrible. I've tied a noose.

Wanna talk?

Just tired of existing and wishing for the peace of eternal sleep, it always fills me with dread to think of how this existence could potentially continue for a long time, existence truly is a hopeless, undesirable curse.

Well said

Apathetic towards everything. I feel like I've seen everything and there's nothing new. I don't feel sad or dreadful currently but it's just all so pointless.

Same

 

[Old Friend]

Tinnitus annoying me. Tired after work which is royally pissing me off at this point.

 

[Foreverix]

I have exams next week. Long story short, tired. Hope ya'll are doing well though.

F▪︎ck 'em up or f▪︎ck 'em off, @KIssy1115
Best of luck to you! I hated exams. Almost as much as I hate koalas. Almost.

 

[alterationitfinds]

potentially i think i have finally hit my rock bottom. i can only hope though. unfortunately, i claim i have reached my "rock bottom" once a week and i never have
maybe this time though

 

[lita-lassi]

my drug addict alcoholic bf cheated on me, is mentally and physically abusive, makes me feel like im less than worthless and resents me for getting sober and growing distant to help myself be better. i thought about ending it last night but that was a panic reaction to an asshole action he took and i dont have a method available to go out on that isnt really painful. part of me really still wants to go find rope tbh

 

[ThisUnrest]

Very lost without my dead parents and husband. So many losses. Scared of the future. This is no life. Hard to eat or get cleaned up. My head feels dizzy this week. Love to you all.

 

[buttonfish]

i feel like im 13 again lol
im cutting and laying in bed all the time

 

[BlazingBob]

I'm feeling hopeless because of my health problems, and very lonely and isolated. My life is over whether I like it or not. My doctor said the disease I have won't kill me but will make me wish it would. I'm running out of money and will be homeless. I have a ton of work to do but no energy to do it. Bad anxiety. I just want peace

 

[Boudika]

Strangely enough. Today is my birthday, and honestly the day was successful - I ate my favorite food, got what I really wanted to get, and found out that the person for whom I had romantic feelings reciprocates them. And yet, still can't get rid of the urge to ctb. Now I'm sitting, wrapped in a blanket, wondering if I should go get SN, which is tucked away in my bookcase.

 

[carnivalforone]

lonely, unlovable, bored , tired, exhausted, lazy, pathetic, useless

 

[cgrtt.brns]

so fucking tired of life, of existence. i wish i was never born. i wish i had my ticket. i dont know why im trying to do the things people want me to do, theyll all end in failure and ill just wish i was dead anyway. why cant i just die now. im sick of it all. my body feels foreign, its not mine. im so uncomfortable. every night i hope i dont wake up the next day. knowing that i will makes me so fucking angry. im tired. let me sleep and never wake up. i dont belong here. anywhere. i cant do anything right so why do i try. i dont even want to try but i feel like i have to for other people. all i want is to die.

 

[Garf125]

Apathetic towards everything. I feel like I've seen everything and there's nothing new. I don't feel sad or dreadful currently but it's just all so pointless.

I have the mindset of an old man with a progressive terminal illness who's tired of living and wants to go before it gets too bad.

 

[hevlalab]

Strangely enough. Today is my birthday, and honestly the day was successful - I ate my favorite food, got what I really wanted to get, and found out that the person for whom I had romantic feelings reciprocates them. And yet, still can't get rid of the urge to ctb. Now I'm sitting, wrapped in a blanket, wondering if I should go get SN, which is tucked away in my bookcase.

Happy birthday!! Glad you had a good day :)

 

[Busridin'26]

Desolate, lonely but no desire to connect with anyone. No one understands anyway. Feeling frustrated that dying is so hard and feeling weighed down by all this bullshit. I just want it to end..dunno how tho.

 

[Garf125]

Strangely enough. Today is my birthday, and honestly the day was successful - I ate my favorite food, got what I really wanted to get, and found out that the person for whom I had romantic feelings reciprocates them. And yet, still can't get rid of the urge to ctb. Now I'm sitting, wrapped in a blanket, wondering if I should go get SN, which is tucked away in my bookcase.

What is SN? I'm still unfamiliar with the terminology on this forum. Is it like Voldemort where a substitute is used since you're not allowed to talk about it? Substance which shall not be named.

 

[hevlalab]

Honestly right now I've just had enough of living the same day in repeat. There's nothing new. Everyday is just another reminder of how I have lost myself. Time moves forward, but I'd do absolutely anything to make it go back

What is SN? I'm still unfamiliar with the terminology on this forum. Is it like Voldemort where a substitute is used since you're not allowed to talk about it? Substance which shall not be named.

SN is short for Sodium Nitrite