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meow
- Oct 29, 2020
- 1,729
It's a 10 today, but just because I'm scaredThanks for the thread. It's clear that you've spent a lot of time thinking about this topic and have personal knowledge and experience. For that I'm sorry, because I know how difficult it is.
1. 10
2. I think the best we can do is to connect with others who also suffer, but as you've accurately written in the thread online interaction is a pale and ineffective substitute for in person interaction, so there are limits to how helpful it can be.
3. Yes, my lack of social connections and inability to form and maintain them are ultimately why I'm here.
Cherry Crumpet
Hiraeth
- May 7, 2018
- 283
The Lonely
Arcanist
- Jan 26, 2021
- 406
Seriously….
The only person I talked this month was my doctor (yesterday)…
(Including: no voicemail or phone of any type…)
It's only me and my pets.
7 days a week…
No perspective of any change…
I would say this is a… 1 minus?? Or what?
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 704
Elysium Searcher
Longing for eternal sleep
- Jun 12, 2021
- 62
I feel like its 9.
Surprisingly, I feel slightly less lonely here in the psych ward. Im in the room with one older guy who seems to be very kind person. We talk from time to time about our problems and negative feelings. Thats what makes my life more bearable.
Also I chat with one of the SS members via dm. Im very thankful for this friendship. (There were more kind people who approached me when I joined this board, but I was too scaried to respond back... I strongly regret it.)
When I leave this place Im afraid that I will be completely alone again. I have absolutely no idea how to make friends, both online and irl.
Sometimes I feel like Im destined to be this way, drowing in my loneliness all the time. Being extremely shy and having awful personality feels like I have no chance to make any changes on that matter. Not mentioning any relationships with the opposite gender, Im way more likely to win milion dollars in the lottery than to have someone close to me, to experience some love despite, well... dreaming about it. (about being with romantic partner)
When Im very stressed, it feels like my loneliness is beyond fhe scale.
I answered once that its not the main reason for me to ctb, but I think I was wrong. Really, really wrong. But there are also other issues that makes me want to ctb. Sometimes I regret that I havent drunk my SN yet
Im sorry if there are any mistakes in my reply, but I have hard time typing on my phone.Last edited:10 - same as everyday since I lost my partner to covid.
Sure I speak with people and all that but it is all with a mask on my face. Now I know what it is like to be surrounded by people but still be very alone and lonely. There is really no one with whom I can really be myself.
-FrozenRobot-
Let me go...please
- Jul 27, 2021
- 220
After my failed partial hanging, my parents made me move in with them. Its been like this since 2021 February. It was my first time and it worked.
I have a friend from Croatia who helps me a but for most part of the day I'm alone and lonely. I'm planning to ctb in the next 5 years if I can't move to Canada. Thats the whole purpose of my life. That's what I'm living for.
Yes. I'm lonely. 9/10
After my failed partial hanging, my parents made me move in with them. Its been like this since 2021 February. It was my first time and it worked.
I have a friend from Croatia who helps me a but for most part of the day I'm alone and lonely. I'm planning to ctb in the next 5 years if I can't move to Canada. Thats the whole purpose of my life. That's what I'm living for.
Yes. I'm lonely. 9/1010, no one wants anything to do with me and I'm either disliked or ignored. Oh well, I am used to it now. looking forward to not being here.1. 10 - i do not only feel lonely - i am
2. thought about an application for SS...
3. no - but lonlieness increases the wish to die. i just want to die because my life got destroyed the last two years with no chance to rebuild in any way. just no chance ever. thought about starting new - many many times - but there are too many problems with that. it is just not possible ever again.
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 704
That's exactly how it looks for me too ...
its fucked up...
in the moment i think about how could it be possible to start over again there are min 5 serious problems why its not possible.
and there are so many things i cant get out of my mind.
i would - but its too much...
logan
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 704
There are problems that can be solved - even if you don't think it's possible at the moment - but there are also unsolvable ones.
I hope that you will get your worries, at least partially, under control.
For me it is definitely too much.
i know - and i tried for over two years.
it would just take too long to fix anything and im not willing to go through this.
i have been through enough shit in my life.
its just - i dont want it anymore. the last two years showed me in what kind of society i live and what a government is willing to do to fuck people up.
i hope there will appear someone who can fix your shit.For some unknown reason I am at a 10 today. Without all the folks on SS, I would have no one and it is tough today.
I am hoping, fingers crossed, that I can find a new job with people who are decent and nice to be around.
I thank everyone on here for being my family.
Lots of fields of flowers and abundant sunshine for all,
Walter
Midgardsorm
Paragon
- Apr 28, 2020
- 916
Those last days it was definitely 10. I also don't see light at the end of the tunnel.
Day is ending and I'm putting myself to sleep with the aid if benzos.
Hope it's better tomorrow, but the chances are next to none.
Hi! My wish is for you to get a great nights sleep and upon waking up on Sunday, may your day be filled with lots of warm sunshine and the knowledge that you are loved and cared about here.
Sending you lots of hugs and my best,
WalterI'd give it a 1 today, considering it was my birthday and spend it alone. A few family members wished me happy birthday, but this was the first time my ex didn't reach out. How quickly it went to celebrating last year, floating rivers, to the end and her moving on. Legit moved in with a guy immediately after, guess there's no room for me anymore.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! you are never alone here on SS as we are all together.
I care about you a lot and again, wish you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
My best always,
Walter
10, have no one to even discuss trivial matters with. If it wasn't for my job I'd have no contact with anyone.
aviation
It's time to go home.
- Jul 30, 2021
- 127
It's been a 10, ever since I could think of myself as a person, and it can't go away, no matter how many people I surround myself with.
NormaJeane
Member
- Mar 24, 2021
- 648
No one should have to die alone, but in suicide many are forced to be alone. People are afraid of death and yet we must all go through death. People have to live and die alone.
Ren Elsie Jewelria
I sneezed!
- Aug 30, 2020
- 366
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35 male, central Europe, German speaking
- Oct 22, 2018
- 1,192
Seaghost
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- Apr 14, 2019
- 486
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