Here's what it's like to die from SN.

[ghostbird]

I attempted ctb yesterday with the SN regimen. Didn't work obviously (I threw up), but I thought it would be helpful to describe how it felt for people considering this method. I would definitely choose this method next time as it was painless and pretty comfortable. My mistake was not having enough antiemetics (I only had one tablet leftover from a packet and I wasn't willing to ask for a new prescription. I thought I could just will myself not to throw up lmao I'm a dumb piece of shit).

1. Taking the SN
I've heard people describe it as salty so I was honestly expecting it to be worse than it was. The taste was very mild and it was easy to drink. I don't think I dissolved it in enough water though because it was weirdly viscous.

2. Immediate Effects
None except a bitter aftertaste so I drank a little bit of juice to get rid of it.

3. After 5 Minutes
Started to feel a little bit nauseous but only a little bit. Nothing worse than what you might experience from mild motion sickness. At this time it was around 3am and I left my house to go lay down in a park because I decided I didn't want to die in my house. I laid down in the grass with my hands burrowed in the dirt and watched the clouds while listening to music.

4. After 10 Minutes
Nausea got a little bit worse but still fine. My mouth started watering really bad so I had to spit out saliva every few minutes. The amount of saliva I was producing was a lot.

5. After 20 Minutes
Nausea got worse again. Felt my body trying to throw up but it wasn't that bad, I was able to just breathe through my nose and stop myself. I also started to feel a bit lightheaded. Overall it kind of felt like I was drunk. It was actually pretty pleasant.

6. After 30 Minutes
The nausea was now coming in waves. It would start getting better for a few minutes, then get worse again. My heartbeat slowed down and I could feel myself drifting off. My breathing was slowing down and it was starting to sound like I was gasping.

7. After 40 Minutes
Nausea was really bad now. I felt really sleepy and I just kept telling myself not to throw up and that this was the last hard thing I would ever have to do in my life. I just kept breathing through my nose and made sure I was lying on back in the hopes of asphyxiating if I did throw up.

8. After 45 Minutes
Finally did start throwing up. It was projectile and watery so I doubt I could've asphyxiated. I threw up 5 times. After this I felt extremely drunk. I had to make the walk of shame back to my house from the park and it was very difficult to walk straight. I felt fine otherwise.

So yeah, in conclusion, not a bad way to go if you can manage to keep it down. It just felt like taking valium or opioids, like drifting off slowly. I'm disappointed it didn't work, but it's my own fault.

I wish anyone reading this peace. I believe we all have the right to self-autonomy and should be allowed control of our own lives. I was never for this world. And I know many of you feel the same.

I will be trying again at some point but I'm not in a hurry, I want to do it right this time.

 

[ClamChowder]

How many grams of SN and how many ml of water?

 

[Scattered-Soul]

First of all, I'm sorry for the unpleasant experience you went through, I'm glad that it didn't leave you with any long-lasting damage and you were able to get away only with some vomiting but even that's extremely uncomfortable.

It does sound pretty peaceful, in fact I've never heard of anyone having an experience with so little side effects like anxiety, pain, elevated heartbeat and so on and most people pass out rather quickly, definitely before the 30-minute mark and if they're unsuccessful because of throwing up it usually happens at the start which really confuses me. Are you sure it was pure or that you took the required dosage? Or maybe your organism's just different.

 

[Darkover]

did you test the sn for purity might not be 95percent or above thats why you only experience lite sickness
symptoms of being violently sick, gasping for air, fast heart rate, headache, turning blue

 

[movinout17]

First of all, I'm sorry for the unpleasant experience you went through, I'm glad that it didn't leave you with any long-lasting damage and you were able to get away only with some vomiting but even that's extremely uncomfortable.

It does sound pretty peaceful, in fact I've never heard of anyone having an experience with so little side effects like anxiety, pain, elevated heartbeat and so on and most people pass out rather quickly, definitely before the 30-minute mark and if they're unsuccessful because of throwing up it usually happens at the start which really confuses me. Are you sure it was pure or that you took the required dosage? Or maybe your organism's just different.

This. It might not pure like the others said. I thought that most would fall unconscious by 20 minutes

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Definitely interested in whether or not your sn was pure enough, this is rather similar to cases in the past of people who did everything right including following the regimen to T but didn't ctb, could be that the purity is called into question just as everyone else had already asked you about.

 

[no-name9859472882]

Can you pm the source

 

[Forever Sleep]

Thank you for sharing this with us. It's always interesting to read people's first hand experiences. I'm relieved for you that the side effects were no worse.

I hope this doesn't come across as nasty but I would just like to raise a couple of points. I think it's advised not to drink juice (I'm assuming you meant fruit juice) with or after SN. The acid in it I believe changes it to nitrate.

Also, I've read other threads where people have got up and started wandering around after taking it. I'd say this is unwise too. It can make you pass out very quickly by the sounds of it. People have cracked their heads on surfaces and floors and then survived with further complications from their injuries.

I would just say- anyone considering SN- please read the megathread. The bare basics are covered very early on. It tends to be when people ignore them that stuff goes wrong. SN really does seem like a method that needs planning.

I'm glad that your experience was fairly peaceful though.

 

[TapeMachine]

Except you didn't die from SN, so the title is weird. Not that I want you to be dead. I'm glad you're doing quite well after your bad experience. ::hugs::

But at 45 mins in, despite having vomited after that long, your body should have absorbed enough of the SN to render you unconscious/dead or at least completely unable to just get up and trot back home.

I would just say- anyone considering SN- please read the megathread. The bare basics are covered very early on. It tends to be when people ignore them that stuff goes wrong. SN really does seem like a method that needs planning.

I just want to highlight what Forever Sleep says here, for anyone else viewing this thread. It's important to do your research, people.

 

[Amyend88]

I'm sorry to hear your story. It seems that SN is indeed a difficult method to succeed with.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

The bare basics are covered very early on. It tends to be when people ignore them that stuff goes wrong. SN really does seem like a method that needs planning.

this is also why people need to do comprehensive and detailed research into SN and that means looking into older threads from years ago to now in order to get the full picture. Op drinking juice with SN was probably why they failed, just the same as someone drinking alcohol before or after SN.

I'm sorry to hear your story. It seems that SN is indeed a difficult method to succeed with.

It is not when protocol is followed. There's nothing difficult about it except if people make it difficult for themselves.

 

[Darkover]

That's a very strange thing to say. Taking one's life is never easy, no matter the method.

a bomb is 100 percent peaceful and it kills you in 10 milliseconds fast i know i could kill my self no problem but everything i need is highly forbidden or restricted illegal

 

[ThisIsLife]

That's a very strange thing to say. Taking one's life is never easy, no matter the method.

He meant by practicality. Compared to the inert gas method for example, which requires quite a bit of sourcing, preparation and verifications in order to not fail because of a little detail; SN, even if it's not "easy" per say, isn't rocket science and once you've taken into account a few things, most importantly the purity of the product, the fasting and the ways to get around vomiting, it's all dumbed down to drinking it and waiting.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

He meant by practicality. Compared to the inert gas method for example, which requires quite a bit of sourcing, preparation and verifications in order to not fail because of a little detail; SN, even if it's not "easy" per say, isn't rocket science and once you've taken into account a few things, most importantly the purity of the product, the fasting and the ways to get around vomiting, it's all dumbed down to drinking it and waiting.

That's exactly what I meant, taking your life isn't easy but the practicality of how SN has worked before, it shouldn't be too difficult of a protocol to implement. SN is not that difficult of a method to succeed with, it's just that people make mistakes that complicate the whole process.

That's a very strange thing to say. Taking one's life is never easy, no matter the method.

Maybe learn to ask for context next time instead of assuming that I said taking ones own life is a piece of cake, for what we have generally available to us as people in the world, we don't have much to work with that would warrant a quick and fast exit because most things are highly restricted and carry a very hefty criminal fine on them. Sn in terms of practicality isn't the hardest thing in the world to follow although I understand why people don't like the method at all.

 

[mind3de]

Thanks for your report. Interesting to read it felt like taking Valium. I always thought SN was more unpleasant than N.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you failed, I hope you're well now and recovery quickly. Thanks for sharing your experience with us.

I'd be interested in the purity of the used SN, was it really 95-99% or was it a salt-mix? How much grams did u actually ingest? Drinking the juice does not reduce the toxicity of SN rather the juice acid may cause earlier vomiting imo.

 

[Bluebunnysky]

Doesn't sound like the chemical you used was SN imo; Or if it was it was a diluted form like curing salt

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Guess we should just wait for OP to give more detail despite the fact it's absolutely good news they didn't have any terrible side effects from the SN they took or whatever it was they took.

 

[DreamEnd]

Did you take 25g?

 

[Meditation guide]

Here's what it's like to die from SN. <-- No it's not.

Something was wrong with this. You do not walk to a park and stay awake for 45 minutes, then vomit, then walk back home with a slower heartbeat.

Since I've been back on this site for the last few months I keep reading threads like this from newer members

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Something was wrong with this. You do not walk to a park and stay awake for 45 minutes, then vomit, then walk back home with a slower heartbeat.

Since I've been back on this site for the last few months I keep reading threads like this from newer members

Perhaps newer members make mistakes because they didn't make themselves aware of all manner of risks involved with this method but mistakes like this are to be avoided but yes, until we know from op, walking back home with a slow heartbeat is a quite odd

 

[Meditation guide]

Perhaps newer members make mistakes because they didn't make themselves aware of all manner of risks involved with this method but mistakes like this are to be avoided but yes, until we know from op, walking back home with a slow heartbeat is a quite odd

That's very generous of you.

Here is how I will be generous. I think members who write stories like this probably feel like they are heroic for saving people's lives. If I'm wrong then I apologize but this story has way too much wrong with it to pass the smell test.

The other day I read how someone had taken an entire pharmacy full of deadly oxy, sleeping pills, an entire bottle of codeine cough syrup, and about ten other massive doses of deadly pills in a motel then walked around the motel for a while.

Others are failing cause of ropes breaking and supports pulling out of the walls. I'm sure these things happen but many are too outlandish to be credible in my opinion.

It probably is a way to give oneself a feel good moment and be proud that they may have saved a life. Nothing would ordinarily be wrong with that but, it's underhanded and misguided.

I'm not trying to be mean, but this is the one place I can express my thoughts and that's what I'm doing.

 

[LonelyPlanetBoy]

Thank you for writing this protocol. I am happy that there aren't any long term side effects for you.

I also plan to ctb with sn so I find it interesting to read about other experiences.

 

[SmollMushroom]

Here's what it's like to die from SN. <-- No it's not.

Something was wrong with this. You do not walk to a park and stay awake for 45 minutes, then vomit, then walk back home with a slower heartbeat.

I think you are right, but at the same time I think they may have gotten a less than 95% purity SN dose, or they may have taken less than 25g.
SN is very lethal by its nature and that's why it is so popular. It doesn't fail usually, if you do things right.
Probably OP didn't follow the right procedure, but still wanted to share their experience in good faith.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Here is how I will be generous. I think members who write stories like this probably feel like they are heroic for saving people's lives. If I'm wrong then I apologize but this story has way too much wrong with it to pass the smell test.

Sometimes I like to give people the benefit of doubt but I definitely understand what you mean about all of this. In comparison to other cases I've seen, there's something about I question and hopefully OP will give clarity.

SN is very lethal by its nature and that's why it is so popular. It doesn't fail usually, if you do things right.
Probably OP didn't follow the right procedure, but still wanted to share their experience in good faith.

It very much is, so either OP didn't measure enough or what they took wasn't SN. I guess we'll know more when and if OP responds.

It probably is a way to give oneself a feel good moment and be proud that they may have saved a life. Nothing would ordinarily be wrong with that but, it's underhanded and misguided.

I agree, that is one general way to see it that they may saved a life and I think it's fair that you are expressing your thoughts over this, as you should.

 

[DreamEnd]

Here's what it's like to die from SN. <-- No it's not.

Something was wrong with this. You do not walk to a park and stay awake for 45 minutes, then vomit, then walk back home with a slower heartbeat.

Since I've been back on this site for the last few months I keep reading threads like this from newer members

Why do you automatically discredit the story of newer members? Perhaps the sn wasn't pure. Perhaps it was the juice he wasn't drinking it with.
Reports of sn effects are all over the place. Some go unconscious quickly, some don't. Some people vomit. Some don't. Don't be so quick to decide whose story is more credible. Just because their account is new doesn't mean they are a pro lifer trying to save lives

 

[Meditation guide]

Why do you automatically discredit the story of newer members? Perhaps the sn wasn't pure. Perhaps it was the juice he wasn't drinking it with.
Reports of sn effects are all over the place. Some go unconscious quickly, some don't. Some people vomit. Some don't. Don't be so quick to decide whose story is more credible. Just because their account is new doesn't mean they are a pro lifer trying to save lives

If you disagree with my opinion that's ok. She said it wasn't salty and was easy to drink.
She said: The taste was very mild and it was easy to drink. I don't think I dissolved it in enough water though because it was weirdly viscous.

Whatever she drank it was not SN.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Woah, we do not need to resort to any level of insulting towards anyone sharing their opinion, I would not like to see this thread derailed and therefore closed by mods, keep the discussion cordial as possible, every members experience is valuable plus I don't think anything @Meditation guide said warrants that kind of response.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Woah, we do not need to resort to any level of insulting towards anyone sharing their opinion, I would not like to see this thread derailed and therefore closed by mods, keep the discussion cordial as possible, every members experience is valuable plus I don't think anything @Meditation guide said warrants that kind of response.

I agree with that. We don't need another derailed discussion.

However the report leaves some question marks but as long as we don't get an answer from OP and especially as long as we don't know the actual purity of the SN ingested we can only speculate what really happened.

Perhaps this thread will disappear in the depth of the forum soon.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

However the report leaves some question marks but as long as we don't get an answer from OP and especially as long as we don't know the actual purity of the SN ingested we can only speculate what really happened.

this is why I said we should just wait for the op to come back before coming to any conclusions based off of the information above, I do understand @Meditation guide skepticism seeing as she's been here for sometime and seen quite a few differences between accounts that actually took sn and some that probably did not so maybe she's used that to guide her opinion in this case however for the sake of any discussion on this thread to contine, I think we should just wait for the OP to come back but if not then it should be moved on from, it's better to gain clarity than argue over what we currently know and don't know.