I never was one and I hope I never will be one. There was another incident in Germany where a car crashed purposefully into a pedestrian zone. I know I wouldn't be of any help.
Honestly, I think I couldn't handle it. The truth is I would probably only call the police/ambulance whatever. It is many years ago that I I had a first-aid course. And I won't do another one. But what if you come in such a situation? I couldn't handle it. I am too much of a mental wreck to do basic shit. I wasn't able to hold a very basic office job. The pressure crushed me. I think I would be no help at all. It is true that I am a coward who would be really scared of getting PTSD. I think you can get easily traumatized from being a first responder. I think though in all honesty I wouldn't be of any help. Eventually I would feel responsible for the death of innocent people if I was the one who couldn't rescue them. I could never cope with the pressure in a life or death situation of someone else. Their life would be in my hand. Bro I get crushed imagining myself being awkward in supermarket buying groceries. Lol.
Maybe it would be an excuse. I am not sure whether I could be held legally accountable for not helping enough. But it is obvious I couldn't do shit. The thing would be different if I one the sole first responder or part of 2-3 people. I am not scared of such situations because I am not that often among people.
There was one incident where I really was a coward. It was at a train station. People left the train and a dog walked into my direction. I sort of was scared of the dog. It was a pretty big dog. Not extremely big. But dogs sort of intimidate me. I find it weird and uncomfortable that they smell the footstep first. Especially bigger ones can scare me. It is not necessarily a phobia towards usual dogs but I am not really comfortable with them. Except maybe Nintendogs. One of my first Nintendo DS games. Lmao.
However, the owner of the dog entered the train again without taking the dog with him. And the dog stood all alone at the train station. I am not sure how many people noticed this. There were two middle age people. A woman and a man. I had the feeling both were quite educated and the man really cared for the dog. I was stunned by this situation. I looked at them really stunned and shocked. But I didn't approach them instead I sat down and stared at them. I think both went to the police afterwards. The woman looked at me very judgementally. I had the feeling the man didn't judge me this much. I am not sure how easiy it is to spot me as neurodiverse or whether he noticed my nervousness when the dog walked into my direction. Maybe he just didn't think at all about me. This happened some years ago and I still have a guilty conscience about it. But I think I wouldn't be of any use and might would do the same in a similar situation.
Honestly, I think I couldn't handle it. The truth is I would probably only call the police/ambulance whatever. It is many years ago that I I had a first-aid course. And I won't do another one. But what if you come in such a situation? I couldn't handle it. I am too much of a mental wreck to do basic shit. I wasn't able to hold a very basic office job. The pressure crushed me. I think I would be no help at all. It is true that I am a coward who would be really scared of getting PTSD. I think you can get easily traumatized from being a first responder. I think though in all honesty I wouldn't be of any help. Eventually I would feel responsible for the death of innocent people if I was the one who couldn't rescue them. I could never cope with the pressure in a life or death situation of someone else. Their life would be in my hand. Bro I get crushed imagining myself being awkward in supermarket buying groceries. Lol.
Maybe it would be an excuse. I am not sure whether I could be held legally accountable for not helping enough. But it is obvious I couldn't do shit. The thing would be different if I one the sole first responder or part of 2-3 people. I am not scared of such situations because I am not that often among people.
There was one incident where I really was a coward. It was at a train station. People left the train and a dog walked into my direction. I sort of was scared of the dog. It was a pretty big dog. Not extremely big. But dogs sort of intimidate me. I find it weird and uncomfortable that they smell the footstep first. Especially bigger ones can scare me. It is not necessarily a phobia towards usual dogs but I am not really comfortable with them. Except maybe Nintendogs. One of my first Nintendo DS games. Lmao.
However, the owner of the dog entered the train again without taking the dog with him. And the dog stood all alone at the train station. I am not sure how many people noticed this. There were two middle age people. A woman and a man. I had the feeling both were quite educated and the man really cared for the dog. I was stunned by this situation. I looked at them really stunned and shocked. But I didn't approach them instead I sat down and stared at them. I think both went to the police afterwards. The woman looked at me very judgementally. I had the feeling the man didn't judge me this much. I am not sure how easiy it is to spot me as neurodiverse or whether he noticed my nervousness when the dog walked into my direction. Maybe he just didn't think at all about me. This happened some years ago and I still have a guilty conscience about it. But I think I wouldn't be of any use and might would do the same in a similar situation.
