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danielplainview

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Mar 22, 2026
102
Let's be very brutal and blunt. How much painful and agonizing could it be?
 
red_cardinal

red_cardinal

pinniped enthusiast 🦭
May 25, 2026
84
From the videos I've seen, it doesn't look agonizing, but it doesn't look completely peaceful either. I'd say somewhere between 4 and 6 when it comes to how uncomfortable it is, depending on the person, protocol, the dose etc.
 
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danielplainview

Student
Mar 22, 2026
102
From the videos I've seen, it doesn't look agonizing, but it doesn't look completely peaceful either. I'd say somewhere between 4 and 6 when it comes to how uncomfortable it is, depending on the person, protocol, the dose etc.
That's quite good then if it's not agonizing.
 
red_cardinal

red_cardinal

pinniped enthusiast 🦭
May 25, 2026
84
That's quite good then if it's not agonizing.
If the person also takes a benzo/another sedative and a beta-blocker, I think this will reduce the discomfort.
 
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red_cardinal

pinniped enthusiast 🦭
May 25, 2026
84
What are some other sedatives?
I read that some people who didn't have access to benzos used quetiapine (antipsychotic with sedating effects) or other psych meds that have a sedating effect.
 
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danielplainview

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Mar 22, 2026
102
I read that some people who didn't have access to benzos used quetiapine (antipsychotic with sedating effects) or other psych meds that have a sedating effect.
Okay, thanks.
 
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isthisthingon

Arcanist
May 16, 2026
446
Let's be very brutal and blunt. How much painful and agonizing could it be?
You die from a lack of oxygen, right? I've always feared there is suffocation elements.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
339
Can see for yourself
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
353
"How painful CAN it be" is the question OP asked, which I would interpret as "how bad can it possibly be".

SN can be very bad. I'm not a medical doctor, but as far as I understand, what happens is that your blood physically can't transport oxygen anymore, and you suffocate to death. No matter how much you breathe, it's impossible for you to bring that oxygen around. Way different than what happens in a blood choke, think FSH or PH or a BJJ rear naked choke. While this happens, your body will try to get rid of the SN NO MATTER WHAT (even with fasting/AE/benzo/paracetamol), mostly in the form of puking.

(Sidenote: some users on this forum said that the people in those videos, who suffered a lot by the looks of it, didn't follow the protocol and/or they didn't take benzos. We don't *know* that they didn't and as far as I know there is no reason at all to suppose that they didn't follow the protocol. For example in most videos they don't puke a lot, and there's a lot of dry heaving, which indicates AT LEAST fasting.)

SN's reputation on this forum is underserved and it's a 6/10 on the peacefulness scale on the PPeH anyway, which really isn't that good.
For reference, on a scale of 1 to 10 Nembutal is 10, morphine is 10, Sodium Azide is 5(!) and carbon monoxide is 8/10 (!!). But maybe 6/10 is acceptable to you. Since we have videos, it's undeniable that it can produce excruciating pain (in case it wasn't obvious enough that drinking SN isn't painful...), and the 6/10 shows that, too. It has 4 extra points of pain (out of 10, mind you) when compared to Morphine and Nembutal.

Again, I remind you that OP specifically asked for SN, not about its combination with a bunch of other drugs, like the whole fasting+AE+benzo+paracetamol thing.

Frankly, I even doubt it's 6/10. When discussing how painful SN is, it would be fair to only stick to SN. When you're discussing a drug you're discussing THAT drug, not the 5 other drugs you could possible consume that one drug with. I mean, by that logic you could say that falling on a bed of nails from 50ft is painless, because you can OD on an opioid before the fall. Idk, seems wrong to me.

TL;DR: how painful is SN? Probably a lot. The 6/10 on the PPeH is only true *when you include a bunch of other drugs*, the substance itself is obviously horrible and brutal. Definitely don't raw dog SN and think 100 times before choosing it as a method even if you have the other drugs at hand. We should stop acting like SN is the Holy Grail, it's giving a false impression.
 
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danielplainview

Student
Mar 22, 2026
102
"How painful CAN it be" is the question OP asked, which I would interpret as "how bad can it possibly be".

SN can be very bad. I'm not a medical doctor, but as far as I understand, what happens is that your blood physically can't transport oxygen anymore, and you suffocate to death. No matter how much you breathe, it's impossible for you to bring that oxygen around. Way different than what happens in a blood choke, think FSH or PH or a BJJ rear naked choke. While this happens, your body will try to get rid of the SN NO MATTER WHAT (even with fasting/AE/benzo/paracetamol), mostly in the form of puking.

(Sidenote: some users on this forum said that the people in those videos, who suffered a lot by the looks of it, didn't follow the protocol and/or they didn't take benzos. We don't *know* that they didn't and as far as I know there is no reason at all to suppose that they didn't follow the protocol. For example in most videos they don't puke a lot, and there's a lot of dry heaving, which indicates AT LEAST fasting.)

SN's reputation on this forum is underserved and it's a 6/10 on the peacefulness scale on the PPeH anyway, which really isn't that good.
For reference, on a scale of 1 to 10 Nembutal is 10, morphine is 10, Sodium Azide is 5(!) and carbon monoxide is 8/10 (!!). But maybe 6/10 is acceptable to you. Since we have videos, it's undeniable that it can produce excruciating pain (in case it wasn't obvious enough that drinking SN isn't painful...), and the 6/10 shows that, too. It has 4 extra points of pain (out of 10, mind you) when compared to Morphine and Nembutal.

Again, I remind you that OP specifically asked for SN, not about its combination with a bunch of other drugs, like the whole fasting+AE+benzo+paracetamol thing.

Frankly, I even doubt it's 6/10. When discussing how painful SN is, it would be fair to only stick to SN. When you're discussing a drug you're discussing THAT drug, not the 5 other drugs you could possible consume that one drug with. I mean, by that logic you could say that falling on a bed of nails from 50ft is painless, because you can OD on an opioid before the fall. Idk, seems wrong to me.

TL;DR: how painful is SN? Probably a lot. The 6/10 on the PPeH is only true *when you include a bunch of other drugs*, the substance itself is obviously horrible and brutal. Definitely don't raw dog SN and think 100 times before choosing it as a method even if you have the other drugs at hand. We should stop acting like SN is the Holy Grail, it's giving a false impression.
You seem extremely negative about it.
 
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BradGuy123

Mage
Jul 6, 2025
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TL;DR: how painful is SN? Probably a lot. The 6/10 on the PPeH is only true *when you include a bunch of other drugs*, the substance itself is obviously horrible and brutal. Definitely don't raw dog SN and think 100 times before choosing it as a method even if you have the other drugs at hand. We should stop acting like SN is the Holy Grail, it's giving a false impression.
Thanks for posting this. I've wondering how it can be peaceful if you die from a lack of oxygen. I'd think it would be a panicked feeling. I have seen videos of people wrenching and throwing up. I hate having that feeling when I get a stomach bug. I'm afraid with SN it would be that times a factor of ten.
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
353
You seem extremely negative about it.
I'm not particularly fond of this method, but I tried to be as objective as possible in the previous post. We're talking about CTB after all, it's usually unpleasant, every method has its drawbacks
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
421
In the video from around the net it doesn't seem too painful, 6/10 is probably accurate. Just expect some throat pain when you drink the SN and alongside that a lot of vomitting.
 
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HD72

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
Sep 10, 2023
460
Let's be very brutal and blunt. How much painful and agonizing could it be?
What people on here do not understand and I have tried to educate them about is the danger of akathisia from the anti emetics and the benzos. One dose can cause it.they can also cause dystonia tardive dyskinesia and a wealth of other side effects. No one ever mentions that. They are more worried about the SN.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
"How painful CAN it be" is the question OP asked, which I would interpret as "how bad can it possibly be".

SN can be very bad. I'm not a medical doctor, but as far as I understand, what happens is that your blood physically can't transport oxygen anymore, and you suffocate to death. No matter how much you breathe, it's impossible for you to bring that oxygen around. Way different than what happens in a blood choke, think FSH or PH or a BJJ rear naked choke. While this happens, your body will try to get rid of the SN NO MATTER WHAT (even with fasting/AE/benzo/paracetamol), mostly in the form of puking.

(Sidenote: some users on this forum said that the people in those videos, who suffered a lot by the looks of it, didn't follow the protocol and/or they didn't take benzos. We don't *know* that they didn't and as far as I know there is no reason at all to suppose that they didn't follow the protocol. For example in most videos they don't puke a lot, and there's a lot of dry heaving, which indicates AT LEAST fasting.)

SN's reputation on this forum is underserved and it's a 6/10 on the peacefulness scale on the PPeH anyway, which really isn't that good.
For reference, on a scale of 1 to 10 Nembutal is 10, morphine is 10, Sodium Azide is 5(!) and carbon monoxide is 8/10 (!!). But maybe 6/10 is acceptable to you. Since we have videos, it's undeniable that it can produce excruciating pain (in case it wasn't obvious enough that drinking SN isn't painful...), and the 6/10 shows that, too. It has 4 extra points of pain (out of 10, mind you) when compared to Morphine and Nembutal.

Again, I remind you that OP specifically asked for SN, not about its combination with a bunch of other drugs, like the whole fasting+AE+benzo+paracetamol thing.

Frankly, I even doubt it's 6/10. When discussing how painful SN is, it would be fair to only stick to SN. When you're discussing a drug you're discussing THAT drug, not the 5 other drugs you could possible consume that one drug with. I mean, by that logic you could say that falling on a bed of nails from 50ft is painless, because you can OD on an opioid before the fall. Idk, seems wrong to me.

TL;DR: how painful is SN? Probably a lot. The 6/10 on the PPeH is only true *when you include a bunch of other drugs*, the substance itself is obviously horrible and brutal. Definitely don't raw dog SN and think 100 times before choosing it as a method even if you have the other drugs at hand. We should stop acting like SN is the Holy Grail, it's giving a false impression.
They are not a morphine protocol in pph but 5 drugs protocol where is basically impossible to find them all specially barbiturates.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,216
"How painful CAN it be" is the question OP asked, which I would interpret as "how bad can it possibly be".

SN can be very bad. I'm not a medical doctor, but as far as I understand, what happens is that your blood physically can't transport oxygen anymore, and you suffocate to death. No matter how much you breathe, it's impossible for you to bring that oxygen around. Way different than what happens in a blood choke, think FSH or PH or a BJJ rear naked choke. While this happens, your body will try to get rid of the SN NO MATTER WHAT (even with fasting/AE/benzo/paracetamol), mostly in the form of puking.

(Sidenote: some users on this forum said that the people in those videos, who suffered a lot by the looks of it, didn't follow the protocol and/or they didn't take benzos. We don't *know* that they didn't and as far as I know there is no reason at all to suppose that they didn't follow the protocol. For example in most videos they don't puke a lot, and there's a lot of dry heaving, which indicates AT LEAST fasting.)

SN's reputation on this forum is underserved and it's a 6/10 on the peacefulness scale on the PPeH anyway, which really isn't that good.
For reference, on a scale of 1 to 10 Nembutal is 10, morphine is 10, Sodium Azide is 5(!) and carbon monoxide is 8/10 (!!). But maybe 6/10 is acceptable to you. Since we have videos, it's undeniable that it can produce excruciating pain (in case it wasn't obvious enough that drinking SN isn't painful...), and the 6/10 shows that, too. It has 4 extra points of pain (out of 10, mind you) when compared to Morphine and Nembutal.

Again, I remind you that OP specifically asked for SN, not about its combination with a bunch of other drugs, like the whole fasting+AE+benzo+paracetamol thing.

Frankly, I even doubt it's 6/10. When discussing how painful SN is, it would be fair to only stick to SN. When you're discussing a drug you're discussing THAT drug, not the 5 other drugs you could possible consume that one drug with. I mean, by that logic you could say that falling on a bed of nails from 50ft is painless, because you can OD on an opioid before the fall. Idk, seems wrong to me.

TL;DR: how painful is SN? Probably a lot. The 6/10 on the PPeH is only true *when you include a bunch of other drugs*, the substance itself is obviously horrible and brutal. Definitely don't raw dog SN and think 100 times before choosing it as a method even if you have the other drugs at hand. We should stop acting like SN is the Holy Grail, it's giving a false impression.
I personally can never do SN even if I have access to SN and all the other stuff needed in the protocol.. my body throws up stuff very fast. Once, I stole some arsenic from my school's chemistry lab for ctb. I ingested all of it and suddenly started throwing up. That was a nightmare.. Thankfully, my father knew a medicine to stop that. He administered that and I was better in 15-20 minutes.
 
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abcdefg789

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May 8, 2026
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What people on here do not understand and I have tried to educate them about is the danger of akathisia from the anti emetics and the benzos. One dose can cause it.they can also cause dystonia tardive dyskinesia and a wealth of other side effects. No one ever mentions that. They are more worried about the SN.
I completely agree with you! I am very worried about it. I have had akathesia and parathesia in the past from benzos and beta blockers.

But I don't know what else to do! Do I just do it without meto and the benzos???
 

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