insectontrial
Student
- Jan 29, 2026
- 130
Pasted from a reply to another thread I created. Hope that's allowed.
Today's the day. I've booked the barber for my final haircut. Then I'm going to order a takeaway, and then schedule some text messages to go out to the people they need to reach, so that I'll be dead by the time they open them.
Then I'll put my suit on, take some strong sedatives, and hang myself before they take too much of an effect. I've got the ligature prepared already, so there won't be any faff later on.
Before I do go, I'd like to say thank you to everyone who supported me and listened to me here. It has meant a lot, and now I'll finally be able to CTB, on my own terms, in a way that'll actually work this time.
I'm not scared, and I'm not going to back out. This is the most calm I've felt about things in a long time, and I know I'm doing the right thing. My autism made me a burden on everyone whose lives I came into. That ends today.
Today's the day. I've booked the barber for my final haircut. Then I'm going to order a takeaway, and then schedule some text messages to go out to the people they need to reach, so that I'll be dead by the time they open them.
Then I'll put my suit on, take some strong sedatives, and hang myself before they take too much of an effect. I've got the ligature prepared already, so there won't be any faff later on.
Before I do go, I'd like to say thank you to everyone who supported me and listened to me here. It has meant a lot, and now I'll finally be able to CTB, on my own terms, in a way that'll actually work this time.
I'm not scared, and I'm not going to back out. This is the most calm I've felt about things in a long time, and I know I'm doing the right thing. My autism made me a burden on everyone whose lives I came into. That ends today.
