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seaquake

seaquake

lethargic
Jan 30, 2025
34
I'm ready to go, the glass of SN is going to be in my hand soon and I've already taken all the necessary medication.

I feel anxious and at peace at the same time. I want the best for you here on the site and for all the kind people who (even with little contact) have given me support, stay well.

I also want to thank the guy from outside SaSu who introduced me to this forum, without him, my peace would not have been possible. Now that I've finished with the thanks, let's talk about myself.


I have, deep down, a voracious desire for life, despite most of the people on this site, but the unhealthy and unpleasant conditions to which I've been subjected since childhood make having a good life impossible. If I had been placed in different conditions, in another family, in another country, with another perspective of life, I think I would be happy, but that's not the case.

I saw a lot of good movies this year when I realized I was going to CTB. Conclave, The Substance, etc.


If life were just about watching cool movies, I would stay here longer. I also really like music, like drudkh, windir and other black metal projects, regardless of the subgenre.

I like speed metal and doom metal, and I would love to spend more time listening to it if I had a life that was more under my control than under the government's control.

I LOVE Imogen Heap, her music has something special for me. Anyway, I wish you luck, I hope my path is peaceful and without too many complications. I hope everything works out, I don't want to wake up tomorrow.



I'm gonna listen to this banger one last time. I love the lonely, it's the backpatch of my battle vest

I'll spend a few minutes online before I die
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,972
I wish you the best as well, I hope you find freedom from suffering.
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
236
Wishing you peace, however it may find you
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
May you leave in peace and, ultimately, rest in peace. Good luck on your journey.
 
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ihatemyselfwanttodi

ihatemyselfwanttodi

Experienced
Jan 26, 2025
296
Wishing you peace in your final moments. Good luck. ❤️ and agreed, those were some good movies. Some others I've enjoyed lately: A real pain, the wild robot, flow, nosferatu
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
It's okay if you change your mind, remember that we're here while you are. Godspeed, friend. I hope you find your peace.
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
267
Wishing you a peaceful transition. Rest well ✌🏼
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
205
I wish the best for you, safe travel
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
wishing u the best <3
 
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ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
120
thank you for sharing that song! super cool listen. i hope you find peace ♡ remember if you need anything wether its comfort or advice on how to reverse the sn we are here for you . safe travels
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
I'm humbled that you share with us at this point. Every good wish, whatever happens. Best wishes for finding rest and peace.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
All the best, sad to see such a kind soul go, but wish you peace as you deserve. Thanks for sharing a little about you, and for leaving us with the special music. Safe travels.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,329
Good luck! I hope you find peace!
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
nothing but love. ❤️
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
I hope you find your peace.
 
gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
494
I can feel it in your words—you have a real hunger for life. Music, film, all of that… it's what makes us human. We weren't born to chase money or grind ourselves down. We were meant to create, to connect, to feel like we belong somewhere.
I'm so sorry the world made that hard for you. You didn't deserve that. You deserved softness, and space to be yourself without being punished for it.

I hope you find peace—whether it's here, somewhere far away, or out there in the stardust. I hope your journey from here is soft and slow. And when sleep finally comes, I hope it wraps around you like a quiet sea. I hope it's calm. I hope it holds you gently.
 
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