🤍goodbye🤍

[Blurry_Buildings]

I'll be sad to see you go.

Wishing you the best

 

[LoiteringClouds]

per some requests and also because why not:


final drawing I did today:
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don't know if I regret the black outline or not. it'll be taped into my sketchbook.

playlist of favorite songs (still in progress of shortening it and will be until I'm gone):

it's only a sample of 100 songs because it's all Spotify will allow, if you click on the title it'll show the whole thing though

Hello Lra,
I'm a stranger but I think we'll miss you -
Your contribution and peaceful aura,
Show your compassion has been always true.

Your drawing shows now you have clarity,
And your post does you're in serenity -
I hope, you have might and will win this fight -
I believe in you, it will be alright.

To final rest, may you proceed -
Lra, Godspeed

I think I'll remember your great drawing whenever I see the picture of human heart.

 

[Alatus_Nemeseos]

Incase you change your mind will you let us know in the thread? I may be asleep when it happens, i hope you have a lovely time playing games with your family

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

Hey Lra

You don't know me, but I've been a lurker on this site since right around the time you posted your last goodbye thread. From the moment I visited this website for the first time and read your goodbye thread, you always struck me as such a beautiful person. You have shown so much kindness in the threads that I've seen you in and ironically you have shown me so much beauty to life (your paintings from your last attempt, your list of things you love about life, etc.)

I really wanted to make an account and reply to you before I'd lose the chance to. I just wanted you to know that you have not failed as an adult. I know that I don't even know who you are, but I've seen the love exchanged between threads you've been in here, and success at life really boils down to love. And you are amazing at cultivating love, even when you write anonymously. Our world puts so much pressure on financial independence, and I've personally made it a mission in life to take as much of that stigma away as I can and offer people the unconditional acceptance that they deserve because I believe it is such an evil and pointless reason to make people feel worthless.

When I was 18, for 3 agonising years an old partner of mine battled with what we thought was terminal illness, and it crushed me into tiny bits and nearly wiped me out. It was an insane miracle that he survived. I can't imagine what losing your partner forever does to a person. I understand and completely respect your decision. I just wanted to let you know you will be missed dearly, you are the type of people we need more of in this world. Regardless of what happens, I hope you remember that you are cherished and I'll be thinking of you from a different side of the globe. I truly wish the best for you, no matter what it is.

 

[new2blue]

I am new here but I can see you have made quite an impact on people. You seem so kind and loving from your posts and I regret we did not get to become friends. But I am also happy you are taking your chance at peace. That art was awesome and will probably continue to pop up in my mind for a long time.

You are now seeking a great perhaps, one that we will all seek eventually. Per ardua ad astra. May you find the peace you seek. :)

 

[Lacerta viridis]

I sincerely hope you find serenity.

 

[absolutelyyou]

You've been on my mind, we are here with and for you no matter what you may decide to do.

 

[ropearoundatree]

I'll miss you @hi-okbye . . . You were very nice to me, when you didn't even have to be! Peace :)

 

[Cyndaquil]

I wish you can find peace, whatever you decide will be fine :)

 

[Gonnerr]

I'm cleaning my room listening to my playlist fixing it up a bit. after that I'll try to take a shower and play a game with my family.

I never discouraged somebody to do it since i join this forum but like nozomu said it might not be the right time. If you are with family , they might hear you when you throw up or something.

I would advise for you to wait until you are alone.

When i do SN , i will go deep in the woods and do it in my tent. Even though i live alone in my apartment, i might reach out to neighbors if SI kick in.

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Almost all failed attempt where because they were not alone.

 

[new2blue]

You've been on my mind, we are here with and for you no matter what you may decide to do.

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So sweet of you to do this. Perhaps this should become a standard for all of us when someone attempts to leave. This community is the only thing some people here have. Bless you.

 

[hi-okbye]

i think this will be my last post today.

every single one of you are so sweet, i started to cry reading your messages. i can't put into words how much you all mean to me. im shaking while typing this because i can't believe how much care and love you all have in your hearts.

even to the people who are worried about it failing, i want to try and reassure you. this is the best chance i have so far and i want to take it. when I tell you right now is the best time situationally I will get to successfully ctbing, i mean it.

i don't think I ever told the story of my signature here. it's a poem i made, 3am in the hospital when i couldn't sleep. it's about me and my partner, and my hopes for when i ctb.
just thought i should say it before i go.

this afternoon was nice. i played games with my family, i ended up having some soup and a slice of light cake.
im going to take a shower now to freshen up, spend some more time with my family, take some more songs off my playlist until it's only my true top favorites. then ill say goodnight to everyone for the last time.



i will carry you all in my heart during my journey out.

much love.
as always.

goodbye

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Much peace to you @hi-okbye, you are determined by everything you've said above despite concerns but I understand, this is the best time from a situational standpoint. You'll be missed a lot, I wish you all the best.

 

[absolutelyyou]

I wondered about your signature. It made me cry when I read it the first time I saw it when I saw you talk of your partner and I wondered if you wrote it. You are a beautiful creative soul and I wish for you to have peace. You will be carried in my heart and if you dont ever post again- goodbye and thank you for being the person you are, Lra.

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

i think this will be my last post today.

every single one of you are so sweet, i started to cry reading your messages. i can't put into words how much you all mean to me. im shaking while typing this because i can't believe how much care and love you all have in your hearts.

even to the people who are worried about it failing, i want to try and reassure you. this is the best chance i have so far and i want to take it. when I tell you right now is the best time situationally I will get to successfully ctbing, i mean it.

i don't think I ever told the story of my signature here. it's a poem i made, 3am in the hospital when i couldn't sleep. it's about me and my partner, and my hopes for when i ctb.
just thought i should say it before i go.

this afternoon was nice. i played games with my family, i ended up having some soup and a slice of light cake.
im going to take a shower now to freshen up, spend some more time with my family, take some more songs off my playlist until it's only my true top favorites. then ill say goodnight to everyone for the last time.



i will carry you all in my heart during my journey out.

much love.
as always.

goodbye

You won't be forgotten, my heart aches reading this. I hope to learn from your kindness and try to spread that same energy to the people around me. If you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate to reach out I hope the rest of your night is enjoyable

 

[-w-]

i think this will be my last post today.

every single one of you are so sweet, i started to cry reading your messages. i can't put into words how much you all mean to me. im shaking while typing this because i can't believe how much care and love you all have in your hearts.

even to the people who are worried about it failing, i want to try and reassure you. this is the best chance i have so far and i want to take it. when I tell you right now is the best time situationally I will get to successfully ctbing, i mean it.

i don't think I ever told the story of my signature here. it's a poem i made, 3am in the hospital when i couldn't sleep. it's about me and my partner, and my hopes for when i ctb.
just thought i should say it before i go.

this afternoon was nice. i played games with my family, i ended up having some soup and a slice of light cake.
im going to take a shower now to freshen up, spend some more time with my family, take some more songs off my playlist until it's only my true top favorites. then ill say goodnight to everyone for the last time.



i will carry you all in my heart during my journey out.

much love.
as always.

goodbye

Hope you have a good and peaceful ctb make sure to tell your family and friends you love them. Have a good one and thanks for being here. <3

 

[breezeboy]

I wish we could know if it succeeded or not.. Farewell <3

 

[Cyndaquil]

I'm so sorry that you have come to this situation.
Even though I didn't know you, you seem to be a very beautiful person, I wish you all the best :)

 

[Gonnerr]

No problem, good luck , hope you are succesful.

 

[Old Friend]

Safe travels. May flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.

 

[Return2themoonlight]

Im new to the site and I dont know your story but I truly hope you find the peace you wish for whether that be here or in another reality past death

 

[Kta1994]

Goodbye!
I hope things are better than here
Ill be going soon too

 

[tsykoais]

ugh ig can still read this goodbye, best of luck with your plans.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find the peace you couldn't find here.

 

[Pᴜrple]

I don't know you but goodluck and I hope everything goes smoothly. May you rest in peace.

 

[Alatus_Nemeseos]

i think this will be my last post today.

every single one of you are so sweet, i started to cry reading your messages. i can't put into words how much you all mean to me. im shaking while typing this because i can't believe how much care and love you all have in your hearts.

even to the people who are worried about it failing, i want to try and reassure you. this is the best chance i have so far and i want to take it. when I tell you right now is the best time situationally I will get to successfully ctbing, i mean it.

i don't think I ever told the story of my signature here. it's a poem i made, 3am in the hospital when i couldn't sleep. it's about me and my partner, and my hopes for when i ctb.
just thought i should say it before i go.

this afternoon was nice. i played games with my family, i ended up having some soup and a slice of light cake.
im going to take a shower now to freshen up, spend some more time with my family, take some more songs off my playlist until it's only my true top favorites. then ill say goodnight to everyone for the last time.



i will carry you all in my heart during my journey out.

much love.
as always.

goodbye

i sent you a dm on the offchance you come back before you go, you'll be in my thoughts as i sleep tonight <3

 

[Redacted24]

I'm gutted that I didn't post earlier today when I saw this. I... just couldn't process it at the time, words left me. I'm sorry.
You might never see this, but it's been great virtually knowing you. The community is a little poorer with your absence. Wishing you the smoothest of passages to your desired destination.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

You will be missed..

A little candle burns for you, I hope it guides your soul to love and peace.

 

[rozeske]

If you are still with us I wish your journey to be as smooth as it can get. You will always be in our hearts. I will be thinking of you in your last minutes sending all the love and positive vibes your way, save me a sit on that bus ok

 

[Abyssal]

Dunno if you'll be here when I awake tomorrow, but if there's anything I can do for you at all be sure to tell me. A part of me doesn't want to see you leave, but I also understand how you feel and would rather you do what you believe is right for you.

In this hellish world we must have each others backs, I'll have yours until you step onto that bus.