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callen
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- Dec 30, 2023
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i never spoke to you but i would see your posts and replies all the time when i browsed the site. you helped so many people here. i wish you the best, and hope you find peace <3
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dont worry it's not at all. as time inches closer I've been wondering if I'll chicken out of it, but I feel myself getting calmer too somehow. this feeling of peace, not much but enough to notice.Shit, this one's hard. Love you friend, the forums a better place with you around. I'll carry you on in my memory.
If you can't do it, we are here for you. Catching the bus isn't easy, and we understand that well, so be kind to yourself.
Sorry if this is too pro life, it's usually why I don't message goodbye threads, but I can't help but want to see you off in this way.
no matter what I probably won't be able to get either, so it's somewhat pointless to wait. I think I have a little Xanax, I'll see if I can find it.I am sorry to hear about your circumstances, they are difficult things to deal with. but the benzos in the SN regimen are not for anxiety. It is because it is painful.
edit, i just noticed you have no AE too. I strongly advise against the attempt at this time -- it is either not going to be successful and you will have long term health issues, or it will be remarkably uncomfortable and painful way to go. as a harm reductionist, I tell everyone it's never too late to catch the bus, and it's better to not have a botched attempt that makes life worse.
thank you your words are almost overwhelming <333I will be holding space for you in my heart, Lra. I am so sad to see you go, you seem like such an incredible person and the world will be a little less bright without you in it but your peace and rest is more important. No matter what I wish for you to find and know peace, friend.
thank you friend I've really enjoyed the conversations we've had. I will be thinking of you <3333I'm definitely going to miss you dearly! Although we didn't talk for long I've enjoyed your company in the little time we have talked. You've made the last bit of time so much better and I'm forever grateful for getting to know you.
I hope everything goes great and hopefully we'll meet again in another life![]()
it's so sweet to know people see me like that, thank you <33Your avatar coming up in a thread was always a sign of joyful kindness.
I wish you peaceful last moments.
Farewell.
that's so sweet thank you <33Whats your favorite color?I have so many candles and I'd like to keep one lit for you so that I can be reminded to send you peaceful energy and help light up the way out of this dark world if you do end up going through with your plans.
Yeah, rather unfortunate you can't get them but you know yourself best and how ready you are. Use whatever benzos you can, yes people have ctb without them but I see them as really beneficial than not. Overall, you seem set on your decision and I wish you all the best with this.no matter what I probably won't be able to get either, so it's somewhat pointless to wait. I think I have a little Xanax, I'll see if I can find it.
trust me when I say, I know myself, I know my body. I've had OD's before, all of which I was able to keep down for the most part. even when I threw up once I was able to swallow it back down.
I appreciate your concern though.
per some requests and also because why not:
final drawing I did today:
View attachment 125810
don't know if I regret the black outline or not. it'll be taped into my sketchbook.
playlist of favorite songs (still in progress of shortening it and will be until I'm gone):
it's only a sample of 100 songs because it's all Spotify will allow, if you click on the title it'll show the whole thing though
per some requests and also because why not:
final drawing I did today:
View attachment 125810
don't know if I regret the black outline or not. it'll be taped into my sketchbook.
playlist of favorite songs (still in progress of shortening it and will be until I'm gone):
it's only a sample of 100 songs because it's all Spotify will allow, if you click on the title it'll show the whole thing though
per some requests and also because why not:
final drawing I did today:
View attachment 125810
don't know if I regret the black outline or not. it'll be taped into my sketchbook.
playlist of favorite songs (still in progress of shortening it and will be until I'm gone):
it's only a sample of 100 songs because it's all Spotify will allow, if you click on the title it'll show the whole thing though
that's so cool we have a lot of favorite songs! may I ask which one is your favorite?this little update really hit home for me. we have a lot of songs we both like. looking through made me smile. i'm not sure how much you drew, but we have that in common too. your blending is great in this, and i gotta say colored pencil on chipboard is always the way to go. i hope everything goes well, in every way that means for you. you seem like a great person, and i absolutely relate to your reasons behind CTB. maybe it sounds selfish, but im glad i got to see this before we're both gone
Not hard at all, available on the web without a script from any place that sells "research chemicals". Bromazolam is a good one.Well considering how hard it is to get script for Benzos, I'm sure that's why.
per some requests and also because why not:
final drawing I did today:
View attachment 125810
don't know if I regret the black outline or not. it'll be taped into my sketchbook.
playlist of favorite songs (still in progress of shortening it and will be until I'm gone):
it's only a sample of 100 songs because it's all Spotify will allow, if you click on the title it'll show the whole thing though
Is it the same as alprazolam?Not hard at all, available on the web without a script from any place that sells "research chemicals". Bromazolam is a good one.
No, Benzos are different in how efficient they are. Alprazolam has a faster onset and is strong benzo like Lorazepam and ClonazepamIs it the same as alprazolam?
I really wish benzos were easier to obtain.No, Benzos are different in how efficient they are. Alprazolam has a faster onset and is strong benzo like Lorazepam and Clonazepam
your words are so sweet thank you <33I'm pretty new to the site lurked only a little, just want to say you seem really nice and I'll be thinking of you. I'm sorry to hear you lost your partner and that you feel like you failed as an adult. But Given the replies said here though I'd like to highlight that you clearly left an impression on the people here and I think that counts as something. You're not a failure Hi-okbye but I empathize why you feel that way
Yes, they are chemically very similar and have near identical onset and duration times.Is it the same as alprazolam?
that's intresting thank you, I'll keep that in my mind. it's just this is the best shot I've got so far so I guess it's the one I'll take. wouldn't you be less likely to vomit SN when your unconscious compared to other medications because you've already absorbed it? obviously not all of it but still. I know there's a chance but I'm honestly willing to risk it.I mean, you obviously can do whatever but you can't control what happens when you lose consciousness. Just be aware there is a high chance of failure and with that may come consequences. I thought my OD was going to be successful since what I took was lethal, and I vomited a TON when I was unconscious.
Well, that would be the case if you've absorbed enough but there have been people who've vomited a lot and not ctb but still went unconscious only to wake up hours later, it comes down to how much you manage to keep down for the first few mins after ingestion the 1st time. It's been a point of contention and opinion on this forum for a while, whether vomiting will primarily lead to failure but I think it's more so not following the protocol but having the right meds can play a part in that. @GoodPersonEffed made a good thread about vomiting in relation to failure from SN.wouldn't you be less likely to vomit SN when your unconscious compared to other medications because you've already absorbed it?