Goodbye thread

[Deleted member 17949]

Hard to watch, but seems he got exactly what he was hoping for. F

 

[Silenos]

Our friend is at peace now.

 

[degeneratewaste]

23:55 mixing SN (25g/50ml weight: 90kg; 2 glasses) Position is a comfy chair
23:57 drank first glass in a second; taste was salty but remained calm
23:58 lit up a cigarette
23:59 feels it in throat, still able to walk (went to the sink to sink and came back)
00:00 threw up, seems a bit in distress, threw up multiple times
Prince offers to sing, he's able to respond, Prince sings a nice lullaby
00:01 seems to be in distress, constant vomiting
00:02 says "sick", went to grab a cloth, returned abruptly with cloth, vomiting again
00:03 "my hands are tingling"
00:04 almost vomited but was able to hold it back, "my heart is beating fast"
Can communicate but obviously seems sick
00:05 "it's tingling now" "uncomfortable but doesn't hurt"
00:06 "I'm very restless"
00:07 starts shaking a bit, not able to communicate but can move his hands and head
00:08 convulsing (a bit violently for a few seconds), saliva/vomit shot out of his mouth, headphone fell off but was able to put it back to his ears - his last confirmed voluntary movement
00:09 light shaking, tries to move head
00:10 makes strange sounds but not able to speak
00:11 a few heavy convulsions but still in position, headphone on, saliva shot out again
00:11 makes sounds again, seems like he tries to speak but can't
00:12 not much movement, occasionally straightens up then falls back to chair
00:13 sounds continue
00:14 possibly unconscious (it could have happened sooner than this time)
00:15 visibly more blue now and pale
00:16 snorts continuously, might be the so called "death rattle"
00:17-20 situation is the same as above
00:19 one straightening up, and one louder sound, like a grasp for air
00:21 sounds are becoming less frequent, there are some random involuntary movements but not much (mostly mouth opening)
00:22 almost ceased movements
00:24 little sound and movement
00:25 getting near; still in the chair, mouth and eyes are open, he's obviously not there
00:26 no more sounds, sometimes moves a little bit
00:28 no more movements

conclusion: hard to watch someone die but seems relatively peaceful, just as expected; threw up a lot at the beginning, at the time of the convulsions he did not seem to realize what was happening, he did not drink the second glass

i commend you for this report @MiseryLovesMyCompany . i know that i could not have put together such a coherent report after watching that.

RIP, xander. you deserved the peaceful exit. goodnight and god bless. x

 

[Mellowmood]

RIP

 

[death137]

Its sad to see someone posting here some minutes ago is now dead for real. But he/she is at peace now.

 

[Quax]

Is it just me? ...but that read does not sound peaceful to me.... i wish him a good ride on the rainbow... RIP...

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

Is it just me? ...but that read does not sound peaceful to me.... i wish him a good ride on the rainbow... RIP...

It is not peaceful to watch, but it is from his point of view for sure. He said it was uncomfortable but not painful, it's true that we can't completely know what he was thinking after he was not able to speak but he seemed really out of it.

 

[Alec]

Rest now, we'll meet again, I'm sure, I know it, I just know it. Nothing but love, forever love for you. I love you.

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

i commend you for this report @MiseryLovesMyCompany . i know that i could not have put together such a coherent report after watching that.

RIP, xander. you deserved the peaceful exit. goodnight and god bless. x

Thank you, I was occupied with typing throughout the whole thing, and tried to focus on that to have a detailed report to post here. It was definitely hard to watch it in fullscreen without looking away. I had to take Xanax after this.
Rest in peace Xander

 

[depressedsally]

How

Thank you, I was occupied with typing throughout the whole thing, and tried to focus on that to have a detailed report to post here. It was definitely hard to watch it in fullscreen without looking away. I had to take Xanax after this.
Rest in peace Xander

did he live stream it am l
thinking about this myself

 

[Quax]

@MiseryLovesMyCompany , thank you so much for your reporting

 

[yetme]

that didn't seem peaceful at all. Especially the convulsing and trying to say something bit

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

@MiseryLovesMyCompany , thank you so much for your reporting

You're welcome, I hope it will help a lot of people to understand this method better.

that didn't seem peaceful at all. Especially the convulsing and trying to say something bit

Convulsing is completely normal, and the trying to say something part can't be confirmed as a voluntary movement. He might have been almost completely out of it.
This is poisoning, so it's obvious that you'll be sick.

 

[BLUE1970]

I'm pleased Xander is at peace and very grateful for the report. Xander seems to have had a fairy swift and painless exit.

 

[Weary Soul]

Love to all of you, and especially Xander.

 

[braketimez]

Xander,

I didn't talk with you much but I'm grateful for the time we connected.

Sending tons of peace your way, amigo.

 

[Silver]

Thank you, I was occupied with typing throughout the whole thing, and tried to focus on that to have a detailed report to post here. It was definitely hard to watch it in fullscreen without looking away. I had to take Xanax after this.
Rest in peace Xander

Thanks for writing it up.

I hope he rests in peace.

 

[Meditation guide]

Thank you for posting that. Did he take the full regimen, the meto, the antacids? Any painkillers?

 

[degeneratewaste]

Thank you for posting that. Did he take the full regimen, the meto, the antacids? Any painkillers?

he did the 48 hour regimen, with meto, he took ibuprofen an hour before (unsure whether one or two, how many mg etc) and told us he took an (unspecified) antacid around 30 minutes before, if I remember correctly.

 

[Lilacmoon]

ibuprofen was one hour before.

 

[greyhound]

RIP

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Farewell, friend. May you rest in peace.

 

[Meditation guide]

Here is one thing I got from reading this which is important:
He vomited a lot but still was successful. It was six minutes before he first vomited. He did not report any pain.

This was sad, and unpleasant but was finished in about half an hour. I consider this a valuable contribution.

Doing projectile vomiting may have saved him from choking on it. I would probably lie on my side after taking SN.

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

How long would you say it took him to fall asleep and the die..? :/

 

[Meditation guide]

ibuprofen was one hour before.

So he did not take any propranolol. Thank you everyone for reporting on this. It's good to know as much as possible when this happens.

 

[AJ95]

that didn't seem peaceful at all. Especially the convulsing and trying to say something bit

Is it just me? ...but that read does not sound peaceful to me.... i wish him a good ride on the rainbow... RIP...

He was either delirious or unconscious by this point, either way he didn't know what was going on anymore.

I think from his point of view he was out to it in 10 minutes

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Hope you find peace

 

[sadworld]

I'm glad you found peace. I already miss our among us games. Farewell

 

[FatalSystemError591]

At least in their last moments, they were surrounded by friends. Hope you find peace on the other side.

 

[opiatedreamz]

rip. i hope you found peace.