22:45 SN ingested
22:49 started a last smoke
22:50 starting to feel nauseaus
22:50 dizziness is setting in
22:51 puked a little into a plastic bag
22:52 fell over, no longer responsive to sound
22:53 tried to say something, body is convulsing
22:54 unconcious, shallow breathing
22:55 more convulsing, breathing is getting harder
Damn, I am still in shock.
It was all, more or less, done in 10 minutes... 25 to stop breathing.
This has changed everything I thought I knew about SN, which is not my method, but still the most popular on this site.
We all thought it was going to last longer, even he thought so, he insisted on having a German observer because he didn't trust his English (and his English was superb).
And at the end, he didn't even get to say a single word... passed out after 5 minutes, wanted to say something, but didn't get a chance.
He never liked me, he called me a pro-lifer, we had opposing opinions on almost everything and especially life after death... but I always secretly admired him.
I would always look if he was online, his presence made a difference for me.
Only now did I read his "about me" section on his profile... wow!?
I've never felt like this in my life... even when I lost family members... I feel an emptiness, I find it difficult to grasp that this is forever.
I really wish he was correct in that opinion about death and the nothingness afterwards... my beliefs are on the other side of the spectrum.
But now he knows the truth, and none of us do.
It's really unbelievable how someone can make such a huge difference in only 3+ months (July, August, September).
He was the first thing I thought about when I woke up this morning.
I hope he's in a better place now.