Story Goodbye SS - I love you all (SN)

[x-Ace-x]

Dear SS,

I just got off the bus and walking towards a forest, where I'll hopefully ctb.

I'd like to say a huge thanks to all the amazing people I've met here, this is the only place where I was able to be myself and not hide everything like in real life.

Things like cutting and similar self harm methods helped a bit, but it's just a short illusion, it doesn't fix anything. I'm 100% ready and have no regrets. I'm tired of life, everything it has to offer, but I really hope you won't have to turn my way to reach the peace you seek.

I wish you to recover and enjoy little things in life if you can. Regardless of the decision you make, I hope you all can find peace

My timezone is EEST and it's 15:07 now. I'll be following the Stan's guide.

03:00 - Fasting
12:30 - No drinking
15:00 - Take 600mg of Ibuprofen
15:15 Take 30mg of Metoclopramide
15:30 - Chew 4 tablets of Maalox
16:00 - Drink 20g SN in 50ml water (1 of 3)

Before SN - numb taste buds with toothpaste.
After SN - rinse mouth with water.
In case of vomiting - drink another mixture.

Because of certain cirmustances, I didn't drink longer than 2h before SN and fasted longer than 8h. I usually eat once / twice a day, so it should be fine.

Will try to document everything till the time of unconsciousness.

If I won't come back tomorrow, could you please ban me, @Hasssssuùuu?

Love you SS

 

[Meowkin]

Good luck. I hope you find what you're looking for. I'm sorry it wasn't to be found during your lifetime.

 

[Busdriver]

I will miss you!
I hope you have a peaceful transition!

You deserve peace.
You will not experience 14 July onwards.. I am a bit jealous.

Nice regimen :)

 

[charlottewilts]

I hope it works out for you

 

[Saed]

OMG I will miss you so much...I wish life had lead you along a different path.
I have to respect what you desire for yourself,I hope the outcome is all you ever wanted.
That doesn't mean death is a fait accompli.
It could be fate sways you in another direction you ultimately prefer.
Whatever happens,thank you for being such a dear friend.

 

[aminend]

I miss u buddy. I hope u find ur peace easy and fast. Keep us updated please

 

[Misery99]

Even though I haven't talked to you, I had noticed your username in this forum. I hope that you will find what you are looking for. Good luck with your journey.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It seems you've made up your mind here. It's been great having you around - thanks for being with us. I hope you have a peaceful journey, bro. See you on the other side.

 

[SSlostallhope]

Gosh :( I wish you peace

 

[x-Ace-x]

You're all so sweet

I have no words to describe how lovely you all are. I'm going to take Maalox now. The forest is like 100m near me and it's just grasshoppers music haha.

But there's like 20 minutes of way left cause it's all just grass now.

Will definitely update you guys :)

 

[Saed]

Oh,my lovely friend...
Look out for the L tree people. I heard they look like the thing from The Descent.

 

[Soul]

I'm glad you're in a peaceful natural place - inside and outside, it sounds like. I wish you all the right outcomes for you. x

 

[Saed]

@x-Ace-x I keep typing,erasing,typing,erasing...
Don't think for a moment I'm not right here

 

[x-Ace-x]

The dog is following me, hope he'll leave me alone :/

 

[Saed]

I don't expect he will,sweetheart
Looks like the dog has other plans.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Wishing you all the best x-Ace-x. Thinking of you ❤

 

[Saed]

Honey,remember,if you do take the SN and puke,the dog could eat it and die.

 

[x-Ace-x]

Why he's following me :(


Alright, I'm alone :) Walking in the forest.

 

[Elbarado]

is it yours?

maybe its a sign to reconsider everything?!

 

[omoidarui]

It's okay to change your mind at any time and talk to someone about what's making you feel this is the only option. Otherwise, I wish you well~

 

[Philosykos]

^ Maybe that's a sign? Golden Retrievers are very emotionally intelligent in my experience. If you want to back out, even if just for a moment, you can. We'll be here.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

We're here for you if you decide to reconsider. Changing your mind is an option ❤

 

[x-Ace-x]

Wish there were more leaves but that's fine, will take about 5 more minutes.

 

[Uselessatbest]

I hope you find peace and happiness.

 

[Saed]

Oh sweetheart,that is such a beautiful place.

 

[x-Ace-x]

I'm at my spot, gonna mix water and SN.

 

[Philosykos]

I'm at my spot, gonna mix water and SN.

Oh my dear, I wish you a peaceful passing.

 

[Saed]

Oh,my heart. Love you dearly,Ace.

 

[lunargreenx]

May you find the light that was stolen from you. Rest in peace.