Goodbye - My watch has ended.

[10000DaysTooMany]

If this is it then I wish you the best of luck. I'm sorry about everything that's happened to bring you to this point. You deserved so much better. I hope you find peace.

 

[Das Nichts]

I hope you succeed in your plans and that you will find your peace.

 

[realname]

this is a shitty place to be.
i feel a strange/sad comaradery and idk what the last night looks like for you but I wonder what I would do on last night on earth.

Best wishes,
catching the spaceship..
Grieving with you for your pain.
Hearing and seeing your story

You are felt & are not alone in spirit (even if the ppl around you are pieces of shit & you feel alone)

 

[storeboughtisfine]

Peace be with you friend. I hope the suffering ends quickly, I've watched you succumb far too long since I've been here.

Goodbye. ♡

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Wishing you a peaceful & successful journey to whatever comes next!

 

[Yozo_oba]

I wish you luck with the SN method! And i hope that you find the peace you desire!

Goodbye, kind stranger <33

 

[Lilythefenfen]

When I found the forum, I originally found your posts. It was one of the reasons I decided to join the forums. God speed and may you rest peacefully in eternal rest. May pain never find you again and your sleep be undisturbed.

 

[StolenLife]

Goodbye. I wish you a painless and peaceful exit.

 

[honkpilleddoomer]

Rest in peace.

 

[iLikeFrogs]

Safe trip, I hope you'll find peace

 

[depressedlover]

yes thanks your feedback will be very helpful, are you planning to go tonight or tomorrow?

Planning to go midnight.I already took my first Meto.

this is a shitty place to be.
i feel a strange/sad comaradery and idk what the last night looks like for you but I wonder what I would do on last night on earth.

Best wishes,
catching the spaceship..
Grieving with you for your pain.
Hearing and seeing your story

You are felt & are not alone in spirit (even if the ppl around you are pieces of shit & you feel alone)

unfortunately my last night was messed up,i was almost rapped by someone i trusted and knew my grief.What a way to spend a last night in this life.

When I found the forum, I originally found your posts. It was one of the reasons I decided to join the forums. God speed and may you rest peacefully in eternal rest. May pain never find you again and your sleep be undisturbed.

I'm glad to know,this forum is more than friends i had before i met people i don't know but they were there for me,they gave me advice,listen to me,however repetitive i was,no one judged.I wish i found it much earlier.Those who think sasu is a bad place,they are just blinded.Here i got people with the same problem,they gave me options but. didn't force anything to me.If there was a way i could have brought my love back I would have listened to those who advised me to try one more time,but i really can't.I hope you'll find whatever you're seeking here.If its recovery then we have the recovery section,if it's venting you can vent all you want,if it's resources then there's a corner for it.You might also find beautiful souls for friends.All the best Lily

 

[deathimcomin]

I'm new to this forum after finding out about it this week. I want to say that even though I don't know you, you definitely did not deserve what life had thrown your way. May you find peace and light. I hope you have a wonderful trip and I know you'll settle in nicely xx

 

[leloyon]

I hope you find peace, godspeed.

 

[depressedlover]

I'm new to this forum after finding out about it this week. I want to say that even though I don't know you, you definitely did not deserve what life had thrown your way. May you find peace and light. I hope you have a wonderful trip and I know you'll settle in nicely xx

Thanks,i hope this forum helps you in whatever way you need it to.

 

[Linda]

I hope all goes well for you, and that you find peace at the end of your journey.

 

[Shivali]

 

[SVEN]

Go well, weary traveller, with every good wish for a peacefull transition and joyful reunion with your love.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Bon voyage - I wish you the best

 

[Artictart]

Hey Members ,Below is my sn plan now:

29F/110lb
9TH MAY 2023

Day 1	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
24:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
Day 2	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
23:00hrs	4 X 200mg Ibuprofen 2 X 5mg Diazepam
23:15hrs	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)
23:40hrs	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00hrs	25g SN drink

My stat plan :

1 hour before drinking SN	2 X 5mg Diazepam
45 minutes before drinking SN	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total). 4 X 200mg ibuprofen
20 Mins before	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00	25g SN drink

After 20 mins i will drink my first SN mixture 25g into 50ml and set aside 25g into 50ml for back up incase i vomit.

Note:
I already tried my benzos to see my reaction to diazepam,on different dosage if you saw my previous post .Because i really want to make sure i'm awake enough to take a second glass if i vomit.

Fasting 18-24 hrs before SN, not planning to drink water for the last 4hours. The SN is Laboratory the 500g one,locally sourced.Planning to prepare 2 X 25g out of the 500g SN in 50ml water. The back up i will put in a closed labeled plastic water bottle ,then go to bed with a bucket on my side just in case they're needed.

I will force myself to drink it If I vomit.

I will tightly wrap,seal and hide the remaining 450g container for a future back up just in case i wake up alive like Undertaker (WWF)…Ffs i really don't want to fail this time.

I would like to thank you all for listening to me since i joined this forum.If you've been following closely you know what my plans were since the beginning.
But i hadn't plan to go this soon,after my previous post,i went to bed but even before i could sleep my uncle came to my room thinking i was asleep and tried sexual assaulting me thinking i would be sleeping (normally i use sleeping pills but today i didn't,i don't know why but let's say my love and angel might have known his plans).I dodged rape.I feel really bad that someone who knows what i'm going through has done this to me.This is the 3rd family member to attempt this to me.I seriously don't belong in this cruel world. I'm going to join my beloved fiancé.All plans will have to be cancelled.My fiancé will understand that i can't deliver my flowers because i know him how much understanding he is.
To those who tried to help out i'm also grateful even though i'm not going to give it another shot,it doesn't mean your intentions were wrong or invalid.
I would like to thank one beautiful soul @hurtingmom for listening to me and sincerely answering my questions.I wish it was possible to deliver a letter to your beloved daughter.I hope my family will forgive me,understand and let me go.
I hope after all these months of pain,sadness and loneliness i will finally join my love wherever he is and in whatever awaits me.
In love I believe,In love i have loved,In love I have cried,In love i have hope,In love I seek my love.
I know my love awaits me on the other side so I sign off with love and wish you all the best in whatever you beautiful souls are seeking.
If i don't sign in within 72hrs after taking SN which i will update,kindly do the necessary Mod.

Yours truly,
Depressed Lover
Transitioning Lover

I'm so sorry that life has been terrible to you. I wish you the best and forever peace <3

 

[Mortadelo]

Farewell , good luck

 

[depressedlover]

Taken my Second meto now at 16:00HRs

 

[soolka]

we only interacted once but i could tell how kind of a person u are. i wish you find peace <3

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

I am sorry and sad that life brought you so much pain. Nobody deserves that.
I will for sure think of you the entire day.
I just wish life would have being different.
I wish you to find peace in any ways, independently of your decision.
Warm hug

 

[depressedlover]

I wonder why i'm having diarrhea, nausea and vomited once,is it something normal? or usual with metoclopramide? i have never used it before,should i worry? i hope it won't cause SN vomiting.

 

[deathimcomin]

I wonder why i'm having diarrhea, nausea and vomited once,is it something normal? or usual with metoclopramide? i have never used it before,should i worry? i hope it won't cause SN vomiting.

Could it possibly be nerves ?

 

[depressedlover]

Could it possibly be nerves ?

I just found out it's side effects of meto.

 

[Little_Suzy]

I wonder why i'm having diarrhea, nausea and vomited once,is it something normal? or usual with metoclopramide? i have never used it before,should i worry? i hope it won't cause SN vomiting.

Hi! Are you still with us? How are you feeling? If you are feeling too sick, do not take the SN. It's best to wait for another time when you are sure it will work.

Those are some very awful symptoms. Please go to the hospital if these symptoms continue. You don't have to mention the ctb at the ER. Since I have never heard of what you're experiencing on this forum, I simply want you to be safe. Did you obtain your other medications from a qualified doctor?

 

[SunflowerBrains]

Hey Members ,Below is my sn plan now:

29F/110lb
9TH MAY 2023

Day 1	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
24:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
Day 2	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
23:00hrs	4 X 200mg Ibuprofen 2 X 5mg Diazepam
23:15hrs	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)
23:40hrs	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00hrs	25g SN drink

My stat plan :

1 hour before drinking SN	2 X 5mg Diazepam
45 minutes before drinking SN	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total). 4 X 200mg ibuprofen
20 Mins before	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00	25g SN drink

After 20 mins i will drink my first SN mixture 25g into 50ml and set aside 25g into 50ml for back up incase i vomit.

Note:
I already tried my benzos to see my reaction to diazepam,on different dosage if you saw my previous post .Because i really want to make sure i'm awake enough to take a second glass if i vomit.

Fasting 18-24 hrs before SN, not planning to drink water for the last 4hours. The SN is Laboratory the 500g one,locally sourced.Planning to prepare 2 X 25g out of the 500g SN in 50ml water. The back up i will put in a closed labeled plastic water bottle ,then go to bed with a bucket on my side just in case they're needed.

I will force myself to drink it If I vomit.

I will tightly wrap,seal and hide the remaining 450g container for a future back up just in case i wake up alive like Undertaker (WWF)…Ffs i really don't want to fail this time.

I would like to thank you all for listening to me since i joined this forum.If you've been following closely you know what my plans were since the beginning.
But i hadn't plan to go this soon,after my previous post,i went to bed but even before i could sleep my uncle came to my room thinking i was asleep and tried sexual assaulting me thinking i would be sleeping (normally i use sleeping pills but today i didn't,i don't know why but let's say my love and angel might have known his plans).I dodged rape.I feel really bad that someone who knows what i'm going through has done this to me.This is the 3rd family member to attempt this to me.I seriously don't belong in this cruel world. I'm going to join my beloved fiancé.All plans will have to be cancelled.My fiancé will understand that i can't deliver my flowers because i know him how much understanding he is.
To those who tried to help out i'm also grateful even though i'm not going to give it another shot,it doesn't mean your intentions were wrong or invalid.
I would like to thank one beautiful soul @hurtingmom for listening to me and sincerely answering my questions.I wish it was possible to deliver a letter to your beloved daughter.I hope my family will forgive me,understand and let me go.
I hope after all these months of pain,sadness and loneliness i will finally join my love wherever he is and in whatever awaits me.
In love I believe,In love i have loved,In love I have cried,In love i have hope,In love I seek my love.
I know my love awaits me on the other side so I sign off with love and wish you all the best in whatever you beautiful souls are seeking.
If i don't sign in within 72hrs after taking SN which i will update,kindly do the necessary Mod.

Yours truly,
Depressed Lover
Transitioning Lover

Good luck

 

[depressedlover]

Hi! Are you still with us? How are you feeling? If you are feeling too sick, do not take the SN. It's best to wait for another time when you are sure it will work.

Those are some very awful symptoms. Please go to the hospital if these symptoms continue. You don't have to mention the ctb at the ER. Since I have never heard of what you're experiencing on this forum, I simply want you to be safe. Did you obtain your other medications from a qualified doctor?

I'm following stans regime,i'm on meto,the second dose,i bought it from a reputable pharmacy.Not yet taken SN just doing the AEs.I have checked it's among the side effects but what worries me is if it might cause vomiting after using SN.I don't know if someone has experienced this while using meto.

 

[anywhere_else]

There's a cruelty in this world that never stops breaking my heart. I don't believe in much anymore but I do still believe that karma will find those who deserve it, and that peace will welcome you with open arms.