Goodbye everyone! ♡ [ less than 48 hours ] ᯓ★

[bambibambam]

i'm so overwhelmed , so many thoughts running through my mind as i type this. i don't know how to describe this feeling , nothing else matters anymore.. nothings gonna hurt me anymore .. i'm gonna be gone by thursday night now that i finally have my exit from this world. i feel so free. in less than 48 hours i take my SN!! wow.

i really wanna say thank you to everyone i've met over on here. you guys are some of the best people i've had the pleasure of ever meeting. without you guys, i probably would've resorted to something more extreme like jumping in front of a train which was my original plan. thank you for giving me a space where i could vent out my feelings without getting any weird looks and being thrown in a psychiatric ward. thank you for not judging me and saying he's "just a boy, you can move on" when i talked about my heartbreak, you guys actually understood where i was coming from and didn't dismiss my feelings. you guys sat with me for hours, listened to me vent and comforted me when no one else did and for that i am forever grateful. this forum has gotten so much undeserved hate when really we're all just vulnerable people who are looking for peace. i love you all from the bottom of my heart ♡

i'm posting this thread in advance since i will be wiping my search history. my good friend, evan who has been an absolute sweetheart to me will be updating this thread for me as soon as i take my SN. i will be talking to you guys through him and also will be updating how i'm feeling on my twitter ( https://twitter.com/kazwau ) which i'll be making public later tonight. i'll be here to answer any questions in the meantime ~ <3 again. thank you and i love you all. i hope you can all find your peace.

 

[iloverachel]

Good luck, I hope every thing goes well and that you find peace
You will be missed and we are glad to have met you

 

[bambibambam]

Good luck, I hope every thing goes well and that you find peace
You will be missed and we are glad to have met you

thank you so much stranger ♡ your words mean a lot to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Goodbye, I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[evannave]

I'm very glad everything is falling into place <3

 

[rozeske]

Goodbye and good luck. I hope everything goes well for you and I hope you find the peace you search for. I'm glad this place has been a safe space and a comfort zone for you. You will be missed

 

[neverLoved]

I am sorry that life has brought you to this moment, although may I ask what brought you to this decision?

 

[bambibambam]

I'm very glad everything is falling into place <3

my sweet silly boy. thank you for staying by my side. i love uu <3

 

[Dark Window]

If you really cannot get better and you really do believe this is the only choice and best choice for you, then god speed.

I hope you find peace in death.

Are you sure no one you know IRL will recognise your twitter and report you?

 

[bambibambam]

I am sorry that life has brought you to this moment, although may I ask what brought you to this decision?

my life has been very sad from the get go. i suffered a lot from bullying which led to me being homeschooled and withdrew from society for a while. i endured a lot of sexual trauma from a family member who recently died and i was sad because i never got the closure i needed since he passed. most would be celebrating when their abuser is dead but i was left sad and confused.

my family also just has a history of mental health problems. my mom doesn't believe in mental illness (the irony since she's pretty depressed herself) so i've been untreated and it's only gotten worse. i've attempted in the past and she never took it seriously..so i hope she's not too surprised when she discovers me.

 

[Konnsz]

Goodbye

 

[bambibambam]

If you really cannot get better and you really do believe this is the only choice and best choice for you, then god speed.

I hope you find peace in death.

Are you sure no one you know IRL will recognise your twitter and report you?

pfftt i don't have friends IRL =^= my family members don't have any of my socials so everything is fine. thank you for your comforting words <33

 

[evannave]

my sweet silly boy. thank you for staying by my side. i love uu <3

i love u too <3

 

[Dark Window]

pfftt i don't have friends IRL =^= my family members don't have any of my socials so everything is fine. thank you for your comforting words <33

Loner here also.

 

[iloverachel]

my life has been very sad from the get go. i suffered a lot from bullying which led to me being homeschooled and withdrew from society for a while. i endured a lot of sexual trauma from a family member who recently died and i was sad because i never got the closure i needed since he passed. most would be celebrating when their abuser is dead but i was left sad and confused.

my family also just has a history of mental health problems. my mom doesn't believe in mental illness (the irony since she's pretty depressed herself) so i've been untreated and it's only gotten worse. i've attempted in the past and she never took it seriously..so i hope she's not too surprised when she discovers me.

Sounds very awful and tough what you have went through, I am sorry.

What will you be doing in your final hours? Will you be listening to your favorite music? Calling your loved ones by phone? Writing any suicide notes?

Best wishes once again

 

[bambibambam]

Sounds very awful and tough what you have went through, I am sorry.

What will you be doing in your final hours? Will you be listening to your favorite music? Calling your loved ones by phone? Writing any suicide notes?

Best wishes once again

ahhhh yes. i'm going to be going outside a lot since it's sunny and beautiful. i'm gonna take my sister with me on a walk as well, i'm gonna listen to my playlists , here is one of them:

i'm going to write a short note and give my plushies to my little sister. i have other siblings but they're just way too young to comprehend suicide, so i'll just write to them.

 

[iloverachel]

ahhhh yes. i'm going to be going outside a lot since it's sunny and beautiful. i'm gonna take my sister with me on a walk as well, i'm gonna listen to my playlists , here is one of them:

i'm going to write a short note and give my plushies to my little sister. i have other siblings but they're just way too young to comprehend suicide, so i'll just write to them.

Aww that is very sweet of you. I hope you enjoy your walk with your sister

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

i'm so overwhelmed , so many thoughts running through my mind as i type this. i don't know how to describe this feeling , nothing else matters anymore.. nothings gonna hurt me anymore .. i'm gonna be gone by thursday night now that i finally have my exit from this world. i feel so free. in less than 48 hours i take my SN!! wow.

i really wanna say thank you to everyone i've met over on here. you guys are some of the best people i've had the pleasure of ever meeting. without you guys, i probably would've resorted to something more extreme like jumping in front of a train which was my original plan. thank you for giving me a space where i could vent out my feelings without getting any weird looks and being thrown in a psychiatric ward. thank you for not judging me and saying he's "just a boy, you can move on" when i talked about my heartbreak, you guys actually understood where i was coming from and didn't dismiss my feelings. you guys sat with me for hours, listened to me vent and comforted me when no one else did and for that i am forever grateful. this forum has gotten so much undeserved hate when really we're all just vulnerable people who are looking for peace. i love you all from the bottom of my heart ♡

i'm posting this thread in advance since i will be wiping my search history. my good friend, evan who has been an absolute sweetheart to me will be updating this thread for me as soon as i take my SN. i will be talking to you guys through him and also will be updating how i'm feeling on my twitter ( https://twitter.com/kazwau ) which i'll be making public later tonight. i'll be here to answer any questions in the meantime ~ <3 again. thank you and i love you all. i hope you can all find your peace.

Sometimes people report a feeling of freedom and euphoria before they kill themselves, but then when it actually comes time, they can't go through with it bc SI, it's like a temporary pressure release or something I don't know. Hope you have the strength to get through it I hope everyone can learn from your generosity in letting people be informed as you go through your process. I pray for you and all of us.

 

[neverLoved]

my life has been very sad from the get go. i suffered a lot from bullying which led to me being homeschooled and withdrew from society for a while. i endured a lot of sexual trauma from a family member who recently died and i was sad because i never got the closure i needed since he passed. most would be celebrating when their abuser is dead but i was left sad and confused.

my family also just has a history of mental health problems. my mom doesn't believe in mental illness (the irony since she's pretty depressed herself) so i've been untreated and it's only gotten worse. i've attempted in the past and she never took it seriously..so i hope she's not too surprised when she discovers me.

No words, all I can say is that I am sorry that you went through that. No child should be experiencing that.

I hope you find the peace you are looking for, but remember that although you have made these posts that the decision is still in your own hands. Don't feel compelled to make the wrong decision because of that.

Wish you the best

 

[bambibambam]

Sometimes people report a feeling of freedom and euphoria before they kill themselves, but then when it actually comes time, they can't go through with it bc SI, it's like a temporary pressure release or something I don't know. Hope you have the strength to get through it I hope everyone can learn from your generosity in letting people be informed as you go through your process. I pray for you and all of us.

yeah, that's why i felt the need to let everything out today. i've been crying nonstop since waking up just so i can let my emotions flow because i know what's to come. but please know mentally i am ready. the only thing weighing on me now is the hurt i'm going to cause my little sister who's only 16.


i'm so happy… i've never felt so comforted before, by complete strangers too. you guys are gonna make me cry. these sweet, sweet messages feel like a big warm hug. i'm forever grateful for you all

 

[rozeske]

i'm so happy… i've never felt so comforted before, by complete strangers too. you guys are gonna make me cry. these sweet, sweet messages feel like a big warm hug. i'm forever grateful for you all

Well am sending you a very big virtual hug. I'm so sorry you suffered this much, your story made me cry, no one deserves this

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

yeah, that's why i felt the need to let everything out today. i've been crying nonstop since waking up just so i can let my emotions flow because i know what's to come. but please know mentally i am ready. the only thing weighing on me now is the hurt i'm going to cause my little sister who's only 16.


i'm so happy… i've never felt so comforted before, by complete strangers too. you guys are gonna make me cry. these sweet, sweet messages feel like a big warm hug. i'm forever grateful for you all

I'm going through the same thing you are in the sense that I'm killing myself, so I understand. We are the bravest people. What it takes to do this. You are not alone

 

[Sakura.]

pfftt i don't have friends IRL =^= my family members don't have any of my socials so everything is fine. thank you for your comforting words <33

However, I would still be worried that a completely unknown person might take interest in your posts, report them to the police, try to identify you based on your previous posts, etc.

I also want to say that I am very sorry for what you have experienced. I wish you all the best.

 

[Kurai]

I'll miss you Bambibambam, you're such a sweet and brave soul I hope the transition will be as peaceful as possible

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best and good luck! I hope you find peace & freedom!

 

[SelfKill]

Goodbye, rest in peace!

 

[evannave]

Hey all! I'm the Evan the OP mentioned. For any curious about the regime she is following, here it is! We are on day 1.

Day 1 -

wake up at 8am , take 1 x 10mg meto

4pm (8 hours later) take another 1 x 10 mg meto

12am ( another 8 hours ) 1 x mg meto


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Day 2 :

8am , 1 x 10mg meto
4pm , 1 x 10mg meto

11pm ;; 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg acetaminophen

11:15pm ;; 3 x 10mg meto (30g in total)

11:30pm ;; double dose of antacid

11:35pm ;; prepare sn drinks.. 25g in both cups in case i vomit.. which is sort of an overkill because i'm quite small.

12:00am ;; drink sn , lay in bed & die :pp

 

[johann_liebert]

I had that weird impulse to visit SaSu again, I saw the message you left on my profile, then your Goodbye thread. I'm glad I did, so I got the opportunity to say goodbye to you. I just know you since an hour, but I know I will miss and thinking about you! Must have been fate, that I went on SaSu today. I wish you, that everything with your plans goes well. Have a peaceful exit, Bambibambam!

 

[notevenhere]

You sound so warm, and kind and lovely from just how you write. I wish we could have been friends, the energy you give off is just nice. I'm sorry you went through so much, I'm hoping your suffering finally ends and you can truly be at peace. Take care.

 

[thebelljarrr]

Goodbye