RestlessTaiga
I'm glad you're evil too
- May 18, 2025
- 73
Sometimes I makes things better, sometimes I make things worst, That's basically what I've been told, that I'm a wild card, and I don't want to be one, but i don't think that's gonna change anytime soon.
Whenever I go out with my friends, I feel like my presence sometimes makes things worse—and that was confirmed today. I think this is my sign to gradually step away from my friend group and finally leave them alone, away from me. They're the only friends I have, so without them, I won't have anyone to talk to or hang out with, but that's how it has to be. I can slowly distance myself, and when I'm finally gone, they won't miss me. I should be happy today—I landed a job interview after searching for so long—but I just can't anymore. I keep thinking things might get better, but I always end up fooling myself; all the time, I just want to die.
I don't even feel like writing this myself; I don't want to vent in English.
Whenever I go out with my friends, I feel like my presence sometimes makes things worse—and that was confirmed today. I think this is my sign to gradually step away from my friend group and finally leave them alone, away from me. They're the only friends I have, so without them, I won't have anyone to talk to or hang out with, but that's how it has to be. I can slowly distance myself, and when I'm finally gone, they won't miss me. I should be happy today—I landed a job interview after searching for so long—but I just can't anymore. I keep thinking things might get better, but I always end up fooling myself; all the time, I just want to die.
I don't even feel like writing this myself; I don't want to vent in English.
