Getting High

[amy joyce]

BEING REALLY HIGHT WHILE CTB.
I'm not sure yet anymore. I was planning to and going to continue researching after I found out if my son posted here (don't think so) but then I was told by a person I won't name who told me thinks I helped save his life by posting about my son's suicide jump which obviously devastated me. Now I'm re-thinking it. That said, I believe this desire will come in waves much like the fam
One thing I know is that I plan on being very high while if I do it. So today I got very high in my own way. Lots of Buprenorphine, Benzo's and muscle relaxers. I believe this will help me keep up my courage.

*I meant the courage while doing it. I planning on making up my mind while completely sober and I have since regressed in my thinking. From reading, in discussion and after deep thought about what it would do to my already devastated, pained family I am less inclined now. Someone learned from my story, what my son's loss has done to me. And I've been learning from discussion about how my loss could horrible hurt my husband and other son. I don't want them to suffer more

 

[Catchthebusnow]

BEING REALLY HIGHT WHILE CTB.
I'm not sure yet anymore. I was planning to and going to continue researching after I found out if my son posted here (don't think so) but then I was told by a person I won't name who told me thinks I helped save his life by posting about my son's suicide jump which obviously devastated me. Now I'm re-thinking it. That said, I believe this desire will come in waves much like the fam
One thing I know is that I plan on being very high while if I do it. So today I got very high in my own way. Lots of Buprenorphine, Benzo's and muscle relaxers. I believe this will help me keep up my courage.

I'm so sorry for your loss.