Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[Reka2000]

I know how you feel. My son has died and I want to die too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for the pain of existence.
I truly was never meant for all this cruelty and suffering, I was never meant for the pain of existence but rather I'm only meant to never suffer ever again, I don't belong in this reality and more than anything I wish I never became aware of it. To be conscious is something deeply undesirable to me yet so painful and I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence.

I've only ever hoped for death as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me, I just wish to never exist again, I just wish for eternal nothingness where this existence is no longer my problem and I'm finally free from the torment and pain of existing. To never wake again truly is all that can bring me peace, I only wish for peace from the terrible tragedy of existence that just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway. Existence truly is so cruel and too painful, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can bring me peace from, to me human existence just feels like a cruel mistake, to suffer in this existence just feels like such a torturous, undesirable burden to me. I truly was never meant for any of this and never should have suffered at all but now that I exist all I can do is hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I only hope to be non-existent, I only hope for peace from an existence that brought me nothing but pain.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Venting is good. It gets stuff out where you can deal with it.

Personally, IMHO, you don't feel at peace when you're dead. You don't feel anything. I felt at peace after I took all that oxy and was waiting. It was the best feeling I've ever had but it was temporary.

Can't peace come from the mere absence of suffering and pain? I consider that to be peaceful

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist could only ever be something positive for me personally.
It truly only could be as after all if I no longer exist then I cannot suffer in any way and this cruel, torturous existence where there is all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it is no longer my problem and finally I can be at peace. I'd never wish for existence, to me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem and all I hope and wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me, I just wish for peace from the cruelty of existing and as long as I exist I'll only and always hope for death, to exist is something deeply undesirable to me that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it.

More than anything I wish I never suffered at all but now that I suffer and have done for so long all I can hope for is to never suffer again, in an existence that I never would have chosen that I never would have wished for ceasing to exist would be the only relief for me, being unconscious for all eternity where all is finally forgotten about truly would solve everything for me. I'd always prefer to die as after all there are no disadvantages to never existing again yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get, I'd always prefer death over all this pointless suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place and it feels so cruel how I cannot just painlessly die even know ceasing to exist truly is all that can bring me relief from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering, I only hope and wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me truly is the most terrible tragedy.
It truly is the most terrible tragedy to me that has just caused endless amounts of harm and suffering all throughout history, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel rather I just wish for non-existence where all is gone for me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, to suffer in this existence is such a painful, futile burden to me that is just so incredibly cruel. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence but rather I just want peace instead, to me human existence just feels like such a mistake, I'd never wish to be conscious and aware capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I just wish for the peace of never existing again and only being permanently free from all suffering can bring me peace.

I see existence itself as the true problem, it's something deeply undesirable I've only ever hoped to be permanently free from, I only wish for death to bring me permanent relief from the terrible tragedy of existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it that just tortures and torments existing beings all while they are just waiting to die anyway. Existence is something horrific to me as it's the source of all suffering, it just brings pain and causes harm, ceasing to exist is always preferable to me than all this pointless suffering and terrible cruelty, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, I'll personally always see it as a tragedy to suffer in this existence and it's one I wish I never became aware of more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me.
It truly is horrific to me how all this suffering can continue for so long just to be tortured and tormented by old age in this existence I always saw as so futile and pointless in the first place, I personally just don't wish to suffer at all in any way but rather I just want peace instead. I only wish for peace from all the cruelty and suffering, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and I'd rather prevent my suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up in way worse agony.

Personally I just don't see any point and value to suffering in general but rather I just see all as so unnecessary, to me existence truly does serve no function but to cause harm and torment existing beings until death takes away all for them anyway and it terrifies me how this suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get just for one to decay and deteriorate even further. I've suffered for so long already but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I find existing to be completely undesirable in every way and it just feels so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die so I can finally never suffer again. I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer for so much longer all for the sake of it, I find it horrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to suffer way more unbearably, old age just sounds like extreme torture to me in an existence I've always found to be so torturous anyway, existence will always feel like such a terrible, cruel mistake to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to disappear and never suffer ever again.
All I hope for is to disappear from this cruel, torturous existence that just brought me so much pain and never suffer ever again, I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all more than anything, I'm always wishing to erase all my suffering. Personally I just wish for non-existence, I only see not existing as desirable as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, this existence is no longer my concern and all is finally gone for me, it'd bring me so much peace to be finally free from the cruelty and futility of existing as a conscious being suffering in this existence.

As long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I just wish to disappear but of course the suffering just continues instead and it terrifies me how it could continue for way longer, existence truly does just feel like a terrible, torturous mistake to me and it's something I'd never wish for, I see nothing desirable about prolonging my suffering rather I wish to erase all for me so I finally cannot be harmed in any way. In an existence so painful and ultimately so pointless being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me, I wish to never experience anything again, to experience existence at all will always be a burden to me that just caused me suffering and so much pain, non-existence truly is all I hope for, I just want some peace, I just want to never suffer in this existence again, I've always wished to just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered here at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only relief for me lies in death.
In this existence so cruel, painful and torturous the only relief for me could truly only ever lie in death no matter what, I only wish to never suffer again, I really was never meant for this existence where there is all this cruelty and torment all for the sake of it. For me ceasing to exist really is all that's desirable, I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all it isn't like I could suffer from never existing again yet there is no limit as to how torturous this existence can get, existence really is far too cruel, it's so terrible to me how there's all this suffering.

To me existence truly serves no function but to torture and torment existing beings until they die anyway and I'll always find it so painful to exist, it's pain that only death can take away for me, I just find it such a terrible tragedy to have to exist at all and to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily hoping and wishing to be gone. I'll personally always find it so hopeless and dreadful to exist and death truly would be the only relief for me, I was never meant for any of this cruelty and it's all just so cruel and painful, there's just so much pain in how existing can easily get way more unbearable causing way more torture as a result, the torment of suffering in this existence is something I'd never wish for, I only wish for non-existence as only then will I be unable to suffer, death truly is the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does just cause so much harm and that is why I only hope for death, I only hope to never suffer in this existence again and that's all I've ever wished for, to me existence really is so cruel and I see nothing desirable about suffering in this reality. As long as I exist I'll just hope and wishing for some peace, existence truly is so harmful and the way I see it, it just serves no function but to torture and torment existing beings until death takes away all they know anyway. I see it as something so terrible to be forced into this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel all while one is just waiting to die anyway, to me existence just feels like a horrific, cruel mistake that just brings so much pain all for the sake of it.

I'd never wish to exist rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering and incapable of being harmed in any way, death truly would be the only peace for me in this existence that I always saw as so hopeless, so torturous, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence. I'd never wish for the torment of existing as a human where one is capable of suffering to unlimited amounts all while they are just destined to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway in an existence I always saw as so meaningless and unnecessary in the first place, it's so tragic to me how existence causes all this harm that there was never even a need for at all, I'll always find it a terrible tragedy to exist in general, for me personally existence itself is the true problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to fall asleep permanently.
I'm always wishing to fall asleep permanently and it's all I'll ever wish for no matter what, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my concern and all is finally gone for me. There really is just so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can bring me peace from, I'm always so tired of suffering which is why all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, existence really is too cruel and too painful, all I see as desirable is an dreamless, eternal sleep where I'm free from all harm and suffering.

I'd always prefer to sleep eternally as only then will the pain go away but of course more than anything I wish I could erase my existence, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me, I just wish for all the suffering to be gone and for me to finally be at peace as the pain of existing truly is real and it's endless. In fact I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering which is why it's all I hope and wish for, I was never meant for all this cruelty and suffering, I was never meant for the burden of suffering in this existence which is why all I wish for is an permanent sleep where all is finally gone for me, I only hope to sleep, I only wish to rest, I only hope for eternal nothingness to take away all the pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only peace for me.
For me the only peace truly could only ever lie in death, only death can bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and pain of existence where existing beings suffer so immensely all for the sake of it. No matter what I could only see never existing again as desirable, all I wish and hope is to never suffer ever again, being permanently unconscious is always preferable to me personally than suffering in this cruel, painful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented. Death truly is the only peace for me as I believe it to simply be the absence of everything where all is gone and forgotten about for me and to never experience anything at all is all I hope for, personally I see it as such a horrific, terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence at all and to have to suffer so much as a result of it.

Death truly is the only peace for me and all I wish for is peace from this existence I was never meant for that just brought me suffering, for me existence itself is the true problem that only ceasing to exist can solve and bring me peace from. I'd always prefer to die as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way and to me existence truly does cause nothing but harm, it just harms and torments exising beings until death takes away all they knew anyway for them. I'd never wish to exist, rather I'd perfer to avoid this existence no matter what, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all and I wish I could just erase my existence, I wish for death to just take away all the suffering and finally bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence truly is all that could ever bring me peace, it's all that's desirable to me, I just want death to take away all my suffering, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again. For me personally death would be something positive as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all is forgotten about for me, all I hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and torment, I just wish for the absence of all cruelty and suffering. To exist will always be such a terrible, cruel mistake to me, it's one that I never would have wished for that I was never meant for that I never would have chosen and it feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know non-existence truly is all I wish for as I personally just don't see any value in suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid and prevent suffering.

I'd always prefer to not exist at all, ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention for me and I just don't wish to suffer in any way but rather I just want some peace instead, I just wish for peace from all pointless, meaningless suffering in this existence I always saw as so deeply undesirable. To be conscious will always be painful to me and more than anything I wish to just never wake, I wish to never suffer ever again and I find it so dreadful how I wake again and have to suffer so much as a result, as long as I exist I'll always and only be hoping to be gone, only death can free me from suffering, death truly has been all I've ever wished for, in an existence so cruel and torturous non-existence is all that can bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Absence of euthanasia is horrific to me.
Personally I find it so horrific how there is the absence of euthanasia even know existence is so incredibly cruel and just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just wish for the option to painlessly die as only non-existence is desirable to me. I'd always prefer to not exist and only in death am I unable to suffer, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly die even know death is all that's inevitable anyway and I'd rather prevent suffering rather than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented.

I just see all suffering as futile and unnecessary anyway, it just torments existing beings all for the sake of it and I just find it so terrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die even know I never would have chosen and never would have wished to suffer in this existence but rather I just wish for the absence of existence. I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all harm and suffering, being able to just painlessly die would be such a relief for me, in fact it'd solve everything for me, I find it so horrific how a human cannot just choose to be euthanised to escape from all the suffering as I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just want peace instead. The thought of suffering until old age is so terrifying to me and I just want to peacefully escape from it, the fact that there isn't the option to be euthanised just causes way more suffering and torment in an existence where there is already so much pain, personally I'll always find it painful to suffer in this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would always be something positive to me.
It truly would be as after all it'd be the end of me suffering in this meaningless and torturous existence that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for that I always saw as so burdensome, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, in an existence so cruel I only hope to never suffer ever again and there's so much pain in how the suffering just continues instead with me hoping and wishing to be gone. I'd always prefer to die no matter what as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and the cruel and futile burden of existence is no longer my problem, all I wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me, peace for me could truly only ever lie in death, I only hope to never exist again, in fact to be permanently free from all suffering truly is all I've ever hoped and wished for.

Personally I've never wished for existence but rather seen it as such a terrible tragedy that I've always preferred to avoid, I see existence itself as the true problem with ceasing to exist being the solution for me, never existing again would solve everything for me and bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering. It just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just painlessly die even know I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed by not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable all the torture and torment of this existence can get, only death can bring me peace, for me never existing again would always be something positive, the thought of prolonging the suffering just to die in agony from old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existence could never be a desirable state.
No matter what I could never see existence as a desirable state which is why I only hope and wish for death, I just don't see it as desirable to be conscious at all and have to experience this existence rather such is so unnecessary to me, so futile and just causes suffering. I know I was never meant for any of this and I don't see value to having to suffer in this existence rather I'd always prefer to not exist at all as if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, personally I find it a burden to exist and it's one I'd never wish for.

The thought of prolonging all this suffering in this existence I never would have chose just to end up in a situation of way worse torment is deeply undesirable to me, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long just to die in agony from old age, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as there are no disadvantages to not existing at all yet no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. To me existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake that just harms existing beings and causes them to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it until death takes away all they know anyway. I've never wished to exist and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to never suffer ever again and I suffer simply from existing, I find it so tiring to just exist, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing which is why I only hope and wish for death, I only see non-existence as desirable where this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem, there really is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, I'll suffer as long as I exist. In an existence so painful death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope for the peace of death to bring me relief from the terrible cruelty of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it.

I see existence as the most horrific tragedy and it's something I'd never wish for rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. To me existence just feels like a mistake and I find it so tragic how I had to suffer in the first place, I see human existence as the most cruel and torturous burden, I find it something so hopeless and dreadful to be conscious in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway. To me existence truly is nothing more than pointless suffering, it's all just so cruel which is why all I wish for is to never exist again, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for non-existence, I just want peace from this cruelty and I truly was never meant for the cruelty of existing, as long as I exist I'll suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the permanency of death.
Personally all I hope for is an dreamless, eternal sleep where I'm finally safe from all suffering, I wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is the fact that it's permanent and this cruel, torturous existence will finally be forgotten about, all I hope for is peace from the cruelty of this existence. I'll always see it as so futile and torturous to have to suffer all for the sake of it in this pointless existence that to me was just a terrible mistake to me in the first place. In my case only ceasing to exist permanently can bring me peace, I only hope to never suffer ever again, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I just hope and wish to never exist again, in fact it's all I've ever wished for, personally I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence all for the sake of it rather I see such as deeply undesirable. To me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem that I see as causing nothing but harm and that's certainly why I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious yet no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that just leads to being tortured and tormented by old age anyway. Something so cruel, painful and torturous as existence is something I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious of no matter what, death would be the only relief for me but more than anything I wish I stayed permanently unaware of the cruelty and torment of existence, I wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I'll ever wish for.
It truly is all I'll ever wish for no matter what and it's all I've wanted, I've only ever wished for true peace from the cruel and torturous burden of existing as a human where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it and to me peace could truly only ever lie in never existing again. Personally I find it such a terrible tragedy how I had to suffer in this existence at all, there truly is so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can take away for me, I find it painful to be conscious suffering in this futile and pointless existence that I was never meant for and never would have chosen, instead I just wish for peace.

I only hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me and this existence is no longer my problem, I just don't find it desirable to exist in general, I've never seen anything desirable about prolonging the suffering in this existence just to end up way more tortured and tormented. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, I only wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence and it feels so cruel how I cannot just simply die in a painless way as non-existence truly is all I hope for. As long as I exist I'll always be hoping and wishing to be gone, to me human existence is just an undesirable, unnecessary burden that just brings suffering, I'd never wish for such but rather I just wish for non-existence but of course I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I never became aware of the cruelty and futility of existing, to suffer in this existence will always be deeply undesirable to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only relief for me.
No matter what death truly is the only relief for me, it's the only peace for me in an existence so cruel and torturous that I'd never wish for that I was never meant for, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I never existed, I wish I could just erase my existence like I never suffered at all, all I hope and wish for is to never exist again. I only hope for the absence of all suffering and harm where all is gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way which is why it's so painful how I cannot just die in peace to escape from all the suffering and cruelty, I just find it horrible how I cannot just die painlessly like never waking again as death really is the only relief for me, existence is just too cruel, too torturous and too painful and I suffer simply from existing, what I find so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering of existing can get.

To me existence truly is the most horrific tragedy that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for the torment of existing as a conscious being, I'd never wish for the cruelty of being trapped in this existence where there is all this endless suffering. As long as I exist I'll always and only hope for death and only in non-existence can I not suffer, to me existence truly does just bring so much pain, it harms existing beings and causes them to suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all for them anyway, only in non-existence am I unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope and wish for. I only wish to be permanently safe from all suffering, I only wish for non-existence where all is gone and forgotten about for me, I'd never wish to exist, I was never meant for existing and I never should have existed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
The way I see it existence truly does just cause harm, torturing and tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, to me existence truly is the most horrific tragedy and more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all. I just find it so painful and terrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know I was forced into this cruel existence in the first place that just brings pain and causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, in fact to me existence itself really is just an unnecessary harm that just creates so much suffering there was never a need for at all.

I'd personally never see any value in being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel all while they are waiting to die anyway, I'd never see anything desirable about prolonging the suffering of existence just to end up in a situation of way worse torment rather I see all suffering as pointless and futile.

To me existence truly does serve no function but to cause existing beings to suffer all for no reason and no purpose until they die anyway, it just causes so much harm all for the sake of it and that's certainly a reason as to why I only wish for death as I'd prefer to avoid and escape from suffering no matter what and the suffering this existence causes is endless. Only non-existence is desirable to me and no matter what I'll only ever wish for the absence of all suffering and harm where all is finally gone for me and this existence that just causes harm is no longer my problem, in fact to me what I see as the ultimate problem is existence itself, it's the source of all suffering after all and as long as I exist all I'll ever hope for is to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existing to be very undesirable.
No matter what I'll always find it very undesirable to exist, it's something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for but rather I'd prefer to not exist, I'd prefer to simply be unaware, all that's desirable to me is never existing ever again as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me. In general I just see it as a burden to have to be conscious in this existence and experience anything at all, to me existence truly is the most futile, torturous and undesirable burden that just brings suffering.

In fact to me existing truly feels like nothing but suffering and it's so horrific to me how one can suffer so unbearably with no limit as to how much agony they can feel all while they are destined for nothing but to decay, be tormented by old age and die anyway. To me existing truly is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose and I find it all so undesirable, I truly was never meant for any of this and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem and to me human existence just feels like a mistake as well. I see it as something so terrible to be conscious at all capable of feeling such extreme pain and suffering to unlimited amounts and what is so cruel and horrible to me is how I cannot just have the option to just die in peace to escape from all this as I find existing to be so incredibly undesirable, personally I just wish to not suffer at all, ceasing to exist truly is all I wish and hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
To me existence truly is an imposition and it's one I never would have wished for, never would have chose that I was forced into and I just find it so terrible how I had to suffer in this existence at all especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get yet there never being any disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer in the first place. More than anything I wish I never existed, I wish this torturous futile existence that I always saw as so hopeless and only ever caused me to suffer was never imposed at all.

But now that I do exist and suffer so much as a result all I hope and wish for is to never exist again, I only wish to be permanently unconscious unaware of the cruelty and futility of this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. It'll always feel so cruel to me how even know this existence was imposed I cannot just have the option to just painlessly free myself from it, all I hope for is non-existence and I'd prefer to die no matter what, all I wish for is peace from the imposition of existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway. Personally I just don't wish to experience anything at all, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, to me consciousness just feels like a curse and as long as I exist I'll suffer, I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of something as cruel and torturous as existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wishing for all to be forgotten about for me.
All I wish and hope is for all to be forgotten about for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence, in my case death truly would be a relief, all I've ever hoped for is to never wake again. In an existence so painful and torturous that can continue for potentially decades longer death really would be the only peace for me, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer, I only wish for permanent peace from the burden of existence.

To never wake again would solve everything for me but of course I'm always wishing I could erase my existence like I never suffered at all, to me existence truly was just a mistake I'd never wish for that I was never meant for, there really is so much suffering in existing, so much pain which is why all I've ever hoped for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering. To be conscious in this existence is such a torturous, unnecessary burden to me, I'd never wish to exist but rather I'd prefer for all to be gone for me, I wish for this existence that brought me nothing but suffering to be all forgotten about, I just wish for death to take away all the suffering and bring me peace from this existence I never would have chose and the fact that I simply cannot just die in peace brings me so much pain as all I see as desirable is never suffering again and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death, I wish for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always wished to not exist.
In my case I truly have only ever wished to not exist and it's all I'll ever wish for no matter what, I was never meant for the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human and I find it painful how I had to exist at all, I truly never should have suffered in this existence in the first place. For me personally death truly has been the only relief, I've only ever hoped and wished for non-existence where I finally cannot suffer anymore and all is gone for me, to me existing was always so undesirable, it just caused pain and created so much suffering all for the sake of it.

I find it to be such a terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence at all, it feels like a curse to exist as a conscious being capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, for me personally ceasing to exist truly is always preferable to suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence where there is all this endless suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence. Peace for me could only ever lie in an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all harm and suffering where this existence is no longer my problem, I just want peace from the cruelty of suffering in this existence, it's all I've ever truly hoped for. To me existence just feels like such a terrible, tragic mistake, personally I just don't want to suffer in any way and in this existence there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I've suffered for so long and I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.
No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, only being non-existent is desirable to me as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always found deeply undesirable and always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake. Ceasing to exist is all I wish for as after all it isn't like I could be harmed by being permanently unconscious yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that just leads to decay and death anyway, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and all I hope for is to be permanently unable to suffer. I personally don't see value in prolonging suffering rather I'd prefer to never suffer again and only in non-existence will I be free from all that causes me to suffer, in fact ceasing to exist removes what the ultimate cause of all suffering is which is existence itself.

I find existence to be something horrific as it's the source of all suffering ultimately responsible for torturing and tormenting existing beings until death takes away all they knew anyway, I'd always prefer to die and death is always preferable for me than the cruelty and futility of being burdened with this existence, the way I see it this existence serves no function but to cause suffering all for the sake of it and it's all meaningless to me anyway. Only non-existence is ideal to me as only once I no longer exist will I be unable to be harmed in any way with their being no need for anything, to me consciousness just feels like a terrible tragic mistake, I'd never wish to think, feel or experience anything at all but rather I find such to be so burdensome just causing suffering all for the sake of it, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, existence itself will always be the true problem to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all I hope for.
Personally I truly have only ever hoped for dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me and there is no more suffering, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as I'd never wish for existence rather I just hope for the absence of it. I wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where I cannot be harmed in any way, I don't see anything desirable about suffering in this existence but rather I just see existence as a cruel, futile burden that I only want true permanent peace from and for me peace could only ever lie in eternal sleep.

I really have suffered for so long in this existence and I've always felt so tired of it all, the kind of tiredness I feel is such that only eternal sleep can take away, to me existence truly is so cruel, it just causes so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it, tormenting existing beings until they die anyway which is certainly why I only hope to never wake again, I was never meant for any of this suffering and torment but rather I'm just meant for some peace. All I wish for is to never suffer ever again, the only relief for me could lie in being permanently unaware where this existence I always saw as so pointless and torturous is no longer my problem, eternal sleep truly is all I hope for and is all I'll wish for as long as I suffer in this existence, dreamless eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me, I'm always wishing to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for death.
No matter what as long as I exist I truly will only wish for death, only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous. For me personally I've only ever hoped to never exist again, I find it a burden to simply exist and it's a burden that's only ever caused me to suffer that I was never meant for, all I wish for is peace from the suffering and cruelty, peace for me could only ever lie in never suffering again where all is finally gone and forgotten about, non-existence truly is all I've ever hoped for, I've always wished to never wake again.

I'd never wish for something as deeply undesirable as existence that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, existence really is too cruel to me there's just so much cruelty in existing and it's certainly a reason as to why I just hope to never exist again as only in non-existence am I unable to suffer and this existence that just brought me pain will no longer be my problem. In fact for me existence itself will always be the true problem no matter what as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, non-existence truly is always preferable to me than all this pointless, meaningless suffering, I'll personally always see it as such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence and I just don't wish to suffer in any way but rather I just want peace instead, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, it's all I'll ever wish and hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me will always feel like such a terrible, horrific tragedy.
It truly will be which is why I only hope for permanent peace and relief from all suffering, I was never meant for the terrible tragedy of existence and to me existence just feels like a mistake, it's something so cruel and torturous which just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer so unbearably until they die anyway. To me existence is something horrifying as it's the source of all suffering ultimately responsible for torturing existing beings all throughout history and I find it so painful to exist, there's so much pain in how this existence was imposed and it's so painful how I have to suffer so much as a result.

To me human existence just feels like a mistake, it's something I'd never wish for but rather something I only want to be permanently free from, I'm always so tired of suffering in this painful existence that just brings so much suffering. Death truly would be a relief for me, in an existence so futile and unnecessary with no limit as to how much agony one can feel peace for me truly could only ever lie in death, personally I only ever hope for peace from all the suffering, I only wish for peace from the terrible, horrific tragedy that is existence. To me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I only wish to be permanently unaware of the tragedy of existence where I finally cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way, existence itself will always be the true problem to me no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existence truly does just cause harm.
The way I see it existence truly does just cause nothing but harm, it causes existing beings to suffer so unnecessarily creating pain and causing so many problems there was never a need for at all, to me existence truly does serve no function but to torture and torment existing beings until they die anyway bringing so much suffering all for the sake of it.

To me existence just feels like such a harmful, painful mistake ultimately responsible for all suffering and all that torments existing beings, personally I find it such a cruel, torturous burden to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, I'm so tired of suffering in this harmful existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

I'm always wishing to erase my existence like I never became conscious and aware in the first place, there truly is so much cruelty in existence, it's all just so terrible to me and I see it as all so futile anyway, personally I only hope for the absence of all harm and suffering. I only hope to never suffer ever again which is why it feels so horrible to me how I simply cannot have the option to peacefully die, for me ceasing to exist is always preferable to all this pointless, meaningless suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just find existence to be so harmful, death truly would be the only peace and relief for me as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with this cruel, harmful existence no longer my concern, I just hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to avoid existence.
No matter what I truly would prefer to avoid existence, I wish to avoid existence and all the endless harm, suffering and cruelty it causes, ceasing to exist truly is always preferable for me than being trapped in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting and hoping to die anyway. Personally I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering, all I hope for is the absence of existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered as I'd always prefer to avoid existence.

I'd never wish to suffer at all, I'd never wish for the torment and cruelty of existing as a conscious being, the way I see it existence just brings suffering, all of which so futile and unnecessary to me, I'd never wish to exist and personally I find it deeply undesirable to exist. All I've ever hoped for and wished for is to never suffer in this existence again, personally I've never seen any point and value to suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what. I wish to be permanently unconscious for all eternity where I'm incapable of suffering in any way with all finally forgotten about for me, I'd rather prevent suffering and escape from it rather than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented, I'd always prefer to avoid existence and the fact that I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep just brings me so much pain as all I hope for is peace from all the cruelty and suffering, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence.