Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Always wishing to never wake again.
No matter what I'll always be wishing to never wake again, eternal sleep truly is all I hope for, I just wish for true, eternal peace from the suffering and cruelty of this existence. I personally just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep yet no limit as to how unbearable and torturous this existence can get.

All I wish and hope for is eternal nothingness, I wish for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from the terrible, futile burden of existence where there is all this endless cruelty all for the sake of it, I just wish to cease existing and forget about it all, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again. I wish to die and death is all I'll wish for, I'll always and only hope to never wake and I only see non-existence as desirable but I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I never should have been forced into this existence in the first place but now that I suffer all I can hope and wish for is to never wake again, I wish for this existence to permanently disappear into nothingness so finally I can be at peace.

 

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No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist.
I truly would prefer to not exist no matter what, in an existence so cruel and painful that just causes so much suffering ceasing to exist truly is all that's desirable to me and is all that can bring me peace. All I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone and forgotten about for me. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way yet there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence I always saw as so futile and pointless in any way, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy.

In fact the true problem for me will always lie in existence itself, to me existing is just suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't wish to suffer in any way rather I just wish for some peace instead, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from the cruelty and futility of existing and as long as I exist death truly will be all I hope for. I only wish to cease existing, I just find it deeply undesirable to have to exist at all and for me existence was a mistake I never would have wished for and never would have chosen that I was never meant for that just caused me to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it. In my case ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and it's all I'll ever hope for, to me existing will always be nothing but suffering and I just don't see any value in suffering rather I just wish for true, eternal peace instead.

 

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Just wishing for death to take away all my suffering.
All I hope and wish is for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from this cruel, torturous existence, I'm so tired of suffering and the suffering just continues, all I personally hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me and finally I can be at peace. For me existence was never something of value but rather something that just caused harm and endless amounts of suffering just torturing and tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence but rather I just wish for true eternal peace instead and in my case I suffer simply from existing and the suffering will continue until I no longer exist.

I just want death to bring me peace from all the suffering, all that I could see as desirable is never suffering in this existence ever again, non-existence where all is gone for me truly is all I ever hope for, I just wish for the cruelty and futility of existing to be no longer my problem, I wish for peace from the burden of existing and I'll always find it a burden to exist. I see it as so burdensome to be conscious and aware, it's a burden to me to experience anything at all, I see existence as a burden that just causes harm and suffering, torturing existing beings until they die anyway and I'd never wish for any of this, I've always wished and hoped to never wake and always will do as long as I suffer in this existence, I just wish to be permanently unable to suffer, I wish for relief from all the cruelty and suffering but of course the torment of existence just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, I've only ever wished to never suffer again and only death can bring me peace and relief from suffering.

 

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Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I was never meant for the cruel, torturous burden of suffering in this existence and personally I find it so painful how I had to exist at all, there's so much pain in how I'm trapped in this existence I was never meant for that only ever caused me to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only ever be wishing and hoping to never suffer again. I only wish for the eternal absence of all suffering where all is finally gone for me, I'd always prefer to die but of course I never should have suffered at all and the suffering just continues, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence rather to me existence is something I'd always prefer to stay permanently unaware of, I wish I never became conscious at all.

I wish I never became aware of the terrible tragedy of existence that has just caused so much pain and created so much suffering all for the sake of it, torturing and tormenting existing beings as a result. I see existence as something so horrific and it's something I was never meant for but now that I suffer in this existence and continue to do all I can hope for and wish to be gone, I was never meant to exist, I'd never wish for existence and never would do under any circumstance, personally I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence that to me was just a mistake in the first place rather I'd prefer to not suffer at all and I suffer simply from existing. The tiredness I feel is such that only death can take away for me and I'll always feel so tired no matter what, for me personally non-existence truly is always preferable to suffering in this existence I really was never meant for.

 

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So cruel how I cannot just painlessly free myself.
To me there really is so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this futile and torturous existence, all I personally hope for is the peace of eternal nothingness where all is finally gone for me and this existence is no longer my problem which is why I find it so agonising how I cannot just have the option to peacefully die. All that could bring me peace and relief from suffering truly is a death like never waking, I only wish to never wake again, I only wish to sleep for all eternity where finally I cannot suffer in any way, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me, personally I see existence as something completely undesirable and I'd never wish for it at all which is why there's so much pain in how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace.

I'll always find it so painful to exist and I'll always feel so tired of it all, I'd always prefer to prevent all suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tormented and tortured, I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence I always saw as so meaningless in the first place rather I just wish to cease existing, I wish for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose. Non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable to me no matter what, I only hope and wish to never suffer again in this existence, I've suffered for so long and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so much longer, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me, there's so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me.

 

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Just have no interest in suffering in this existence.
No matter what I could never have any interest in suffering in this existence and I just don't see value in existence either but rather I see it as a terrible tragedy, a cruel futile burden that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as only then am I unable to suffer in any way and cannot be harmed in any way. I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep to prolonging all this suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age, I just don't wish to suffer at all but rather I only hope and wish for nothingness instead, I wish for death to take away all my suffering, to me existence was never something desirable at all but rather just felt like a terrible, torturous mistake.

I wouldn't wish for existence under any circumstances but rather I just wish for the absence of it, I wish for non-existence where all is gone for me, I find it so tiring and futile to simply exist and I just don't have any interest in it either and I never have done, I'd always prefer to die but really I never should have suffered at all and I'm always wishing I was never forced into existence more than anything as something as pointless and cruel as existence that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it is something I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of no matter what. I'd never wish for the burden of being conscious in this existence but rather I find it all to be so unnecessary, existence just creates pain and problems there was never a need for torturing existing beings so much as a result and I just don't have any interest in this, I was never meant for existing and as long as I exist I'll always and only hope to never suffer again.

 

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Never wishing to get old.
Personally I'd never wish to get old and I could never see anything desirable about suffering in this existence for decades longer just to be tortured and tormented decaying from old age. To me old age just sounds like extreme torture and agony, it's something I'd never wish for no matter what but rather something I'd always prefer to avoid but of course I wish I never suffered in the first place, to me existence truly is just the most futile and torturous process of waiting to die which I always saw as completely meaningless and unnecessary anyway causing so much suffering all for the sake of it all while one is destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway.

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony they can feel, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and completely undesirable in every way. I just don't see value in human existence and it's something so burdensome that just causes suffering that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, all I personally hope for is true eternal peace from the cruelty and torment of existence. I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to eternal non-existence with there being no suffering in non-existence as after all without existence one cannot suffer and this is all that's inevitable anyway. Personally I just don't want to reach an old age but rather I'd prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist, for me having the option to painlessly cease existing would be suffering prevention in an existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I only hope to never suffer again, I've already suffered so much for so long.

 

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Ceasing to exist truly is all I'll ever hope for.
As long as I suffer in this existence I'll only ever hope to cease existing no matter what, I'll only ever hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from all pain and suffering where I cannot be harmed in any way and this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my concern. I personally truly have only ever hoped and wished for death and it's all I'll ever wish for, I never should have suffered in this existence at all and I really was never meant to exist.

I was never meant for all the cruelty and suffering this existence brings and could never be no matter what, to me existing means suffering and I suffer simply from existing, non-existence truly is all I'll hope for as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer, I cannot be harmed in any way and all will finally be forgotten about for me. I only hope and wish for a painless death to bring me peace and save me from all future suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer that just leads to decay and death anyway. Personally I see no value in suffering in this existence that I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place rather I'd prefer to permanently escape from this existence no matter what. I'd always prefer to cease existing and it's all I'll ever wish and hope for but more than anything I wish I never existed and I'm always hoping to erase my existence like I never suffered at all, I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, in an existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it death truly would be the only relief for me.

 

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Existence is something so horrific to me as it's the source of all suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something horrific as it's the source of all suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again. I'll always see it as a terrible tragedy to exist and it's one that just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway, the way I see it existence just causes suffering and the amount of suffering it causes is endless, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence that to me just felt like a mistake, to me existence truly does serve no function but to bring pain and cause so much suffering all for the sake of it.

It's horrifying to me how existence causes such immense harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured as long as they exist, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then will I be safe from all harm and suffering, only then will I be at peace from the cruelty and futility of existing and some peace truly is all I hope for and wish for. Only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for death, I only wish for the absence of existence where I cannot be harmed and cannot suffer in any way. There truly is so much suffering in existing, in fact the suffering this existence causes is endless, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence, under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious at all rather such will always be a burden that just causes me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to fall asleep permanently.
As long as I exist I really will only ever hope and wish to fall asleep permanently, all I hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep where I finally cannot suffer anymore but of course the suffering just continues instead and as long as I exist I'll suffer. For me the only relief really could only ever lie in eternal sleep, in an existence so cruel and torturous where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented death truly would be the only peace for me, all I hope for is to never suffer again, eternal sleep really is all I've ever hoped for.

I personally have no interest in prolonging the suffering this existence causes just to die in agony from old age, to me existence just feels like such a cruel unnecessary mistake that I was never meant for that I never would have chose which is why I really only wish for eternal sleep, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me. What appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that if I'm gone then nothing can matter to me and this existence that only ever caused me to suffer is no longer my problem, ceasing to exist would also save me from and prevent all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I always saw as so futile anyway, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, to me existing will always be only suffering and it's suffering that only eternal sleep can take away for me and bring me peace from, I'm always wishing to never wake again and I suffer so much from how this existence continues instead.

 

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Only in non-existence will all the suffering go away.
It really is why I only hope and wish for non-existence as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then will all be forgotten about with this cruel, torturous existence finally no longer my concern. To me existing is something so painful and dreadful and I find it deeply undesirable to have to exist at all, I see existence as the most terrible, horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, torturing existing beings so much as a result and only in non-existence will I be at peace from all this.

In my case I suffer just from existing and will always suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be burdened with this existence that just caused so much harm all for the sake of it. Existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me which is why non-existence really is all I'll ever hope and wish for as only in death will all the suffering go away for me and there cannot be any suffering in non-existence, personally I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I truly was never meant for any of the suffering this existence brings and as long as I exist I'll suffer. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that just felt like a mistake to me, I'd never wish for the cruel and futile burden of suffering in this existence but rather I just wish for death, I wish for true eternal peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, death truly is all that can bring me peace, I only hope to be permanently unconscious for all eternity where this painful existence that is always so futile to me is finally no longer my problem

 

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Human existence just feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does, to me human existence is something so terrible and torturous that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I'll always see human existence as a mistake and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence at all, I wish I never became conscious, I see it as such a cruel, futile burden to be conscious and aware in this existence I just saw as a terrible, tragedy in the first place destined for nothing but to suffer way more capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. Personally I find it deeply undesirable to exist as well, I'd never wish for existence under any circumstance, the way I see it existence truly does serve no purpose and function but to cause so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it.

Personally I see no value in being burdened with this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, all I wish and hope for is to never exist again, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for death but of course the suffering just continues and I find it so painful to simply exist. Non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable to me, I just wish to finally cease existing so I can find peace from the terrible, cruel tragedy that is human existence, I'm always so tired of existing here and what terrifies me is how this existence can continue for so much longer, causing way more unbearable suffering as a result. I truly was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it, instead I just wish for death to take away all my suffering, all I see as desirable is an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is finally no longer my concern.

 

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Only wish for non-existence.
No matter what I could only ever hope and wish for non-existence as after all only in non-existence is there no suffering, there is no need for anything and there is no more problems as after all, all that torments existing beings and causes them to suffer is ultimately as a result of existence itself and without existence one cannot suffer. Personally I find it such a terrible tragedy how existence creates so much suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for that just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway.

Non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable to me as I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish for the absence of all suffering instead, what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me. To me personally existence just feels like a mistake and I'd never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of existing as a human where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I wish for death as only then will I be unable to suffer and to never suffer is all I hope for, I only wish to be permanently unconscious of the terrible, horrific tragedy that is existence which is ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering. I'll always find it a burden to suffer in this existence and I'll suffer as long as I exist, non-existence truly is all I'll ever wish and hope for no matter what, I'd never wish for existence and see it as deeply undesirable to exist at all.

 

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Death will always be something positive for me.
No matter what death will always be something positive for me as after all it's the end of me suffering in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as such a terrible tragic mistake, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that just tortured and tormented existing beings in the first place.

Personally I see the absence of suffering as something positive and it's what I've always wished for, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence, in my case ceasing to exist truly is all that can bring me peace, all I've ever hoped for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me. I'd always prefer to not exist than prolonging this suffering just to die in agony from old age, the thought of reaching an old age is something so horrific to me and that is why it'd be positive for me if I had a painless way to free myself from the torturous, pointless burden of existence. It causes me so much pain how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing as permanent non-existence truly is all I wish and hope for, I only wish for death to bring me peace, I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence no matter what, in fact to me existence just feels like a mistake, it's something I have only ever wished to be free from. I'd always prefer to not suffer but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence I was never meant for but now I exist and suffer so much as a result all I can hope for is death, in an existence so cruel where there's all this endless suffering death truly would be the only relief for me, it's all I personally see as positive.

 

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I'd rather avoid existence no matter what.
I truly would rather avoid existence no matter what, it's something I've never wished for and never will do, I see existence itself as such a terrible, harmful tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering. I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and there is no limit as to how much I can suffer in this existence, I personally truly only ever have wished and hoped for death, ceasing to exist really would be the only relief for me. I'd personally always prefer to prevent suffering than to prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented.

I'd rather avoid existence as it just causes suffering all for the sake of it, in fact the way I see it existing truly is nothing but suffering and I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish for true, eternal peace instead where all is finally forgotten about for me and I cannot be harmed in any way. Only in non-existence am I safe from all suffering and harm in this existence that I always saw as so futile that just leads to decay and death anyway, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me personally, I could never see benefit to that rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid, I just don't see any value in being burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I'd just prefer to not exist. I'll always see existing as deeply undesirable no matter what, it just creates so much pain there was never a need for and if I cease existing then this existence will no longer be my problem and I'll finally be free from all unnecessary suffering which is why I'd rather avoid existence, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence.

 

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I'll only hope for death as long as I exist.
As long as I exist permanent non-existence truly is all I'll wish and hope for, I only wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me and there is no more suffering, I see it as so terrible and torturous to suffer in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable. I'll always hope for death and it's all I've ever wished for, I just wish for permanent non-existence where this existence is no longer my problem, under no circumstances would I wish to exist but rather I just wish for the absence of existence, I only hope to never suffer again but of course the suffering just continues. I've already suffered so much for so long but really I never should have suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this cruel, meaningless existence that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and I find it such a terrible tragedy how I had to suffer at all, to me existing truly is only suffering which is why I only wish for death.

I wish for non-existence where all the pain and suffering this existence causes is gone and I personally just don't wish to suffer at all but rather I just hope for some peace instead. Eternal peace truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this existence in fact ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer in any way which is what I wish for, as long as I exist I'll always and only hope for death, in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering death truly is the only relief for me.

 

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Always feel so tired of existing.
No matter what I'll always feel so tired of suffering in this existence, in fact I've always felt so tired, I find it painful to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence that I was never meant for that I never would have wished for and the tiredness I feel is such that only death can take away. All I've ever hoped for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, I just want all to be forgotten about for me, to me existing will always be only suffering and the suffering just continues.

Personally all I've ever hoped is for death to bring me peace, non-existence truly is all I've ever seen as desirable, I just wish to be permanently unaware where I cannot suffer in any way, to think, be able to feel and experience anything at all is such a futile, torturous burden to me. I just wish for nothingness instead and I find it tiring to simply exist, I'd always prefer to die which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly free myself from this existence as after all if I'm dead then all the suffering is gone and I feel like I've suffered for so long. I just wish to fall onto an eternal sleep and never suffer again, it just feels so cruel how I cannot just have a death like that to bring me peace from my tiredness and save me from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chose, as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope and wish for death, wanting to die really is all I know, I'd always prefer to not exist but of course I never should have suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence that only ever caused me pain, simply just existing is so tiring to me.

 

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Only in death will I be safe from all suffering.
And this is why ceasing to exist truly is all I hope and wish for as only when I'm gone will I be at peace, safe from all suffering and cruelty, it's so horrific to me how existence causes all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tormented. I'll always see existence itself as the most terrible tragedy, the true problem to me will always lie in existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and I just don't wish to suffer in any way rather I wish to be at true permanent peace.

I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm finally cannot suffer in any way, I just wish for all to be forgotten about for me, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again and as long as I exist I'll suffer, I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong all this suffering just to end up way more tormented and tortured in this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence and I'll suffer as long as I exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I wish for but of course the suffering just continues instead and it really terrifies me how a human can suffer so long just to die in agony from old age. Personally I only hope to never suffer again, I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, ceasing to exist really would be suffering prevention for me which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence.

 

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Never wished to exist.
I personally have never wished to suffer in this existence and I never would do no matter what, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chosen. I find existing to be completely undesirable and I suffer just from existing, to never wake again truly has been all I've ever hoped for, I find it tiring to simply exist and it's tiredness that only death can bring me peace from, personally I find it a burden to be awake at all and it's a burden so futile and torturous to me that just causes so much suffering.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence brings and I've only ever hoped to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me peace, in my case only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'd never wish for existence and I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than prolong all this unnecessary suffering just to be tortured by old age with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To me existence will always be a terrible tragedy, a cruel, pointless imposition that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just wish for non-existence, I just want to rest, I wish for peace from all the pain and suffering, to me existence is something so dreadful, harmful and unnecessary that I'd never wish for under any circumstance, I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me.

 

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Only hoping for non-existence.
Non-existence truly is all I hope for and it's all I hope for as long as I suffer in this existence, to me existing feels like nothing but suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence at all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I wish for. Personally I just don't have any interest in prolonging the suffering this existence causes just to end up way more tortured and tormented rather I'd just prefer to not exist instead, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me peace from the suffering and cruelty this existence causes, in fact in my case I truly have only ever wished for non-existence.

In an existence so futile and torturous where there's all this endless suffering death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope for non-existence as I just don't wish to exist at all and never would do under any circumstance, to me existence just feels like a cruel mistake that was completely unnecessary and just created so much suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence. I'd always prefer to die as after all it isn't like I can suffer from not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that just leads to decay and death anyway, the thought of suffering until old age is terrifying to me personally, I'd never wish for it but rather I just wish to permanently cease existing instead, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for that only ever brought me pain, as long as I exist non-existence truly will be all I'll wish for.

 

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I'll always see existing as just waiting to die.
To me existing truly will always be nothing more than just waiting to die and I see it as all so futile and meaningless anyway, existing is just suffering all for the sake of it just to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway and personally I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me and I just have no interest in suffering in this existence and I see it as all completely unnecessary anyway, to me existence is a burden.

I find it so burdensome to be conscious and aware and have to experience anything at all, I personally find it so torturous to exist, existence is a burden that is so cruel and just creates so much suffering all while one is just waiting to die anyway and all I personally hope for is to never exist again. I never would have wished for existence in the first place rather it just feels like a mistake to me, ceasing to exist is always preferable for me than suffering so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, as long as I exist non-existence truly is all I'll ever wish for. Only non-existence can bring me peace from all suffering, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just die painlessly and never suffer ever again even know death is all that's inevitable anyway, to me existing will always be just waiting to die and I'm always so tired of waiting, in fact I find it tiring to simply exist, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist.

 

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Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, existence just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering torturing existing beings who were unfortunate enough to be forced here. To me existence truly is the most horrific tragedy, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Personally I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered at all, I only hope to never exist again as only in non-existence am I unable to suffer with this existence that just causes harm no longer my concern.

I see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence itself is the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering, in fact to me existence serves no function but to bring suffering and cause so much harm so unnecessarily all for the sake of it. Personally I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what as I just don't want to suffer in any way but rather I just hope and wish for nothingness instead, something as cruel and harmful as existence is something I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of, to suffer in this existence is such a torturous, harmful burden to me and the suffering will only end for me when I die. I only hope and wish for the absence of all suffering and harm and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, it's so horrifying how existence causes all this harm all for the sake of it, I only see non-existence as desirable but really I wish I was never forced here at all more than anything.

 

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Death is the only peace for me.
In this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering death truly would be the only peace for me, I'd always prefer to die as only then will all the suffering go away, I only hope to never exist ever again. I've personally always saw existence as something deeply undesirable in the first place and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just causes and brings so much pain all for the sake of it, for me to exist means to suffer and I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish for peace instead and peace for me could only lie in never suffering again.

I'm so tired of suffering in this torturous existence that I always saw as so futile that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it, as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for death as only in non-existence is all finally gone for me and I can be at peace from this existence that just caused so much harm. I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish for the absence of existence, I wish to be permanently unconscious of the terrible tragedy that is existence that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace, death truly would be the only peace for me and it's all I'll wish for as long as I'm unfortunate enough to suffer in this existence that always just felt like a mistake to me, I've always felt so tired of it all.

 

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Always wishing to erase my existence.
I really have always wished to erase my existence so it's like I've never suffered at all and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, instead I just wish for peace from the cruelty and torment of existing. Being able to erase my existence really would solve everything for me as after all without existence there is no suffering and finally I can be at peace, for me peace truly could only lie in never suffering again and to never suffer is all I'll hope for, existence really did always feel like a mistake to me and it's a mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering and I just want to forget about it all.

I wish for the peace of non-existence to take all the suffering away for me, I'd always prefer to die but of course only being able to erase my existence could be truly ideal, I just wish to never exist again, I never should have suffered at all, existence is just so cruel and it's all so futile to me anyway with their being no suffering in the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep yet no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. I always wish to just erase my existence but of course the suffering just continues instead with me hoping and wishing to be gone, ceasing to exist truly is all I hope for as long as I exist here, I'll only hope for all to be forgotten about for me, I'm so tired of suffering and I was never meant to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death always preferable for me than suffering until old age.
No matter what ceasing to exist truly would always be preferable for me than suffering in this existence until old age, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, I cannot be harmed and all is finally gone for me yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture and torment of existing can get in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway.

Personally I find it terrifying how the suffering can continue for so long and I just don't wish to suffer in any way, rather I just wish to be at true, eternal peace instead, the thought of being trapped in this existence that I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place just to be tortured by old age is so horrific to me. I'd never wish for that, I only wish for nothingness instead, I find existing to be completely undesirable in every wa and I truly was never meant for any of this. Death is always preferable for me as I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tormented, to me existing really feels like nothing but suffering and I just don't wish to suffer in any way, I saw all suffering as so meaningless and unnecessary in the first place and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence. I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have suffered at all but as long as I exist I truly will only hope and wish for death, in my case death truly is all that can bring me peace from the cruel, torturous burden of human existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It always feels so cruel how I cannot just peacefully die.
No matter what I'll only wish and hope for non-existence, I'll only wish for the peace of eternal sleep where all is finally gone for me which is why it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to peacefully die. There's so much cruelty in how painless death is made inaccessible for me with all this unnecessary suffering and pain continuing instead and I'll always find it so painful to exist, it's pain that only death can take away for me. It just feels so horrible how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly even know death is all that's inevitable, there's no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I saw existence as completely undesirable in the first place.

I never would have wished or chosen existence as to me existence is just an unnecessary harm, a terrible tragic mistake that just brings so much suffering as a result just torturing and tormenting existing beings, in my case I just find it a burden to exist in general and it's a burden so torturous and futile to me. Under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious in this existence rather I just wish and hope to never suffer again, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence and I just have no interest in suffering in general which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly escape from all future suffering. I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented, the thought of suffering in this existence until old age is so terrifying, I'd never wish for that but rather I just wish for non-existence, it'll always be so horrible how I cannot just painlessly die in peace, all I hope and wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I truly was never meant to exist.
It's really true that I was never meant to exist and never should have existed at all, I was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence that just causes all this endless suffering and pain all for the sake of it. I personally suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer as long as I exist, existing truly is nothing but suffering to me and I find it such a burden to exist. And as long as I suffer here I'll only ever hope for non-existence, peace to me could truly only ever lie in never existing again, all I wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me and finally I can be at peace.

I just wish and hope for the peace of death to take away all my suffering, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence, I want all to be all gone and forgotten about for me, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, to me existence just feels like a mistake, the true problem for me will always lie in existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I'd always prefer to die than prolong all the suffering just to die in agony from old age, I'm always wishing for a painless death to free myself from this existence I really was never meant for that just caused me to suffer, I only wish for peace from this cruel, futile existence which just brought all this pain all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for death.
No matter what I'll truly only ever hope for death, only death can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, personally I'd never wish to exist and I have no interest in prolonging all the suffering just to end up way more tormented and tormented rather I just wish to peacefully not exist and forget about it all. I wish to never suffer ever again but more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, I see it as such a futile and torturous burden to exist that was completely unnecessary, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence that is just so cruel rather I just wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence.

I wish to be permanently unconscious where there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone for me, I'd always prefer to not exist and it's all I'll ever wish for as long as I suffer here, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only death can take away for me. I just have no interest in and don't wish to suffer for potentially decades longer in this existence I never would have wished for just to be tormented by old age but rather I just hope and wish for death. In fact non-existence is all I've ever wished for, existence just feels like such a cruel, painful mistake to me and it's something I only want true, permanent peace from, in this existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty death truly would be the only relief for me, I'd never wish to exist, in fact to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep will the suffering go away for me.
And that is why eternal sleep truly is all I hope and wish for as I just don't want to suffer in any way instead I wish for peace from all the suffering, I just don't have any interest in suffering and would rather permanently escape from it than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented. I personally see all suffering as pointless and unnecessary and I see no value in suffering in this existence that I just saw as a mistake, personally I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I've suffered so much for so long and I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish to never suffer again, to me existing feels like nothing but suffering and only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer as after all, all suffering is a result of existence itself and without existence there cannot be any suffering. Something as cruel and futile as existence that just causes all this endless suffering all for the sake of it is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep, I'll only wish for some peace and it's peace that only ceasing to exist can bring me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I'd always and only prefer to sleep permanently but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence as an imposition.
The way I see existence is that it's an imposition, an imposition that is ultimately responsible for all suffering, tormenting existing beings so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced into this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering and to me existing really does feel like nothing but suffering. Human existence just feels like such a cruel, harmful mistake to me and I find it tragic how this existence was imposed even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that I always saw as so futile just leading to decay and death anyway.

To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist and all that can bring me peace is to never suffer again, I'm so tired of being burdened with this cruel, torturous existence that just causes so much suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it. Personally I see no benefit to existence but rather I see it as something that just causes harm, only in death will I personally be at peace from the imposition that is existence, I truly was never meant for any of this and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, the true problem for me will always lie in existence itself as it's the source of all suffering, as long as I'm conscious I'll only hope and wish to be permanently free from all suffering.