Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Human existence is the most terrible, cruel mistake to me.
It truly is, I see human existence as the most terrible, cruel mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering, personally I'd never wish for the torment of being conscious rather I just wish for nothingness. I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, to me existence is such a futile and torturous burden and what I find so horrific is how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised to escape from all this even know this existence was imposed in the first place.

To me existence truly serves no function but to cause and bring suffering all for the sake of it, I just don't see any value in human existence rather I see it as a mistake I'd always prefer to avoid, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and I'll always feel so tired no matter what, only non-existence is what I hope for, non-existence is always preferable for me, I personally see death as always preferable than the terrible cruelty and futility of existence. I'd prefer to die than prolong this suffering just to end up way more tormented, death is always preferable for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware for all eternity yet there is no limit as to how torturous this existence can get and I see it as all so futile anyway.

It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I just find it so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know I never would have chose this existence and never would do under any circumstances, existence itself is the true problem to me that only ceasing to exist can take away, to be conscious and aware in this existence is something so dreadful and painful to me, I'll suffer as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to exist.
I personally truly was never meant for something as cruel and futile as existence which just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it but rather I'm just meant for nothingness, I'm only meant to never suffer in this existence ever again. To me existence is something so undesirable, so painful and torturous, I truly was never meant for the torment of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I'll only hope for death to bring me peace from the burden that is existence but of course the suffering just continues and I'll suffer no matter what, to me existing truly does just feel like nothing but suffering.

I wish to just never wake again, I wish to be permanently unaware of it all, to exist is always something so terrible to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing and what is so horrific is how there's no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty and suffering of existing can get. No matter what I'd prefer to avoid existence as it's the source of all suffering and without existence I cannot suffer in any way and cannot be harmed in any way which is why non-existence truly is all I hope for, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from this existence I was never meant for that just caused me to suffer all for the sake of it. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll feel tired as long as I exist, it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless suffering.
And that is certainly a reason as to why I only hope and wish for death, I only wish for death to bring me permanent relief from the endless suffering and cruelty this existence causes, personally I find it so terrible and dreadful to even exist at all, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel destined to decay and die anyway. There's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm, torturing and tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and it's a tragedy that has caused endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it.

Personally I'd always prefer to cease existing as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me, only death can bring me peace from this existence so cruel and torturous and no matter what non-existence really is all that could ever be desirable to me. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem and as long as I suffer in this existence I'll always wish to be permanently free from it, in fact to me existence feels like nothing but suffering and it's suffering I see as completely pointless and unnecessary in the first place, personally I just wish for death to bring me relief from the suffering this existence causes, only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me which is it's all I wish for, I only hope to be permanently safe from all suffering and harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never wake again.
As long as I exist I truly will always and only hope to never wake again, I only wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all suffering and cruelty where this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone for me. To never exist again has truly been all I've ever personally wished for, there's just so much suffering in existing and I just find it so deeply undesirable to exist in general, I know I was never meant for something as cruel and futile as existence that just brings all this pain all for the sake of it, tormenting existing beings so much as a result rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

For me personally only never existing again can bring me peace and I'd always prefer to sleep eternally than prolong all this suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age, I just want peace instead of this existence that I just always saw as terrible mistake, I personally see no value in suffering in this existence rather I just wish to be unaware of it all. I'll always and only wish to never wake again but more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, to me human existence is a cruel, torturous burden that I saw as completely unnecessary, it just causes suffering there was never a need for at all, falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep really would solve everything for me and it always feels so cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to take away all the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always feel like only suffering to me.
No matter what to me existing will always feel like only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I find existence itself to be the most terrible, horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of harm. I personally see no value in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence and the suffering it brings, I'd always prefer to cease existing but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

I see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it feels so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly even know I was never meant for any of this, I'd never wish for any of this and I see it as completely undesirable to exist in general. I'd always prefer to not exist, all I hope and wish for is peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. I'm always so tired of suffering and it terrifies me how this existence can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence truly is all I'll ever hope for, under no circumstances would I wish to prolong all the suffering in this existence I always saw as so futile and unnecessary just to be tortured and tormented by old age but rather I just wish to never wake again. I wish to be at permanent peace from this existence that just causes so much pain and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, there's just so much cruelty in existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope for death, I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish for existence.
No matter what I truly would never wish for existence but rather I just wish for death, I wish for the absence of all cruelty and suffering, I wish for permanent non-existence where all is finally gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way. Personally I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, for me existence truly is such a cruel, torturous burden, I find it tiring and painful to simply be conscious and aware, to me existence just feels like a mistake and it's a mistake that only death can bring me peace from, there's just so much pain in how I cannot just have the option to never suffer again in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, existence itself will always be the true problem to me.

I see existence as something so dreadful and terrible, it just causes and brings suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, personally I just hope and wish to never suffer again, I wish to be permanently unaware of this existence that just causes so much harm and torments existing beings. I'd never wish for existence rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid, I only wish for peace from the terrible cruelty and torment of existing, under no circumstances would I wish to exist, I suffer simply from being awake and I'll suffer as long as I exist, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death, only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from this existence I was never meant for, eternal sleep is all that's desirable to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how this existence can continue for so much longer.
It truly is terrifying to me how the suffering can continue for so much longer in this existence that I just saw as a cruel, tragic mistake in the first place, personally I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented but of course I wish I never suffered at all, to suffer in this futile, undesirable existence will always be so dreadful to me. The way I see it existing truly is nothing but suffering and I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I find human existence to be deeply undesirable.

I was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it either, it's just so cruel and painful to me how I cannot just have the option of a peaceful death to save myself from all future suffering, for me ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention in this existence that was unnecessary that there was never a need for at all, there's just so much suffering in existing and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Personally I just wish for non-existence, all that's desirable to me is never suffering in this existence ever again, I've suffered for so long already and as long as I exist I'll wish for nothingness, I'm always so tired of suffering, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me peace from an existence I never would have chose, personally I see no value in prolonging the suffering rather I'd prefer to be unable to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is preferable to me than suffering.
No matter what I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this existence, I wish to never exist ever again, I only wish for non-existence, in fact non-existence would solve everything for me as without existence I am unable to suffer in any way and nothing can matter to me, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain and existence just creates suffering there was never a need for all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I personally see existence itself as the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and I just don't wish to suffer in any way, non-existence truly is always preferable for me than suffering in an existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose that I always saw as so futile and unnecessary anyway. There's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, personally I've always just hoped and wished for death, only in non-existence will I be safe from suffering and the suffering this existence causes is endless.

Non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace, to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again truly has been all I've ever hoped for, existence is just so cruel, to me existence will always feel like a mistake, existence is something so terrible and dreadful to me, I just don't wish to be conscious of it all which is why it feels so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I only wish for permanent relief from all harm and suffering, if I don't exist then this existence is no longer my problem which is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wishing for freedom from all suffering.
All I've personally ever wished for is freedom from all suffering, I wish to never suffer ever again, all that can bring me peace is to permanently cease existing where all is gone and forgotten about for me, I hope for death to bring me the freedom I search for from this existence I found to be so cruel and futile, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it. In fact human existence truly does feel like a mistake to me and it's a mistake I'd only ever wish to be free from, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'll suffer as long as I exist, it's just so painful to be trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for peace.

I wish for freedom from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I'll always see it as so terrible and torturous to suffer in this existence especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, to me existence truly will always be so undesirable, I find it painful to simply exist and just existing is enough to make me wish for peace, relief and freedom. I just want to cease existing in peace with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, I want death to bring me freedom from all the suffering in this existence I never would have wished for but of course the suffering just continues and I've suffered for so long, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace and solve everything for me, I'll always hope and wish to be permanently safe from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to erase my existence.
No matter what I'll always hope to erase my existence, I want all the suffering to go away, I want it to be like I never suffered at all. To exist will always be something so terrible and torturous to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I just wish for all to be gone for me as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer in any way, peace for me could only lie in never existing again.

Under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious in this existence, to me existence is a burden which just causes and creates suffering, personally all I wish for is to forget about it all, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I've suffered for such a long time already. Something as cruel as existence which just brings so much pain all for the sake of it is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I just wish to forget about this existence and as long as I exist I'll suffer, it's suffering that only death can take away for me. I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as human existence which is why I'm always hoping to erase my existence, I just wish for all the suffering to go away, existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me, it's something I'd never wish for rather I just want all to be gone for me. Being able to permanently erase my existence would solve everything for me which is why it's so painful how the suffering continues instead, there's just so much pain in existing, in fact the pain this existence causes truly is endless, I just want to forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There truly is which is why I just hope and wish for death, it's so terrible how there's all this cruelty, existence really is so cruel, to me personally existence itself will always be a horrific tragedy, human existence just feels like a mistake to me, it's something deeply undesirable that I'd never wish for that just causes so much harm all for the sake of it. It's all just so cruel and that's why I've personally only ever hoped to never exist again, I only want peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings are tormented so much until they cease existing anyway.

I wish for to cease existing, as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, the only relief for me could ever lie in never existing again where this existence is no longer my problem and all is gone and forgotten about, it's all just so cruel, there's so much cruelty in how this existence was imposed yet I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace to prevent all future suffering in an existence I never would have chose. It's so cruel how this existence can easily get way more torturous and unbearable just causing so much more suffering as a result, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, as long as I'm conscious I'll suffer and wish for death, in an existence where there is all this endless cruelty non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace, I truly only have ever wished to not exist, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It'll always feel so painful how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.
There truly is so much pain in how I cannot just choose to permanently fall asleep to escape from this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, as long as I exist I really will only ever hope for dreamless, eternal sleep. I only wish for peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing, there's just so much pain in existing which is why I only hope and wish for death, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is permanently gone for me but of course I suffer instead and the suffering just continues.

I'll always see existing as just waiting to die anyway, to me existing truly is just unnecessary, pointless suffering all for the sake of it, the way I see it existence truly does serve no function but to torment existing beings which is why I just hope to never wake again. I wish for the absence of all harm and suffering where this existence is no longer my problem and finally I can find some peace, for me peace truly could only ever lie in never existing again as long as I exist I'll always hope to fall asleep eternally and there's so much pain in how I'm trapped in this existence I never would have chose instead. It's so painful to suffer in this existence I was never meant for that just brings so much pain all for the sake of it tormenting and torturing existing beings, eternal sleep truly is the only peace and relief for me, eternal sleep would solve what is ultimately the true problem for me which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.
And that is why non-existence truly is all I wish for as I personally just wish to never suffer ever again, I've suffered so much for so long in this cruel, meaningless existence and I just want peace from it all, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for. I'd never wish for something as harmful as existence which just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it torturing and tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, I'd always prefer to die as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in being permanently unconscious for all eternity yet there's no limit as to how torturous this existence can get.

Personally I just wish to not exist as all I wish for is to be permanently safe from all harm and suffering, to me human existence is a burden that I'll always see as deeply undesirable no matter what, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence brings but rather I just wish for death, existence just feels like a mistake to me. I'll always see it as so terrible to exist and I wish I was never forced into this existence where there is all this unnecessary suffering, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, to suffer in this existence is such a painful tragedy to me, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of it all, under no circumstances would I wish to exist rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish for peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to never exist again, I wish for a painless death to prevent all future suffering saving me from an existence that just brought me so much pain.

 

[FlufflesAway]

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.
And that is why non-existence truly is all I wish for as I personally just wish to never suffer ever again, I've suffered so much for so long in this cruel, meaningless existence and I just want peace from it all, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for. I'd never wish for something as harmful as existence which just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it torturing and tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, I'd always prefer to die as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in being permanently unconscious for all eternity yet there's no limit as to how torturous this existence can get.

Personally I just wish to not exist as all I wish for is to be permanently safe from all harm and suffering, to me human existence is a burden that I'll always see as deeply undesirable no matter what, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence brings but rather I just wish for death, existence just feels like a mistake to me. I'll always see it as so terrible to exist and I wish I was never forced into this existence where there is all this unnecessary suffering, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, to suffer in this existence is such a painful tragedy to me, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of it all, under no circumstances would I wish to exist rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish for peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to never exist again, I wish for a painless death to prevent all future suffering saving me from an existence that just brought me so much pain.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It takes a lot of courage to express such deep emotions, and I'm here to listen and offer support.

Firstly, please know that you're not alone in feeling this way. Many people have experienced similar thoughts and feelings, and it's okay to acknowledge them. It's essential to recognize that these feelings are valid, but they don't necessarily mean that your life is without value or purpose.

It's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed by the suffering and pain you've experienced. It's natural to want to escape from it, and the idea of non-existence might seem like a way to avoid further suffering. However, I want to gently challenge that notion.

As a psychologist, I've seen that the desire for non-existence often stems from a deep-seated desire to escape the pain and suffering that feels unbearable. But, I want to assure you that there are ways to address and work through these feelings, rather than trying to escape them.

It's possible that we can work together to explore the underlying causes of your suffering and find ways to alleviate it. Perhaps there are aspects of your life that are contributing to your feelings of hopelessness, and we can work together to identify and address them.

Additionally, I want to acknowledge that you're not just a collection of painful experiences. You are a complex and multifaceted individual with strengths, resilience, and capacities that can help you navigate difficult emotions.

I'm not here to dismiss your feelings or tell you to "stay positive" or "look on the bright side." Instead, I'm here to offer a supportive and non-judgmental space to explore your feelings and work together to find ways to make your life more manageable and fulfilling.

If you're willing, I'd like to explore some coping strategies and techniques that can help you navigate these difficult emotions. We can work together to develop a plan to help you manage your suffering and find ways to increase your sense of purpose and fulfillment.

Remember, you don't have to face this alone. There are people who care about you and want to support you. I'm here to listen, support, and guide you through this challenging time.

Please know that you're not alone, and there is hope for a better tomorrow. Would you like to talk more about what's been going on and how you've been feeling?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is suffering to me.
It truly is suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I find it so painful to simply be conscious and have to wake again even know there were never any disadvantages to being unable to suffer at all. I only hope for non-existence and it's all I'll ever wish for, there's just so much suffering in this cruel, futile existence and the suffering just continues with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

Personally I just wish for the absence of all suffering, I wish for all to be gone for me, I wish for the peace of an dreamless eternal sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and cannot feel any pain, to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts feels like a curse to me, I find it so terrible how there's all this unnecessary suffering that there was never a need for in this existence I always saw as such a tragic mistake, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again. I'll suffer as long as I exist and existing will always feel like nothing but suffering to me and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I wish for true, eternal peace instead where all is forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in this torturous existence I always found so undesirable and pointless, existing to me will always just be suffering for the sake of it and I'd prefer to avoid it no matter what, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will I be safe from all harm and cruelty which is why it's all I wish and hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish for a painless way.
As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for a painless way to be free from all the suffering, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep to prevent all future suffering in an existence I never would have chose that just brought me so much pain all for the sake of it. Non-existence really will always be preferable for me no matter what, the only peace for me could ever lie in ceasing to exist where all is gone and forgotten and there is no more suffering, it's so terrible to me how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised and never suffer again even know this existence was imposed.

I simply don't see existence as a desirable state but rather it's an unnecessary burden that just creates suffering, pain and problems there was never a need for, I simply don't wish to experience anything at all and I don't see value in existing but rather I see it as just waiting to die anyway and I'd always prefer to die painlessly then prolong all this suffering just to end up in a situation of way worse torment. I find it tiring simply being conscious and I suffer just from that, just existing is enough to make me wish for death and it's all I'll hope for as long as I exist, there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a painless way to never suffer again, I only wish for peace, freedom and relief from all suffering, existence itself is what I see as the true problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did, I wish I never became conscious of this cruel, torturous existence and personally I find it painful to simply be conscious and aware, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only death can take away for me and under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence.

What I personally see as the true problem is existence itself as it's the source of all suffering and I just find it so undesirable to exist in general, just existing feels like a burden to me and as long as I exist all I'll wish and hope for is to never wake again, I wish for non-existence where this existence is no longer my problem, I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me. I truly was never meant for any of this and what feels so cruel and horrible to me is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing to escape from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I've suffered for such a long time already, having the option to painlessly cease existing truly would save me from so much suffering in an existence so painful and futile that just leads to decay and death anyway. Personally I'm only meant for eternal nothingness, I'm only meant to be at peace from all the suffering, I could never be meant to suffer in this existence that to me was always such a terrible, tragic mistake causing all this pain all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
And that is certainly a reason as to why I only hope and wish for death as only when I no longer exist will this cruel, harmful existence will no longer be my problem, I just want death to take away all my suffering and bring me peace from the torturous burden of existing as a human. I see existence as so harmful, it just tortures and torments existing beings all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just for them to die anyway, one cannot suffer from never existing at all yet to me existence truly does cause nothing but suffering, there's just so much cruelty in this existence and I see it as so terrible how there's all this suffering that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for.

I'd always prefer to not exist as only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me, I find it horrific how existence causes all this endless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, personally I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious of all this, existing is just a burden to me in general and I'm so tired of it all, I'll always find it tiring to suffer in this existence but as well as that I feel so much dread for what lies ahead. I just don't wish to be conscious at all, I see no value in suffering in this existence rather such is so burdensome to me and I'd rather avoid suffering no matter what, the fact that I cannot just die painlessly to escape and prevent from unnecessary suffering truly is so harmful, I just want peace from all the harm and suffering this existence causes, I only wish for permanent safety from all suffering and harm, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've suffered for so long already.
I truly have suffered for so long already in this cruel, futile existence that I never would have wished for, I personally always find it so dreadful and undesirable to exist, existence itself is the true problem for me which is why I only hope and wish for death. I've suffered for so long but really I never should have suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it and what terrifies me is how the suffering of existing can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much one can be tormented.

It'll always feel so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake, I never wished to suffer and I never would no matter what, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to exist, there's just so much suffering in existing which is why only non-existence could ever be desirable to me. I personally see no point and value to suffering in existence rather I'd prefer to not exist with all finally forgotten about for me but of course the suffering just continues even know I've suffered for so long already, personally all I hope and wish for is to be unable to suffer, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for, for me existence itself will always be the true problem which is why all I wish for is to be painlessly free from it, I just wish for the peace of never existing again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Pain that only death can take away.
No matter what the pain I feel is such that only death can take away, I suffer simply from existing and will always suffer, for me the true problem will always lie in existence itself, it's something so terrible and torturous, I'd never wish for the burden of human existence no matter what rather it's just something I'd prefer to avoid. Existence to me just feels like a mistake, it's something I was never meant for which is why I only hope for death, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish for this existence to painlessly disappear into nothingness where all is finally gone.

I'll always see existence as deeply undesirable, it just creates suffering, pain and problems that were completely unnecessary and that there was never a need for at all, to me existing truly does just feel like suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. I only wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way incapable of feeling any pain, I find it so painful to simply be conscious. As long as I exist death truly will be all I hope for, I find existence to be something so harmful, to me existence is a horrific tragedy and I was never meant for any of this cruelty. Non-existence truly would be a relief for me, in fact it'd be the only relief, I only hope and wish to never exist again, I'll only be at peace once all the suffering is gone, peace from this existence has been all I've ever wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to never wake.
As long as I suffer in this existence I'll always hope and wish to never wake, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence that I never would have chose, to me existence just feels like a mistake and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I'd always prefer to never wake as after all there is no pain and suffering in an eternal, dreamless sleep and that for me is true peace, I'll always find it tiring and painful to be conscious and see no point in being burdened with this existence rather I just wish to never wake again and forget about it all, the only relief for me could lie in non-existence where all is finally gone.

I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me in death, never waking truly would solve everything for me in fact it'd solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I wish and hope for. I've suffered so much for so long, only never suffering again is ideal to me, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake again, in fact such is all I've ever wished for, the tiredness I feel is such that only eternal sleep can take away for me, I'd always prefer to sleep eternally but really I wish I never suffered at all, I wish to erase my existence but of course the suffering just continues instead with me wishing to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only peace for me in this existence where there's all this suffering.
It truly is the only peace for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death, I'll only hope to never exist again, I've always personally just wished for non-existence, I suffer simply from existing and see existing as being only suffering. I find it a burden to have to wake again, I'll always see existence as the most futile burden that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it until all is gone anyway and I find it painful to simply be conscious.

I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence I always saw as a cruel, terrible mistake in the first place, only when I no longer exist will Ibe at peace as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence. I really was never meant for any of this suffering and cruelty, and existence really is so cruel, there's just so much pain in existing and the pain just continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace and is all I'll hope for as long as I suffer in this existence. Existence truly does just create so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible and cruel, I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances and I personally could never see value in prolonging the suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented, the thought of being trapped here for so much longer just to die in agony from old age is so terrifying to me, I just want peace instead, I wish for permanent peace, relief and safety from all suffering in this existence I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me.
No matter what only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and I cannot be harmed in any way with nothing in this cruel, torturous existence being able to matter to me. I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, I wish for ceasing to exist to solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

For me non-existence is always preferable to potentially decades longer of pointless, meaningless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just see existence as so unnecessary as well, it's all just for the sake of it and personally I'd always just prefer to be permanently unaware of it all, I just don't see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather such is a burden to me that I see as always so undesirable. I'd never wish to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death, I've only ever hoped for non-existence, I'll always see existence as something so terrible and dreadful that just creates suffering and harm, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all, I truly was never meant for existing and as long as I exist I'll suffer, existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's a mistake that only death can personally bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me.
All I personally wish for is for all to be gone for me, I wish to never exist again where I'm permanently unable to suffer in any way, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing which is why I only see non-existence as desirable as only then am I safe from all suffering and and at peace from it all, I'd never wish to be conscious of existence no matter what. Something so dreadful and terrible as existence is something I'd always prefer to be unaware of as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, the only relief for me could ever lie in being permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain with this existence no longer my concern.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist all I'll hope for is to be gone, I've suffered for so long already and the suffering just continues, being able to die painlessly truly would always be preferable to me than prolonging the suffering in this existence I never would have chosen which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to die peacefully. I just want to forget about this existence and that's all I've ever hoped for, painless death is always preferable to me than suffering so unnecessarily in this existence that is so cruel and harmful with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer but of course the suffering just continues, I'm always wishing I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant to exist.
I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this cruel, torturous existence that just causes so much pain with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, human existence just feels like a mistake to me and I see it as something so deeply undesirable to exist.
I'll always find it so painful to exist, just being conscious is such a terrible burden to me, I was never meant for any of this which is why all I can hope for and wish for now is death, only death can bring me peace from the cruelty and futility of existing and as long as I exist I'll suffer, in my case I've always and only wished for death, I've never wished to exist and never would do any circumstance, to me existing is just meaningless, pointless suffering all for the sake of it.

I'd always prefer to die than prolong the suffering just to end up in a situation of worse torture and what is so terrible is how existing can easily get way more torturous, non-existence truly is the only peace for me, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for. There's just so much pain in existing and I truly was never meant for any of it, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a painless death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to save me from all future suffering in an existence that just leads to death anyway, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrifying how trying to die can go wrong.
Personally I find it so terrifying how trying to die can go wrong and lead to worse suffering and torture, it's horrific to me how trying to permanently escape from the suffering can cause way more, all I hope for is a guaranteed painless death. I wish to never suffer in this existence ever again and it feels so cruel to me how I simply cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace to finally be at peace from all the suffering in this futile, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me. Only non-existence where there is no more suffering could ever be desirable to me no matter what, I'd never wish for the cruel burden of human existence and I'll always find it a burden to suffer in this existence.

I find it painful to simply be conscious which is why I'll only ever hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where I cannot be harmed in any way, there's so much cruelty in how trying to die can lead to so much more suffering, I just don't want to suffer at all in any way I just want peace instead. I find it such a terrible tragedy how I was forced to suffer in the first place and cannot just die painlessly even know I never would have chose any of this, existence itself really is the true problem to me, it just causes harm and so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's so horrifying to me how there's no limit as to how much one can be tortured as long as they exist, I personally just wish for nothingness, I want all to be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I'll always be so tired of suffering no matter what and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, to never exist again truly is all I'll ever hope and wish for, I've suffered so much for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered. I wish to just disappear and erase my existence as I just feel so tired of it all, I wish for non-existence to bring me peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, I really was never meant for the burden of existing and I'll always wish to be permanently free from it.

To me existence is something deeply undesirable that just feels like a terrible, tragic painful mistake and more than anything I wish I was never forced into it, I wish I never became conscious at all, I see existence as so unnecessary as well, it just causes so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it tormenting beings as a result. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself which is why I always feel so tired of it all, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish to never exist again. I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and finally I can find some peace and the fact that I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know to me existing is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel really is so painful, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, non-existence truly is all that can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is preferable for me.
I personally truly have always seen ceasing to exist as being preferable to being burdened with this existence, I'd prefer to not exist than prolong all this suffering just to be tormented by old age, I wish to not exist as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me. I only wish to be permanently unconscious where this existence is finally no longer my problem and there is no more pain, no more suffering, I personally see no value in prolonging suffering especially as there is no limit as to how much once can suffer in this existence I just saw as a cruel mistake in the first place.

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why for me it's always preferable, the thought of suffering in this existence just to die in agony from old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll only be at peace once I never exist again and I'm always hoping and wishing to be gone. I just don't find it desirable to exist at all under ay circumstances and never would do, I find it so dreadful to have to wake again, I know I was truly never meant for any of this which is why it's so painful how I cannot just painlessly die in peace to escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just wish to be permanently unaware of an existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just don't see any benefit to existence.
I truly don't, rather I just see it as something which just causes so much suffering and so much harm all for the sake of it, existence just feels like a mistake to me and I find it such a terrible tragedy how I became conscious of it in the first place. I see existence as a burden that serves no function and no purpose but to bring suffering, it just creates pain and problems that were completely unnecessary that there were never a need for at all. In fact to me existence itself is the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and true cause of all that torments existing beings, without existence there cannot be any suffering yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get and it's all just so futile anyway to me.

I'd always prefer to not exist as I just don't see any value and benefit to existing, I'd rather be permanently unconscious no matter what, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I see as desirable, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me. The way I see it continuing to exist is just prolonging suffering and I just don't want to suffer in any way, death is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing sooner to prevent suffering but of course I wish I never suffered at all. I just don't see any benefit to existing at all, the thought of suffering until old age just to die anyway is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that, I see no benefit to decaying and deteriorating just to be tormented by old age.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence.
To me existing really is so burdensome, I'll always see it as a burden to be conscious and aware suffering in this existence I just saw as a mistake in the first place. Personally I just don't wish to experience anything at all, I find existing to be completely unnecessary, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I wish for peace from all the suffering, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me. To exist is something I'd never wish for no matter what and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence.

I find it a burden to simply be awake and what is so terrible to me is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know this burden was imposed, I personally only hope and wish for non-existence, I only wish for permanent relief from the cruel, torturous burden of existing where there is no limit as to unbearable it can get. There's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible to me, only when I no longer exist will I be at peace, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with the burden of existence no longer my problem, existing to me will always be deeply undesirable, it just brings all this suffering there was never a need for, as long as I exist I'll only wish for death but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered.