Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[asthedayends00]

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Eternal sleep is the only peace for me.
No matter what the only peace for me could ever exist in eternal sleep and as long as I suffer in this existence it's all I'll hope and wish for, I'll only ever wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone for me. I've personally only ever wished for eternal sleep, in an existence so cruel and torturous that just causes existing beings to suffer eternal sleep truly would be the only relief for me.

It'd solve everything as after all if I'm sleeping permanently then I cannot suffer in any way and the burden of existence is no longer my problem and I'll always find it a burden to exist, it's one so futile to me that just brings suffering, personally I find it painful to simply be conscious, all I hope for is to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way. I wish for all to finally gone for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall asleep eternally, I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, the fact that I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again will always feel so horrible to me, I'm so tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen.

Have you actually thought about ctb? I don't understand all these posts but no talked about action

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so incredibly cruel.
It truly is so cruel, there's so much cruelty in this torturous, pointless existence that just leads to death anyway, personally I only hope and wish to be permanently free from it as after all only in death am I unable to suffer. I'll suffer as long as I exist, all I hope and wish for is permanent safety from all suffering and harm, I just wish to be unaware for all eternity.

Existence itself will always be the problem to me as after all it's the ultimate source of all pain and suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence at all, there's so much pain in how I had to exist and I know that I was never meant for any of this. I never should have suffered at all, existence truly does just create pain and problems there was never a need for and I see it as all so unnecessary anyway, it's just cruelty all for the sake of it and it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just die painlessly and never suffer again, I only wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me and the cruelty of this existence is no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I just don't see value to suffering in this existence.
I just don't rather I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the harm it causes no matter what, I'd rather never suffer again than prolong the suffering just to end up way more tormented, I personally see existence as such a terrible tragedy that causes endless amounts of suffering. There's so much suffering in existing which is why I only hope and wish for death, to me existing truly will only be suffering no matter what and I find it tiring and painful to simply exist, as long as I exist I'll only be hoping for non-existence.

I'll only be hoping for an eternal, dreamless sleep to take away all the suffering, I've personally never seen value in suffering in this existence and I just see it as so undesirable to exist as well, under no circumstances would I wish for existence but rather I just wish for the absence of it, personally I'd always prefer to find peace from and prevent suffering by ceasing to exist and I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence. I'll always see existence as the most futile and cruel burden that just brings pain and it's a burden I'd never wish for at all but rather I just wish for nothingness, I'd prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, human existence truly does feel like a mistake to me and always will do, existence itself will always be the true problem for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can easily get way more unbearable.
It truly can do which is a reason as to why I only hope and wish for death, there is literally no limit as to how unbearable the suffering this existence causes can get which is really horrific to me, I just see existence itself as the most terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what rather I just wish for permanent safety from all suffering. I wish to be permanently incapable of suffering, I find it so terrible and torturous to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering and feeling pain to unlimited amounts and I see it as all so unnecessary anyway, there truly was never any need for any of this suffering and it's all for the sake of it, never existing at all would have saved me from all this suffering which is why more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence.

To me existence itself really is the true problem as after all existence is the source of all suffering and without existence one cannot suffer in any way and all is gone and forgotten about instead, personally I only hope to never exist again, only never existing again can solve everything for me, the way I see it existence truly does just cause so much harm and I'll always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence that can easily get way more unbearable and torturous with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me existing truly will always just be nothing more than terrible, pointless suffering which is why it's so painful how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing to prevent all future suffering in this existence I will always see as so harmful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
It's truly what I'm always wishing for, I'm always wishing to erase my existence so that there is no more pain, no more suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead and I'm always so tired of it all, I really was never meant to exist and never should have suffered at all. Existence is just too cruel, too painful and too torturous, there's so much cruelty in existence and no matter what I'd always prefer to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, I want all the suffering to be gone for me, I've suffered for so long in this existence I just saw as the most terrible tragedy.

Being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me as after all if there's no existence then there's no suffering and all is finally gone and forgotten about for me instead, I truly was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for some peace and for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering again. Non-existence is peace for me, I see no peace in the cruelty and futility of existing as a human rather such is something so dreadful to me, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I just want to forget about it all, I'm always wishing to erase my existence, that would be truly ideal for me but of course the suffering continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, futile existence and that is why I only wish for death, existence could never be desirable to me but rather I see it as the problem. I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes pain and suffering and what is so dreadful to me is how it can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I'd never wish to exist and I'll always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence.

I suffer just from being conscious and I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, the way I see it existence really just does cause harm. I see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence and what feels so cruel to me is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to escape from this dreadful existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and it can very easily get way more unbearable causing way more suffering and torment as a result, existence truly does feel like a mistake to me. It feels like the most terrible tragedy and as long as I exist I'll only be hoping to be gone, in an existence so cruel and dreadful death would be the only peace for me and peace is all I wish for, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer in any way and only in death will I be unable to suffer, just simply existing is so dreadful to me and I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existing means suffering.
It truly does mean suffering for me and I suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a human rather I see such as a mistake, something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I'd be long gone if I had the option to painlessly free myself from this existence but really I never should have suffered at all, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never became aware of something as torturous and dreadful as existence which just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until existing beings die anyway.

And to never suffer again is all I hope for, it's all I see as ideal, I only wish to be permanently safe from all suffering and harm where this existence is no longer my concern and all is finally gone for me, I just don't see anything desirable about suffering at all rather I just see existence as a pointless struggle that serves no purpose and no function. I see it as a burden to be conscious and aware and have to experience anything at all, existing truly is nothing but suffering to me and what I find so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I just wish to never suffer ever again, the thought of prolonging the suffering just to end up all tortured by old age is so terrifying to me, I just wish for a painless death to bring me peace and take away the suffering, it's all I'll wish for as long as I exist.

 

[asthedayends00]

To me existing means suffering.
It truly does mean suffering for me and I suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a human rather I see such as a mistake, something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I'd be long gone if I had the option to painlessly free myself from this existence but really I never should have suffered at all, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never became aware of something as torturous and dreadful as existence which just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until existing beings die anyway.

And to never suffer again is all I hope for, it's all I see as ideal, I only wish to be permanently safe from all suffering and harm where this existence is no longer my concern and all is finally gone for me, I just don't see anything desirable about suffering at all rather I just see existence as a pointless struggle that serves no purpose and no function. I see it as a burden to be conscious and aware and have to experience anything at all, existing truly is nothing but suffering to me and what I find so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I just wish to never suffer ever again, the thought of prolonging the suffering just to end up all tortured by old age is so terrifying to me, I just wish for a painless death to bring me peace and take away the suffering, it's all I'll wish for as long as I exist.

Have you decided on a menthod to ctb? Curious to what your plans are

 

[DeadSpaceEnthusiast]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

I can relate, though for me I don't feel existence is a burden. I feel as though my existence is a burden to others, and I deserve to die for it. I'm meant to suffer and to not exist. Just me though.

 

[Deleted member 8119]

Have you decided on a menthod to ctb? Curious to what your plans are

Ah, the fine art of wall-talking xd.

FuneralCry has stated at some point in the past she fears things going wrong terribly, and the process itself. There's no escaping survival instinct, I hope you understand.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.
No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist and as long as I exist non-existence is all I'll ever hope for as after all only in death am I unable to suffer, only in death will all the suffering go away for me and I will finally be at peace. I'd always prefer to cease existing than to prolong the suffering in this existence just to be tormented by old age, the thought of reaching an old age truly is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I only wish for death.

I just have no interest in suffering in this existence anyway and see existing as completely unnecessary, I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence and I just saw existence as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering, personally I just don't wish to experience anything at all and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence. I just wish for the absence of all suffering, I just wish for peace from the cruelty and futility of existence and as long as I exist I'll suffer, I truly was never meant for any of this but rather I'm just meant for death, existence itself really will always be the true problem for me no matter what which is why I'm only ever hoping to never exist again, I'm so tired of suffering. I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would have chose, I truly would always prefer non-existence but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I never became conscious at all, something as cruel and torturous as existence is always deeply undesirable to me.

 

[asthedayends00]

Ah, the fine art of wall-talking xd.

FuneralCry has stated at some point in the past she fears things going wrong terribly, and the process itself. There's no escaping survival instinct, I hope you understand.

Thank you, that's the answer I was looking for

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced into this existence at all, never existing at all truly would have saved me from all pointless, unnecessary suffering, I'll always find it so dreadful and terrible to exist no matter what. For me the true problem will always lie in existence itself and I see human existence as such a cruel mistake, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence at all under any circumstances and no matter what I'll always find it a burden having to wake again and suffer so much as a result, I just wish for nothingness where all is finally gone for me.

I'd always prefer to die to escape from suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I stayed permanently unconscious and unaware, I'd never wish to experience anything at all and the fact that this existence can continue for way longer is so terrifying to me. I'm always wishing for death as after all only then am I safe from all harm and suffering but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all and existence truly is an imposistion, it's one so cruel and futile that just creates suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. I find it so painful to be conscious in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chosen, it'll always be so horrible and cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I'm always hoping for a death like never waking again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep.
To me there truly is so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again, all I personally hope for is peace from all the suffering, I wish for peace from the cruel and meaningless burden of human existence that just leads to decay and death anyway.

Personally I just don't have any interest in suffering and see suffering in this existence as being completely undesirable which is why to me it's just so cruel how painless death is made inaccessible and instead the suffering just continues, I just don't have any interest in suffering at all and see all suffering as being futile and unnecessary. I just don't see value in the imposition that is existence rather it's something I would never meant for that I'd never wish for that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what.

There's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and it's all for the sake of it and that's why it's so terrible to me why I cannot just have the option to die painlessly as I'd never wish for any of this, I just want nothingness instead, ceasing to exist is always preferable for me personally than pointless suffering as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me. I just want to forget about this existence, it all just leads to death anyway so I'd prefer to cease existing sooner to escape from and prevent suffering that there was never a need for at all, I wish there's acceptance towards not wishing to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Continuing to exist just prolonging suffering.
No matter what I'll personally always see continuing to exist as just prolonging suffering and personally I just don't wish to suffer at all, I don't see any value and point to suffering in this existence that I just saw as a cruel, terrible tragic mistake in the first place. There's so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get which is truly why I just hope and wish for death, I was never meant for any of this and never should have existed at all. Personally I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented, I see all suffering as meaningless, unnecessary and undesirable, the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless in fact to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I'll always be so tired of suffering in this existence, to me human existence truly is the most torturous, unnecessary burden that just brings pain and causes so much harm all for the sake of it.

I'd always prefer to be unaware of it all, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, without existence there cannot be any suffering after all which is why non-existence is all I hope for, personally I find it so painful and undesirable to exist, there truly is do much pain in this existence I'd never wish for no matter what. To me continuing to exist truly will be just prolonging suffering and I have no interest in such, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence just to decay and die in agony from old age rather I'd prefer to find peace from all the suffering and for me peace could only ever lie in never existing again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was just so unnecessary in the first place.
I always saw existence as so unnecessary, the way I see it, it just serves no function but to torture and torment existing beings until they die anyway causing so much unnecessary pain and suffering all for the sake of it which is just so cruel and terrible to me. There was never a need for any of this which is why I find it tragic how existence causes so much harm, in fact to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and without existence one cannot suffer which is why I only hope to cease existing, never existing again truly would solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist in the first place.

I wish I was never burdened with this cruel existence that I always saw as so unnecessary and futile, there were no disadvantages to never existing at all yet there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist which is of course why I see never existing as always preferable, never existing would have saved me from all this suffering. But now I exist and suffer so much as a result, all I can hope for is to never exist again but of course the suffering just continues, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option of a painless death to permanently escape from this existence I always saw as so unnecessary, I personally don't see value in suffering all for the sake of it just to die in agony from old age rather I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the suffering it causes no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
No matter what only non-existence can solve everything for me and it's all I'll ever hope and wish for as long as I suffer in this existence, I wish to never suffer ever again. For me non-existence truly is peace, in fact it's the only peace for me, peace for me could only ever lie in being permanently free from the cruel, torturous and futile burden of existing as a human where all is finally forgotten about for me. All I ever hope for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep with this existence no longer my concern, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, death truly would be the only relief for me, it just sounds so ideal to be permanently unconscious.

I just wish to sleep and non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, without existence there cannot be any suffering after all which is all I wish for and I'll suffer as long as I exist, non-existence truly would solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself. All I wish and hope is for death to solve everything for me as I've suffered so much for so long and I never wanted to suffer at all, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I truly was never meant for any of this but rather I'm only meant for death, I'm only meant to never suffer ever again, there truly is so much cruelty in this existence and it feels so cruel how I simply cannot choose to cease existing in peace, never existing again truly is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in death will I be unable to suffer.
And this is why death is all I hope and wish for as only in death will the suffering go away for me, only in death will I be unable to suffer, to me human existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake, it creates suffering all for the sake of it and it creates problems that were completely unnecessary that there were never a need for. I see existence as something so cruel, so terrible that just creates so much harm and I'd always prefer to die than prolong the suffering this existence causes, I'd prefer to die as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious for all eternity yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the pain of this existence can get.

I just don't see value in suffering in general, but rather I see it as a futile, unnecessary burden to be conscious and aware and have to experience anything at all and it's a burden that just brings suffering, for me personally non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's all I'll ever hope for, under no circumstances would I wish for the torment of suffering in this existence. For me existence itself will always be the true problem no matter what and I'd never wish for existence, I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence at all and to me existing truly does just feel like nothing but suffering, I'd prefer to prevent suffering by ceasing to exist than prolonging it but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I never became aware of something as torturous and pointless as existence, to be conscious burdened with this existence will always feel like a terrible tragedy to me personally.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've suffered for so long in this existence.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I'm always so tired of it, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable to me, I find it completely undesirable to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that just felt like such a terrible mistake to me. I've suffered for so long but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I've never became conscious, I'd never wish for the pain of existing in this reality where there is all this endless suffering but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for some peace and for me peace could only exist in never suffering ever again.

No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in this exisrence I never would have chose and was never meant for, non-existence is all I've personally ever wished for and could wish for no matter what, I personally could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence which always felt like a terrible tragedy to me, for me personally existence will always be the problem, it's something I'd never wish for but rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid. There's just so much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence and it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just painlessly die in peace even know I've suffered for so long already, existing will always feel like nothing but suffering to me no matter what and I wish I never suffered at all, never existing would have saved me from all this unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all that's positive for me personally.
It truly is, in an existence so cruel and futile where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it ceasing to exist really would be all that's positive for me personally. To me it just sounds so peaceful to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again, I want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I want peace from the meaningless and torturous burden of human existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, there's no suffering in non-existence yet no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get and that's why I only hope for death, I personally see the permanent absence of suffering as something positive.

I just don't see any point and value in suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I'd never wish for existence and never could do under any circumstance, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death. I really was never meant for any of this which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a peaceful death to finally escape from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chose. For me being able to die painlessly would be suffering prevention, it'd only be something positive for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence which is why I see existence itself as the problem, all I personally hope for is peace from all the suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just don't see it as desirable to exist.
Personally I just don't see it as desirable to exist at all and never would wish to under any circumstances, I just don't see value in being conscious and aware rather such is a burden to me that just causes suffering that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what. I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every single way and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence I see as so cruel and meaningless, for me personally existence itself just feels like the problem and it's something I see as so unnecessary, all I personally wish and hope for is to never wake again.

I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is no longer my problem so I can finally be at peace, I truly was never meant for the cruelty and futility of existing rather I'm just meant for nothingness, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me, in fact it'd solve and take away what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer which is why the absence of existence is all I hope for. I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong all this suffering just to be tormented by old age and die anyway, I just don't see any point or benefit to existence rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and I just don't see it as desirable to exist, I never have done and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, it feels like I've existed for so long already, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for death.
As long as I exist I truly will only wish for death, only death can bring me peace from all pointless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose, there's just so much pain in existing which is all so cruel and terrible to me. All I hope for is the relief of an eternal, dreamless sleep to take it all away, all I hope for and wish for is nothingness, I wish for the permanent end of all suffering and as long as I exist I'll suffer, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all only in death am I unable to suffer, only in death will all be finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I'd always personally prefer to be permanently unconscious than prolong all this suffering just to end up way more tortured, I personally see existing as nothing but suffering, existing just causes so much harm and so much pain all for the sake of it which is all so terrible to me and it's why I just wish for death. I'd always prefer to die but of course I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything, I wish I was never burdened with this painful, torturous existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, the permanent end to all suffering is all I personally hope for, I've suffered so much for so long already, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what and it's suffering that only death can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
And this is why it feels so especially cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace as death is all that's inevitable anyway and I'd personally prefer to cease existing sooner to escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, there are no disadvantages to an eternal, dreamless sleep but no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence so meaningless that just leads to decay and death anyway.

Suffering for much longer just to die in agony from old age sounds terrifying to me personally, I'd never wish for that and find it deeply undesirable which is why it feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing, eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me and bring me peace from all the suffering and cruelty in existence. If don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way which is why non-existence is all I hope for, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, it's so terrible to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence over all this suffering, I just wish to die in peace and never suffer ever again, there's just so much cruelty in existence and it'll always feel so cruel how even know this existence was imposed and just leads to death anyway there isn't the option for me to just painlessly die in peace, I'd always prefer non-existence over all this suffering, for me ceasing to exist truly would be the only relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering all for the sake of it.
And that is why I only hope and wish to never exist again, I see existing as truly just being suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't wish to suffer at all, I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of human existence that to me just felt like a mistake but rather I just wish for nothingness. In an existence so terrible and torturous death truly would be the only peace for me, I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep to bring me peace from all the suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, there truly is so much suffering and cruelty in existence.

In fact the suffering this existence causes is endless which is why I only hope for death, only death can bring me relief from an existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, only in death will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I'll wish for, I truly was never meant for the cruelty and torment of existing, only in death will I be safe from all suffering which is why it's all I hope for. I only hope to never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for any of this and I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what, it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for no more suffering, I'll only hope for death to take all the suffering away. I'll only wish to be eternally unconscious where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, I personally could never see value to suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to forget about existence no matter what, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing which is why I only hope and wish for death, to me existence truly is the most terrible, horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Existence is just so cruel which is why I only wish to be permanently unaware of it all, personally I find it such a torturous, tragic burden to have to exist at all, human existence just feels like a mistake to me, it's something that just causes harm, no matter what I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence.

I find it painful to simply be conscious, existence to me is a tragedy especially as it just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it that was completely unnecessary and there was never a need for any of it at all, existence to me really is the ultimate problem and I'd never wish for something so cruel as existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what. I wish for non-existence as only then am I safe from all cruelty and suffering, only then is all finally gone and forgotten about for me, there's just so much pain in this existence whih is why I only hope for death, for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering ever again. I only wish for permanent peace from all suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became aware, never existing at all would have saved me from all this suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I've always felt so tired of suffering in this existence and always will do, the tiredness I feel is such that only eternal, dreamless sleep can take away, personally I really have only ever wished for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, I just wish to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again. I've already suffered so much for so long in this existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, existence to me really is something so terrible and cruel, I find it deeply undesirable to exist as a human and it's something I never would have wished for, I always feel so tired as I was just never meant for any of this.

I was never meant for any of this suffering and the suffering this existence causes is endless, all I've ever hoped for is to fall into an eternal sleep and forget about it all, existence to me will always be the most terrible tragedy I'd always prefer to forget about. I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, in this existence so cruel and meaningless eternal sleep is all that can bring me peace, I'll always feel so tired of being conscious no matter what, I just wish to never wake again where all the suffering is finally gone, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just fall into an eternal sleep, I wish I could choose to simply not exist and never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wished to exist in the first place.
I truly did never wish to exist in the first place and never would do no matter what, to me existence is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible and torturous, I'd always prefer to die, only in death will I be at peace, to me existence itself really is the true problem and I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. I want it to be like I was never forced into this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake, but of course the suffering just continues, as long as I'll exist I'll only ever hope for death, it's all I can hope for as only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me.

If I'm dead then I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way which is all I wished for, I never wished for any of this and truly was never meant for the cruel, futile burden of human existence, I see it as all so unnecessary anyway and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, under no circumstances would I wish to exist, instead I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I just want all the suffering to be gone for me. I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence is always preferable for me than suffering so unnecessarily in this existence, I only wish for eternal sleep, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd prefer to die than suffer.
No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me where all is finally gone and I'm finally at peace from the cruel, torturous burden of existence, I'd always prefer to cease existing as after all if I'm permanently unconscious then I cannot suffer in any way yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existence can get. Personally I find it horrific how existence causes all this suffering all for the sake of it just harming existing beings, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is so terrible to me.

I just wish to cease existing and be unaware of it all, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, in an existence so cruel and futile death truly would be the only peace for me, I just wish to permanently cease existing and forget about this existence that just caused endless amounts of harm. Personally I don't see value in suffering at all and would prefer to die than suffer, non-existence would solve everything for me. I only wish for non-existence to bring me peace from all the suffering, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, I only hope and wish to never exist again, I'd never wish for the terrible tragedy that is existence but rather I just wish for nothingness, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in an existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to be tortured by old age, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence to be so undesirable in general.
I find existence to be deeply undesirable in general, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel, just being conscious and having to wake again is a burden to me, it's something I see as so unnecessary that there was never a need for that just causes suffering all for the sake of it. I truly was never meant for any of this and never should have suffered at all, to me human existence will always feel like such a terrible, torturous tragedy, existence just feels like a mistake and it's one I see as deeply undesirable.

Personally I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I just want peace, I just want nothingness, personally I could never see any point or value to existence rather it's just something that causes harm. If I don't exist I cannot suffer which is why non-existence is all I hope for, for me existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem, I just wish to painlessly die and forget about it all, I've always found existence to be undesirable and always will do under all circumstances. I've never wished for existence but rather I've just wished for eternal nothingness, for me death is peace and as long as I exist I'll wish for peace, I find it tiring and painful to simply be conscious, I'll always see it as burdensome to suffer in this futile existence destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, the thought of suffering until old age in this existence I always saw as so undesirable will always be horrific to me, I'd never wish for that.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be something horrific to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something horrific as it's the source of and ultimate cause of all suffering, the way I see it all that existence does is cause so much pain and torment all for the sake of it torturing existing beings until they die anyway. Existence to me is something I'd prefer to avoid and I personally see no benefit to being conscious in this reality where there is all this endless suffering rather such is something that just causes harm, I see it as a terrible, torturous burden to suffer in this existence there was never a need for and I'd always prefer to not exist because after all only in death will I be unable to suffer.

Only in death will all the suffering go away for me, all I wish for is permanent safety from the horrific, terrible tragedy that is existence, I'll always find it so harmful to exist and I see it as all so futile anyway, to me existing truly is suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and existing really can very easily get way more unbearable causing way more torture. I'd never wish to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything no matter what, I find it horrific how so many existing beings are tortured so extremely in extreme pain all because they were unfortunate enough to suffer in this existence, I find it so terrible how I had to suffer at all even know existing was completely unnecessary and there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all but now I have to exist and have suffered for so long all I can hope for is the peace of non-existence. I only hope to never suffer again, I'd prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence something as cruel and harmful as existence is something I'd never wish for.