Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only relief for me.
No matter what for me the only relief truly could ever lie in death as after all only in non-existence am I safe from suffering, only in death will the suffering go away for me and I will finally be at peace, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered. I want it to be like I never became conscious of something so cruel and terrible as existence that just brings so much pain all for the sake of it, I've personally never wished for existence but rather I've only ever wished for the absence of it, I only want to never suffer again and to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway.

Death truly is the only relief for me and I'd always prefer to die than prolong this suffering just to end up way more tormented, all I wish is for this existence to be gone for me, I just want to forget about it all, peace for me truly could only ever lie in never existing again and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like falling into an permanent sleep where all the suffering is finally gone. Only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, I was never meant for this existence where there is all this suffering and cruelty, I see existence as something so terrible and harmful, it's something I'd only ever wish for peace from, I just want death to bring me peace from all the suffering in this futile, burdensome existence that I always saw as such a terrible tragedy.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I'm always wishing to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, I want it to be like I never became aware of something as cruel and torturous as existence. I'll always see existing as just suffering all for the sake of it which is why I only hope and wish to erase it all for me, I find it deeply undesirable to exist and I find it so painful to simply be conscious capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. Erasing my existence truly would solve everything for me and bring me peace from all the pain and suffering in an existence I never would have chose that I always just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, I'd never wish for existence no matter what and there's so much pain in how I suffer in this existence I'd never wish for just hoping and wishing to be gone.

I just wish for all to be forgotten about for me, I wish to never exist ever again, I've suffered so much for so long already and I'm so tired of suffering, to me existence will always feel like such a futile, torturous imposition, it's one I never would have wished for and never would have chose no matter what. I just wish to disappear from it all as I was never meant for any of this, it feels so cruel how I cannot just permanently erase my existence to save myself from and prevent so much meaningless, unnecessary suffering in this existence I always saw as serving no function but to harm and torment existing beings until they die anyway, there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I find it so terrible how existence creates all this suffering all for the sake of it and what is horrific to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, personally I just wish to cease existing in peace and forget about it all, I wish to never suffer ever again. I'll always see existence as such a torturous, futile burden that was completely unnecessary, it feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know existence causes all this endless cruelty yet I cannot be harmed by not existing, all that sounds desirable to me is permanently ceasing to exist.

I just wish to be unconscious and unaware, in an existence so cruel never existing again truly is all that can bring me peace, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid and forget about such no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish to be permanently safe from all suffering and cruelty where this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone instead. I'll always find it so painful to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer again, I truly was never meant for any of this cruelty, to me existence really will always feel like a mistake no matter what, I wish I could just erase my existence but of course the suffering and cruelty continues instead with me just hoping for peace, peace for me could only lie in being permanently free from this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only peace for me.
And that is why I only hope and wish to die, in an existence so cruel where there's all this endless pain and suffering death truly is the only peace for me as after all only in death am I unable to suffer, only in death is this existence no longer my problem with all finally forgotten about for me. The only comfort for me could ever lie in eternal nothingness where I'm finally unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of feeling any pain, to me existence truly does just feel like such a cruel, terrible mistake, it just creates problems there was never a need for with literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist.

Personally I just don't want to experience anything at all and I find it painful to simply be conscious, I find it a burden to wake again and I just see existence as so unnecessary as well, it just creates suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent yet as long as one exists they are capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I find it so terrible to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway and I just wish for peace from it all, I wish for the peace of never suffering again, in an existence so futile and torturous non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, I wish for the absence of all suffering and as long as I exist I'll suffer, the suffering this existence causes is endless, I wish I could just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Painless death would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything and finally bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in general and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, as long as I exist I'll suffer, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence that to me was so unnecessary in the first place. I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious but now that I suffer so much as a result of the imposition that is existence all I can hope for and wish for is to never suffer ever again.

Being able to die painlessly truly would solve everything for me as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, all is finally gone and forgotten about for me instead, for me ceasing to exist truly would be suffering prevention and would save me from all future unnecessary suffering in an existence I never would have chose. The thought of being trapped in this existence just to be tormented by old age is really so terrifying to me, I'd always prefer to avoid that no matter what, in fact I'd personally prefer to avoid existence under all circumstances, I only see non-existence as desirable and it's all I'll hope and wish for, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just painlessly die in a guaranteed way to escape from all the suffering this existence causes, only when I no longer exist will I finally be unable to suffer in any way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Cruelty of being denied painless death.
Personally I find it so cruel how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace so I can finally escape from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer all for the sake of it. There's just so much suffering in existing which is why I only hope for death, I suffer simply from existing and I'm always so tired of it all, it'll always feel so dreadful and painful to be trapped in this existence I just saw as a mistake in the first place that I never would have chose.

I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know I cannot suffer from not existing yet there's no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that I always saw as so pointless in the first place and what is so horrific to me is how trying to die can easily go wrong and lead to way worse suffering. Such happening is exactly what I fear, all I have personally ever hoped for is to just cease existing in a guaranteed way and never exist again. I only see non-existence as desirable, ceasing to exist is always preferable for me than prolonging this suffering, I'd rather avoid all suffering no matter what which is why there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just die painlessly to escape from all future meaningless suffering, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist again. I'll always suffer so much from how I simply cannot just die in peace, non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace from all the suffering this existence causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to die is all I personally know.
For me personally wanting to die truly is all I know, I've only ever wished for death and only found comfort in an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering, I just wish to never exist again, no matter what only never existing again could ever be desirable for me. As long as I exist I really will only ever wish for non-existence, I'll only wish for peace and relief from all suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten about me and there is finally no more pain.

I'd never wish for something as cruel and torturous existence which just brings so much suffering and causes so much harm all for the sake of it, I find it a burden to simply be conscious in this existence and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from, I only hope and wish to never exist again as after all only in death am I unable to suffer. All suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself and the thought of prolonging the suffering for so much longer just to be tormented by old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that, never have done and never will do, rather I only wish for permanent non-existence. I personally don't see value in suffering in this existence rather I just wish for death to finally take all the suffering away, I just wish to forget about this existence, wanting to die is all I know as I'm just not meant to suffer in this existence, I see existing as just too cruel, too painful and so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it to me which is why I'm always just hoping to never wake but of course the suffering just continues instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's positive to me.
Of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all but now that I exist and suffer so much as a result death truly would be all that's positive for me, it'd be the only peace and relief for me, I believe death to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone for me. To never suffer ever again is all I hope for and I only see death as positive for me because existence itself is what I see as the true problem, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it and so much harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel which is all so cruel and terrible to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I'd always prefer to not exist as only in non-existence am I unable to suffer in any way, I wish for the absence of all suffering and as long as I exist I'll suffer.

Existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me and I see it as a burden to have to suffer in this existence, as long as I exist I truly will always hope and wish to never wake again, non-existence truly would solve everything for me and bring me peace from all the suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose. I've only ever seen death as positive for me as after all there are no disadvantages to never existing again yet the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless just for one to be tormented by old age and die anyway, the thought of getting old is horrific to me, I'd always prefer to cease existing than face such immense suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see existing as so futile.
It truly is all so futile to me, I just see existing as being unnecessary, meaningless suffering all for the sake of it, existence will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one so terrible and cruel, personally I just see no value in prolonging the suffering this existence causes rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what. I'd prefer to not exist as after all only then am I unable to suffer in any way with this existence no longer my problem, I find it so painful how I was forced into existence even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all yet no limit as to how unbearable the pain of existing can get and it's all just so futile to me, just leading to decay and death anyway.

The thought of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for just to be tormented by old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for such but rather I just wish to never suffer again, I only wish for peace from the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence. I never would have wished for existence and never would have chosen it, it just feels so cruel how despite this I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing to save myself from suffering in an existence I always saw as so futile anyway, I only hope for peace from the torturous, pointless burden of existence and I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence no matter what, as long as I exist I truly will only wish for death, I wish to never suffer again.

 

[simplyshmee]

Reading through this thread makes me glad I joined this community.
No hate, no judgment, no unjustified assumptions.
Everyone here is so.... human.

In regard to responding to the OP. I don't know who you are, but you should write a book.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never should have existed.
I truly never should have suffered in this existence in the first place and I see it as so dreadful how I had to even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all, existence was always so unnecessary just creating suffering there was never a need for. I'll always see it as such a terrible tragedy to exist, to me existence truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes one to suffer, there's just so much cruelty in existing and I truly was never meant for any of this.

I was never meant for any of the pain this existence so cruelly brings and more than anything I wish I never existed, I wish I never became conscious at all, simply being conscious is so painful to me and I see it as a burden, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence that I just saw as a mistake in the first place. Never existing at all truly would have saved me from all this terrible, meaningless suffering that was completely unnecessary, I'm always wishing to just erase my existence, I wish that all the suffering could be gone for me as I truly never should have existed. I'd always prefer to never exist than to suffer in this futile, torturous existence just to be tormented by old age and die anyway, I just don't see any point and value in suffering in this existence rather I'd always prefer to avoid such no matter what, existence itself really is the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and I just don't wish to suffer in any way rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering, I wish this existence was never imposed and as long as I exist I'll suffer and wish for death.

 

[cantdecidenameeven]

I'm tired of doing thoughts exercises. I'm tired of trying to get better. It all feels so pointless. I feel so unwanted, unworthy, ugly and disgusting. I'm waiting for mom to die so I can do it. What a cruel thing to wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel and pointless.
And that is why I personally only see non-existence as desirable, I see no value in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence that I always saw as so pointless rather I'd prefer to avoid such no matter what, I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, to suffer in this existence will always feel so dreadful to me. I find it painful to just be conscious, the way I see it existing truly is just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that serves no function but to torment existing beings until they die anyway and it's all so futile to me.

I'd always prefer to not exist as after all only in death am I unable to suffer with this existence no longer my problem, I'd prefer to die than prolong this suffering just to end up in a situation of worse agony, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age. There's just so much suffering in existing which is so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist again, I truly was never meant for any of this, I was never meant for all this pointless suffering and cruelty in this existence I never would have chose and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly die in peace even know I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible. I have no interest in suffering in this existence rather I just wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want peace from this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I hope for.
As long as I suffer in this existence never existing again truly will be all I hope for, I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for permanent peace from all suffering and for me peace could only lie in ceasing to exist. I just wish for all the suffering to be gone for me and I'll suffer as long as I exist, only non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, in an existence so cruel and torturous that I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake death really would be the only peace and relief for me, I find it so painful and burdensome to simply exist.

I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I just wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to take all the suffering away and finally bring me permanent peace from an existence I was never meant for, I never should have suffered in this existence at all which is why all I can hope for now is non-existence. I wish for the absence of all suffering and cruelty where I cannot be harmed in any way, as long as I exist I'll only wish for death, non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, I wish to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way, all that causes one to suffer is ultimately as a result of existence after all and I just hope and wish to never suffer again, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only non-existence can take away for me, only in non-existence will the suffering be gone for me which is why it's all I wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I'll always see it as so cruel how I'm denied a painless death to escape from all cruelty and suffering in this existence I never would have wished for, it's all just so terrible to me, I just wish I could fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again as existence is just too torturous, so futile. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, as long as I exist I'll only be hoping to never suffer again, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence.

I was never meant for existing and I never would have wished for and never would have chose to exist, it just feels so horrible how I cannot just die painlessly as existence just feels like a mistake to me and I just don't wish to suffer at all, personally I see no value in prolonging the suffering this existence causes just to end up all tortured in agony from old age but rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish I could just simply choose to not exist with no risks of ending up in a situation of way worse torture, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I just want some peace, I've suffered so much for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this cruel existence where there's all this pain, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, existing to me truly does just feel like nothing but pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

In an existence so cruel death truly is all that could ever be positive for me.
It really is as after all only in death will all the suffering go away for me with this existence no longer being my problem, existence just causes so much pain, creating so much suffering there was never a need for. It's all just so cruel to me and that's why I just hope for death, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I see it as such a terrible, torturous burden to have to exist and I'm always so tired of it all, I just wish to be permanently unconscious where all is gone for me and I finally cannot suffer in any way.

I'd always prefer to not exist as one cannot suffer from not existing yet the suffering this existence causes is endless with no limit as to how much agony one can feel which is horrific to me, I see existence itself as the most terrible tragic mistake ultimately responsible for tormenting existing beings and I just don't want to suffer at all. I wish to be unaware instead permanently incapable of suffering, I'll always find it so burdensome to have to wake again, I see existence as a burden which just causes so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I see it as all so unnecessary anyway, death truly is the only peace and relief for me, I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone, I just wish to forget about this cruel, harmful existence that I never would have wished for, the permanent end of all suffering could only ever be positive for me, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to prolong suffering.
No matter what I'd never wish to prolong the suffering this existence causes rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just don't see value to something so cruel and futile as existence in general rather I just wish to never suffer again, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing.

Personally I'd prefer to suffer for as little as possible but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I never became conscious, human existence will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one I'll always wish to be permanently free from. I just find existing to be so undesirable and I've always felt in such a way, I truly was never meant for any of this suffering and cruelty and I suffer simply from existing, there's just so much pain in this torturous, pointless existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than end up way more tormented. The thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I'd never wish for that rather I'd prefer to escape from suffering and prevent suffering rather than prolong it, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just peacefully cease existing as all I wish for is peace from the suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist and as long as I suffer it's all I'll ever wish for, I truly was never meant to exist, existence itself will always feel like the true problem to me no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me and this is certainly a reason as to why I only wish for death as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, I'd never wish for the cruel and torturous burden of existing as a human and all I can wish for now is an eternal, dreamless sleep to finally bring me peace from the cruelty and futility of existing. Under no circumstances would I ever wish to suffer in this existence that I saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake rather I just wish for non-existence, I wish to never exist again.

I wish for some peace and for me peace truly could oly lie in never existing again, to be conscious in this existence where there is all this cruelty will always be something so dreadful to me, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence. I find it a tragedy how this existence was imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty of this torturous, meaningless existence can get. It's just so horrific how existing causes all this suffering all fo the sake of it and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly, I only see never existing again as being desirable, there truly is so much cruelty in existing and that's why I see death as the only relief for me, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence, I just wish for peace, I just wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just creates problems and pain there was never a need for.
It truly does and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that was completely unnecessary, just creating problems and pain there was never a need for, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way. All suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself and only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, in fact it'd solve what I truly have a problem with which is existence itself, no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to be conscious and aware and have to experience anything at all.

Personally I only see non-existence as desirable especially as if I don't exist I cannot mourn for how this cruel, futile existence is no longer my problem rather all is gone and forgotten about for me, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of existing as a human. To me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and it's all futile anyway, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much worse suffering at any moment as after all in existence there is no limit as to how much one can suffer and I see all suffering as so pointless. I personally could never see any point to suffering in this existence just to inevitably decay and deteriorate just to be tormented by old age rather I'd prefer to prevent suffering by ceasing to exist, nothing would ever make me wish for existence, I see existence as something that just causes harm that I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always only hoping for permanent sleep.
No matter what as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent sleep where there's no more pain and no more suffering, I just wish for all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me, I've suffered for far too long and I really never should have existed at all. In an existence so cruel and torturous eternal sleep truly would be the only relief for me, all I can hope for is a painless death to take all the suffering away but of course the suffering just continues instead with me trapped in this existence I never would have chosen, to me there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I could only ever see non-existence as desirable, I'd never wish for existence, it just feels like a cruel, terrible mistake that only death can bring me peace from, in this existence that just creates suffering all for the sake of it and just torments existing beings I truly will only ever hope for eternal sleep. It's the only relief for me, I was never meant for this existence and I just want to forget about it all, to fall into an permanent sleep really would solve everything for me, it'd solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself as after all without existence there is no suffering, only in eternal sleep will I be unable to suffer, there's just so much pain in this existence which is why I'll only ever hope to never wake again, I'd never wish to exist but rather I only hope and wish for nothingness.

 

[asthedayends00]

Do you plan to ctb?

Always only hoping for permanent sleep.
No matter what as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent sleep where there's no more pain and no more suffering, I just wish for all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me, I've suffered for far too long and I really never should have existed at all. In an existence so cruel and torturous eternal sleep truly would be the only relief for me, all I can hope for is a painless death to take all the suffering away but of course the suffering just continues instead with me trapped in this existence I never would have chosen, to me there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I could only ever see non-existence as desirable, I'd never wish for existence, it just feels like a cruel, terrible mistake that only death can bring me peace from, in this existence that just creates suffering all for the sake of it and just torments existing beings I truly will only ever hope for eternal sleep. It's the only relief for me, I was never meant for this existence and I just want to forget about it all, to fall into an permanent sleep really would solve everything for me, it'd solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself as after all without existence there is no suffering, only in eternal sleep will I be unable to suffer, there's just so much pain in this existence which is why I'll only ever hope to never wake again, I'd never wish to exist but rather I only hope and wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long.
It truly does, it terrifies me how the suffering this existence causes can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, human existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me, it's something I see as so deeply undesirable that just causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence but rather I just want nothingness, I wish for true, permanent peace from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what, the thought of suffering for so much longer in this existence just to be tormented dying in agony from old age is so horrific to me, rather I'd prefer to avoid such terrible pain and suffering no matter what.

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with this so harmful yet futile existence no longer my concern which is why it's all I'll ever wish for, I find it so painful to simply be conscious in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen which just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I just wish for non-existence to save me from all future meaningless suffering in an existence that just leads to even more torment and torture, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly even know death is all that can bring me peace from the suffering this existence causes and I find it terrifying how the suffering can continue for so long, I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I only wish for the absence of all suffering.

 

[asthedayends00]

It terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long.
It truly does, it terrifies me how the suffering this existence causes can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, human existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me, it's something I see as so deeply undesirable that just causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence but rather I just want nothingness, I wish for true, permanent peace from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what, the thought of suffering for so much longer in this existence just to be tormented dying in agony from old age is so horrific to me, rather I'd prefer to avoid such terrible pain and suffering no matter what.

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with this so harmful yet futile existence no longer my concern which is why it's all I'll ever wish for, I find it so painful to simply be conscious in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen which just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I just wish for non-existence to save me from all future meaningless suffering in an existence that just leads to even more torment and torture, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly even know death is all that can bring me peace from the suffering this existence causes and I find it terrifying how the suffering can continue for so long, I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I only wish for the absence of all suffering.

Do you plan on ctb? You've been on here a long time with posts and stuff

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and the suffering this existence causes is endless, personally I see existence as something so dreadful and hopeless, it just feels like such a terrible, tragic mistake to me that causes so much pain all for the sake of it. Ceasing to exist truly is always preferable for me than the pointless, meaningless suffering this existence causes, I'd always prefer to not exist than to prolong all the suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age.

I really was never meant for any of this and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all, there's jut so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me, no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist. I find it painful to simply be conscious and it's pain that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I truly was never meant for existence and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I see it as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence there cannot be any suffering which is all I hope for, I truly was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish for death, I only hope for death to save me from all future suffering.

 

[asthedayends00]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and the suffering this existence causes is endless, personally I see existence as something so dreadful and hopeless, it just feels like such a terrible, tragic mistake to me that causes so much pain all for the sake of it. Ceasing to exist truly is always preferable for me than the pointless, meaningless suffering this existence causes, I'd always prefer to not exist than to prolong all the suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age.

I really was never meant for any of this and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all, there's jut so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me, no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist. I find it painful to simply be conscious and it's pain that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I truly was never meant for existence and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I see it as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence there cannot be any suffering which is all I hope for, I truly was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish for death, I only hope for death to save me from all future suffering.

Will you ever reply to me?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering and harm.
It truly does which is why I only hope and wish for death as after all only in death will I be unable to suffer, only in death will all be gone for me and I can finally be at peace. To me existence itself truly is the most cruel, harmful tragedy that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it, in fact the pain this existence causes is endless and I see it as something so terrible to be conscious of it at all, I'll always find it such a futile, torturous burden to exist destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm.

I personally see existence itself as the problem as it's the source of all suffering and all I wish for is to be unable to suffer, I wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing and under no circumstances would I ever wish to exist but rather I just wish for death, I wish to never suffer ever again, I've suffered so much for so long and I was truly never meant to suffer in this existence. I'd always prefer to die than prolong this suffering, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me no matter what as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and I just find it horrific how existence causes such pain and suffering just torturing and tormenting existing beings, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, for me death truly is the only relief, only death can bring me peace from this existence so cruel and torturous.

 

[asthedayends00]

Stil

Existence just causes so much suffering and harm.
It truly does which is why I only hope and wish for death as after all only in death will I be unable to suffer, only in death will all be gone for me and I can finally be at peace. To me existence itself truly is the most cruel, harmful tragedy that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it, in fact the pain this existence causes is endless and I see it as something so terrible to be conscious of it at all, I'll always find it such a futile, torturous burden to exist destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm.

I personally see existence itself as the problem as it's the source of all suffering and all I wish for is to be unable to suffer, I wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing and under no circumstances would I ever wish to exist but rather I just wish for death, I wish to never suffer ever again, I've suffered so much for so long and I was truly never meant to suffer in this existence. I'd always prefer to die than prolong this suffering, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me no matter what as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and I just find it horrific how existence causes such pain and suffering just torturing and tormenting existing beings, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, for me death truly is the only relief, only death can bring me peace from this existence so cruel and torturous.

Do you plan to ctb? You post so much so I figured you must have an idea of a method or way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Lack of access of painless ways to die always feels so cruel to me.
Personally I see so much cruelty in how painless ways to die are made inaccessible with the focus being on prolonging all suffering that is so pointless and futile to me instead. All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace, I've already suffered for so long already and I'd never wish to suffer at all in this existence that I always just saw as such a cruel, tragic mistake in the first place.

For me personally non-existence is always preferable which is why I'm always wishing for acceptance towards the wish to permanently prevent suffering. It's just horrific to me how humans cannot have the option to be euthanised even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and this existence was imposed in the first place so I should be able to have the option to painlessly free myself from it. No matter what I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a human but rather I just wish for nothingness, peace for me truly could only exist in never suffering again, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long just to be tormented by old age and I just don't have any interest in suffering either, I wish it's accepted that some just don't want to suffer and would rather avoid existence instead, personally I find it tiring to simply exist and I'll always feel so tired no matter what.

 

[asthedayends00]

Lack of access of painless ways to die always feels so cruel to me.
Personally I see so much cruelty in how painless ways to die are made inaccessible with the focus being on prolonging all suffering that is so pointless and futile to me instead. All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace, I've already suffered for so long already and I'd never wish to suffer at all in this existence that I always just saw as such a cruel, tragic mistake in the first place.

For me personally non-existence is always preferable which is why I'm always wishing for acceptance towards the wish to permanently prevent suffering. It's just horrific to me how humans cannot have the option to be euthanised even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and this existence was imposed in the first place so I should be able to have the option to painlessly free myself from it. No matter what I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a human but rather I just wish for nothingness, peace for me truly could only exist in never suffering again, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long just to be tormented by old age and I just don't have any interest in suffering either, I wish it's accepted that some just don't want to suffer and would rather avoid existence instead, personally I find it tiring to simply exist and I'll always feel so tired no matter what.

How do you hope to achieve non existence? Do you plan to ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is the only peace for me.
No matter what the only peace for me could ever exist in eternal sleep and as long as I suffer in this existence it's all I'll hope and wish for, I'll only ever wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone for me. I've personally only ever wished for eternal sleep, in an existence so cruel and torturous that just causes existing beings to suffer eternal sleep truly would be the only relief for me.

It'd solve everything as after all if I'm sleeping permanently then I cannot suffer in any way and the burden of existence is no longer my problem and I'll always find it a burden to exist, it's one so futile to me that just brings suffering, personally I find it painful to simply be conscious, all I hope for is to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way. I wish for all to finally gone for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall asleep eternally, I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, the fact that I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again will always feel so horrible to me, I'm so tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen.