Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally be so relieved to cease existing.
I truly would be relieved to cease existing, all I wish for is to never suffer in this futile, torturous existence ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all I wish for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence no matter what. I was never meant to exist and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me and finally bring so much peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose.

Nothing no matter what would make me want to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for nothingness, ceasing to exist would be a relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me which is all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'd be relieved to be permanently free from it all, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me and is all I hope for, I'd never wish for any of this suffering and the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering, it's all just so painful and cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence could never be worth it for me.
It truly could never be worth it for me rather existence is something I just want peace from, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is forgotten, to me existence was never something desirable rather I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and torturous that there was never a need for that only caused and brought so much suffering all for the sake of it.

I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I find it tiring to simply exist, existence is just so unnecessary to me as well and I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence there was never a need for was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the imposition of existence rather I just want to not exist. Non-existence really is always preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only want to not exist, non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and could ever be. I've never had any interest in existing and I was just never meant for any of this either, I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I find it tragic how I was forced to suffer in this cruel, futile existence when never suffering at all was perfection, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why I'll only hope to not exist, peace for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity, I just wish to rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish this existence was never imposed.
I truly do wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never existing is true perfection to me, if I never existed it'd saved me from so much suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake.

To me existence itself will always be the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, I could personally just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to finally be gone for me, nothing would ever make me wish to be conscious of this existence rather I'd prefer to be unaware no matter what. I wish to be incapable of suffering with this futile, unnecessary existence no longer my problem, only non-existence could ever be positive to me as only then will I be free from this cruel, futile existence that was so tragically imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result. To me existence really is the most terrible tragedy and it's one I never wished for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I never would had chosen any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, the only relief for me truly could lie in never suffering ever again, I just find it so dreadful how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result when never existing was perfection, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally free from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this cruel, torturous existence with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it really is all just so dreadful to me, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I really would just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again. Existence to me truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for that I just hope to be permanently free from, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for as after all only in non-existence will I be safe from suffering and unable to suffer and there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence.

In fact to me existing really does feel like only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just so horrific to me how existing beings are tortured so much in this reality, there really is so much suffering in existing and the fact that this existence was imposed even know there was never a need for any of this truly is so dreadful. I'll always see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence one cannot suffer in any way which is why to not exist is all I hope for, I never wished to be burdened with this existence and never would do, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous unnecessary existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is all that's positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence truly is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope and wish for no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather I only wish for the peace of permanent sleep where nothing can concern me. To me existing really is just waiting to die and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, I only want to sleep permanently and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity, for me existence really is something I'd prefer to forget about that I'd just never wish for.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent, if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way which is all I hope for, I'd just never wish to exist and I'm always so tired of being conscious in this futile, torturous existence, it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me relief from and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again. To me existing really does just feel like only suffering and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence anyway, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me the peace I search for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again in this existence where I'm just waiting for death, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've existed for so long and I just never wished to suffer at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all anyway rather I just hope to sleep permanently and eternal sleep really is all I could hope for. I just wish for the peace of never existing ever again where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long and I just don't want to suffer at all.

I always find it so painful and tiring to exist and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, all I could ever wish and hope for is to finally fall asleep permanently, I'd just never wish for the burden of human existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist. Existence itself to me is the problem and no matter what I'd prefer to be unconscious of it than suffer all for the sake of it, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, to me existing really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence under any circumstances, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I really am always so tired of it all.

 

[blacksand]

Non-existence truly is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope and wish for no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather I only wish for the peace of permanent sleep where nothing can concern me. To me existing really is just waiting to die and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, I only want to sleep permanently and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity, for me existence really is something I'd prefer to forget about that I'd just never wish for.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent, if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way which is all I hope for, I'd just never wish to exist and I'm always so tired of being conscious in this futile, torturous existence, it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me relief from and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again. To me existing really does just feel like only suffering and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence anyway, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me the peace I search for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again in this existence where I'm just waiting for death, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die.

Eternal sleep. That's exactly what I crave. Just today I slept 5am to 3pm I couldn't even find the energy to sit up, just wanted to be dead to the world.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this futile, torturous existence, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist and non-existence truly is all I could see as desirable.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me just hoping to be gone, to me existence really is something so cruel and dreadful and I'll just always and only hope to not exist, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I can forget about this existence and this existence is finally no longer my problem. I only see non-existence as desirable, only non-existence can bring me any relief from suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, I was never meant to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep. I just want to never suffer ever again with all gone and forgotten about for me, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness that only non-existence can bring me any relief from, non-existence truly is the only peace for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll always find it such a burden to exist no matter what and it's a burden that just causes so much suffering and harm, non-existence is all I could hope for but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was never worth it.
It really was never worth it to me and I could personally never see existence as a desirable state no matter what rather it's something I just wish was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, futile existence more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I really will just hope and wish to be gone. I was never meant for any of this and I just have no interest in suffering in this existence, I wish I could just choose to fall into an permanent sleep and never suffer ever again as non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do, non-existence really is always preferable to me than suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age in this existence I just see as causing so much harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existence really is an abomination, I see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and I just don't see any value to suffering in this existence rather I just wish I never existed at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake. To me existence truly is the most terrible, harmful tragedy and nothing no matter what would make me wish to be burdened with this existence rather existence was just never worth it for me and I always suffer from how I cannot just fall asleep permanently and finally forget about it all, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself will always be the problem to me.
No matter what I truly will always see existence itself as the problem and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, to me existence is the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it. For me non-existence truly is always preferable and is all I'll ever hope for, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and always will do, all I could wish for is the peace of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way.

There are no disadvantages to not existing after all and I'd be relieved to finally be free from this existence, to me existence really is the most futile, torturous burden that I was never meant for and never would have wished for, I just wish I was never forced into this existence I always saw as the most terrible dreadful mistake. There's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all just so painful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep, I just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem, permanent non-existence truly is all I could hope and wish for, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I'll only be at peace once I never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for any of this.
I really was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself which is why non-existence really is all I hope for, I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where all is finally forgotten.

I was just never meant for something as cruel and futile as existing that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it rather I'm only meant to not exist, permanent non-existence really is all I wish for as I just find it so torturous to exist, I see existence as a burden and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from, I really was never meant for any of this and I just see nothing desirable about existing rather I just wish I was never forced to exist at all and I never should have suffered in this existence. To me existing really does feel like only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I personally just see no benefit to being enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway and if it's up to me I'd choose to completely erase my existence, I want it to be like I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, for me peace truly could only lie in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist really is all I could ever hope for.
It truly is all I could ever hope for and is all that can save me from all suffering in this futile, torturous existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, to permanently cease existing really is all that's desirable for me but of course I only see never suffering at all as true perfection and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any peace, I just find it a burden to exist and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from.

All I could ever hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing could ever concern me and this existence is finally all forgotten, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I find it so painful and cruel how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing in peace even know I never would had wished for and never would had chose to exist. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer and existing to me just feels like only suffering, I just find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, non-existence really is all I could hope for and could ever wish for, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering this existence causes is endless.
Existence truly does cause endless suffering and it's all just so terrible and painful to me, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most harmful, terrible mistake, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can ever bring me relief from, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues with me hoping to be gone.

Eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable and could ever be for me no matter what, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this futile and torturous existence. I really will always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, what terrifies me about existence is that there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they are enslaved in this existence and as long as I exist I truly will just hope to never exist ever again. I just finally want some peace from the endless cruelty and suffering of existing and it's peace that only non-existence could ever bring me, I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for it no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where finally I can be at peace, the only relief for me really could lie in never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting to die.
To me it truly is just waiting to die and that's all it could ever be no matter what, all I hope and wish for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, futile existence just continues, I never wished for any of this and never would do no matter what, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence and it's all I could personally see as desirable.

I just want to never suffer ever again and non-existence really is preferable to me than suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd just never wish to exist and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed even know to me existing really is just waiting to die because after all, all will be forgotten about in non-existence anyway and I cannot suffer from the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep. I personally just want to cease existing and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and to me existing really is just unnecessary suffering, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence, in fact I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope to not exist, to me human existence truly is the most futile burden that just leads to decay and death anyway and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never exist ever again even know death is all that's inevitable, to fall asleep eternally is all that can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from how I cannot just fall asleep permanently.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and as long as I exist eternal sleep really is all I could hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, eternal sleep would solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for and all I could ever wish for is peace from this cruel, torturous existence, all I wish for is to fall asleep eternally and be free from this horrific world.

It's just so terrible and cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I personally just hope for permanent relief from the burden of existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what, it's a burden so futile and harmful that just causes all this unnecessary suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep permanently. Eternal sleep really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible mistake of existence and I'll personally always see existence as a mistake no matter what, it's one so cruel that causes all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and as long as I exist I'll just wish for nothingness, peace for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again and I'd be relieved to be permanently free from this existence of pointless suffering that just leads to non-existence anyway, eternal sleep really is the only relief for me and I suffer from how I cannot just choose to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really am always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering, I'm so tired of this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen that I was unfortunate enough to be burdened with, I just wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty, as long as I exist I really will just wish to be gone, I just want to finally forget about this cruel existence I saw as just causing nothing but harm. Non-existence really is preferable to me than suffering in this harmful existence and is all I wish for, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where all is gone for me.
I'm always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

All I wish for is the relief of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, I just want peace from this existence I see as just causing endless amounts of suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway, non-existence really is all I could see as desirable and could ever do. I was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it either, as long as I exist I'll suffer and just wish to be gone, I just wish to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist again, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just want permanent relief from, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, I just want non-existence, I personally only see non-existence as positive, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It really is all just so terrible, cruel and painful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, existence to me really is the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I was never meant for any of this and I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence either rather I just wish for non-existence. Permanent non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake, existence itself to me is the true problem and I'm always so tired of having to suffer, I've always felt so tired and always will do no matter what, it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I just never wished for any of this and I find it so tragic how the burden of existence was even imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is my way to find peace.
It truly is my way to find peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want the peace of non-existence, I've never had any interest in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, the only relief for me truly could only lie in never existing ever again and I'd be relieved to finally cease existing.

It'd be such a relief to finally escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for as after all there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I hope for, to me existence really is something so cruel and painful. To me human existence really is only suffering, I just find it so terrible how this existence was even imposed even know never suffering at all was perfection and more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist, I see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I personally just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally no longer burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I could erase my existence.
I always wish I could erase my existence as I want it to be like I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence at all, the suffering this existence causes is endless with no limit as to how much one can suffer and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again. Being able to erase my existence really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace and relief from suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I just want it to be like I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish to exist.

I see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never suffering at all could ever be perfection for me, I just wish I was never forced into this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, under no circumstances would I wish for any of this. I personally see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and I just find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all, I personally just want some peace and it's peace that only ceasing to exist could bring me, I just wish for no more suffering, no more pain, I just want this existence to finally be all gone and forgotten about for me, I never should had suffered at all and as long as I exist I'll just hope for peace from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in this painful, torturous existence, it's all just so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway. To me existing really is just waiting to die, I just wish to be free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and as long as I exist I'll always just wish to be free from it all.

For me only non-existence is positive, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me, non-existence really is the only relief for me and I just hope to never exist ever again. Peace for me could only lie in this existence being all gone and forgotten and no matter what I'll prefer to forget about this existence, I just hope to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering where finally nothing can concern me, the only relief for me really could lie in being free from this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to finally fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much from existing.
I really do always suffer so much from existing and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me in non-existence anyway, as long as I exist I truly will just hope and wish to not exist, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally this existence I always saw as a mistake is no longer my problem and I can rest, for me peace really could only lie in non-existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just causes harm and suffering, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing because for me the true problem will always lie in existence itself and just existing is enough to make me wish for death, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me and it's all I'll hope for, I was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it. Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence that just causes me to suffer and no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, I just wish I was never burdened with this futile, torturous existence that just brings all this pain until non-existence takes away all anyway, I always suffer so much from existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, I was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for it no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is always just waiting for death.
That truly is what existing is to me, I'll always see existing as just waiting for death as after all, all will be finally all forgotten about in non-existence anyway no matter what with this torturous, futile existence no longer my concern, to me existence is ultimately so pointless, it all just leads to death anyway and I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again.

Non-existence truly is the only peace for me in this existence so cruel and torturous where there is all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and to be permanently unable to suffer really is all I personally see as desirable, I just want this existence to finally be gone, ceasing to exist really is always preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it just to be tormented by old age and die anyway. Non-existence is all that's positive to me and only in non-existence will I be free from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I personally just wish and hope to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the unnecessary suffering of human existence. I'd really never wish for any of this and I'd just never wish for this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway rather I just want to be permanently unconscious where nothing can concern me, I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more, I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just want peace instead and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all just so terrible and torturous to me and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence. Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until all is forgotten in non-existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist.

All I hope for is peace from this cruel, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I personally just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence truly is something so dreadful that just causes so much suffering and harm until non-existence takes away all anyway and I wish I could just choose to permanently escape from suffering, I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again in this existence I never would had chosen. The amount of suffering this existence causes is endless and beyond comprehension, existence itself will always be the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and to find permanent peace from the suffering is all I hope for, I was just never meant for any of this and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from all suffering, I'd just never wish for something as cruel and harmful as existence, I truly would prefer to not exist, the only relief for me really could lie in never existing ever again where all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me and I suffer simply from being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep permanently and eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any peace, I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was even imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I only hope for non-existence, ceasing to exist really is all I see as desirable and I'd be relieved to never suffer in this futile existence ever again, no matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace. I just wish for this unnecessary existence to be all gone and finally no longer my problem, for me existence itself really is the true problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway. To me existence really is the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I'd just never wish for, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake rather I just wish for nothingness, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me and is all I could hope and wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is peace to me.
It truly is peace to me as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, there cannot be any suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, I wish for non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist, peace for me could only lie in being unconscious for all eternity where this cruel, futile existence is all forgotten about.

To me existence really does feel like a dreadful tragic mistake and it's one that just causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I personally just want to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from this existence I just saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want some peace from the burden of existence and I'll always see it as the most torturous, unnecessary burden to exist, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and I'll only be at peace when this existence is all forgotten for me, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I just want to never exist ever again, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently with all gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
I truly will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence anyway, existence to me really is something so dreadful as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering. I see it as something so terrible to be forced to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

To me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake that just causes so much harm, I just find it really dreadful how this existence was imposed at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for this cruel, torturous existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. Existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me and simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death, I just want to finally be free from all suffering and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence, I wish I could just have the option to peacefully cease existing and I always suffer so much from how that is so harmfully denied for me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I was just never meant to suffer in this existence and simply just existing is always so dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of permanent non-existence, I'd personally be relieved to be free from the torturous, cruel burden of human existence but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues. It really is all just so painful and terrible to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this painful existence there was never a need for at all, I just wish this existence was never imposed and I really never should had been forced to suffer, to me existing will always feel like only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from.

Existence to me really is an abomination and the thought of being enslaved in this existence until old age truly is so horrifying to me, I always suffer from being denied the option to just peacefully die, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to never exist ever again even know this existence was so tragically imposed and I'd just never wish for any of this. I truly was never meant for the suffering of existing and I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is always preferable for me, no matter what I could only see ceasing to exist as desirable, only non-existence is positive for me as I'll finally be free from this existence I always saw as a terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ceasing to exist could ever be desirable to me.
It truly is all that's desirable to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, I personally see non-existence as always being preferable to suffering all for the sake of it in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting to cease existing anyway and no matter what I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist. I see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this undesirable existence ever again.

I just want to fall asleep permanently where all is finally forgotten for me and nothing can concern me, ceasing to exist is all I see as desirable as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as ideal which is non-existence, for me only non-existence is all that's positive as only then will I be no longer burdened with this futile existence that causes and brings all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll always find it such a burden to exist. It's a burden that only eternal sleep can bring me relief from and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just want to never exist ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just to end up in a situation of way worse torture, non-existence really would solve everything for me and is all I personally see as desirable but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, only never existing is true perfection to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence rather I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this torturous, painful existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and to me existence really is the most torturous, futile burden that just causes and brings all this suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist and non-existence really is all that could ever be desirable to me.

I really was never meant for any of this and I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so I can finally find peace from this torturous existence that was completely unnecessary that was so tragically imposed. I'd just never wish for the futile and harmful imposition of existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only ever wished for some peace.
I truly have only ever wished for some peace and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this cruel, futile existence is finally gone and no longer my problem, peace for me really ould only lie in non-existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

I'd just never wish for existence rather I see existence as the problem, it's the source and true cause of all futile unnecessary suffering after all and I'd be relieved to never exist ever again, permanent non-existence really is all I wish for and is all that can bring me the safety from suffering I search for. I really will only be safe from suffering once I'm no longer enslaved in this existence, I'd just never wish to suffer in this horrific reality rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, eternal non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

I just wish for the peace of permanent sleep where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues. Eternal sleep really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and never would wished for, I truly was never meant for the suffering of this torturous, unnecessary existence where existing beings suffer so much and I always find it so painful how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about this existence.