Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing I could just fall asleep permanently.
All I could ever wish and hope for is to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I'm no longer burdened with this existence and nothing in this cruel, futile existence could ever concern me, for me eternal nothingness truly is all I see as ideal and is all I hope for. I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course I'm denied such an option with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was imposed and I always suffer so much from the harmful, futile imposition of existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

I'd just never wish for any of this and I never would do no matter what, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just wish to not exist, eternal non-existence is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where this existence isn't my problem anymore and finally I can rest. I never wished to exist and I was never meant for any of this, I never should have been forced to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence at all, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep, existing truly is so painful for me, I'll only ever wish for non-existence no matter what, I just wish for this existence to finally be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself to me is always the true problem.
No matter what I really will always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, it's the ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and I'll always see it as so terrible and torturous to suffer in this existence that there was never a need for. The fact that this existence was imposed is a tragedy to me and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as after all existence itself is what I'll always see as the true problem and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I find it a burden to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and it's a burden so cruel and futile that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, for me non-existence truly is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable, I just wish for permanent safety and relief from all suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and existence really was never worth it for me. I'd just never wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing rather I just wish to not exist and I was never meant for any of this, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence and it's pain that only eternal nothingness could ever take away for me, I just wish and hope to sleep eternally, only eternal sleep can bring me peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it dreadful to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for the peace of permanent non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and I can rest, I just want to sleep eternally and finally forget about this existence but of course I continue to suffer. I just find it dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering and for me existence could just never be desirable rather I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile that just causes suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it.

I'll always and only wish for peace from this dreadful existence that just felt like a mistake to me, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I just want peace from, it's just so tragic to me how this existence was even imposed at all, to me existing really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from. I always have so much dread for what lies ahead and always will do as long as I exist, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, it's all just so dreadful to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this torturous existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this torturous existence, it really is just all so terrible, cruel and painful to me and I'd just never wish for this rather I just wish for non-existence. I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, it's just so cruel to me how even know existence itself causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer yet I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again as eternal non-existence truly is all I hope for and could ever do, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where this torturous existence is finally gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way.

No matter what I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence that there was never a need for at all, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could see as desirable, I just want to finally be at peace and for me peace could only ever lie in being permanently free from this torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing. I'll always find it so torturous to exist no matter what and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I really would just never wish for any of this, I just want all to be forgotten for me instead, to me existence really is an abomination and I just don't want to suffer at all, I only wish and hope for true permanent peace instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be an abomination.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as an abomination and it's one so cruel and harmful that just causes all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace from the terrible tragic mistake of existence.

I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this harmful reality capable of suffering to endless and unlimited extents, to me existence really is something that just causes harm, it's horrific to me how existence causes all this endless cruelty and suffering, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable, it's all that can bring me any relief from the cruel, torturous abomination of existence that causes an immense amount of harm. I'd just never wish for any of this and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I see it as something so terrible to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I only hope to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the safety from suffering I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting to die, existence to me really will always be an abomination, I could never see any benefit to any of this, I see existence as just being unnecessary suffering and cruelty that there was never a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this futile, torturous existence and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so much longer just to be tortured by old age, I just wish I never was forced into this existence. Never existing at all would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I always saw as completely unnecessary but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I really would always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering in this existence all for the sake of it that always felt like a mistake to me.

It feels like I've suffered for so long and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish and hope for is peace from the pain and cruelty of existing, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I personally just don't want to suffer at all rather I only wish for non-existence, only in non-existence can nothing concern me, only then is this existence finally no longer my problem and is all forgotten about and no matter what I truly would prefer to not exist. Nothing would ever make me wish for any of this, I just see existing as so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering even know it all just leads to non-existence anyway, I wish to escape from all suffering, peace from this existence really is all I could ever hope and wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing can matter in non-existence.
It's true that nothing could ever matter in non-existence as after all I'll be permanently unconscious unable to suffer in any way with this torturous, futile existence finally all forgotten about which is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again and finally forget about this existence. Non-existence is all I personally see as ideal and is all that could bring me peace, I just hope to permanently cease existing, I just wish for permanent relief from this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence really was never worth it rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious and unaware of this existence.

I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to be unaware for all eternity, the fact that nothing can concern me and matter to me if I don't exist is why it appeals to me, I'd always prefer the peace of never suffering ever again over waiting to die anyway in this futile existence, I see existence as a burden there was never a need for. I'll always see it as so burdensome to be conscious in this existence just hoping and waiting for death anyway and non-existence is all I could ever wish for, I'd be relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that could bring me any peace but more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist at all, I see existence as an unnecessary burden there was never a need for that just brought so much pain, suffering and problems all for the sake of it, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a burden to me.
No matter what I truly will always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and torturous that only ever caused me to suffer, I could only ever see non-existence as positive and I'd personally always prefer to not exist, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem for me and simply just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death. I'm always so tired of suffering, I'm always so tired of being conscious enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting to die, existence is just a burden so unnecessary that there was never a need for and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed even know never suffering at all was perfection and there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for peace, I wish for the peace of permanent non-existence where all is forgotten and I can finally forget about this existence I saw as causing only suffering. I don't see anything desirable about existing rather I see it as the opposite, to me existence is a burden and it's one I only hope for permanent relief from, I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for it either, nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering of this torturous existence that just brings so much pain all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping for eternal sleep.
All I hope for is the peace of eternal sleep and it's all I could ever hope for, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again and I'd personally be so relieved to be permanently free from this existence, eternal sleep is all I see as positive and is all that can bring me any peace from the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it, I'll only be at peace once I'm sleeping permanently.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence that there was never a need for, only eternal sleep could ever bring me the relief I wish for from the cruelty of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it. I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently than be burdened with this existence and eternal sleep is all I could ever hope for, I just wish for this existence to finally no longer be my concern, eternal sleep is the only relief for me, it's all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish for any of this and I was never meant to exist. I'm only meant for nothingness, I'm only meant to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and always will do, I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall asleep permanently and never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for any of this.
I truly was just never meant for any of this and I never should had been forced to suffer at all in this futile, cruel existence, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and it's something I'd never wish for, I was just never meant for any of this suffering and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. In fact to me existence itself is the true problem and always will be no matter what, non-existence certainly is always preferable for me than being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'm at peace from this existence I was never meant for, I truly will always see it as dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what, existence to me really was never worth it and I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. To me existence is just unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this existence I was never meant for that just caused so much suffering and harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could see as positive.
It truly is all I could personally see as positive, I just want to never suffer ever again, I see it as an abomination to be forced to suffer enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me. I'll always see non-existence as preferable to being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, only in non-existence is this painful, torturous existence finally forgotten about with nothing able to concern me.

For me the permanent absence of suffering could only ever be positive, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, to me existence really was never worth it rather it all just feels like a mistake to me and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I find it a tragedy having to suffer in this existence at all when never existing is perfection but now I suffer so much as a result of existence all I could hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep. To be permanently unconscious of this existence is all I see as desirable, for me being permanently unable to suffer could only ever be something positive, I just wish for the absence of existence where finally nothing can concern me and this futile, cruel existence where nothing can concern me is finally no longer my problem, there are no disadvantages to non-existence which is why it's all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me and I suffer just from existing, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist, non-existence really is all that could ever be desirable for me. There are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that I always saw as an abomination, I'll always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently with all finally forgotten about and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence than suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this deeply undesirable unnecessary existence. I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from all suffering and cruelty in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I really am always so tired of suffering in this torturous futile existence that I was just never meant for and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being enslaved in this existence.
I always suffer from being enslaved in this existence and to me human existence truly is enslavement, I find it the most terrible, horrific tragedy how this existence that just caused and brought all this suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed at all, I just wish I was never forced into this existence, no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that only permanent non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this torturous, cruel existence ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence.

I see human existence as enslavement as after all I was forced to suffer in this reality yet I cannot just have the option to just choose to simply cease existing in peace to finally escape from the cruelty and suffering of existing and to me existing really is just only suffering, I see it as suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for non-existence. Existence itself to me is always the true problem which is why I'll only wish for death no matter what, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is forgotten about, I truly never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this, I wish to just not exist and never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as a mistake.
To me existence truly will always feel like a mistake and it's one so futile and torturous that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I really will always see existence itself as the problem no matter what and it's something I just want permanent peace from, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me and always will do no matter what. I see existence as an abomination that causes harm and suffering, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just wish for the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can forget about this existence and nothing can concern me.

I personally truly will always prefer to not exist, this existence was a mistake to me and something I see as deeply undesirable in every way, I'll always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, without existence I cannot suffer in any way which is why to not exist is all I hope for. I find it so horrific how existence causes all this immense harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to be permanently free from it, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just find it so dreadful how I had to suffer even know there was never any need for any of this, I just want the peace of an eternal sleep, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[Hikari.]

I don't know you, but hello!

 

[sadalways]

Sorry to barge in, i know you asked to ignore this thread but the amount of posts makes me wish i could give you a hug. Existance is pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is denied for me.
I truly do always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering.

I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing in peace and never exist ever again but of course I exist in this reality where I cannot just have that option even know this existence was imposed in the first place and I'd never wish for any of this, non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake. I wish to just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence for me really was never worth it rather it's something I just want relief from and I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing in a painless way with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture and agony. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I was just never meant for the suffering and cruelty of existing and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, it'd save me from so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to not exist.
No matter what I'll always wish and hope to not exist and non-existence is all I could wish for, I just want to never suffer in this futile, torturous existence ever again but of course the suffering in this harmful, futile existence just continues and to me existing really is just only suffering, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again.

I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have been forced to suffer at all, I truly will always see it as deeply undesirable to exist and it's suffering that only non-existence can ever take away for me, I just want peace from the burden of existence and for me peace could only ever lie in eternal nothingness where finally all is forgotten, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it enslaved in this existence just hoping and wishing to cease existing anyway. Non-existence is the way for me to find peace and safety from suffering, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence that was so tragically imposed, non-existence really is the only relief for me, it's all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I can forget about this existence, I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just isn't worth it for me.
Existence really was never worth it for me and it's something I'd never wish for that I just hope for true permanent peace from, I'd just never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existence rather I just hope to never suffer ever again, no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could ever take away for me. In general I just see nothing appealing about existence and I have no interest in suffering in this existence rather existence just isn't worth it for me and I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, never existing truly would had saved me from all this unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather existence was never worth it for me and no matter what I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this existence, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering and to me existing really is just only suffering and I see none of this as being worth it for me rather I just see existence as a burden that there was never a need for at all and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence. I just don't want to suffer at all and in this existence there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway, to me human existence really is just pointless suffering, I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want nothingness, only eternal non-existence where I can finally forget about this existence could ever be desirable to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of existing.
I truly am always so tired of existing and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I really would always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this futile, torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death no matter what and I'm always so tired of it, simply just existing makes me feel tired and wish to not exist. I personally wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, being able to erase my existence really would solve everything for me in this existence so cruel and futile, I just wish for non-existence and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally non-existent with nothing able to concern me and this existence all forgotten about.

To me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, I really was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to be gone, I just want eternal sleep to take away my tiredness and bring me permanent safety from suffering. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as I'd just never wish for any of this, I find it deeply undesirable to exist and I was just never meant for the suffering and cruelty of existence as well, non-existence certainly is all that's positive for me and is all I could hope for, I just wish for this existence to finally be no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be safe from suffering in non-existence.
No matter what I truly could only ever be safe from suffering in non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious of this existence. To never exist ever again really is all I hope for, to me existence truly is the most torturous abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm all for the sake of it and I really would always prefer to be unaware of it, I see existence as a mistake and it's one so cruel and terrible, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this.

I don't want to suffer at all rather I wish to be unable to suffer, I just wish for permanent relief from the harmful burden of existence that causes an immense amount of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and what is so horrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get. It can all easily get way more tortuous at any moment causing so much more suffering as a result and only in non-existence will I be able to find peace from all this, I'll only be unable to suffer in non-existence and to me existing just feels like only suffering, there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to be non-existent, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is my peace.
It truly is my peace and is my way of finding peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for any of this and never would do no matter what, all I hope for is permanent relief from all cruelty and suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, for me existence itself is the ultimate problem which is why I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.

I just see it as a burden to exist and it's one so deeply undesirable and I was never meant for, I personally only hope and wish to not exist and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I've just never had any interest in the cruel, futile burden of existence and I've only ever hoped for peace, I always wish for the option to just fall asleep permanently, it really would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. Non-existence is peace for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten and for me eternal sleep really is all that's ideal, I just want to never wake ever again and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, for me existence really was never worth it, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for non-existence, non-existence is my peace and the way for me to find safety from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing a point to any of this.
To me existing really is completely pointless, I see it as just unnecessary futile suffering, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die as after all, all will be forgotten about in non-existence anyway and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I hope for. I just find it really tragic how this existence was imposed at all causing all this suffering as a result even know there was never a need for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist to escape from suffering in this futile existence I never would have chose and I see no point to but only never existing is true perfection to me, I'd always prefer to stay unaware and unconscious of this existence.

I just wish I never suffered at all and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I just see no point to any of this and I always suffer so much from how the option to just die painlessly is denied for me even know I see existing as just waiting to not exist anyway and it's all it could ever be to me. I'd always prefer to peacefully cease existing than prolong suffering all for the sake of it, I'd prefer to prevent suffering, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this pointless existence I never would had wished for and never would have chose, as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for this cruel, torturous existence.
I truly was never meant for this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is permanent peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing as I really was just never meant for any of this and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing. I just want to never wake ever again, to me existence really is an abomination, I see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering until all is forgotten about in non-existence anyway and to finally forget about this existence really is all I hope for.

I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace, relief and safety from suffering but of course all the suffering of existing just continues with me just hoping to be gone, non-existence really is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what, to never exist ever again really is all I'm meant for and I really would always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it. To me existing really is just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all, to be unconscious of this existence is all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me really is just an unnecessary harm.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, it's all just so painful and terrible to me and no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this. I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, it's just so terrible to me how existence causes all this immense harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is forgotten and finally I can forget about this torturous, harmful existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it.

I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for nothingness and it's so cruel and painful to me how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again even know this existence was so tragically imposed, I see it as so harmful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me. I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from this harmful existence that only ever caused me to suffer and to me existing really is only suffering, there's just so much suffering in this harmful existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd choose to erase my existence.
If it's up to me I really would choose to erase my existence as I want it to be like I never suffered in this futile, torturous at all, I just want to disappear from this existence and never suffer ever again, being able to permanently erase my existence really would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway. To me existence really was never worth it rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel existence rather I just hope for nothingness, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I've ever wished for.

For me existence itself is the ultimate problem and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence that just caused all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed at all, I see existence as the most harmful, futile imposition that causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway. I'd just never wish for any of this, rather I just want to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all and to me existing really does feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic harmful mistake, I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I want it to be like I never suffered at all in this existence.

 

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So tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away and bring me peace from, I just hope for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'll always find it the most cruel, futile burden to exist and it's a burden that only eternal nothingness could ever take away for me, I just want to sleep permanently but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden I wish was never imposed.

I see existence as the most torturous imposition that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake, there really is so much suffering and cruelty in existing and it's all just so dreadful, terrible and painful to me, I wish I could just choose to painlessly cease existing and finally forget about it all, I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten about for me. I wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, I'm always so tired of it all, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing with this existence finally no longer my problem, only non-existence could ever bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, I just wish I was never forced to suffer and for me only never suffering ever again could ever be desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing existence as completely undesirable.
No matter what I'll always see existence as completely undesirable and I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I'll hope for, I see existence as a burden and it's one I have no interest in that I was just never meant for either, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just hope and wish to be non-existent. I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this undesirable existence is no longer my problem, I just don't see any value, benefit and point to suffering in this existence rather this existence just feels like a mistake to me.

I see nothing desirable about any of this and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all that's desirable to me, it's all I see as positive, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I wish to be no longer burdened with this existence but of course the suffering of existing just continues and I suffer so much from how I cannot just free myself from this undesirable existence in peace and never exist ever again. I just wish for this existence to be all gone for me, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence I always saw as completely undesirable, to me existing really is only suffering, I see it as so burdensome to exist, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is painful to me.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, all I wish and hope for is an eternal sleep where finally this painful, torturous existence is finally all gone and no longer my concern, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

I just wish for this existence to be no longer my problem, I'm so tired of being conscious and I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and I'll suffer until non-existence takes away all for me anyway, I just want to finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most harmful, tragic mistake and this existence causes an immense amount of harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all so futile anyway. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, there's just so much pain in existing as well and it's pain that only eternal nothingness can bring me peace from, all I could ever hope for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering. I find it painful to suffer in this deeply undesirable existence I was never meant for and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just wish for non-existence instead, I wish for non-existence to bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this painful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I could just choose to never wake.
I always wish I could just choose to never wake, all I wish and hope for is to fall asleep permanently and never suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all harm and suffering where this existence is finally all forgotten and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.

Never waking would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief from suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die and to me existence really is just waiting for death, all will be forgotten about in non-existence anyway and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to save myself from so much suffering and no matter what I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up suffering way more and to me existence truly does feel like only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence. I personally only hope and wish to sleep permanently, eternal sleep would bring so much peace from this existence I never would had wished for and never would have chosen, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake ever again, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, the only relief for me really could lie in never suffering ever again.