Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It really is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tormented and tortured by old age, I'd personally just never wish for any of this, I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where all is finally forgotten about. To me existence itself really is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, it already feels like I've suffered so much for so long, to me human existence truly is an abomination and I just find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed that just causes suffering all for the sake of it.

There really was never a need for any of this at all and I find it so terrifying how the suffering of existing can continue for so much longer with one capable of suffering to unlimited extents just to decay and die anyway, for me existence is something so hopeless and completely undesirable, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I find it painful to simply exist, it's just so dreadful to me how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as all I wish for is to rest. I just want to never suffer ever again, I could just never see any benefit to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just want to cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all, I'd be so relieved to finally be free from the cruel, torturous burden of existing as a human.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly feels like I've suffered for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I really never should had been forced to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and suffering in this existence really is always so deeply undesirable to me. I just hope to be gone, I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where I'm free from all pointless suffering, I just hope and wish to be free from this existence but of course all the suffering just continues, I just find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all.

I just never should had been forced to suffer, to me existence truly is the most harmful, torturous abomination and it's just something I'd never wish for, I see existence as something so cruel that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how torturous it can all get. Existence to me really was never worth it rather I just want to forget about it all, I only hope for the peace of eternal non-existence, the only relief for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again and I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace in a guaranteed way to finally escape from the burden of existence, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist no matter what, nothing would make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I could never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could ever hope for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is all forgotten, I'd just never wish for any of this and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in general.

I'm just not meant for any of this either and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and I always suffer so much from how the option to just peacefully cease existing is denied for me even know I never would had wished for and never would have chose any of this in the first place. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for and is all that I could ever wish for. I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again and to me existing really is just only suffering, I'll suffer as long as I exist and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally this existence can be forgotten and I'm free from all suffering, I'd just never wish for any of this and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just an unnecessary harm.
It really is just an unnecessary harm to me and it's one that just causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so painful, dreadful and terrible and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it. I see it as so harmful to be forced into this existence of suffering all for the sake of it capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and what is so horrific to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get.

I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty in this futile, torturous existence just continues and I'd just never wish for any of this rather this existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'd be relieved to be permanently free from it. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where this existence is no longer my problem and finally nothing can concern me, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence I always just saw as an unnecessary harm, the amount of harm and suffering this existence causes really is endless, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I never suffered.
I truly wish I never suffered in this torturous, futile existence more than anything and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of eternal sleep, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, the fact that this existence was imposed is just so tragic to me, I see existence as the most harmful, terrible tragedy that just causes all this suffering and harm all for the sake of it, I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing in a peaceful way and finally forget about it all.

I'll personally always prefer to forget about this existence but really I wish I never suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is just so dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for this futile, painful existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me but I only see never suffering at all as true perfection, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for no matter what, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can ever take away for me. I just want to fall asleep permanently and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep with this existence finally all forgotten about, I was never meant for any of this and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I suffer so much because of the torturous, futile imposition of existence and I always find it so tragic how this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence can only bring me peace.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace from the cruel, torturous burden of existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent nothingness, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I could just never see any peace in this horrific reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer. I'll only hope to fall asleep permanently no matter what, for me existence really was never worth it and it's something I'd just never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering in this harmful futile existence, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I see as desirable.

I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten about, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for and peace for me could only lie in being permanently unconscious, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I wish to just fall asleep permanently, the peace of eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me permanent relief from this existence I never would have chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, non-existence certainly is all I hope for and is all I could ever wish for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and finally be at peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and brought me suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing existence as deeply undesirable.
No matter what I really will always see it as deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all rather I only hope for nothingness, I see no point, no benefit and no value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I just want the peace of non-existence, being able to peacefully cease existing would be the only relief for me and is all I could wish for.

I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence truly is all I could hope for and is all that can bring me any relief, I just see nothing desirable about existing in general rather it's the opposite to me, I see existence as the most torturous, futile burden that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so cruel to me, I've never had any interest in any of this. I'm just not meant for it either rather I just wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish for the suffering in this cruel existence, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is all I can hope for. I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existence truly is just waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for, as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it remove the source of all suffering which is existence itself, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I wish and hope for. As long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me, I see existence as the most torturous, futile burden and it's just something I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway.

For me existence was never worth it rather I see existence as an imposition that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for at all and I just wish this existence was never imposed, I find it a tragedy how this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering was forced at all and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence. Only ceasing to exist could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I never saw as desirable and I'd be relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all I could hope for, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how painless death is denied for me.
I really do always suffer from how painless death is denied for me and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer in this painful, torturous existence, it's just so cruel to me how even know this existence was imposed in the first place I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally find peace, relief and safety from suffering and to never suffer ever again in this existence truly is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to finally cease existing, it's just such a horrific world where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter as I'd just never wish to suffer at all.

I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of human existence that just leads to decay and death anyway rather all I hope for is to painlessly cease existing, I just wish for true permanent peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until all is gone in non-existence anyway, I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist. I see it as so dreadful how this existence was even forced at all and no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this, I just want to sleep eternally instead and the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep is all I could ever hope for. I wish there's the option to just fall asleep eternally, the only relief for me really could only lie in non-existence where finally all is forgotten and this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake is no longer my problem, I suffer from how I cannot just find peace from this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being trapped in this existence and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I personally just wish and hope to never suffer ever again but of course I wish this existence was never imposed. I always suffer so much because of the imposition of existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing even know this existence of unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel was forced in the first place.

To me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me, I never should have been forced to exist and I really was never meant for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist over all this suffering, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing in peace. I suffer from how the option to die painlessly is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, what is terrifying to me is how trying to die can go wrong and just lead to way worse suffering and torture as a result. I truly would never wish for any of this and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what, I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, peace from this existence truly is all I've ever wished and hoped for and is all I could ever do, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, I see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden and it's one I never would had wished for and never would have chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep eternally and never exist ever again. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, I always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to peacefully free myself from the burden of existing.

I just find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, permanent non-existence really is all I could wish for no matter what, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it wishing for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me. I truly am always so tired of it all and simply just existing is enough to make me feel tired and is enough to make me wish for death, I just want to never suffer ever again, the only relief for me really could lie in no longer being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the most terrible, tragic harmful mistake that just causes and brings suffering and I'm always so tired of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me always feels like a mistake.
It truly does feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's all just so cruel to me, existence really was something I never would have chosen. I wish I was never forced into this existence that brings all this pain and in general I just see it as deeply undesirable to exist, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone, I'd always prefer to be unconscious of this existence I always saw as a mistake no matter what.

To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and what is so horrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless, I'd just never wish to exist, for me existence is a mistake that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, existence itself will always be the true problem to me that only non-existence can solve for me. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me, it's all I hope for and all I personally see as positive, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.
I truly do suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep and never exist ever again, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence is finally all forgotten and nothing could ever concern me, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist and I always see non-existence as preferable for me. In this existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty I could only ever see ceasing to exist as desirable, I just hope to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this torturous existence, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want eternal sleep.

I'd always prefer to sleep permanently as I just want peace and peace from the dreadful burden of human existence that I always saw as so undesirable and I was never meant for is all I need but of course I never should had suffered at all, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want non-existence. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse suffering and agony as a result. Eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief from this existence I never would have wished for, I just wish for the peace of non-existence, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with this existence no longer my problem, non-existence really is all I could see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me non-existence is all that's desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable and could ever do no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of unnecessary suffering, I just want to fall asleep permanently but of course I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong.

It's all just so cruel, painful and terrible to me and I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just hope for the peace of an permanent sleep instead where all is gone and forgotten, I only see non-existence as desirable as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can forget about this existence I always saw as a mistake. There's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible to me, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way as well and I'd never wish for any of this. I never would have chosen to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just want nothingness, I could personally never see any point, benefit and value to being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway rather I just want to be gone, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and to never suffer ever again really is all I see as desirable, I never should had been forced to exist at all, I really was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I'd personally be so relieved to cease existing as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me. If I'm gone then this torturous, futile existence is no longer my problem which is all I wish and hope for, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable and could ever do no matter what.

I was never meant for any of this and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I personally just want to never exist ever again, the only relief for me truly could lie in non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and as long as I exist I'll just hope to fall asleep permanently. I just wish for an eternal sleep where this existence is all forgotten about, peace from this existence has been all I've ever hoped for and ever could do, I just wish to never suffer in this existence ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I always find it so dreadful how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence, I see existing as just being unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and I'll always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

I see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, existence for me really was never worth it rather I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only non-existence could bring me relief from, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen. Nothing would ever make me wish for any of this and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this dreadful existence is finally all forgotten and nothing can concern me, I just want to never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for something as dreadful as existence that just causes all this harm, cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I could erase my existence.
I always wish to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all in this torturous, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather I'll always see it as an abomination to exist. I see existence as something so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this harm all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, being able to erase my existence truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much peace from this existence I never would have wished for.

I never would have chose any of this rather I just wish to be non-existent, I just want some peace from the cruel, futile burden of existence and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just wish not exist for all eternity and I'll only be at peace once I finally cease existing but only never existing is true perfection for me. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want all to finally be forgotten about for me, only ceasing to exist can bring me the relief I search for, I really was never meant for the harmful burden of existing as a human and it's something I'd just never wish for, the way I see it existence only causes harm and suffering, it's all just so painful and terrible to me, I'll always see existence as the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is my way.
It truly is my way to find peace and safety from suffering, it's my way to find permanent relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again, to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence really is all I could wish and hope for.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me, I just wish to be free from this futile existence that to me is only suffering, I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most dreadful tragic mistake just to suffer way more, it's just horrific to me how a human can be conscious for so long capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I'd just never wish for any of this cruelty and suffering. I just want to never exist ever again, I'll only be safe from all suffering once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in general rather I just want to cease existing and never suffer ever again, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and could ever be no matter what but more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence causes endless suffering.
It truly does cause endless suffering and it's so horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, to me existence truly is an abomination. I see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I wish and hope for.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place causing all this harm and suffering as a result, what terrifies me is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to worse suffering as I just don't want to suffer at all, I only wish and hope for non-existence instead. I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing could ever concern me, for me non-existence truly is the only relief from the suffering and torture of existing, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just waiting to die anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see it as so tragic how this existence was imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to sleep eternally.
No matter what eternal sleep truly is all I could ever hope and wish for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me just wishing to be gone, eternal sleep really is all that's positive and desirable for me, I see existence as a burden that was so tragically imposed that there was never a need for that just causes all this suffering, harm and cruelty all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I really would never wish for any of this rather I only hope for eternal nothingness, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity where this futile, torturous existence is finally all gone and no longer my problem and I'll only be at peace once I'm sleeping for all eternity, I just want to never exist ever again but I really never should had been forced to suffer at all. Nothing would ever make me wish to be burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any relief as only then can nothing concern me and is this existence I always saw as a mistake finally no longer my problem. I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me and I suffer from how I cannot just fall into an eternal sleep to free myself from the burden of existence, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with nothing able to concern me, non-existence is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for any of this.
I really was never meant for any of this and I really never should have suffered at all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence and nothing can concern me, I just want permanent peace from the cruel, torturous burden of human existence where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all anyway, I just want to never suffer ever again.

To me existing is just so painful, so cruel and futile and as well as that I find it so undesirable to exist in general, I see existence as a burden I'm always so tired of that has only ever brought me suffering and I just don't want to suffer at all rather I only hope and for non-existence, non-existence is all I'm meant for and is all I could hope for, I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again. To me existence really was never worth it rather it's something I only wish for true permanent peace from, I see existence as the most torturous burden that there was never a need for and I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it. To me existing really is only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's suffering that non-existence can take away for me, I just want to peacefully cease existing with this existence finally all forgotten about me, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could see as desirable no matter what.

 

[WanderingTiger]

I've read some of your messages, and I can deeply feel how much you suffer with this existence, and I understand that. It is frustrating to think that we are forced into all of this without any way out, while people always seem to view everything with such positivity. I truly hope you find the peace you are seeking

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wish to forget about this existence.
I just wish and hope to finally forget about this existence, all I wish is for this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake to finally be all gone and forgotten about for me. I see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem.

I truly will only be at peace once I never suffer ever again and to not exist really is all I see as desirable, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just wishing to fall asleep permanently, I wish I could just choose to never exist ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep. To sleep permanently really is all I could wish and hope for, I was never meant for the suffering of existing and I'd just never wish for any of it rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about that I'd just never wish for, I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally all forgotten about for me. I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, for me existence truly was never worth it, I just wish for the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm free from all unnecessary suffering and cruelty and to me existing will always feel like only suffering, it's suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I truly am always so tired and it's tiredness that only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I hope for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can forget about this existence, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I've never wished for the burden of existence. I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what, it's one that only non-existence can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I saw as just being a mistake causing all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is just only suffering.

I'll suffer as long as I exist and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, existing to me truly is just waiting to die and I suffer so much from waiting for death in this futile, torturous existence I never would have chose that I was just never meant for, nothing would make me wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to fall asleep permanently. I just wish for peace from the burden of existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what, it's one so cruel and painful that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it, I wish I could just choose to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There truly is so much pain in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, painful existence I always saw as completely unnecessary that just caused all this suffering and harm, existing to me really is deeply undesirable in every way and I'd just never wish for any of this. I don't want to suffer at all rather I just want some peace instead and for me peace truly could only lie in an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me, I just wish for this painful existence to be all gone for me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there is no suffering in non-existence.

There's no disadvantages to being unconscious for all eternity rather ceasing to exist is all I personally see as ideal and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of suffering and cruelty, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain I was never meant for, to me existence itself will always be the true problem that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. To me existence really was never worth it, I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep, as long as I exist I truly will only hope and wish to never wake ever again, I just want some peace from all the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so undesirable to exist.
I truly do always find it so undesirable to exist and always will do, I see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, it's just something so painful, dreadful and torturous and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering.

I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's one so cruel that just causes all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway with no limit as to how much one can suffer. In general I'm just not meant for any of this, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to finally free myself from this undesirable existence in peace as non-existence really is all I hope for, it's all I personally see as desirable and positive. I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence really would solve everything for me and bring me peace from this deeply undesirable existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, never existing truly would had saved me from so much suffering, I'd just never wish to exist as I find it so undesirable to exist and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is an escape from suffering.
It truly would be an escape from suffering for me and I'm always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence, all I personally hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of unnecessary suffering that always felt like a mistake to me. I could just personally never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, no matter what I truly would prefer to forget about this existence I see as just causing harm and suffering, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering.

Non-existence really is all that could ever bring me the peace I search for in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, it's all just so cruel to me and unnecessary, existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and for me non-existence is the escape from all this, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again. I just want peace from the pointless unnecessary suffering of existing, non-existence is all I hope for as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent, if I'm gone I cannot suffer which is all I could ever wish for, I really was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I really will just hope for an escape from suffering, I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant to suffer in this reality.
I really was never meant to suffer in this reality and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for as only then is this cruel, torturous existence finally all gone and no longer my concern, existence really will always be completely undesirable to me. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for any of this, non-existence truly is always preferable to me than being conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but only never suffering at all is true perfection for me, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is only suffering, it's all just so painful and dreadful to me and I always suffer so much from how the option for me to just cease existing in peace is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I'd just never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and in general I find it such a burden to exist, it's a burden so futile and undesirable that I'd just never wish for, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from the pain of existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to never suffer ever again.
To never suffer ever again in this futile, torturous existence really is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer. I'd never wish for any of this and never would do, I see existence as the most torturous, unnecessary abomination that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so painful, cruel and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, non-existence is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me the peace I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.

To me human existence really does feel like a mistake to me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all, I really will only be at peace once I'm incapable of suffering and finally free from this existence. I just want to permanently stop suffering and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to, the only relief for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again, I was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it no matter what, I just wish for this existence to finally be all gone for me, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering at all rather I just want to finally be at peace, I just want to rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force.
No matter what I really will always see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong with their being no acceptance towards the choice to permanently cease existing, I'd just never wish to exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know to me existing really is just waiting to die and I never would have chose any of this in the first place. Ceasing to exist is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing on my own terms to escape from suffering as after all if I don't exist then nothing can concern me and for me it'll be like I never suffered at all.

I personally just want peace from the futile, torturous burden of human existence and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for was even imposed at all even know there were never any disadvantages to not suffering, as long as I exist I truly will only hope for non-existence. I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten, I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, it's so terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel and I see it as all so unnecessary anyway, I just want to not exist and finally forget about it all, for me existence is something deeply undesirable in every way and simply existing is enough to make me wish for death.