Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[WanderingTiger]

How much suffering, I really agree, and it's very sad how everything in this existence is futile and unnecessary, and we don't have the option to leave without suffering. I hope you find your peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering and harm.
It truly does just cause so much suffering and harm, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence as after all if I'm gone then nothing in this futile, torturous existence can ever concern me and finally I can be at peace, all I personally hope for is to be permanently free from this existence, to me existence itself really is the true problem.

I'll always see existence as an abomination that causes all this unnecessary suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd prefer to not exist as only then an I safe from suffering, to be permanently unable to suffer really is all I see as desirable, I just wish for this cruel, harmful existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, existence to me really does feel like a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existence itself will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and harm ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering. Non-existence really is the only peace for me, only in non-existence will I finally be free from the futile, cruel burden of existing as a human that I never would have chosen and never would wish for under any circumstances, I was just never meant for any of this, I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to exist and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from all suffering, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's the only peace for me from this existence so cruel

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this futile, torturous existence is finally all forgotten about, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist. Non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existence really is just waiting to die, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering even know this existence was so tragically imposed.

I really will always see existence as the most dreadful imposition that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and if I'm asleep for all eternity then none of this can concern me rather all will be gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence rather I wish I never suffered at all. Peace for me really could only ever lie in eternal sleep and to sleep permanently is all I could wish for, I was just never meant for any of this and I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem which is why I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally, eternal sleep truly is all that can personally bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.
I truly would be so relieved to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again, non-existence really would be the only relief for me in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it.

Ceasing to exist really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from the suffering of existing, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I could hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me relief from, non-existence is all I've wished for and could ever do no matter what, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just wish for permanent relief from. Non-existence would be a relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of non-existence, all I hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again. I really will only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of unnecessary suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, I truly was never meant for the suffering of this existence I never would had chosen in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just so tired of it all.
I truly am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering but of course all the suffering in this dreadful, futile existence just continues with me hoping to sleep permanently, all I could hope for is an eternal sleep where I can finally forget about this existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence.

The only peace for me really could lie in never suffering ever again and I see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, only non-existence can bring me any relief in this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there are never a need for, in fact to me existence itself will always be the true problem and I find it tiring to simply exist. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I was never meant for just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I wish I could just choose to cease existing in peace to save myself from all futile, unnecessary suffering and I'd just never want to suffer in this existence, I only hope for the peace of non-existence instead and I'll only be at peace once this cruel, torturous existence is finally all gone for me, no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for any of this, I just hope for non-existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself to me always the true problem.
To me existence itself will always be the true problem and it's just something I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering. I really will always see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as I see existence itself as always the true problem, to me existence really is the most terrible mistake that just causes all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for any of it rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from the suffering of this torturous, undesirable existence and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could bring me peace from. I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me, the only relief for me really could only lie in never existing ever again, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, existence is the problem to me and it's a problem only non-existence can bring me relief from, non-existence is all I personally see as positive.