Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of this torturous existence.
I truly am always so tired of this torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me, to me existence truly does just feel like a terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this, I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered in this existence at all and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish to exist rather I just wish for permanent non-existence, to never exist ever again really is all I see as desirable and I'd be relieved to be free from the torturous burden of existence, for me existence really could never be worth it rather I just hope for non-existence, I only hope to permanently cease existing. I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just wish for peace from all the suffering of existing and only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of unnecessary suffering that I never would had wished for and never would had chose in the first place, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence that I was never meant for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be relieved to never exist ever again.
I truly would be relieved to never exist ever again, in this existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty non-existence truly is the only relief for me and is all that can bring me any peace, I just wish for the peace of permanent sleep where all is gone and forgotten about. All I personally see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this torturous, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way which is all I wish and hope for.

I just wish for an permanent sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem, all I wish for is to never exist ever again and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from all the suffering, it's just horrific to me how existence just causes all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I really would never wish for any of this no matter what, non-existence really is the only peace for me, I just want peace from the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human that was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence truly is always preferable, it's all I could ever hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
I truly would never wish for any of this and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I wish I never suffered at all more than anything and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just hope for non-existence instead. In this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence is all I could wish for, in fact to me existing really does feel like only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, cruel existence.

Nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this and I never wished to exist in the first place, to me existing really will always be deeply undesirable in every way and I'd never wish for this existence I just saw as causing all this suffering and harm until non-existence takes away. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, I was just never meant for any of this and I see it as deeply undesirable to exist as well. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, eternal sleep truly is all I personally could ever wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence, non-existence really is all I see as positive, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that can bring me any peace.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace, all I wish and hope for is peace from this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existence just continues, it's all just so painful and terrible to me and I really would never wish for any of this. I just want to fall asleep permanently instead, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is gone for me, I just wish for non-existence as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about.

To me existence itself really is the true problem and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I never would had chosen, I really was just never meant for any of this suffering and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again. Non-existence really is all I wish for and could ever do and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering only permanent non-existence could bring me peace and relief from, I could personally never see any peace in the cruelty and suffering of existing where I'm just waiting to cease existing anyway, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want all the suffering to finally be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way. There is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, just being conscious in this existence is such a tiring, torturous futile burden to me and I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to fall asleep permanently, I could just never see a point to existing as well rather I just want to finally forget about it all.

Only permanently ceasing to exist could ever be desirable for me and is all I wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I could ever hope for is to be permanently unconscious and incapable of suffering. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, for me existing really could never be worth it rather it's something I just want to be finally all gone for me, I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, all I wish for is peace from this existence and I suffer so much from how that is denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

No relief in existence.
To me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence can ever bring me relief from, in an existence so cruel and torturous only non-existence can bring me any peace and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just hope to fall asleep permanently. In an existence where there's all this endless cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non- existence really is all I'll hope for and I always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever take away for me, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and no matter what I'd just never wish to exist, I really was never meant for the suffering of existing.

I find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to be gone, I truly am so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, to be permanently free from all suffering is all that I personally see as desirable. I just want to fall asleep permanently and I suffer so much from how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this existence that was so tragically imposed is denied, I just want to never suffer ever again, the peace I search for is such that only non-existence could ever bring me, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence I personally always saw as such a cruel, terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is preferable for me.
It truly is preferable for me than suffering in this existence and to permanently cease existing really is all I could hope for no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, I really would prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about which is all I hope for. I only see permanently ceasing to exist as desirable and I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake ever again and to me existing truly is only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, unnecessary existence, I really would never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to fall asleep permanently.

Existence itself to me really is the true problem causing all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for until non-existence takes away all anyway and no matter what I'll only wish to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway. The suffering this existence causes really is endless, it's all just so dreadful to me, I really would always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I see existing as just being only suffering, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, I just want all to be finally forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It really is just so harmful causing all this cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, no matter what I really would never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather I just hope for nothingness, I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone, forgotten and nothing can concern me. To me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this harm until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope and wish for is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how existence causes all this harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me existence really could never be worth it rather it's something I just wish and hope for permanent peace from. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, for me non-existence truly is the only peace from this harmful existence, I'll always see existence itself as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it until all is gone in non-existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it truly is so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for it no matter what. Existence to me really is the problem as it's the source of all cruelty and suffering after all and all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this torturous unnecessary existence I never would had wished for and never would have chosen, it's all just so cruel and painful and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, I just hope for non-existence and I'll only be at peace once all is finally gone and forgotten for me, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination that just causes so much harm, I'd just never wish for this cruel existence rather I wish this existence was never imposed, I always suffer so much because of the imposition of existence. It's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, it's all I hope for, it's all I see as desirable, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous futile existence I never would had chose, nothing would ever make me wish for this cruel existence, I just wish for the peace of permanent non-existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and wishing for the peace that only eternal non-existence can bring me. I personally just wish and hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues and I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to face way worse torture capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, it's horrific to me how existence just causes all this endless agony with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just want to sleep permanently, only being permanently unable to suffer is desirable for me, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from all the suffering in this existence I'd never wish for and never would have chosen. I really was never meant for any of this as well and I just find it so dreadful how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the suffer of existing and it's always just so painful to me how the suffering can continue for so long, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so finally I can be at peace, for me peace truly could only ever lie in non-existence where all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I truly wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll hope to never suffer ever again, the fact that this existence was even imposed at all really is the most terrible, cruel tragedy to me and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, never existing at all really is all I see as true perfection. I'd just never wish for the cruel, futile imposition of existence and I wish I never existed as it'd saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, no matter what I'd prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence, I wish I never suffered at all.

I see it as so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed, I really was never meant for any of this as well. Existence to me will always feel like a mistake that causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering and I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me, I personally just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once this cruel, torturous existence is finally all forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and permanent non-existence really is the only peace for me, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this futile, torturous existence just continues. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, the only peace for me could lie in never suffering ever again, to permanently cease existing really is all I hope for and is all I personally see as desirable.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake rather no matter what I'd prefer to avoid existence, I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone for me and I can rest, I personally just want to never exist ever again and I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to suffer way more, I'd just never wish to exist under any circumstances and I find it deeply undesirable to exist. To me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious on this cruel, torturous existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in existence and peace is all I've ever hoped for, I jusr wish for non-existence, the only relief for me really could only lie in finally being free from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I was just never meant for any of this and would never wish for it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of forcing suffering.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong even know this existence was so tragically imposed and it all just leads to death anyway, all I personally hope for is the peace of non-existence I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again but of course I exist in this reality where I'm so cruelly denied the option to just cease existing in a peaceful way. It really is all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I suffer just from existing and existing to me really does just feel like only suffering, all I see as desirable is non-existence and if it's up to me I'd choose to just never wake ever again.

All I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me and no matter what I'd prefer to forget about this torturous, futile existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering, I just wish this existence was never imposed more than anything. I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence that just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it was forced in the first place, I really just wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I was just never meant for any of this, to me existence itself really is the true problem and it's a problem only non-existence could bring me relief from, I just wish for the relief of permanent sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this torturous, harmful existence.
There really is so much cruelty in this torturous, harmful existence and it's all just so terrible to me, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, existence to me really does just feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes all this endless suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, all I wish for is the relief of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and this existence is no longer my concern, it's just so terrible to me how existence causes all this suffering torturing and tormenting existing beings and I'd just never wish for any of this, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and permanently unable to suffer which is why to permanently cease existing really is all I hope for. I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I'll always find it so torturous to exist, I see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes all this harm and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as desirable as only then will I no longer be burdened with this existence, I just want to rest, I just want to never suffer ever again, in an existence so cruel and futile eternal sleep really is the only peace for me, I'd be relieved to be free from the cruelty of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is always just waiting to die.
I truly do just see existing as waiting to die and it's all that it could ever be to me no matter what as after all, eventually all will be gone and forgotten about in non-existence anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable. I personally just want to never suffer ever again and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this futile, torturous existence that always felt like such a mistake to me, I personally see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the cause of all suffering and source of it and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence.

To me existence really is the most cruel, unnecessary burden that just brings all this suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway and as long as I exist I truly will just wish for peace from all the suffering, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten and no longer my problem. I'd always prefer to forget about this existence, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, for me personally eternal non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief, I just wish for the relief of an dreamless, permanent sleep where all is finally gone, I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so harmfully denied even know to me existing really is just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I never would had chosen

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence causes endless suffering.
It truly does just cause endless suffering which is so terrible to me, no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again. Existence itself to me really will always be the true problem that just causes all this endless suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep where finally I'm free from all suffering, I just wish and hope to never wake ever again, to me existence really is the most torturous, cruel abomination that just causes so much harm until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway.

For me eternal non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again, existence really does feel like a terrible mistake to me and always will do no matter what, I'll always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this cruel, torturous existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I wish for is non-existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to free myself from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty in peace, to me existence really is an abomination and it's one so harmful and torturous, for me personally non-existence is all that is desirable, I only hope to be free from the endless unnecessary suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep permanently, in an existence where there is all this endless suffering non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I wish for, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I really would be so relieved to finally be free from this existence.

I'm always so tired and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from and for me non-existence really is the only relief, all I wish for is permanent peace from the suffering of existing. To me existing really is only suffering and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake again but of course more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer at all and to me existing really does feel like only suffering, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just hope for nothingness. I just hope for peace, I really was never meant for this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering that just causes existing beings to suffer so much until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway, to me existing truly is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I could just never see a point to any of this, nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much with no limit as to how much agony they can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrific how existence causes all this suffering.
I see it as so horrific how existence causes all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for non-existence. Only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious of this existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

To me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, the only peace and relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, to me existence really does feel like the most dreadful, cruel mistake and I just wish I was never forced to suffer. Nothing would ever make me wish for any of this no matter what, existence itself to me will always be the true problem and it's just something I only hope for true permanent peace from, I really will only be at peace once I never exist ever again, for me this existence that just caused all this suffering and harm really was never worth it and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all, as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me and to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I hope for, I truly just want to never exist ever again.

To me existence really is the most futile burden that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get just for one to decay and die anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for non-existence, only non-existence could ever bring me any peace. I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, it's tiredness only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me relief from, for me existence itself will always be the true problem no matter what, I just want peace from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer and I'll always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it where I'm just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway, I really was never meant for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how the option to die painlessly is denied for me.
I truly do always suffer from how the option to painlessly cease existing is denied for me and as long as I exist I really will just wish to never suffer ever again, I just want peace, I just want to fall asleep eternally, dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about really would solve everything for me and is all I could hope for. I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it truly is all just so dreadful and painful to me.

I'd never wish for any of this and I find it so horrific how we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway and this existence was imposed in the first place and I always find it so tragic how this existence that just caused and brought all this unnecessary suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally free myself from the imposition of existence with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse torture and suffering as a result. I personally just hope for some peace from the suffering of existing and I'll only be at peace once all is finally gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I just hope to sleep permanently instead, eternal sleep is the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
For me no matter what existence itself will always be the problem and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, to me existence itself is the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never exist ever again. Only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to permanent non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me personally.

I'll always see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I really was never meant for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence and if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, for me existence itself will always be the problem and it's a problem I saw as completely unnecessary in the first place. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and for me simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just want to fall asleep permanently, for me eternal sleep really is the only relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really was never worth it for me.
It really was never worth it for me rather it was something I wish was never imposed more than anything, I wish I never was forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I could personally never see existence as a desirable state rather I see it as something that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never suffer ever again, I was just never meant for any of this and I could just never see existence as worth it, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I just want peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing and to me existence really does feel like only suffering, I could never see any point, value and benefit to suffering in this existence rather I just want to forget about it all. I just want all to be forgotten for me, I could personally never see existence as worth it rather I see it as an unnecessary harm that causes and brings so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I was never meant for and nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this. I just want to fall asleep permanently instead, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and relief for me in this futile, undesirable existence that just brings so much pain, non-existence really is all I can hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly does terrify me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would never wish for any of this suffering rather I only hope and wish for non-existence. I just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, to me existence itself truly does feel like the most terrible mistake, I see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

For me eternal sleep really is always preferable to suffering all for the sake of it enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a peaceful guaranteed death to escape from the torturous burden of existing as a human as I really would never have wished for any of this and I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from. All I could ever hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age and cease to exist anyway, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could ever hope for no matter what, nothing would make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Dread of existing.
I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this futile, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep, I just hope and wish to fall asleep eternally, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful existence I personally always saw as a mistake, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish to be gone.

I find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence and I'll always find it so torturous to exist and what is so painful and terrible to me is how it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment causing way worse torture and agony as a result, it really is all just so horrible to me. I suffer so much from being denied the option to just never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for, I always find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this, I just wish for eternal non-existence instead, eternal sleep really is the only peace for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep permanently, non-existence truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I really would just never wish for any of this. I only want to not exist instead, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, I was just never meant for any of this as well, I just find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all and I always suffer just from being conscious in this existence.

As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep eternally, nothing would make me wish for this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering that there was never a need for at all, I just want to not exist instead and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what. I just find it so dreadful how this existence that caused all this cruelty and harm was even imposed at all and I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, if I had the option to just fall asleep permanently it'd be such a relief for me and it'd bring me so much relief from suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish to be gone, I just want to never wake ever again, I just want peace from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this torturous painful existence that always felt like a mistake to me personally, I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until all is gone and forgotten for me in non-existence anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I see as desirable. I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal sleep over suffering in this futile, torturous existence and to me existing will always be only suffering, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence.

I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the burden of existence rather I just wish and hope for nothingness, I really will only be at peace in eternal sleep, I personally see existence itself as an abomination and the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way. It's just so dreadful to me how this existence causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I really would just never wish for the suffering of existing, all I wish for is eternal sleep instead, I wish for permanent peace from the suffering of this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence and I'd always prefer to not exist, existence really was never for me and I see it as the most tiring, painful burden to exist as a human capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, for me non-existence really is the only peace, I'm so tired of being conscious in this existence I just never would had chosen and I was just never meant for any of this as well.

Non-existence really is always preferable to me and is all I see as desirable and more than anything I just wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced into this existence that causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem and I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I really just see existing as waiting to die. It's just futile, unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I'd be so relieved to finally be at peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just wish and hope to avoid, only eternal non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from the suffering of existing, I only wish for some peace, I never should had been forced into this torturous existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is ideal for me.
No matter what I could only ever see non-existence as ideal for me, it's all I hope and wish for as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I personally just want to never exist ever again and the only peace for me could lie in being permanently free from all suffering.

Non-existence is all that's ideal for me as it's the only relief for me from the torturous, futile burden of human existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being unconscious for all eternity, in non-existence this cruel existence is finally no longer my problem which is all I hope for, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age in this existence I always saw as completely undesirable. To me existence really is just pointless, futile suffering all for the sake of it and I really would just never wish for any of this, only non-existence is desirable for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this harmful existence that just caused and brought all this suffering was even imposed at all. Nothing would make me wish for the cruel imposition of existence rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where finally nothing can concern me, I truly was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for the torturous burden of human existence.
I truly was never meant for the torturous burden of human existence that just caused all this cruelty, harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again. Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of existing where existing beings are tormented so unbearably until non-existence takes away all anyway, to me existence really is something so terrible, dreadful and hopeless that just causes suffering all for the sake of it.

I really would never just wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I really was never meant for any of this, I just wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently, in an existence where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel eternal sleep really is the only relief for me and is all that can bring me peace. I never should had suffered in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, to me human existence really is just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I'd just never wish to exist at all. I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace even know I was never meant for any of this and I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this torturous existence just hoping and wishing to not exist anyway, to me existing really is only suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing, in fact to me existing really does feel like only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, all I personally hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'll always see it as so dreadful how existence causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it torturing existing beings.

I'll personally always see existence as the most terrible mistake and it's one that just causes so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway with no limit as to how unbearable it can get. I personally just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace from the suffering of existing I hope for, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and unable to suffer, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to the suffering of this futile, torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. To me existing really is just waiting to not exist, it really is all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing, I just want to fall asleep permanently instead, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I never would have chosen that just causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, non-existence really is the only relief for me from this existence that was so tragically imposed, I'm always so tired of suffering.