Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this futile, cruel existence and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing with no risk of ending up in way worse suffering and torture as all I hope for is to not exist. I'd never wish for the torturous burden of human existence that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway, I'd rather avoid existence no matter what, existence is just something I only hope for permanent peace and relief from, I was just never meant to be burdened with this existence and I never should have suffered at all and I'd just always prefer to not exist.

I'm always so tired of this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, it'd solve everything for me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering and I see existing as only being suffering, existence itself will always be the true problem for me and all I hope for is permanent peace from it. I just want to fall asleep permanently, I'll personally always see non-existence as preferable, it's the only relief for me in this existence that causes so much suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and as long as I suffer in this existence I'll only ever wish for non-existence, it really is always preferable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrific how there is no limit.
To me it's just so horrific how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering, cruelty and torture of existence can get and at any moment it can easily get way more torturous, it truly is all just so terrible and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather non-existence is all I hope for. I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it's so terrifying how it can continue for so long, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just waiting to cease existing anyway in this existence I never would had chosen just to be tortured in agony by old age.

I never wished to exist in the first place and I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, existence to me is a burden that just causes harm and suffering and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, ceasing to exist is my way of finding peace, relief and safety from suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place, existence itself to me really is the ultimate problem. I see existence as an abomination and the fact that this existence was even imposed in the first place even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all really is the most terrible tragedy to me, I just wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed.
To me it really is the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again. No matter what I'd always prefer to be unconscious of this existence that just caused and brought all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable but I only see never suffering at all as true perfection, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence instead I only hope and wish for peace.

I could personally just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence rather I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this harmful unnecessary existence at all and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know this existence was so tragically imposed. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and I just don't see any point, benefit and value to any of this rather I just see existence as an unnecessary harm that causes all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I just find it so torturous to be conscious in this existence and I always will do, I just want nothingness, I just want the peace of dreamless, eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

So terrible how there's all this suffering.
No matter what I'll always see it as so terrible how there's all this suffering, cruelty and torture as a result of existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, to me existence really is an abomination that just causes all this suffering and harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence truly is always preferable and is all I personally see as desirable, I just want peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible, harmful tragic mistake.

I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, it's the cause of all suffering after all and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, non-existence really is always preferable for me than the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get just for one to decay and die anyway, existing to me really does feel like only suffering and I always wish I could choose to permanently stop suffering. I wish I could just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, non-existence truly is the only peace for me from the suffering of this torturous, futile existence, I'll always see it as something so terrible and dreadful to exist, more than anything I wish this existence that just caused all this harm was never imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the imposition of existence, the fact that this existence was even imposed is always so tragic to me, for me ceasing to exist really is the only peace from this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting this existence to finally be all forgotten for me.
All I personally wish and hope for is for this existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this cruel, futile existence, in an existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only relief for me and I'd prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I really would just never wish for any of this, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, existing really is just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I'd just prefer to finally forget about it all no matter what, I just wish and hope for non-existence, I'd personally always prefer for this existence to be forgotten, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering where finally nothing can concern me and I can be at peace, for me eternal sleep truly is the only relief in this existence so cruel and torturous that I never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence.
No matter what I just really would never wish for this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to not exist, all I wish for is an eternal sleep where this cruel existence that causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it is finally all forgotten about, for me existence itself will always be the true problem and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing.

I only hope to not exist instead but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence at all, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this, I'm not meant to suffer in this existence and as well as that I find it so deeply undesirable to exist, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never waking ever again. I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep over this existence of unnecessary, futile suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist could ever bring me any relief from, I truly am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to fall asleep permanently.
All I could ever hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently, I just want peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake but of course the cruelty and suffering of this harmful existence just continues instead, it really is just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and as long as I exist I really will just wish to be gone, I just want to fall asleep and never exist ever again, for me existence really is never worth it rather it's something I only hope for true permanent peace from.

I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten for me, the only relief for me really could lie in never existing ever again and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from all the suffering, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to never wake ever again, non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I'll hope for as long as I suffer in this existence and to me existing really is only suffering. I suffer just from being conscious burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want to fall into an permanent sleep and it's all I'll hope for, to not exist really is all I see as desirable, non-existence would solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious in this existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never exist ever again, the tiredness I feel is such that only ceasing to exist could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I just don't wish to be conscious of anything at all. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as non-existence really is all I wish and hope for and could ever do, I truly was never meant for this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until all is gone anyway in non-existence, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence.

I just never want to think or feel anything again and I see it as so dreadful having to exist, to me existence really always was so unnecessary, so cruel and harmful, I truly would never would wish for any of this, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I really will always find it so torturous to be conscious in this existence. In this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only peace for me, it's all I hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist, I'd always prefer to be unaware of this existence, all I wish for is to be unable to suffer and permanently incapable of suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the most terrible tragedy to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering and I really would never want to suffer in this existence, I only hope for non-existence instead, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy and to me existence itself really is the problem. I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really is all I could hope for as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then is this existence all forgotten and no longer my problem.

I just find it so tragic how existence causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I see human existence as the most torturous, harmful burden, it's just such a tragedy to me how there's all this suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently. All I hope and wish for is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I only hope for non-existence instead and I'll only be at peace once I can finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy and I see it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all when never suffering at all is perfection, more than anything I wish I never suffered.

 

[Namelesa]

Its really tragic that this world exists to make some people suffer so much and not allow an escape from it. Everything you say is true from that in non-existence we can't suffer and there's no point in being brought here when we didn't desire existence in the first place and its sad others force us through it. I hope you are able to get the painless guaranteed method you have always wanted.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and is all I can hope and wish for no matter what, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing cam concern me, I just want this torturous, futile existence to finally be all gone for me, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally forgotten and for me peace really could only lie in non-existence.

I only see ceasing to exist as desirable for me, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it and I see existing as being only suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, my wish to die is a response to existence and I'll only hope to not exist no matter what, I really have only wished for non-existence and I'd be so relieved to fall asleep permanently. I always suffer so much from how the option to cease existing peacefully is denied for me as I just want to never wake ever again, only in eternal sleep will I be at peace as only then is this existence no longer my problem, I never wished for this cruel, harmful and painful existence rather I just want nothingness, to me existence itself really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I only want to sleep eternally instead, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, I really was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so painful and cruel and I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence.

For me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I hope for, I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently even know this existence of unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and I find it so tragic how this existence of cruelty and suffering was even imposed at all. To me existence itself really is the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering and torture all for the sake of it and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long. Non-existence truly is always preferable for me, I never wished to exist at all and never would do, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, I truly am just so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, the only relief for me could ever lie in an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I'm free from all cruelty and suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues. It's all so painful to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, in an existence so cruel and torturous dreamless eternal sleep really is the only relief for me.

I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I always feel so tired and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, for me existence really was never worth it rather it's something I never would had wished for that I'd prefer to forget about, the only relief for me really could only lie in dreamless eternal sleep where finally all is gone and this existence is all forgotten and no longer my concern. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence and I was just never meant for any of this, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me existence itself really is the true problem and I'm always so tired of suffering, I wish to just never wake ever again, only non-existence can personally ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting this existence to be all forgotten about for me.
All I hope and wish is for this existence to be all forgotten about for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to suffering for the sake of it in this existence I never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather all I hope for is to not exist. For me non-existence really is all that's desirable and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this torturous, unnecessary existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem and it's a problem only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from.

I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as all I wish is for all to be gone and forgotten for me, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence and if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist at all. I truly wish I was never burdened with this existence and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the burden of existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently instead, I only wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten, nothing would ever make me wish for this cruel, futile existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I only hope for peace from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me and is all I wish and hope for as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten, non-existence would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, ceasing to exist would solve and bring me peace from what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, non-existence would bring me so much peace in an existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway.

I just don't wish to suffer at all and I just see existing as being suffering all for the sake of it, I could personally never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just see existence as a mistake and all I hope for is to be unconscious of it, I just hope to never suffer ever again. Non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for permanent relief and safety from all suffering and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, I only hope to fall asleep permanently instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to never exist ever again.
All I could personally ever hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I just want peace from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so much and to me existence really is the most torturous futile burden, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and as long as I exist I really will just hope for nothingness. I wish for true permanent peace from all suffering and I'd be relieved to finally be free from this existence, I just hope for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten for me and finally I can be at peace.

I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and could ever do no matter what, I just want to permanently cease existing, I only hope for permanent relief from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all. I just want to never exist ever again, all I see as desirable is being permanently unable to suffer, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'd just prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, to me personally existence really will always feel like a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive for me.
For me non-existence truly is all that's positive and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, non-existence for me is peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and cruelty where nothing can concern me. Non-existence is all I see as positive and to never exist ever again is all I hope for, I just want to be permanently unable to suffer and unable to feel any pain, I wish for peace from the burden of existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age.

I just see human existence as the most futile, cruel burden and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, non-existence really is the only relief for me from this torturous, undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I see it as so dreadful how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all causing all this harm as a result, I personally just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I just hope to fall into an eternal sleep to escape from the cruelty and futility of existing, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I was never meant for any of this rather all I'm meant for is to not exist, I just want peace from all suffering in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather all I hope and wish for is non-existence, I just wish to never exist ever again, I just hope for peace from this existence I personally always saw as a mistake. To me existence itself really is the true problem which is why I'll always and only hope to not exist no matter what, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten with nothing able to concern me.

I just personally want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it really is all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I truly was never meant for any of this, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence just to face way worse agony and be tortured by old age, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence so cruel and futile. Ceasing to exist is all I personally see as positive and is all that can bring me any relief from the burden of existence and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, it's just so unbearable to me how a human can suffer for so long and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to finally escape from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence has been all I've hoped for.
It truly has been all I've ever hoped for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence, for me non-existence is the only peace, it's only relief for me in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty, suffering and harm, no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. My wish to die is a response to existence and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty, torture and suffering and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, non-existence really would solve everything for me, it's all I see as desirable.

I just want peace from all the suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and to me existence really does feel like the problem, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence. Existence to me is a burden and it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'll always see it as so burdensome to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me. I personally just hope and wish to never exist ever again, only non-existence is desirable for me and is all I could hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is non-existence, I just hope to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep with this existence all finally gone and forgotten for me, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what rather all I hope for is nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping for the peace of eternal sleep.
The peace of an eternal sleep really is all I could hope for and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as I just want to never suffer ever again, in an existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all I hope for. In this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel dreamless eternal sleep truly is all I hope for, I only see non-existence as positive, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me.

Only eternal sleep can bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and no matter what I'll always see existence as the problem, I just see it as something so dreadful to be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to save myself from all future suffering in this existence I never would had chosen, non-existence truly is the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from all unnecessary suffering, dreamless eternal sleep really is all I've wished for and could ever do, it's all that can bring me any relief from this existence I never would have chosen, as long as I exist I'll always hope to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to prevent suffering.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place and I personally just don't wish to suffer at all. I only hope and wish for the peace of eternal nothingness instead, all I see as desirable is non-existence, for me ceasing to exist would be the way for me to prevent all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious.

If I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I wish and hope for, I just want permanent relief from this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake, I was just never meant for any of this as well and I'd always prefer to prevent suffering. I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence all for the sake of it and it'd be a relief for me to never suffer ever again which is why I suffer so much from how the option to cease existing peacefully is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so tragically imposed and it all just leads to death anyway, I really was just never meant for the suffering of this harmful torturous existence, for me non-existence truly is all that's ideal, it's all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from this existence of cruelty and suffering.
All I personally wish and hope for is peace from this existence of cruelty and suffering, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, existence really was never worth it for me but rather I always saw existence as a mistake that just caused harm and suffering, I'll always see existence itself as the problem no matter what and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and I see existence as the most cruel, futile torturous burden that just causes all this suffering and harm until all is forgotten in non-existence anyway. I really am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I just hope for some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence. I'd just never wish for the burden of existence no matter what rather I only hope to not exist, non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I could see as desirable, I just hope to never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence that always felt like the most terrible mistake to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want nothingness, I just want peace, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, to me existence really will always be the problem and simply just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death. I just don't find it desirable to exist at all rather existence feels like a mistake to me that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and it's all just so cruel and terrible to me, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this existence and it's suffering only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me.

I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, in this existence where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel non-existence really is all I could hope for, it's all I personally see as desirable, it's all I personally see as positive. I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all, no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this rather more than anything I wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish for the cruel, futile imposition of existence and I really am always so tired of suffering, I only wish for non-existence instead, for me non-existence is the only peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is not a desirable state.
For me the true problem will always lie in existence itself, I just don't see existence as a desirable state, I never have done and never would do, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish and hope to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again, I just find it so tragic how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all.

I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I suffer because I exist and I see existing as only being suffering, my wish to not exist is a result of being enslaved in this torturous, undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want nothingness and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for peace from the burden of existence. I find it the most terrible harmful tragedy how I had to suffer at all, I wish I never suffered at all, I always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from. I'll always just see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd never wish to suffer, I just want nothingness instead, I only hope for the peace of permanent sleep where I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would had wished for and all is finally forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as an unnecessary harm.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as an unnecessary harm that just causes all this cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, it really is all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful existence that there was never a need for at all. To me existence itself really is the true problem, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could hope for as only then is this torturous, harmful existence finally all forgotten and no longer my problem and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, all I wish for is peace from this existence I personally always just saw as a mistake and an unnecessary harm.

Non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I hope for, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous, unnecessary existence, the only relief for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again, all I personally hope for is to be unconscious for all eternity permanently unable to suffer. Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, I personally really will always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence itself really would always be the true problem to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

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I was just never meant for the suffering of this torturous existence.
I really was just never meant for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and forgotten. I was never meant for any of this and I never should had suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed at all and I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence, all I personally hope for is nothingness.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal sleep so finally I can find peace from this existence I'd never wish for and never would had chosen, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief. I just wish for this existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, I really was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it no matter what rather all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I just wish to be unable to suffer, existence itself will always be the true problem to me and I really was just never meant for any of this, I just want to fall asleep permanently and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence but of course the suffering of existing just continues and it's all just so dreadful to me, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence.

I truly never should have suffered at all and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, all I hope for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the burden of existence and I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is denied even know I never would have wished for and never would have chosen any of this. For me existence itself is the true problem and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me want to never exist ever again and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I really was just never meant for this, I was never meant for this existence of futile unnecessary suffering that could had been prevented if I was never burdened with this existence at all and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, for me eternal non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from suffering in this cruel, futile existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, all I hope for is to disappear from this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that I'd prefer to forget about no matter what, I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again.

I just wish for peace from this existence I never would had wished for and I'll only be at peace in non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to face way worse suffering and to me existing really does feel like nothing but suffering, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from. I always wish to erase my existence and it's all I ever hope for, I just wish to be permanently unconscious where finally nothing can concern me and all is forgotten about, I just want peace from this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway, existence to me really was never worth it and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what, for me non-existence really is the only relief, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm and I'd never wish for any of this.

I just hope for non-existence instead, I just want some peace from this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all I wish for. To me existence really is an abomination that just causes so much cruelty and suffering that there was never a need for until non-existence takes away all anyway and what is so horrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get. I see existing as only being suffering, I'll always see so much cruelty in how even know this existence was imposed I'm denied the option of a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. It really is all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence, I see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that'll always feel like a mistake to me, I personally will always see existence itself as the true problem and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I'll always see it as so dreadful how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for permanent relief from this existence.
No matter what I'll only hope and wish for permanent relief from this futile, torturous existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existence itself really is the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is permanent non-existence.

I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where all is finally forgotten, I've just never wished to exist and I always find it so dreadful to exist, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this under any circumstances rather I wish I never suffered at all. I see existence as the most deeply undesirable torturous burden that just causes so much suffering and harm, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, to never exist ever again really is all I wish for, non-existence really is all that's positive for me. I'd just be so relieved to be free from this futile, unnecessary existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway, but more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish this existence was never imposed.