Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Never having any interest in existence.
I really never have had any interest in existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, for me existence truly could never be a desirable state rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid that I only hope for permanent relief from, nothing would make me wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer rather I just hope for non-existence. Non-existence is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence.

To me existing truly is just futile, unnecessary suffering that just leads to decay and death anyway and I'm just never meant for any of this and I've never had any interest in it, all I hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I see nothing appealing about existence rather I see it as the most futile, undesirable burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes and brings suffering. I truly do always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I could never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just wish for peace from the unnecessary suffering of this torturous existence and I've never had any interest in suffering. I just hope for non-existence instead, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence I've never had any interest in where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

See so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'll just see it as so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me relief from. I always suffer so much how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly so I can finally escape from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, I always see it as the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, existence to me is the problem.

I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, all I hope for is to never wake ever again, all I wish for is a peaceful, guaranteed death where all is finally gone and forgotten about with no more cruelty, no more suffering, to me existence really is just an unnecessary harm and I'd never wish for any of this. I always suffer so much from how the option to die peacefully is so harmfully denied for me even know to me existing really is just waiting to die anyway and I never would have chosen any of this, I'd always prefer to cease existing to escape from all future unnecessary suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again with all finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering.
I truly am always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be free from it, I'm always so tired and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me any relief from, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence at all. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake, there's just so much cruelty, so much suffering in existing and I see it as all just so unnecessary, I just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace, I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where finally all is gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way.

I truly never should had suffered at all, I was just never meant for this cruel, harmful existence of unnecessary suffering that just causes existing beings to suffer all for the sake of it until all is finally gone for them in non-existence anyway, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all that can bring me peace from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that was so tragically imposed where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway. To me human existence really is the most torturous burden it all just feels like a mistake to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll always be so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how it was imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is peace for me.
It truly is peace for me and is all I could hope for, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer so much until all is finally gone for them in non-existence anyway, for me eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable and is all I hope for. I just want to never exist ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of this torturous existence I never would had chosen just continues and it's all just so dreadful to me, eternal sleep really is all I wish for and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep for all eternity, existence itself to me will always be the true problem and it's one only eternal sleep can bring me peace from, eternal sleep is all I've ever wished for and could do no matter what.

I just hope for permanent relief from the burden of existence, falling asleep permanently is my way of finding peace from the suffering and torture of this existence that was so tragically imposed where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence truly does feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering. It really is all so terrible and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this suffering, I just want to fall asleep permanently instead and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again, no matter what I truly would prefer to not exist, eternal non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should had been forced to exist at all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing, to me existence will always feel like a mistake.

I always suffer so much from being denied the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from this cruel, futile existence that I was never meant for and only ever caused me to suffer and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I only hope for non-existence instead, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me any relief. I'm always so tired of existing, I find it such a torturous burden to exist and it's one I was never meant for, I personally only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never wake ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently. For me eternal sleep truly is always preferable than suffering in this existence and I really was just never meant for any of this, I never should had been forced to suffer in this existence at all, I'll always find it a tragedy how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed at all causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result, I'll always see existing as being only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing existence as a desirable state.
I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather I see it as something that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway, it really is all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this. In this existence where there's all this suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable, non-existence is all that's positive for me personally as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

I'll always see existence as the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only hope for nothingness, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I'm finally unable to suffer, I just wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering. I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than be burdened with this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and to never exist ever again really is all I could hope for, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence I never would had chosen, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me truly is just an unnecessary harm.
No matter what I'll always just see existence as an unnecessary harm, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, existence to me is just so harmful as after all it just causes suffering all for the sake of it.

I see it as so harmful to be enslaved in this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty capable of suffering to unlimited extents, to me existence really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is the peace of permanent sleep instead, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any kind of pain. I could personally just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this harmful existence rather I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I wish to never suffer ever again, in an existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is the only relief for me. I just wish to be permanently safe from all suffering and unable to suffer and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most cruel, futile burden and I suffer just from being enslaved in this harmful existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all.
I truly will always find it so tragic how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed, to me existence really is the most terrible, harmful tragedy and I'll always see it as so tragic how this existence was imposed when never suffering at all was perfection, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer. I wish I was never burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence itself truly is the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just wish for nothingness, permanent non-existence really is all I can hope for but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

I just never should had been forced to suffer and I suffer simply from being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence, to me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I always find it so dreadful how I was forced into this at all, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence that I was never meant for and never would had chosen. For me existence will always feel like a mistake, it's something that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for it no matter what, I only hope to not exist instead but of course I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I suffer so much just from existing and I really was just never meant for any of this, all I hope for is to fall asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really was never worth it for me.
It truly was never worth it for me rather I see existing as only being suffering, it's suffering so futile and unnecessary and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather I see it as never being worth it for me, existence itself to me is the true problem and I suffer just from being burdened with this cruel, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for nothingness and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence.

If it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I was never forced to suffer, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for nothingness, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I could hope for, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I really am just always so tired of suffering in this existence that was never worth it for me, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, non-existence really is all I wish for, it's the only relief for me from the suffering of this cruel, unnecessary existence that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'd never wish to exist at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from all the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me. I personally only see non-existence as positive, I just want to never exist ever again, existence for me truly is a burden and it's one I'm always so tired of that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for nothingness.

I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can harm me and all the suffering of existing is finally gone, existence truly is so cruel, painful and harmful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this torturous, undesirable existence and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist. To me existing will always be only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I wish I could choose to permanently stop suffering, I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and finally be at peace from this existence I'm always so tired of and just existing is enough to make me feel tired, I only wish for peace from this existence I personally always saw as such a cruel mistake, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, I just hope for nothingness instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty, I personally just want peace from the suffering, non-existence is all that's positive for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of eternal sleep, all I hope is for this existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one that just causes all this cruelty and harm all for the sake of it, I really would always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem, I'll always see existence as the most torturous, futile burden and I just want to fall asleep permanently, I just wish to be non-existent, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for under any circumstance, I just hope to never exist ever again, I was just never meant for the suffering of this cruel existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish to exist.
No matter what I truly would never wish to exist and I'd never wish for the suffering of this torturous, unnecessary existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to be permanently free from this dreadful torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

I'll always see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'll always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to an eternal dreamless sleep, there is no suffering in non-existence which is all I wish and hope for, I just want to fall asleep permanently, in an existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace. For me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone, I'd just never wish to exist rather I wish I never suffered at all and I see nothing appealing about existence rather it's something I just want to forget about. I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it burdened with this existence just to decay from age and cease existing anyway, to me existence really is just futile suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish I never suffered, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and to me existing truly is only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly does terrify me how a human can suffer for so long and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel, torturous existence, to me existence really is just suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, it's just horrific to me how a human can be enslaved in this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering that was so tragically imposed just to die in agony tortured by old age, the amount of suffering this existence causes truly is endless.

I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I personally just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me any peace as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then will all finally be gone and forgotten for me and to forget about this existence truly is all I hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, it's just so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face way worse agony and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently, non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could ever do, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be safe from all suffering.
All I personally hope and wish for is to be safe from all suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me, I only hope to not exist as only then will I be unable to suffer with this cruel, futile existence finally all gone and no longer my concern. Only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting to die, I could just never see any point and benefit to being conscious of any of this at all rather I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was even imposed.

It really is all just so painful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, there's just so much pain in existing and all I hope is for this painful existence to be all gone and no longer my concern, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and unable to suffer which is why to not exist is all I hope for, I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, non-existence truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I personally always saw as such a cruel, terrible mistake, there's just so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to exist.
I'd just never wish for any of this, I just want nothingness instead, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep for all eternity, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and all is gone. I just want to never suffer ever again and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep as non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this painful, torturous existence and it's pain only non-existence could ever take away for me, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I never should had suffered at all.

Nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence and I've never wished for any of this, my wish to cease existing is a response to existence itself, it's a result of being forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to fall asleep for all eternity. Eternal sleep really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this and all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for any of the suffering of this cruel, painful existence and I'd just never wish for any of it no matter what, I only hope to not exist instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself to me will always be the problem.
It truly will always be the problem to me no matter what and I'd just prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, it's the only peace and relief for me, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this, existence itself is the problem for me as I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, I could never see existence as a desirable state rather I just see it as something that causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway.

I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again as existence itself is always the problem for me and I suffer just from being burdened with this cruel, futile existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness. I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, existence itself really is the problem for me and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, only non-existence could ever bring me any relief, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting and hoping to not exist anyway, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep has been all I've seen as desirable.
It truly has been all I've seen as desirable and I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer in this cruel, futile existence, I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering and I'd prefer to not exist no matter what. In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel eternal sleep really is all I'll hope for and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake and no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination, it's something that just causes harm and suffering.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to face way worse suffering and be tortured by old age, non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I'll personally always find it so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, all I wish is to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again and to me existing really is just only suffering. I suffer just from being burdened with this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this, I just wish for the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep instead, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again with all finally gone for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist and non-existence is all I'll hope for, I was just never meant for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll just wish to sleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being enslaved in this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being enslaved in this cruel, torturous existence and it's suffering only dreamless eternal sleep could ever take away for me, all I hope for is the peace of permanent sleep where nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem. I just wish this cruel, futile existence was never imposed more than anything, to me human existence is enslavement as after all it was something that was so tragically imposed in the first place yet I'm so cruelly denied the option to just peacefully free myself from it and never suffer ever again with suffering seen as to force and prolong, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather all I hope for is non-existence.

I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm no longer enslaved in this existence that caused me to suffer and to me existing really is only suffering, I always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again as non-existence truly is all I hope for and could ever do no matter what, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather I just want nothingness and non-existence has been all I've ever hoped and wished for. I just want peace from this torturous unnecessary existence that to me is just suffering all for the sake of it, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just never would had chose and would just never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile to me.
It truly is so futile to me, I just see existing as being cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that all just leads to death anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten and to finally forget about this existence truly is all I hope for, I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence. I see nothing desirable about the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human rather I just want to never exist ever again, I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more and cease existing anyway, to me existence really does always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to cease existing destined to decay and die anyway, I'll always just see existing as unnecessary suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from. I could just never see any point to any of this and it'll all just be gone anyway so I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a peaceful guaranteed death to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die even know death is all that's inevitable anyway, the thought of suffering enslaved in this existence until old age is so terrifying to me, I truly would prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally be so relieved to cease existing.
I really would be so relieved to finally cease existing, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from all the suffering and cruelty in this existence I always personally saw as a mistake, for me non-existence would be the relief as if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to permanent non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what. I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really would solve everything for me which is why I'd be so relieved to finally cease existing and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again.

I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering, non-existence would be the only relief for me as after all there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and to me existing really does feel like only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I really would just never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of human existence and I was just never meant for it either, non-existence is all that's desirable for me as I see existence as the problem, I'll always see it as so dreadful and hopeless to exist which is why I only wish for non-existence, I just want peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it deeply undesirable to exist.
I truly will always find it deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, torturous existence, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me any peace and relief from suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and no matter what I'll always just see existing as waiting to not exist. It's just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, it's all I can wish and hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

I just don't see existence as a desirable state which is why I wish for death, I see existence as a futile burden that I'd never wish for that just causes harm and suffering, it really is so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity, non-existence would solve everything for me. I was never meant for any of this as well and I suffer simply from existing, I always wish I could just choose to never wake ever again, for me the peace of an eternal sleep is all that's desirable and I always suffer from how I cannot just fall asleep permanently, I just want to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as so undesirable to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it.

 

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It's horrific to me how there's no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get.
I truly will always find it so horrific how there's no limit as to how unbearable the suffering of existing can get, it terrifies me how one can suffer for so long capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief from this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and I'd just never wish for any of this, existence to me really is an abomination and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what, I always wish to just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.

I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be forced to suffer all for the sake of it enslaved in this futile, torturous existence just waiting to not exist anyway and it's just so horrible to me how even know all of this was imposed in the first place there is no acceptance towards the personal choice to permanently stop suffering with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead even know it all just leads to death anyway. I find it horrific how trying to die can go wrong, all I hope for is a peaceful guaranteed death that just leads to no more pain, no more suffering but of course I'm so cruelly denied that, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.

 

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Existing to me is always just futile suffering.
I truly will always see existing as just being futile suffering, it's just futile suffering all for the sake of it all while one is destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, I really would never wish for any of this and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence truly is always preferable to me than the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence. I see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I could never see a point to any of this, it's just waiting to die anyway, existing to me really will always just be waiting for death and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I only hope to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and forget about it all.

I'd personally always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I just want peace from this existence of futile suffering all for the sake of it and that's all existence does, it just brings and causes suffering and I see it as all so unnecessary, I just wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a guaranteed painless death even know ceasing to exist is all that's inevitable anyway, I really was just never meant for the suffering of existing and I never should had suffered, I'd prefer to prevent all this futile suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more.

 

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I'd personally rather prevent suffering than prolong it.
I truly would always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more, it's just so terrifying to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much they can suffer, I'd never wish for any of this rather I'd prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I was never burdened with this futile, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'll always see existence as the most terrible mistake.

I just find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and to me existing really is just only suffering and it's suffering so futile and unnecessary and I'd just prefer to not suffer at all than prolong the suffering, for me non-existence is all that's desirable as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to being unconscious for all eternity and to never suffer ever again is all I hope for. I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently no matter what and non-existence really is the only peace for me, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and I could personally never see any point, value and benefit to prolonging suffering just to suffer way more and be tortured by old age, I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long and I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just wish for peace from all the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and it's all just so dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only hope to not exist, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existence really is an abomination, existence itself is always the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I really am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, non-existence is all I see as desirable, I've only ever hoped for peace from this existence that just causes and brings all this cruelty all for the sake of it and existence is just so cruel. I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know non-existence truly is the only relief for me, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I just wish to fall asleep permanently with this cruel existence finally all gone and forgotten for me, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peace for me could only lie in non-existence.
For me peace really could only lie in non-existence, all I wish and hope for is to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity no longer burdened with this futile, torturous existence and to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's just waiting to cease existing anyway. Non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief from this dreadful, painful existence that only ever caused me to suffer, I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what, it's the true cause and source of all suffering after all and I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently free from it.

In this existence where there's all this unnecessary cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only peace for me, eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again, I suffer from how I cannot just choose to find permanent peace from this existence. Non-existence is all I hope for and could ever do, I really was just never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep eternally, I always see it as something so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence and to me existing really is just only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, there really is just so much pain in existing, I'll only be at peace from it all once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.
As long as I exist I truly will always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this futile, torturous existence, all I could ever wish for is to not exist, only in non-existence will this dreadful existence finally be no longer my problem which is all I wish and hope for. I just wish for true permanent peace from the cruel burden of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway and to me existing truly is just unnecessary suffering, I see existing as being only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this dreadful existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, existence itself is the problem to me which is why I'll always and only wish to not exist, what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, the thought of prolonging the suffering just to suffer way more is just unbearable to me. I'd never wish for any of this, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I personally just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is all gone and forgotten for me, I just find it the most terrible cruel tragedy how this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all, I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, for me non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, I've only ever wished to not exist.

I personally just hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, I just want this torturous, unnecessary existence I never would had wished for to be all gone and forgotten for me. Non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten, non-existence really is all I wish for as I just don't want to suffer at all, I just wish for nothingness instead, peace for me really could only lie in non-existence, for me ceasing to exist is the way to find peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing but of course more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed. I wish I was never forced to suffer but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone, non-existence really is the only relief for me, only in non-existence will I be at peace which is why it's all I've hoped for, I've only ever wished to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, to me existence itself really is the true problem causing all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and it's all just so cruel and painful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what. I'll always see it as so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and the suffering this existence causes is endless, to me existence itself will always be the true problem and it's just something I never would had chosen, I see existence as an abomination and I'll always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence.

To me existence will always be the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes all this suffering and harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, in fact the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy no matter what, existence really does feel like a mistake to me and I find it so tragic how this existence of futile suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all when for me never suffering at all is perfection. I just wish that more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I'll always just see existence as causing only suffering, to me existence truly is just an unnecessary harm, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I just want to never wake ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is just only suffering to me with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile existence rather I only hope to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I never would had chosen that was so tragically imposed, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything.

I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most torturous burden to exist, for me existence itself is always the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of permanent sleep, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me. I just hope to never suffer ever again, no matter what I'd prefer non-existence over suffering all for the sake of it in this futile unnecessary existence just to suffer way more, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again. I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally I cannot suffer in any way, I truly will always see it as so dreadful and hopeless to exist, nothing no matter what really would make me wish for any of this, I was just never meant for this existence of futile unnecessary suffering, I'll always and only hope for non-existence as long as I exist.