Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

The thought of suffering until old age is unbearable.
It truly is unbearable for me, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, I just never wished for any of this suffering in the first place anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief from the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing. I see existing as just being futile suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, I really would never wish for any of this, I see existence as the problem and the thought of being trapped in this existence until old age is so horrific.

I just don't want to suffer at all and I find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all, I'll always see it as so unnecessary to exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a painless guaranteed death even know I never would had wished for any of this in the first place and to me existing is just waiting for death anyway. I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel existence, I just want non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll only and always wish to not exist no matter what, I just want peace from all the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, futile existence and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I'l just always find it so unbearable and torturous to suffer in this existence and it just feels like I've suffered for such a long time, what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for way longer causing all this agony as a result, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence.

Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, I never wanted to suffer at all in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence is the only peace and it'd solve everything for me in this futile, torturous existence where I just suffer all for the sake of it. I just wish for non-existence to bring me permanent relief from suffering I search for and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as all I could ever hope for is to not exist, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for and never would had chose, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just want to never wake ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm.
It really is just so dreadful to me and no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, harmful existence suffering all for the sake of it, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence is the only peace for me and is all I hope for. I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again with all finally gone for me, I could personally just never see existence as a desirable state rather it's just something so cruel, so harmful that I only wish for permanent peace from, no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want some peace and only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake and the fact that this harmful existence was even imposed truly is the most terrible tragedy to me, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from this harmful existence that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway. All I wish for is to never exist ever again, for me existence really was never desirable and as long as I exist I'll just have so much dread for what lies ahead, existence really is just so harmful, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring to cease existing over suffering so unnecessarily.
No matter what I'd prefer to cease existing over suffering so unnecessarily in this futile, torturous existence, I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more and it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in non-existence, for me non-existence is the only peace and is all I've wished for.

I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence that causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness, I just want peace from all the unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay from age and cease existing anyway, non-existence truly is the only relief for me which is why it's just so painful to me how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again. Non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for this futile, unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is peace, I just want to sleep for all eternity and never exist ever again with all finally gone for me, I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep where nothing can concern me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and to never suffer ever again truly is all I wish and hope for, I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to be all gone and no longer my problem, existence to me really is only suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and harmful to exist, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from.

For me non-existence is all that's positive in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, it's endless and there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so futile to me as well and so unnecessary, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, the fact that this existence of suffering was even imposed at all is just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace. I just want to never suffer ever again, the only relief for me could ever lie in being permanently free from this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll just wish for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep with all finally gone for me, I've only ever wished for some peace and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for non-existence, I wish for all to finally be gone for me and peace for me could only lie in never existing ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered in this cruel, futile existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I'm only meant for the peace of non-existence and I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all. The fact that this existence was imposed truly is the most terrible harmful tragedy for me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to be unconscious for all eternity, I wish to never suffer ever again, all I see as desirable is being permanently incapable of suffering with all finally forgotten.

For me existence was never worth it rather it's something I see as just causing all this suffering and harm all for the sake of it, I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what and it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could see as positive. I just hope for this existence to be all gone for me, I was just never meant to suffer and I always wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want permanent peace and relief from all suffering and cruelty but of course the suffering just continues in this existence that just felt like a mistake to me, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and I was just never meant for the suffering of existing, I just never should had existed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this futile, dreadful existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be permanently free from it all, I only wish for non-existence, existence to me really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and I see existence as something that just causes harm with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

I just wish more than anything I was never burdened with this existence that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just to be tortured by old age and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, existence to me really is the most cruel imposition that causes all of this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed. I just wish I never suffered more than anything a I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this cruel existence, I'll just always see it as so undesirable to exist no matter what, I only hope for nothingness, all I wish for is to fall into an permanent sleep and finally forget about this cruel existence, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, existence itself to me really is always the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

See so much cruelty in how painless ways are denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless ways for me to permanently be free from this harmful, torturous existence are denied as all I want is to never wake ever again, I just want to fall asleep permanently and I suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, in this existence so cruel and futile non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and would solve everything for me.

I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally gone for me but of course I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it truly is all just so dreadful and terrible and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only wish for some peace instead, what terrifies me is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture instead. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I was just never meant for any of this as well, I never should had been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake at all but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone, I only hope for eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake, as long as I exist I'll just wish for non-existence, I just hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally this existence is all gone and no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I really am always wishing to erase my existence as I just want it to be like I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence at all and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden I never would had chosen that only ever brought me so much suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence. All I personally hope for is to not exist, non-existence would bring me so much peace and solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty.

To me existence itself really is the true problem and always feels like a mistake to me which is why I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all the suffering to finally be gone for me, I just want to forget about this existence, I just want some peace, I really was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of this. To me existing really is just only suffering which is why only non-existence could ever be positive for me, I really am just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from but of course I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering, I just wish for some peace instead, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this.