Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it a burden to exist.
I truly do always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and torturous that I was just never meant for that I'd never wish for no matter what, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and to me existence truly does just feel like a mistake, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is nothingness. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, all I wish for is permanent relief from the burden of existence and in this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only relief for me, it's all I could hope for, existence to me will always feel like a mistake.

I'll always see existence as the problem and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, I'll always see existence as just being suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just so tired of it all, it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me. I'd be so relieved to finally be free from the burden of existing which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from the burden of existence, I just hope and wish for peace from the suffering of this futile, torturous existence I wish was never imposed more than anything, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence will take away all anyway.
It truly will, all will be forgotten in non-existence anyway which is all I hope for, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I just wish for non-existence, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering and cruelty non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me, it's all I see as positive and desirable for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to permanent non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten with this torturous, futile existence finally no longer my problem.

All I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again and I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd personally always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it. I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten for me, I just want permanent relief from the cruel and torturous burden of human existence that was completely unnecessary and I see it as such a it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all even know never suffering at all was perfection and as long as I exist I've only ever hoped for non-existence, I just want to finally be at peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd be so relieved for all to be gone for me in non-existence, in an existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existence could never be a desirable state.
It truly could never be to me rather I see it as something that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence, all I wish for is the peace of permanent non-existence where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me with this existence finally no longer my problem, I really will always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I truly am always so tired of suffering in this undesirable existence that I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I wish for is to never exist ever again, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only permanent non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just have no interest in existing and see it as all just being suffering for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all. I always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for nothingness, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me and this torturous, futile existence is finally no longer my problem, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is just an unnecessary harm to me.
No matter what I really will always just see existence as an unnecessary harm that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so painful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again with this torturous, painful existence finally all forgotten about, existence truly is an unnecessary harm to me and that's all it is. It's the source of all suffering and cruelty after all and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again, non-existence really is all that's positive for me, I see it as so cruel and terrible to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and the suffering this existence so tragically causes is endless.

I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist and as I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, the way I see it this existence really does just cause only suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake. For me existence really is the problem and I was just never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as an unnecessary harm, I suffer just from existing and nothing no matter what would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence, I just hope for nothingness instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

All will be gone in non-existence anyway.
All truly will be all gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway which is all I wish and hope for, I just wish for non-existence, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence. For me non-existence truly would be the only relief in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and no matter what I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and the fact that this existence will eventually be no longer my problem truly is the only positive to me, I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from this existence and never suffer ever again.

All I hope is for all to finally be gone for me, in an existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway permanent non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I just wish for permanent relief from all suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. No matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, it's all just futile unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from it all, non-existence really is always preferable for me, to not exist is all I personally see as desirable, I just want to finally forget about this existence where I'm just suffering so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
It truly could never be worth it for me rather existence is something I just wish and hope for permanent relief from, all I wish for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I just don't see existence as a desirable state and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, to me existence itself really is the true problem as after all it's the ultimate cause of all suffering and simply existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I just hope for eternal non-existence, in this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering only ceasing to exist could ever be desirable for me.

I just want to never exist ever again and only non-existence could bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for and peace is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, torturous existence just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I just don't see myself as meant for any of this and I've never had any interest in being burdened with this existence. To me existence really does feel like a terrible cruel mistake that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and for me personally it could just never be worth it rather I wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence rather I just see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering and harm.
It truly does which is just so cruel and terrible to me, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I see existence as the most dreadful tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's just so much suffering in this torturous, harmful existence.

I see it as something so harmful to be enslaved in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence itself to me really is just an unnecessary harm and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for, I only wish to be permanently unable to suffer where this harmful existence is finally all forgotten about. I'd just never wish for this cruel, harmful existence, to me this existence will always feel like a mistake, I see existence itself as the true problem and I always suffer so much from how painless death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. Existence really is always so dreadful to me, there's just so much suffering in this cruel existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, existence to me really will always be an abomination that causes harm, it's horrific to me how existence causes all this terrible suffering and it can easily get way more unbearable and torturous, no matter what non-existence really is all I can hope and wish for, I just want peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me for me from this existence so cruel and futile that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, all I could ever hope for is to fall asleep permanently and I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake and to me existing really does feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

All I could ever hope for is to sleep permanently, I just want this existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as non-existence really is the only peace for me, peace from this existence really has been all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what. I was just never meant for this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for nothingness, I just want to not exist for all eternity. I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone and this existence is finally no longer my concern, the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep really would solve everything for me and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is only suffering, I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It truly will always be only suffering to me with no limit as to how much one can suffer and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I'd never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I cannot suffer in any way.

I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence at all rather I just want to peacefully cease existing, the peace of non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source and ultimate cause of all suffering in the first place, to never suffer ever again in this existence truly is all I could see as desirable and is all I'll wish for no matter what, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence that just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it where I'm just waiting and hoping to not exist anyway. Non-existence truly is the only peace for me and only when I'm gone will I be unable to suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence which is why it's all I hope for, I just want peace from the futile, torturous burden of existing as a human that always felt like a mistake to me personally, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to never suffer ever again, non-existence is all I see as ideal but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and relief from. All I hope for is to permanently cease existing with this torturous, futile existence finally all forgotten, I just find it so dreadful how this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was even imposed and I just always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

I find it so horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured in this existence that to me always felt like a mistake, the amount of suffering this existence causes truly is endless and I'd just never wish to suffer at all rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from this dreadful existence, existence to me is the problem and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence. I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for nothingness, I only hope for an eternal dreamless sleep where this dreadful existence is finally no longer my problem, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering but rather I just want to fall asleep permanently with nothing able to concern me but of course the suffering just continues and I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, it truly is all just so dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, simply existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I just want non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being trapped in this futile, torturous existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist and I suffer from being trapped in this existence as I'd just personally never wish for the futile and torturous burden of a human rather I see it as a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, permanent non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me personally.

I see existence itself as the problem, to me existing is only suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, I truly do always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I just hope for permanent peace from the suffering of existing. I just find it so painful to be trapped in this existence I never would had chosen and was never meant for and it's all just suffering to me. I wish to just never wake ever again and it's all I've hoped for, I just want peace and I'd always prefer the peace of non-existence over suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, it's so terrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this reality.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just creates problems there were never a need for.
It truly does just create problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it truly is all just so cruel and terrible to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, futile existence where one is just waiting to cease existing anyway destined to decay and die. I just see existence as so unnecessary, it's just futile suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all even know all of this was completely unnecessary in the first place and for me only non-existence is positive.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for, non-existence would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering and problems which is existence itself and in fact to me existence itself is the true problem, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it. I personally just wish and hope for nothingness, in this existence so cruel and torturous non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more but more than anything I wish I never was forced to suffer in this existence at all, nothing would make me wish for this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just futile, unnecessary suffering to me.
It truly is just futile unnecessary suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, I never wished to exist and to me existence really does feel like the most cruel, terrible mistake, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather I just see it as all so futile, so unnecessary.

I'd just never wish for any of this under any circumstances rather all I hope for is non-existence, to me existence is the most futile, torturous burden that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I just see it as all so unnecessary, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that could had been prevented if I was never burdened with this existence at all and I'll always see it as a burden to exist. I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I wish for is to fall asleep permanently and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again so I can finally be free from this existence of futile unnecessary suffering and I see existing as only being suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from, I personally just hope for nothingness, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. I'd just always prefer to be unconscious and unaware of this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering, all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity where this existence is all forgotten about.

I just want to never exist ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to just choose to permanently lose consciousness, all I've ever hoped for is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone for me and I cannot suffer in any way, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I hope for. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and was never meant for just suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is just unnecessary suffering, I wish I never had to become conscious at all, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see existence as the most futile, torturous burden, non-existence really is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to never suffer ever again.
To never suffer ever again really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want true permanent peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I just hope to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again. Non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all problems and suffering in the first place and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I just hope for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten and nothing can concern me, to me human existence truly is the most torturous and futile burden and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I was never meant to exist and I never should had suffered at all in this existence, the fact that this existence was even imposed really is the most terrible harmful tragedy to me and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for. I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone, I just hope and wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I just want to never exist ever again but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather all I hope for is the peace of permanent sleep, I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for it no matter what, I just hope for non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this cruel, torturous existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can ever bring me peace from, all I personally wish for is to never suffer ever again, I'll always see existence as a burden and I find it so tragic how this burden was even imposed in the first place that just caused all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. Existence to me really is the problem and it's a problem only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'd just be so relieved to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I really will always see it as so dreadful and painful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from.

I'd just never wish for the burden of existence, I've never had any interest in any of this and I was just never meant for it either, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake, existence to me is the problem and I'll always find it a burden to exist. Simply just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I personally only hope for non-existence, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get non-existence really is the only relief for me, only non-existence can bring me peace from the torturous burden of existence that I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me and is all I could wish and hope for, I just want peace from all the suffering of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence just continues and it's all just so painful and dreadful to me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, I just wish to never exist ever again.

I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer, if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten about, all I hope is for this existence to be no longer my problem, I just want peace from the burden of existing and no matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist. It's a burden so futile that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and to find permanent peace from it really is all I could hope for, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief, being able to permanently cease existing really would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief from this existence I personally always saw as a mistake. The peace of permanent sleep truly is preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, non-existence is all I see as desirable no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

All will be gone in non-existence anyway.
It truly will be which is all I hope for, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it's the only peace for me, I just want all to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I just want to never exist ever again. Ceasing to exist really is always preferable for me than being tormented in this futile existence suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for permanent relief from this unnecessary existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, non-existence is all I personally see as positive and could ever be for me no matter what, I wish for no more pain, no more cruelty, no more suffering, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I wish to never exist ever again, I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for at all.

 

[Rational man]

All will be gone in non-existence anyway.
It truly will be which is all I hope for, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it's the only peace for me, I just want all to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I just want to never exist ever again. Ceasing to exist really is always preferable for me than being tormented in this futile existence suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for permanent relief from this unnecessary existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, non-existence is all I personally see as positive and could ever be for me no matter what, I wish for no more pain, no more cruelty, no more suffering, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I wish to never exist ever again, I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for at all.

Very sad to read this. But yes, many of us can understand because we find ourselves suffering at some if not many levels. My physical illness goes hand-in-hand with mental and emotional ill health. My body refuses to die just now, and yet my spirit accepts that I will die, because impermanence is guaranteed for everyone, eventually my body will give up amd I will cease. Whatever happens after my death is uncertain but I no longer fear the future nor death, the separation of life/death permanent cessation.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all I personally see as desirable.
It truly is all I personally see as desirable and all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous, futile existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, to me existence itself is the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death. I've always wished to not exist and it's all I could hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten about, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from the burden of existing that I was never meant for and never would had wished for.

I really never should had suffered at all but now I suffer so much and have done for so long all I can hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish to not exist, in an existence so cruel and torturous non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me. I just wish for peace from all pointless unnecessary suffering and for me peace really could only lie in non-existence. I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence and ceasing to exist is all I see as desirable, I just wish for permanent relief and safety from all suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it really is just all so terrible and painful to me, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem.