Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To me existing means suffering.
It truly does mean suffering to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence that was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally unable to suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all I could hope for, I just want to finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most harmful, terrible tragic mistake.

To me existing means suffering all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment, the way I see it this existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, it's all just so painful, cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of it, I wish I never suffered at all, I see it as so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this existence and I'm always so tired of being burdned with this existence. I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just want nothingness instead and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, the only relief for me could lie in never existing ever again, I just wish for non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I just hope and wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so finally I can find peace from suffering. I was never meant to exist, I never would have chosen or wished for any of this and I really am always so tired of it all, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where finally all is forgotten and this existence is no longer my problem.

I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway and no matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist, eternal non-existence is all that's desirable for me and would solve everything for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence that I'm always so tired of. I just want to permanently cease existing and never exist ever again, I've always felt so tired and always will do, I just wish this existence was never imposed, I find it a tragedy how I was forced to suffer at all, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, for me eternal sleep is all that's positive, I just want permanent peace from this futile, unnecessary existence that I really am always so tired of that I'd never wish for.

 

[L_n]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

i totally get this. im sorry to hear you also feel this way. The pain of not having a good method to leave this world and being stuck in an existence you really wish you didn't have to live is a pain worse than any other. i know things don't tend to get better, so i wish the best for you, whatever that means to you <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to never exist ever again.
It's all I wish and hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want this cruel, torturous existence to finally be all gone and forgotten about for me, I'd personally be so relieved to be free from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. To me existing really is just only suffering and I was just never meant for any of this, I never should had suffered at all, nothing no matter what really would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for non-existence, I just wish to disappear from this existence and never suffer ever again.

To me human existence truly is the most cruel and futile burden that just causes pain and problems all for the sake of it and I see it as all being completely unnecessary, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll hope to never exist ever again, I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering, I just wish to finally forget about this existence that only ever brought me pain and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than be conscious in this painful existence. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from the torturous burden of human existence, for me existence was never worth it rather it's something I never should have been forced into, I always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want all to be gone for me, all I'll hope for is to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There really is just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so painful to me and dreadful and I really was never meant for any of this, I never should have been forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. For me non-existence is all that's ideal as only then am I unable to suffer and only then can nothing concern me, I just wish and hope to be permanently unconscious with all finally forgotten about and I'd be so relieved to be free from this cruel existence, it really is horrific to me how there's all this endless suffering and cruelty in this reality with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I wish I could just peacefully cease existing and never be conscious of anything ever again, I wish to be unable to suffer, I wish to be free from the cruelty and suffering of human existence, to me existence really did feel like a mistake, I see existence as an abomination that just causes so much harm until non-existence takes away all anyway, I never should have existed and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone. I was never meant for any of this and as well as that I'd just never wish for existence, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and I just want to never suffer ever again, it just feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently, I only wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence over suffering.
No matter what I really would always prefer non-existence over suffering, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again, I just wish for non-existence where all is finally forgotten about for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for. I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well and I see it as deeply undesirable to exist, I just want this existence to be finally gone for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, what appeals to me about not existing is that if I'm gone then nothing can concern me, all I see as ideal is being permanently unconscious and incapable of suffering for all eternity.

To me existence just feels like a mistake and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from and in general I'd just always prefer to not exist, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway. I suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, non-existence truly is all I wish for and is all I've ever hoped for, I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way, for me existence was never worth it and I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence, nothing would make me wish for any of this I just want some peace instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just pointless suffering.
It truly is just pointless suffering to me and no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence that was completely unnecessary to me and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence. I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence that always felt like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake to me, the way I see it existing is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's just waiting to die where eventually all will be forgotten about in non-existence in any way, I see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this existence destined for nothing but to decay, suffer way more and be tortured by old age.

I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope and wish for non-existence instead, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again, eternal non-existence would bring me permanent relief from all the pain and suffering of existing and solve everything for me, the thought of suffering in this existence until old age is just so horrific to me. I really would never wish for such terrible suffering and it's suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know existing really is just pointless suffering to me and it all just leads to death anyway, I personally would always prefer to cease existing sooner as I don't want to suffer, I just want peace instead but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for peace.
All I've ever hoped and wished for is some peace, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where this cruel, torturous existence is finally all gone for me, peace for me could only lie in non-existence where I'm no longer burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, to me existing really is deeply undesirable in every way and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want peace instead. The peace of eternal nothingness really would solve everything for me and is all I could hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me peace from the burden of existence and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence.

For me existence is the most futile burden that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from it, I just want to never suffer ever again and I see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer. I wish I was never forced into this existence and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed, I personally just want peace, I wish to fall asleep eternally, in an existence so cruel and dreadful eternal sleep really is the only relief for me, I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it torturous to exist.
I truly do always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, I'd never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for the peace of eternal non-existence where this torturous existence is finally gone and forgotten about for me. I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence there was never a need for capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only eternal nothingness can bring me relief from, I find it such a torturous unnecessary burden to exist and it's a burden I wish I was never forced into more than anything.

I'd never wish to exist in this horrific reality where the pointless suffering of human existence is seen as to prolong and force no matter what even know there is no limit as to how torturous it can get and it all just leads to death anyway, non-existence really is always preferable to me than suffering in this torturous existence just waiting to die anyway, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again. I just wish for true eternal peace from this torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I suffer so much from being denied the option to just peacefully free myself from this existence as I see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition that just harms existing beings, simply being conscious in this existence on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I jusr want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrific how there's all this suffering.
It truly is so horrific to me how there's all this suffering and torture in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and it's one so cruel and terrible, I just wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty. I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm which is why non-existence truly is all I wish and hope for, I just wish for permanent peace, relief and safety from suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I see it as so dreadful how this harmful existence was even imposed at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all.

I wish I never existed, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, existence itself to me is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, I'll always see it as so terrible to exist. It'a horrific to me how existence causes all this torture and immense agony torturing existing beings until death takes away all for them anyway and personally I'd be so relieved to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again which is why I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to peacefully prevent all future suffering in this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always hoped to never wake again.
I really have always and only hoped to never wake again, I just want to fall asleep permanently with this existence finally forgotten for me, non-existence is all that's positive and desirable for me, I just hope for true peace from this unnecessary torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently, non-existence is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only eternal nothingness can take away for me and bring me relief from, I really would always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to permanent sleep, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten, I'd personally always prefer to forget about this existence, I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this futile, torturous existence suffering all for the sake of it wishing for the peace that only non-existence can bring me. I wish I could just choose to never wake ever again, I wish for the option to just permanently stop suffering but the suffering just continues, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace and finally escape from the torturous burden of existing as a human that I never would have chosen, non-existence is all I personally wish for and is all I could ever do no matter what, I truly was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wished to not exist.
I really have always wished to not exist and it's all I could wish for, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive as it means I'll never exist ever again and I'll be unable to suffer, I'd personally never wish for the torturous, futile burden of human existence that really did always feel like a mistake to me rather I just want to not exist, I wish I never existed at all. I'd always prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this cruel existence that just causes existing beings to suffer until death takes away all anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it really is all just so dreadful to me.

I find it so burdensome to exist, I wish I was never forced to be conscious enslaved in this existence and what is so cruel to me is how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing with no risks of trying to die going wrong even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place causing all this harm and suffering as a result. To me existence itself really is just an unnecessary harm that just brings so much pain and causes so much suffering that there was never a need for, there really is just so much cruelty in existing and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and is all I'll ever wish for, I personally find it so painful to suffer in this existence and it's pain that only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep to finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake that I'm always so tired of that only ever caused me to suffer, I just want to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from an existence that just brought me pain, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and no matter what I'll always see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist. I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from how painless death is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. I truly am always so tired, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only never existing ever again can bring me relief from, non-existence is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I'm always so tired of that always felt like the most terrible tragic cruel mistake to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence, I just wish for non-existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me always feels like a mistake.
It truly does always feel like a mistake to me and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what, I personally see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway and to never exist ever again really is all I could hope for, for me non-existence really is all that's positive in this existence where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem no matter what as after all it's the source of all suffering, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence I always saw as the most terrible, harmful mistake is finally all gone and forgotten about. But of course I continue to suffer wishing and hoping to be gone, permanent non-existence really is all I can hope for and would solve everything for me in this futile, torturous existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced to suffer as existence really does feel like a mistake to me and it's one so cruel that just brings so much pain, it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much dread for what lies ahead.
I truly do always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this torturous, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I really would never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want this cruel existence to finally be all gone and forgotten about for me, I just want to never suffer ever again. I just find it so dreadful how this existence causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it until all is gone in non-existence anyway, I wish I could just choose to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues with me wishing for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me.

I just wish and hope to fall asleep permanently and I truly will only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious free from this dreadful existence that I never would have wished for, I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I never should have suffered in this existence. To me existence itself really is the ultimate problem which is why I'll only hope to not exist no matter what, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I find it so dreadful how a human can be conscious enslaved in this existence for so long, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to end up way more tortured, the suffering of existing really is endless and I just don't want to suffer at all, I wish for this dreadful existence to finally be forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for the peace of permanent sleep.
The peace of permanent sleep truly is all I could ever hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this futile and torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me just hoping to be gone. For me non-existence truly is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to finally forget about this existence I saw as just causing so much suffering and harm and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence.

For me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I just hope to never suffer ever again and I'd be so relieved to finally sleep permanently, non-existence truly is always preferable to me than the suffering of existing, I really was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I'll only wish to fall asleep permanently, non-existence really is the only relief for me. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, existing will always be so dreadful and torturous to me and I really would just never wish for any of this, I only hope for non-existence instead, for me non-existence is the only peace in this existence of cruelty and suffering, non-existence is all that could be positive for me personally, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish to be unconscious of this existence, I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently with all finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to forget about this existence.
I truly would always prefer to forget about this existence than suffer all for the sake of it, I really would never wish for this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this torturous, futile existence is finally all forgotten about, to me existing really is just only suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist.

I really would prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence just waiting to die anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'd prefer to forget about it all, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want to forget about this existence that always felt like the most terrible tragic mistake to me and to me existing really is just only suffering. I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me in non-existence anyway, I'l always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering even know to me all suffering is completely unnecessary, I just don't want to suffer at all, I only wish and hope for some peace instead and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally gone for me, I really would never wish for any of this and more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in this torturous, painful existence, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, to me existing really does just feel like only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence just waiting to die, I'll personally always see existing as just waiting for death and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence wishing for the peace that only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me.

To me existence really does feel like a mistake that just causes so much suffering and pain until non-existence takes away all anyway and I truly would always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I just wish to never suffer ever again. I just wish to be permanently unable to suffer and I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me any relief, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering which is why it's all I wish for. I'd never wish for something as harmful and torturous as existence that just causes existing beings to suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway, the suffering this existence causes really is endless with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I truly would never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just want to forget about this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and no matter what I could only ever see non-existence as positive, I just hope and wish to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing just continues, I personally find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

I find it torturous to be burdened with this existence that there was never a need for at all where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just hoping and waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist ever again, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to no longer being burdened with this torturous existence that always felt like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me. I see existing as being only suffering, existence itself to me really is the true problem and I'd always prefer to not exist, I just don't want to suffer at all and existing really does feel like suffering all for the sake of it to me, I'll always find it so torturous to exist, I just wish I could have the option of a death like never waking ever again to save myself from the cruelty and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I never wished for any of this and never would do, I just wish and hope to sleep permanently instead, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for.

 

[Rational man]

Always finding it torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and no matter what I could only ever see non-existence as positive, I just hope and wish to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing just continues, I personally find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

I find it torturous to be burdened with this existence that there was never a need for at all where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just hoping and waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist ever again, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to no longer being burdened with this torturous existence that always felt like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me. I see existing as being only suffering, existence itself to me really is the true problem and I'd always prefer to not exist, I just don't want to suffer at all and existing really does feel like suffering all for the sake of it to me, I'll always find it so torturous to exist, I just wish I could have the option of a death like never waking ever again to save myself from the cruelty and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I never wished for any of this and never would do, I just wish and hope to sleep permanently instead, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for.

Sorry to hear about your suffering. I can relate to a degree with my physical illness..Im amazed my body is still functioning because ive been ill for several Years. I sometimes wonder if my body is refusing to release me from the pain. I also wonder if humankind underestimates the level of suffering of all humankind. I dont know anyone who does not struggle with life' issues at some level. The only thing that keeps me sane is my belief in impermanence and the end of suffering at some point will arrive for me. Everyone alive today will eventually face the cessation of existence. Its a universal constant.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced into this cruel, torturous existence at all, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, eternal sleep is what I'm meant for not all this cruelty and suffering, I wish I could just choose to painlessly die to free myself from this existence that was so tragically imposed but of course I exist in this horrific reality where human suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway, all I hope for is to permanently not exist.


I just hope for permanent peace from this cruel, futile existence I was never meant for, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for and could do, this existence just feels like a mistake to me, I see it as all just so dreadful, non-existence would solve everything for me because after all, all my suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and I suffer as I was forced to be conscious in this existence I was never meant for that just caused all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it. I personally just want to sleep eternally and I'd always prefer to sleep than suffer in this existence just to be tortured by old age, the fact that a human can be burdened with this existence for much longer is so horrific to me and terrifying especially as there is no limit as to how torturous it can get, to me existence really is an abomination that I was never meant for, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence that was never for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from being denied painless way.
I truly do always suffer from being denied a painless way to prevent all future unnecessary suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existence as just waiting to die, it's so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing even know this existence was imposed, I never would have wished for any of this and it all just leads to death anyway, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture and agony of existing can get. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want a painless way to be permanently be free from it all, I just want a death like never waking ever again to free myself from the cruelty and torture of existing and to me existing just feels like only suffering.

I suffer as a result of being conscious in this existence, it's just so dreadful to me how I cannot just have the option to permanently escape from the torturous and futile burden of existing as a human as to me this existence just feels like a mistake and it's one so painful and unnecessary I never would have wished for. There's just so much pain in existing with no limit as to how agonising it can get and it's all just so cruel and terrible to me, I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for the peace of an permanent sleep, I just want to never wake and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong.
I really find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, it's all just so cruel, painful and terrible to me, all I hope for is an guaranteed way to just be free from it all, I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence but of course I continue to suffer so much all for the sake of it instead. To me existence truly is the most horrifying abomination that causes endless amounts of torture and agony with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, it's terrifying to me and so cruel how trying to permanently escape from all suffering can lead to way more unbearable immense suffering as a result.

I just wish I was never forced into this existence at all, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake that just harms and torments existing beings until all is gone and forgotten about in non-existence anyway and to never exist ever again really is all I can hope for, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering. All I hope and wish for is peace from this torturous existence that just causes all this agony, the suffering of existing really is endless, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist no matter what and I suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just choose to find peace from it all, the peace of eternal non-existence is all I could ever personally hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish for any of this.
No matter what I truly would never wish for any of this, I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see it as so terrible and torturous to suffer in this existence that always felt like the most tragic mistake to me, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief. I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing to be gone, eternal sleep certainly is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I'd never wish for and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again.

Existence really was never worth it for me rather it was always something I just saw as causing all this suffering and harm all for the sake of it, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer, and in general I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I find it a burden having to be conscious at all in this existence that was completely unnecessary and just caused all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it and as well as that I have no interest in existence. I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just wish for nothingness, eternal non-existence is all I could hope for and is all that could bring me any peace from this existence I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want all to be gone for me, I see existence as the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes and brings suffering, I wish I could just choose to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping for eternal sleep.
Eternal sleep truly is all I hope for and is all I could ever do no matter what, all I wish for is to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, non-existence really would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting for death, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and I always suffer from being denied the option of a death like never waking ever again.

Eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable, it'd solve everything for me and is all I see as positive as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten about and I'd personally always prefer to forget about this existence, I just don't want to suffer at all in any way rather I only wish for non-existence. I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, peace from this existence is all I hope for and is all I'm meant for, I really was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, dreamless eternal sleep really would be the only relief for me and is all that can bring me any peace. For me peace could only lie in eternal non-existence where all is forgotten, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I really am always so tired of being conscious in this existence and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence can take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, to me existence is the most futile and torturous burden that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering and it's all just so painful and terrible to me. I really would prefer to not exist no matter what and I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I'm just so tired of this torturous, futile existence that was so tragically imposed and I see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just harms and torments existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware of this existence.

I really never should have been forced to suffer at all and to me existing really is only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence that just caused all these pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all I could wish for. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this futile, torturous existence wishing for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me, I personally only hope and wish to sleep permanently, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, this existence never should have been imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me than all the pointless suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, I personally only hope to not exist and only see non-existence as desirable. I just want to never exist ever again, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, if I don't exist I cannot suffer and nothing can harm me or concern me which is all I hope for.

Non-existence is all that's positive for me in this torturous existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd always prefer to not exist over the futile suffering of human existence and I wish I was never forced to exist at all, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally this unnecessary, cruel existence is no longer my problem and finally I can rest. Peace for me really could only ever lie in non-existence and to permanently not exist truly is all I could hope for, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer in this existence, it terrifies me how a human can suffer so long and is capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts, it really is all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I personally would never wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's so much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all just so torturous and terrible to me and I truly would never wish for any of this, I just hope for non-existence instead, I see existence as the most horrific abomination that just causes so much harm and suffering. It's so cruel to me how existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I wish for non-existence as only then can nothing concern me and all is forgotten.

I'd always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I see it as something so terrible to be enslaved in this existence, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious waiting to die in this cruel existence that there was never a need for that I was unfortunate enough to be burdened with, I'd just never wish for the burden of existing. I see existence as just causing nothing but suffering and it's suffering so futile and unnecessary to me and it's all just so cruel, for me non-existence truly is always preferable, it's all I could hope for and is all I could bring me the relief I search for from this existence that was so tragically imposed, non-existence is all that's desirable for me but of course I only see never suffering at all as being true perfection, I'd just never wish for the cruelty of existing, I just wish to sleep permanently instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I hope for is to permanently cease existing and finally be free from this painful, torturous existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that I wish was never imposed more than anything, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the imposition of existence rather I wish I never suffered.

I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty, the tiredness I feel really is such that only non-existence can take away, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all harm and suffering, for me existence really was never worth it and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing. I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want non-existence, it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from this existence I'm always so tired of that I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering, this existence truly is so cruel and harmful, all that existence does is just cause existing beings to suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'm always so tired of it all, I just want to fall asleep eternally and finally be able to rest but of course the suffering just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish this existence was never imposed.
I really wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile, torturous existence more than anything, no matter what I really will always see this existence as the most terrible tragic mistake, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any peace from, I really do find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it. I find it so burdensome to be conscious in this existence at all and I'm always so tired of it all, if I never existed it would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting for death with every second one closer to this existence that just causes so much suffering that I always saw as deeply undesirable ending.

To be permanently unconscious is all I hope for, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering of existing especially as there are no disadvantages to not suffering at at all but of course only never existing is true perfection to me. I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish this existence was never imposed, I truly do suffer so much because of the imposition of existence and it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, I find it so tragic how this existence there was never a need for was imposed.