Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Feeling forced to suffer in this existence.
I really do feel forced to suffer in this painful, cruel and torturous existence as after all this existence was so tragically imposed yet I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from it and never suffer ever again, all I hope for is this existence to be no longer my problem and I'll only be at peace once this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally forgotten about for me. There's just so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know I never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the harmful imposition of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I personally suffer so much from existing and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to fall asleep eternally and finally forget about it all, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm no matter what and non-existence truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this cruel, painful existence just waiting to die anyway and existing to me really is just waiting to die. I wish I had a death like never waking ever again to save myself from so much unnecessary suffering and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, all I've ever wished for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, to be able to choose to permanently stop suffering really would solve everything for me.

 

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Existing to me is just waiting to die.
And that's all it could ever be to me no matter what, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die as after all eventually all will be finally forgotten about in non-existence anyway, death really is all that's inevitable and if I'm gone it'll be like I never existed at all as after all I'll be permanently unconscious. I personally only hope to forget about this existence, I just wish for permanent peace from this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much suffering, it just feels so cruel to me how painless death is denied even know all will be gone in death anyway.

I'd personally rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up suffering way more unbearably, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for nothingness, I just find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, it's all just pointless suffering and I find it so tragic how I was forced to suffer at all even know this existence was completely unnecessary and there was just never a need for any of this. All I hope for is to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, for me existence really was never worth it but rather something that just caused suffering and harm and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this harmful existence, I really was never meant for the burden of existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

 

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Suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence, it really is all just so terrible and torturous to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only wish for nothingness.

I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'd prefer to forget about this existence, I just want all to be gone for me, to me existence truly does just feel like only suffering. It feels like a mistake to me and it's one so cruel and painful that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'm always so tired of suffering, all I personally hope for is non-existence. I just want to sleep for all eternity but of course the suffering just continues instead and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I wish for the option to just choose to never wake, only never waking ever again can bring me peace from this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence rather I wish I never suffered, to suffer in this existence truly is something so dreadful and torturous to me that I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the pointless unnecessary suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.
I truly would choose to erase my existence if it's up to me as all I wish for is some peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, to me existence really is the most torturous, futile burden and it's one I'd never wish for that I only wish for permanent relief from. I just wish to disappear from this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me wishing to be gone, to me existing really does just feel like only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for all to be gone for me.

I just want permanent peace from this existence and being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me, it's all I could ever wish and hope for, I just want this existence to be all finally forgotten about but of course I'm still trapped in this cruel, futile existence just wishing for the peace that only non-existence could bring me, no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. Nothing would make me wish for the terrible unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably until death takes away all anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's one I always wish I could disappear from, I'd never wish to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain that only non-existence could take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and to sleep permanently is all I could hope and wish for. I just wish for this existence to be all forgotten about and no longer my problem but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead and I continue to be trapped in this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering wishing for the relief that only non-existence can bring me.

No matter what I'd prefer to sleep permanently than suffer in this existence, I just find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'd be so relieved to sleep eternally and never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again as non-existence is all I could hope for and could ever do no matter what. I was just never meant for the torturous burden of human existence and I never should have suffered at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I just want nothingness instead. Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, only never existing ever again can take away what I personally see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me feels like only suffering.
It truly does just feel like only suffering to me and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I wish I never existed, I personally always see it as so dreadful to be forced into this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering that was completely unnecessary and that there was never a need for at all. I was never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered in this existence, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one I just want permanent peace and relief from, I just hope to never suffer ever again.

I'll always see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I just wish I was never forced to exist, I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence, I find it so dreadful to be forced into this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just waiting to die anyway. I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist no matter what, it's a burden that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just wish for non-existence, I just want peace, I don't want to suffer at all in any way and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this harmful, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, existence just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and it's all just so torturous and terrible, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence wishing for the peace that only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me.

As long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten about, for me non-existence really is always preferable than the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want to sleep eternally, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it, just hoping and wishing to be gone, existence really does cause so much harm. It's just so terrible to me, I'd never wish for the terrible unnecessary suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it, I just hope and wish for non-existence instead. Only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that always felt like the most cruel, harmful mistake to me, there's just so much suffering in existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this torturous, harmful existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just hope to be gone instead, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is deeply undesirable to me.
No matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I just wish to not exist, I just see nothing appealing about existing rather I just hope and wish to sleep eternally. I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and there is no more suffering, to me existence is the most cruel, futile burden that just causes problems and pain there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the thought of suffering in this existence for much longer just to be tortured by old age is really unbearable to me.

I'd just never wish for any of that suffering, I only hope and wish for nothingness instead, I just want to sleep for all eternity where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and finally all is forgotten, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. Wanting to not exist truly is all I know and is all I could hope for, I just want to forget about this deeply undesirable existence I was unfortunate enough to be burdened with, I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all even know never existing would have saved me from so much suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and peace from all the suffering has been all I've ever wished and hoped for, I just wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to not exist is a response to existence.
It really is a response to existence, I wish to die as a result of being forced into this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep instead, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for non-existence and it's all I've wished for. I'd never wish for the suffering this existence so tragically brings where one is capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, it's just so terrible, painful and dreadful how there's all this suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope and wish for non-existence instead.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, existence to me really does feel like the most terrible mistake that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and I just want peace from it, I'm just not meant for any of this as well, I could never be meant for something as torturous and futile as existing. For me existing was always deeply undesirable in every way and never worth it, I'd just never wish for any of this and I suffer so much from how the option for me to peacefully cease existing is so cruelly denied, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish to just fall asleep permanently.
All I hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where this existence is finally all gone, eternal sleep is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I just want to forget about this existence I saw as the most cruel, harmful terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this existence, I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist.

I just wish for non-existence where finally this existence is no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, to never suffer ever again truly is all I could wish for, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all harm and suffering where I'm no longer burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish for the torturous unnecessary burden of existence rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, I just want to sleep for all eternity where I'm finally unable to suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious, there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one I only hope for eternal sleep to bring me peace from, I just want to sleep permanently but of course the suffering in this cruel existence just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all for them anyway, I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist and to me existing really is just waiting to die. I suffer so much from waiting to die in this dreadful existence and I'll always feel so much dread for what lies ahead, for me existence really was never worth it but rather just something I saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

There's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so painful to me, I'd prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this dreadful existence that was so tragically imposed just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I never should have suffered in this existence and my suffering is such that only non-existence can take away for me. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. As long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten about for me but of course all the suffering of existing just continues instead, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence I never would have chosen that was so tragically imposed, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for nothingness, I just wish to be permanently unaware of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, non-existence really is preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose and was never meant for.

Non-existence would solve everything for me as it'd remove what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I've always wished for non-existence and it's all I could wish for, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never suffering at all is true perfection for me. I just want to forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I've just never had any interest in the torturous burden of human existence as well, I just want nothingness instead, eternal nothingness really is all that can bring me peace from this existence I never wished for, for me existence was never worth it rather it's something I just want to be all gone for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all I could ever see as desirable, I just hope and wish to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist, I find it so painful to be conscious in this existence, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just wish for some peace instead, I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence and all is finally gone for me. It's so tragic to me how this harmful, torturous existence was even imposed and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope for permanent non-existence instead, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again.

I'm just so tired of suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer, there's no pain in non-existence, I personally just want peace and peace for me could only lie in never existing ever again. I wish I could just choose to simply die in a painless way but of course I cannot have such an option which is just so painful, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous, futile existence and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, only non-existence can bring me relief from the pain of existing, I just want to never exist ever again and finally forget this existence I'd never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffered for so long.
I really have suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this unnecessary undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of eternal nothingness, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just causes pain and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always so tired of suffering.

I just hope and wish for this existence to be all forgotten and no longer my problem, simply just existing is tiring for me and is enough to make me wish for death, as long as I exist I'll just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just wish for true permanent peace instead, I only wish to never exist ever again. I'd personally be so relieved to not exist with all finally gone for me, I just want to sleep for all eternity, peace for me really could only lie in non-existence and permanent relief from all the suffering is all I could ever hope for, I was just never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing, I really never should have suffered at all and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of existing and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just want nothingness, I just want some peace and eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally unable to suffer in any way and all is forgotten for me. Never existing ever again really would solve everything for me as after all existence is the source of all suffering, I personally see existence as just being an deeply undesirable abomination that causes so much harm and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want non-existence instead and it's all I've hoped for.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I've always felt so tired and always will do, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so dreadful to me. There's so much cruelty in existing and in fact to me existing feels like only suffering and I just want peace from all this, I only hope for the peace of non-existence where finally I can forget about this existence, I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the burden of existing, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this torturous existence.
There really is so much cruelty in this torturous existence, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want nothingness, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, to me existence really is the most torturous, harmful abomination and it's one I'd never wish for that I only hope for permanent relief from, no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. I just hope and wish for non-existence instead of being enslaved in this existence where there is all this cruelty, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I suffer so much because of the imposition of existence, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist and nothing would make me wish for this cruel existence. I just wish to never exist ever again instead and I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently safe from all suffering, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me as after all I cannot suffer from the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, there are no disadvantages to never existing ever again, I could personally never see any benefit to something as cruel and torturous as existence rather I just want to forget about it all, all I could hope for is the peace of non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There really is so much pain and suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel, I'd never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, nothing would ever make me wish for this painful existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is all forgotten. No matter what I'll always find it so painful and dreadful to exist and it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me, I suffer simply from existing and to me existing just feels like only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me.

I truly would never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep eternally, I wish for this painful existence to be no longer my problem, I wish to not exist as only then will I be unable to suffer, only then can nothing concern me with me finally free from the painful burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist no matter what. Existence is a burden that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I was just never meant for this painful, torturous existence where existing beings have to suffer so much all for the sake of it, I really never should have been forced into this existence and I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of pointless suffering hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, nothing would make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and to never exist ever again really is all I could hope for, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be all forgotten about for me, I just hope and wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

For me only ceasing to exist is desirable, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me just wishing to be gone, for me non-existence really is the only peace, I could never see any peace in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll always find it the most dreadful burden to exist and it's a burden that only non-existence can bring me relief from. Existence really does just cause so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and all I hope for is peace from all this, I just want to never exist ever again, only eternal sleep could ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and to me existence really is just waiting for death. I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently as all I wish for is some peace, non-existence is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never worth it for me.
It truly was never worth it for me and I'd just never wish for the torturous abomination of existence no matter what instead I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, I really will always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I wish that more than anything I never suffered. I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence, I always suffer so much from the imposition of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I was just never meant for something as harmful and torturous as existence and I always suffer so much from being denied the option to just peacefully free myself from it.

I just hope and wish to fall asleep eternally where finally I can forget about this existence that was never worth it for me, non-existence is all that appeals to me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence is finally no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, I personally just see no value and benefit to existing rather I just want to peacefully cease existing. Non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, all I hope for is to be free from this existence that was never worth it for me, existing to me is only suffering, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, nothing would ever make me wish for the burden of existence, I'll always find it so painful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence.

 

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Wish I never existed.
More than anything I wish I never existed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most tragic mistake that just brought so much pain, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course only never existing is true perfection to me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existence but rather I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I was never burdened with this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I see existing as only being suffering, I suffer just from being conscious trapped in this painful, torturous existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to die tortured by old age.

I wish I never suffered, never existing would have saved me from so much unnecessary suffering in this existence I wish was never imposed and I see existence as the most terrible mistake, I find it a tragedy how this existence was imposed at all that there was never a need for at all, I was just never meant for any of this suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to not exist. I just want non-existence, ceasing to exist really is all that's desirable for me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence really was never worth it, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence rather I just wish for non-existence, for me existence itself will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all just so painful and terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist, to me existence really is the most torturous, unnecessary abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway and I truly would never wish for any of this. I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten about instead, for me non-existence is all that could ever be positive as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent after all with this existence no longer my problem.

The way I see it existence truly does cause only suffering, only ceasing to exist could ever be desirable for me, I just want to forget about this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I personally find it completely undesirable to exist in every way and I just don't want to exist at all, I only hope for peace from all the suffering and for me peace could only lie in non-existence. Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and unable to feel any pain, I could never see any point and value to being enslaved in this painful, torturous existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die, I wish I never suffered in the first place, I find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all that just causes so much suffering, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

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I'd prefer to not exist.
I truly would prefer to not exist under all circumstances, for me non-existence really is always preferable to suffering in this cruel, futile existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I never would have chose, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, I just want this existence to finally be all gone for me.

Non-existence is preferable for me and is what I see as peace, I only hope to be permanently unconscious of this torturous unnecessary existence that just causes existing beings to suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway, for me non-existence would be a relief as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing. If I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I personally see as ideal, I just wish for no more suffering, no more pain, no more problems, existing to me is the most undesirable burden and it's one that I was never meant for, I'm so tired of suffering. I find it painful to be conscious in this reality where is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I personally just want to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me, it's all I see as positive for me, I just wish for permanent peace and safety from all suffering but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just waiting to die and hoping to never suffer ever again, nothing would make me wish for any of this, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I wish for.

 

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I'd be so relieved to cease existing.
I really would be so relieved to finally cease existing, it'd be such a relief to never suffer ever again in this futile, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd be so relieved to be free from this horrific reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering. To me existing really does feel like only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get and I'd just be so relieved to be permanently free from all that, non-existence certainly is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and I always suffer from being denied the option to peacefully cease existing.

I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering, for me non-existence really is all that'a desirable and ideal, I just wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, I truly would be so relieved to finally be free from this existence of pointless suffering that was so tragically imposed and I find it such a tragedy how I had to suffer at all even know never existing was perfection. If I never existed it would had saved me from all this suffering but now I suffer and have done for so long all I can wish and hope for is to sleep eternally, eternal sleep would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, relief and safety from suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, non-existence really is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what

 

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Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could take away for me and bring me relief from, I really would always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten, I just wish for this existence to no longer be my concern, for me existence really was never worth it.

I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'm just so tired of suffering all for the sake of it and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently escape from all future suffering, I've always felt so tired of existing and always will do no matter what. I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this unnecessary existence just wishing for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, futile existence just continues with me just hoping to be gone, I find it deeply undesirable to exist, always have done and always will do.

 

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No disadvantages to not existing.
There really are no disadvantages to not existing which is why non-existence is all I wish for, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this torturous, futile existence just continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, all I could wish for is to not exist. Non-existence is all that's positive for me as after all only in non-existence will I be incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain, I just wish for this cruel existence to be all forgotten about and finally no longer my problem, I really would always prefer to not exist no matter what.

I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep over being burdened with this futile, unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, existence to me really is something so dreadful, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just harms existing beings and causes them to suffer, I personally find it so painful to be conscious in this existence. To me existence truly is a burden and I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I've only ever hoped for nothingness and it's all I could hope for no matter what, I just want to forget about this existence I always saw as causing nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only dreamless eternal sleep can take away for me and bring me relief from, I just hope and wish for the relief of never existing ever again where nothing can concern me and this existence is all gone for me, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

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Only hoping to sleep eternally.
All I hope and wish for is to sleep eternally and it's all I could hope for, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more pain, no more suffering, I find it so terrible and cruel how there's all this suffering in existing all for the sake of it and what is so tragic to me is how this existence was even imposed. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence which is why I just hope to sleep eternally, eternal sleep really is the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

To me existing really is just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and to never suffer ever again truly is all I could wish and hope for, I just wish for this torturous undesirable existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, only eternal sleep can bring me the relief from suffering I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway. I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to sleep eternally, all that could bring me any peace is to never suffer ever again, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this painful, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so harmful as it's the source of all suffering.
Existence truly is something so harmful and no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful, torturous existence rather I only hope for nothingness instead, to me existence really is an abomination as after all it's the source of all suffering, torture and cruelty. I see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this unnecessary futile existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this, I've always and only hoped for non-existence and it's all I could hope for, I'd just never wish to exist.

To me existence really is the most cruel, futile burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering and more than anything I wish I never existed, I find it a tragedy how this cruel, harmful existence was even imposed, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, it would have saved me from so much suffering and in general I just see no benefit to existence rather I see it as something that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway. I'd just always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this harmful existence, to me existence really was never worth it but rather it was something that just brought and caused so much suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

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Wish I could just choose to never wake.
I always wish I could just choose to never wake again, I just want to fall asleep permanently, ceasing to exist truly is all that's ideal and desirable for me but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this existence. I never should have been burdened with this existence and it's a burden I only hope for non-existence to bring me peace from, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want to fall asleep permanently, for me eternal sleep truly is the only peace and relief for me in this existence so cruel and torturous where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I really would be so relieved to fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep really would solve everything for me in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I was never meant for any of this and I'd always prefer to not exist, I'd just never wish for the dreadful pointless suffering of human existence. I only hope and wish for some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, it could only lie in this existence being all gone and forgotten, I just hope and wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as so undesirable and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself will always be the true problem to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence itself as the true problem, it's something so terrible and cruel as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again. I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is finally all gone and no longer my problem, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only never existing ever again could ever bring me relief from.

All I hope for is to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and I really wish I never suffered at all, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, in fact to me existence itself feels like nothing but suffering. I see existence itself as the most cruel, tragic mistake that just torments existing beings, it's all just so dreadful and painful to me, I just find it so tragic how this existence was imposed and I was forced to suffer all for the sake of it as a result, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, it's all I could ever wish for no matter what, for me existence really was never worth it rather I always saw it as the true problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing to escape from this existence of unnecessary suffering is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead even know I never would have chosen and never would have wisher for any of this, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I'd always prefer to not exist. It's horrific to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age, in general I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and torturous that I see no benefit to and no value to rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

I never wished to suffer in the first place and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only an eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep eternally with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony. I personally just want some peace from this existence of endless suffering and peace for me could only lie in non-existence, it's all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering, I just hope for permanent relief from the torturous burden of existence, I just hope to finally forget about this existence.