Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never worth it for me.
It really never was rather it was something that only ever caused me to suffer, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake which is why I only hope and wish for death, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten and nothing can concern me.


I never saw existence as desirable and I'd just never wish for it rather I just hope for nothingness, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just saw as causing so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I always saw existing as completely undesirable. I'd always prefer to not exist as I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering and to me existence really does just feel like only suffering. I always suffer so much from being conscious in this existence just waiting and hoping to not exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me, for me existence really was never worth it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I wish to permanently cease existing instead and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem, only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any relief and it's all I'd ever hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me will always feel like a mistake.
It really will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one I only hope to be permanently free from, all I wish for is the peace of permanent non-existence where finally all is gone and this torturous undesirable existence is no longer my problem, I just see existence as a mistake that causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer.

To me personally existence really will always be the most harmful, dreadful abomination and it's one that only non-existence could bring any relief from, I'll always find it a mistake to suffer all for the sake of it just waiting to die and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence. I'd always prefer to not exist than be trapped in this cruel, futile existence just waiting for death anyway and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what, it's a burden that only eternal nothingness could ever bring me peace from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way. There are no disadvantages to this existence no longer being my problem, I'd never wish for existence rather I just wish for the absence of it, I just see existence as a mistake that serves no function but to cause and bring so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I see it as just so harmful to exist, there's so much suffering in this harmful, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious in this existence.
I really am always so tired of being conscious in this existence and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, all I hope and wish for is to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again. I'll always find it so dreadful and painful to exist and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this horrific reality where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering just hoping and waiting to die anyway, no matter what I really would always prefer to be unconscious and unaware of this existence, I'd never wish for the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.


For me non-existence really is all that's appealing, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and always will do, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never existing is true perfection to me, I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering. I'd just never wish for the pain of existing no matter what, I just wish for non-existence instead, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for until death takes away all anyway and I'm always so tired of this existence. I've always felt tired and always will do, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of existing.
I really do suffer so much as a result of existing and I'll suffer until all is gone and forgotten about for me in non-existence anyway, as long as I exist I really will only hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, for me non-existence truly is always preferable and is all I could wish for.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, futile existence that was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish for the imposition of existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I suffer so much because I exist and I just don't want to suffer at all in any way, I only hope for non-existence instead, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, non-existence is all that's desirable for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I really never should have been forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, existence really does just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. It's all just so terrible to me and painful, as long as I exist I really will only hope for non-existence, it's all I can hope for, for me all that could be positive is never suffering again in this existence, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so horrific how a human can suffer so long.
I truly do find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me just to be tortured dying in agony from old age, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for nothingness, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from the suffering and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, for me non-existence really is always preferable and is all I could hope for, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.

To me existence really is an abomination that just causes so much harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway. For me non-existence is all that's desirable, I find it really horrific how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer in this existence that was so tragically imposed in the first place. I really will always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's something I'd never wish for, the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to face the extreme agony and torture of old age is really unbearable to me, I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied so I can finally escape from this existence of pointless suffering, I wish there's acceptance towards not wanting to suffer rather than suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what as I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.
All I need is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, I just wish and hope to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this futile, torturous existence just hoping and wishing to be gone, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I could hope for. I just wish for this existence to finally be all forgotten about but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues with me hoping to be gone, as long as I exist I'll only hope to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for peace from this dreadful existence that always felt like the most terrible mistake to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for nothingness.

I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where finally nothing can concern me and I'm incapable of suffering and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence waiting to die anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I just want to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me peace, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I need the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep to save me from all future suffering in this existence I really would never have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me really is an abomination.
I really will always see existence as an abomination no matter what and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, suffering and torture until death takes away all anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what. Eternal non-existence really is always preferable for me than the suffering of existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I just never should have been forced to suffer in this existence but of course the suffering just continues with me wishing for the peace that only eternal nothingness can bring me, I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace from the abomination of existence, to me existence truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one I see as only causing harm. I'll always see existing as just waiting to die and I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this torturous existence, I just wish to be permanently safe from the suffering of existing, for me peace could only ever lie in an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I'm free from this abomination, I'll personally always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all that causes existing beings to suffer and there's just so much suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it torturous to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist in fact to me existence itself really is the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering. I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this cruel, futile existence just waiting to not exist anyway but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I truly never should have suffered in this torturous existence that always felt like the most harmful, terrible tragic mistake to me.

I see existence as the most torturous unnecessary burden and it's one that only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just find it so dreadful to suffer in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone. Existence really does just feel like a mistake to me and it's one that only permanent nothingness can bring me peace from, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me as there are no disadvantages to not existing after all, there's no suffering in what I only see as desirable which is ceasing to exist. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous existence rather I just want all to finally be gone for me, I'd personally always prefer to forget about this existence that only ever brought me so much suffering, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be so relieved to finally cease existing.
I really would be so relieved to finally cease existing, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me, ceasing to exist really would be a relief for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent. I only hope and wish to be unconscious for all eternity where nothing can concern me and finally this existence is forgotten about, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want non-existence, for me ceasing to exist really is the only peace and is all I could wish for, I just wish for no more suffering, no more cruelty.

I'd be so relieved to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just never wish for any of this, ceasing to exist really would be the relief for me which is why I suffer so much from how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so cruelly denied. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to be tortured by old age, I find it really horrific and unbearable how a human can suffer for so long which is why I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the relief of this existence finally being gone for me, existence itself is the true problem for me that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me safety from suffering.
It truly is all that can bring me safety from suffering in this futile, torturous existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose that was so harmfully and tragically imposed. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, I really will only be safe from suffering once I'm no longer burdened with this existence because after all existence is the source of all suffering and without it one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way, I'd never wish for this harmful existence.

There's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it's all just so terrible to me which is why I only wish for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way where I'm permanently safe from all suffering in this horrific reality where existing beings are tormented all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway and to me existing really is just only suffering. I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and I'll suffer until all is finally forgotten for me in death, non-existence really would solve everything for me and is all I personally see as positive, I just hope and wish for the relief of never suffering ever again where all is finally gone for me which is why I see so much cruelty in how painless death is so harmfully denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just not meant for this existence of cruelty and suffering.
I really am just not meant for this torturous existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering and I really never should have existed at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence that always felt like the most cruel, tragic mistake to me. I personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one that only permanent non-existence can bring me any peace from, I'm just not meant to suffer in this existence and no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist.

To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it's all just so terrible to me, I'd never wish for any of this under any circumstances rather I only hope for the peace of non-existence where all is finally forgotten about. Only ceasing to exist could ever be appealing to me personally, I just want to finally forget about this torturous existence that I saw as just causing nothing but harm, to me existence itself really is the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way which is why to never exist ever again is all I could hope for. I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist as I'm just not meant for this existence of cruelty and suffering but only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this futile existence where I just wait for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only never existing is true perfection to me.
It really is all that's true perfection to me, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, I'll always see existence as the most torturous, unnecessary abomination that I'd just never wish to be conscious of at all. I personally see no value in being burdened with this existence of pointless suffering just destined to decay and die anyway, to me existence really is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, it really is all just so dreadful to me and what is so cruel is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get and I really just never would wish for any of this.

I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings are tormented so unbearably all for the sake of it, I wish I stayed permanently unconscious of this existence, never existing at all would have saved me from so much pointless suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die. I hope for non-existence as only then will I be able to find peace, relief and safety from all future suffering but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence, for me existence really was never worth it but rather something that always felt like the most terrible harmful mistake, never suffering at all really is all that's perfection to me and the fact that this existence was imposed is always so tragic to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing I could just fall asleep permanently.
As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to fall asleep permanently, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten with this torturous futile existence no longer my concern, I was just never meant for the suffering of existing and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist. I could personally just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, for me existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about that I just hope for true permanent peace from and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again.

I just wish for this existence to be no longer my problem but of course I just continue to suffer instead, there's just so much suffering in existing and existing to me really does feel like only suffering, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from. All I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence is all forgotten, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd always prefer to not suffer than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what but rather I just hope to sleep permanently, eternal sleep would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is so much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this torturous futile existence is finally no longer my problem and I cannot suffer in any way. To me existence really does feel like the most cruel, terrible mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I'll suffer until all is forgotten about for me in death anyway.

I just hope and wish to peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all, I only personally hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence is no longer my problem and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this terrible horrific world rather I just hope for nothingness. I just want to finally forget about this existence that I just saw as causing so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'll suffer until all is forgotten for me in non-existence anyway, I just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of cruelty and suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting for non-existence anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all I could personally see as desirable.
It really is all that's desirable to me but only true perfection could be never suffering at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel, futile existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, I personally just see no point, value and benefit to being conscious in this existence rather I wish I never existed at all.

I never should have suffered in this torturous unnecessary existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, it's all I have wished for and could ever do, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence, I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and in general I just find it deeply undesirable to exist under all circumstances, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for nothingness. I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I'd just be so relieved to finally fall asleep permanently but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen and was never meant for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want peace instead and some peace is all I could ever wish for, the peace of non-existence is all that's positive for me, it's all I see as ideal and desirable, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing any benefit to existence.
I could personally never see any benefit to existence rather it's just something that causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, to me existence truly is the most cruel, torturous abomination and it's one I'd just never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather I just hope for nothingness. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I find it really tragic how this existence was even imposed at all that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for at all with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all so futile to me.

I see existing as just waiting to die and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything as I just don't see a benefit to existence, I see it as so harmful to be conscious enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway. It's all just pointless suffering to me and I just don't see benefit to suffering at all rather I wish all this suffering could have been prevented by never existing at all, I'll personally always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never saw benefit to and it's all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me non-existence truly is all that's positive.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, all I hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, non-existence would solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting and hoping to cease existing anyway, only eternal sleep can bring me the relief I search for from this existence of cruelty and suffering. I only hope and wish for this existence to be all gone, I just find it so tragic how this existence that just caused all this suffering for the sake of it was even imposed at all, I see existence as the most torturous, unnecessary imposition that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it.

To be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway is something so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and wishing to not exist, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all I could hope for no matter what. Only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and is all that can bring me peace, in general I only see non-existence as desirable, it's all that's positive for me as after all there is no suffering in non-existence, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and the relief of eternal sleep really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see existence as the most torturous futile imposition.
It really will always be the most torturous, futile imposition to me and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist and I just find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all that just causes so much suffering so unnecessarily. Existence to me really was the most terrible tragedy, it just feels like a mistake to me that as long as I exist I'll only hope to be free from, more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I was really never meant to suffer in this horrific world.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for the burden of existing and I'll always see it as so burdensome to suffer in this existence no matter what, I personally just hope for nothingness and only non-existence can bring me peace but of course only never suffering at all is true perfection to me. Never existing would have saved me from all this unnecessary suffering in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just waiting to die anyway, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, for me existence really was never worth it rather it's something I just wish was never imposed, existence itself truly is the ultimate problem to me and nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want some peace instead and it's all I'll hope for as long as I'm conscious in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never exist ever again.
As long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just wish for peace from all the suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, torturous mistake, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I only hope to forget about, no matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for nothingness.

I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me and it's all I could hope for, I was just never meant to suffer in this reality and existing to me feels like only suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, for me existence could never be worth it rather I just want to never exist ever again. I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep eternally to save myself from this painful existence that I was never meant for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want some peace from the terrible unnecessary cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, non-existence would solve everything for me, it's all that's positive for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence I saw as just causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, existence just causes so much pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway and it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, no matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just see existence as a terrible mistake that causes so much harm. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this torturous unnecessary existence is all gone and forgotten and nothing can concern me, the way I see it existence just causes harm.

I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence rather I just want nothingness, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just painlessly cease existing is so harmfully denied even know this existence was so tragically imposed. I just want to never exist ever again, all I personally see as positive is being permanently free from this harmful, unnecessary existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for nothingness, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable and could ever be for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Permanent non-existence is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me and solve everything for me as after all there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten, I'd personally be so relieved to be free from this futile existence of pointless suffering where I'm just hoping for and waiting for death anyway. Existence is so cruel and what is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, all I personally see as positive is being permanently unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way.

I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that can bring me any peace as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing yet I see existence itself as the problem as it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way. There cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence, for me permanently ceasing to exist really is always preferable, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence I never would have chose just to be tortured by old age just waiting to die anyway, I'll always find it so dreadful and torturous to exist and I'd just never wish for the burden of existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always just see existing as being suffering all for the sake of it.
To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible, torturous and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary suffering just hoping and wishing to cease existing anyway and the fact that this existence of suffering was even imposed at all is always a tragedy to me.

I see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just torments existing beings until all is gone in non-existence anyway and it's something I'd never wish for that I just want peace from, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I see existing as only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until all is finally forgotten about for me in non-existence. I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I never would have wished for that I see as so harmful, there's just so much suffering in existing and to never suffer ever again really is all I could hope and wish for, I could personally just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering enslaved in this existence rather I just hope for nothingness and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I never should have been forced into this existence that I see as just being suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing and the suffering this existence causes is endless, no matter what I really will always see existence as the most torturous, harmful abomination that just causes so much pain and suffering, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd just never wish for existence rather to me existence is the problem. It's the ultimate cause and source of all pointless suffering in an existence that has just caused harm and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all that's desirable for me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all the suffering is finally gone.

All I wish for is to be unable to suffer at all but of course I continue to be trapped in this reality so cruelly denied the option to permanently stop suffering just waiting to die anyway, to me existence really does feel like such a tragic mistake, I see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway. I just don't want to suffer at all in any way and existing feels like nothing but suffering to me rather I just wish and hope for some peace instead and peace has been all I've ever hoped for, I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and I never should have suffered at all, nothing would make me wish for any of this no matter what and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to choose to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to erase my existence.
All I hope and wish for is to permanently erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this torturous, futile existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone, no matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace instead, I only wish for true permanent peace from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me. Being able to erase my existence really would solve everything for me as after all it remove what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and it'd bring me so much peace from this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway that I see as just causing nothing but suffering, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for this cruel, unnecessary existence to be all gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all only then am I unable to suffer but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I want it to be like I was never burdened with this dreadful existence and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden that only eternal nothingness could ever bring me relief from. Existence for me really was never worth it rather it's something I'd always prefer to avoid, I just wish for peace from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing, I wish I could just erase my existence and never suffer ever again, peace for me could only lie in being unable to suffer in this existence.

 

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I've never wished to exist.
I truly have never wished to exist and never would do no matter what, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing rather I just want to sleep eternally and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really will always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from. I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally no longer my problem, in general I just find it deeply undesirable to exist and always will do.

I find it a burden to exist and I wouldn't wish for any of this under any circumstances, I'll always wish to not exist no matter what as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, to me existence really does feel like a torturous mistake that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from this existence I was never meant for that I saw as just causing nothing but harm and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, only non-existence is desirable for me and could ever be no matter what, as long as I exist I really will only ever hope and wish for the peace of eternal non-existence where finally nothing can concern me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much because I exist.
I truly do suffer so much because I exist and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to sleep eternally with this existence finally no longer my problem, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious in this futile, torturous existence rather I just wish for peace, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and it's tiredness that only non-existence could bring me peace from.

I was just never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, I truly will always see existence as the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all. To me existence really does feel like a mistake that just causes so much harm and it's one I'd just never wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I just want this existence to finally be all gone and forgotten about. Only non-existence can take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, I just want to never suffer ever again, non-existence truly is all that's desirable and could ever be for me, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

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There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and it really is all so terrible to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just hope for nothingness, only non-existence can bring me peace from the abomination of existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. In fact to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, the way I see it existence just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want this cruel existence to be all forgotten about for me.

I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and I see it as a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in an eternal dreamless sleep. I just wish for the peace of non-existence to bring me permanent relief from this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile burden with no limit as to how much agony one can feel that just leads to decay and death anyway and the fact that this existence was imposed is such a tragedy to me, I always wish I could just fall asleep permanently and finally forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always wished to not exist.
I really have always wished to not exist and it's all I could ever wish for, I just wish to permanently cease existing with this torturous, futile existence finally all gone and forgotten about, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief. I'd always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this meaningless existence suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, non-existence really is all I could wish for and is all I see as desirable.

I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, I personally see existence as a mistake, it's something that just causes harm and torments existing beings and I'd be so relieved to be finally free from it all. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues with me just wishing to be gone, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for the peace of non-existence and ceasing to exist really is all that could bring me any peace from this existence I never would have chosen, I really was never meant to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless cruelty and torture. For me existence really was never worth it and I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, I've always wished for non-existence and it's all I could hope for, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

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I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this existence.
It really is so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence, it's all just pointless suffering to me and I could personally just never see any benefit to any of this rather existence just feels like a mistake. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence and it terrifies me how a human can be enslaved in this existence for so long with no limit as to how much they can suffer just to die in agony from old age, to me existence really is the most torturous abomination and it's something I'd just never wish for no matter what, I just want non-existence instead.

Only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for, it'd solve everything for me, I just have no interest in this existence of pointless suffering and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I just find it so dreadful and burdensome to exist, to me existence will always be a burden. I just want to peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all, the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep is always preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this existence just to decay and die anyway, I just don't want to suffer at all, I just want some peace instead. I'm only meant for the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten and this existence is no longer my problem, I wish I could just choose to sleep eternally, to never wake again is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering to me.
No matter what I really will just see existing as only being suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer until all is gone and forgotten about for me in non-existence anyway and to never suffer ever again in this existence really is all I hope for, I just see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake. There's just so much suffering in this torturous existence, it's all just so dreadful and painful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from all the suffering, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten, to me existence itself really is the true problem and always will be to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I just find it a tragedy how I was forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence and the imposition of existence is something I'd never wish for no matter what, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this torturous existence with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence. For me non-existence is peace, it's all that feels positive for me, I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again I could personally never see any value to suffering all for the sake of in this existence rather I just want non-existence, non-existence would solve everything for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chosen.