FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,695
Existing is just waiting to die anyway.
I'll always see existing as just waiting to die anyway, it's all so futile to me, I'm going to cease existing anyway with all finally gone and forgotten about for me which is of course all I've ever hoped for and will do no matter what. And this is why it's so horrible and cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just die in peace as death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd prefer to die sooner to save myself from unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this meaningless, torturous existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake and I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have suffered at all.
I never should have become conscious, no matter what I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I'd prefer to escape from and prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tormented, I see existing as nothing more than waiting to die where eventually nothing can matter to me and I'll be unable to be harmed which is why there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just free myself from this existence painlessly in peace. I'd always prefer to save myself from suffering than prolong it just to be tormented by old age, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather existence is something I only want peace from, I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'll always be so tired of being burdened with this existence which is why I only hope and wish to be gone, non-existence truly is the only relief for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.
I'll always see existing as just waiting to die anyway, it's all so futile to me, I'm going to cease existing anyway with all finally gone and forgotten about for me which is of course all I've ever hoped for and will do no matter what. And this is why it's so horrible and cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just die in peace as death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd prefer to die sooner to save myself from unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this meaningless, torturous existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake and I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have suffered at all.
I never should have become conscious, no matter what I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I'd prefer to escape from and prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tormented, I see existing as nothing more than waiting to die where eventually nothing can matter to me and I'll be unable to be harmed which is why there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just free myself from this existence painlessly in peace. I'd always prefer to save myself from suffering than prolong it just to be tormented by old age, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather existence is something I only want peace from, I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'll always be so tired of being burdened with this existence which is why I only hope and wish to be gone, non-existence truly is the only relief for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.