Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I personally see no benefit to suffering in this existence until old age.
I truly could never see any benefit to it, personally it terrifies me how a human can suffer so long just to face the extreme agony and torture of old age, to me existing truly is just terrible, pointless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I'd never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of human existence where one is just destined to decay and die anyway but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering where finally this existence is forgotten about, there's just so much cruelty in this unnecessary futile existence.

All I personally hope for is to die and never suffer ever again, I wish for non-existence as only then am I safe from all suffering, nothing would make me wish for the horrors of being tortured by old age but really I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious as something as harmful as existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist to escape from meaningless suffering in an existence I never would have chose, I just don't have any interest in suffering until old age as well and the thought of such is so horrifying to me, there's so much cruelty in how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised even know all of this was imposed, the fact that this existence was imposed will always be a terrible tragedy to me, it's so horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace as I'd never wish to exist, I just want peace, I just want nothingness, existence itself will always be the true problem to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for permanent relief from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrific to me how euthanasia is denied.
No matter what I'll always find it horrific how the option of euthanasia is denied for humans even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence to all this meaningless, pointless suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake. Personally I'd never wish for the torturous, futile burden of human existence rather I just want to finally die in peace and forget about it all, I just want all to be gone for me in death, under no circumstances would I wish for something as undesirable as existence that just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it.

I wish I could simply choose to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again and it feels so horrible how I cannot just have that option and the suffering just continues instead, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me no matter what, it's something so cruel and terrible that just causes endless amounts of torture and agony, death truly is the only relief for me and it's all I'll hope and wish for no matter what. In an existence so futile and torturous non-existence really is all that can bring me peace, I only want peace from this horrific world where the option of painless death is denied and suffering is seen as always to prolong instead, I'd rather die than prolong all this suffering in this existence I always saw as just causing nothing but harm in the first place, I'd never wish for existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just die painlessly to finally escape from it, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this cruel existence where there is all this endless suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It truly is all that's desirable for me and could ever be no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish for something as cruel, harmful and painful as existence rather I just want to die in peace and never suffer ever again, all I hope for is permanent non-existence, I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious at all. Existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me and always will do no matter what, I was never meant for the terrible pain of existing but as well as that I just find existing to be so undesirable in every way possible, I have no interest in the burden of human existence and would prefer to erase my existence, for me existence itself is the problem.

Existence to me is a unnecessary harm that just causes suffering and I'd never wish for any of this, rather i just want nothingness, I just want some peace, peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone. Death truly is the only relief for me, I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, I never wish to think or feel anything at all and I suffer simply from existing, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish to never exist again. In an existence where there's all this endless cruelty non-existence is all that's positive for me, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I only hope for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where this torturous, unnecessary existence is finally all forgotten about, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I just cannot have the option to simply die in peace as all I hope for and wish for is permanent relief from the cruelty and futility of being conscious in this existence.