Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist as a relief.
For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief, I only hope to never suffer ever again where this existence is finally gone and there is no more suffering, no more cruelty, in an existence so torturous and meaningless death truly is the only peace for me and it's all I'll hope for no matter what. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and it's a burden that only death can bring me relief from. Ceasing to exist is a relief for me as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way, there is no more pain, no more problems, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering in the first place in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I just wish to fall into am eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is finally all forgotten about.

I've personally only ever hoped for peace and I'd always prefer peace to prolonging the suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake just to die in agony from old age, to me existing is just pointless, unnecessary suffering there was never a need for and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to free myself from it all in peace and never experience anything ever again. To be conscious is such a futile, dreadful burden to me, no matter what I'd prefer to be permanently unaware of this existence that only ever caused so much harm, ceasing to exist is all that can bring me relief, I just want non-existence where finally I cannot suffer in any way with this cruel, futile existence no longer my concern.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can very easily get way more unbearable.
It truly can just get way more unbearable causing so much more agony as a result, it's all just so horrific to me, I see existence as the most horrific, terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway. To me existence is an abomination that just brings so much pain there was never a need for at all, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existing truly is just pointless, meaningless suffering just for one to be tortured by old age if they suffer for that long, human existence just reels like such a terrible, cruel mistake to me, it's something I only wish for permanent peace from.

I'd always prefer to die than be burdened with this existence, I suffer simply from existing and what is so horrifying is how there is no limit as to how much agony a hunan can feel, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence, to me existence is always deeply undesirable no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want nothingness instead, there's so much cruelty and it's so horrible in how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to exist. I personally only hope to never exist ever again, I just wish to be permanently unaware where this existence is finally no longer my problem, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much worse suffering and torture at any moment and all suffering is so pointless to me, it's just terrible suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and it can easily get so much more torturous at any moment, personally I only want to die painlessly to save myself from suffering, it's always so dreadful and painful to be trapped in this existence I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, human existence is such a terrible, tragic mistake to me that just brings and causes suffering, I see it as all so dreadful, I was never meant for something as painful and torturous as existence and I just find it so cruel how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence over all this unnecessary, pointless suffering. I'm so tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have chose, I'll always find it so incredibly burdensome to be conscious and have to experience anything at all in this existence there was never a need for, to me the ultimate problem will always lie in existence itself.

I find it so terrible and torturous to have to suffer in this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence is all that's desirable, it's all I've ever hoped for, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll suffer. It's suffering only death can bring me peace from, I never should have been forced into this existence at all and more than anything I wish I never suffered but of course the suffering just continues with me always hoping to be gone. I was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence but rather I'm only meant for true, eternal peace and non-existence is all that can bring me peace from this cruel, unnecessary existence I was never meant for that only ever brought me pain, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me no matter what and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence that I'd never wish for, it brings me so much suffering how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible and torturous to me, as long as I exist I'll only be ever hoping to die in peace and forget about it all, I only wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way. I'll always see existence as the most horrific tragedy that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and there is no limit as to how unbearable this can all get, existing can very easily get way more torturous causing so much more suffering as a result, all I personally wish for is to never exist again, as after all only when I no longer exist will I be safe from all cruelty and suffering with this existence no longer my problem.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have wished for, there's so much cruelty in existing and it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to just die in peace to escape from it all, non-existence truly is the only relief for me and it's all I see as desirable no matter what. Existence is just terrible unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and it can easily get way more torturous as well, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I only hope for death, only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again. I truly have suffered so much for so long in this existence so cruel and torturous that I never would have chose, death truly is the only peace for me, I'll always see it as so dreadful no matter what to suffer in this existence where there's all this cruelty and the cruelty of existence just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever hoped to sleep permanently.
I truly have only ever hoped to sleep permanently, only eternal sleep can bring me peace from this cruel, meaningless existence where there is all this endless suffering. For me death truly is always preferable to being burdened with this existence, I only hope to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, for me peace truly could only ever lie in being permanently unconscious where all is gone and forgotten about, non-existence really is all I'll ever wish for but for me existence will always be something deeply undesirable in every way possible.

I see nothing desirable about existing as a conscious being capable of suffering to unlimited extents in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I only hope to sleep eternally as I see human existence as just being pointless, unnecessary suffering, I see no value in having to exist at all rather I see such as a burden and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything. Non-existence truly is all I've ever personally wished for, I just want relief from the cruelty and futility of existence, I'd always prefer to die but really I never should have suffered, I find it so tiring just being awake and having to experience anything at all. Existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake to me and it's one that only death can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of an eternal sleep, I wish for freedom from all suffering, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence, I'm always so tired of existing and I always will be no matter what, it's the kind of tiredness that only permanent sleep can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for death.
I've always wished for death and it's all I'll ever wish for as long as I'm unfortunate enough to suffer in this existence, my wish to die is a result of being conscious of this existence, it's a result of being trapped in this existence that was imposed causing so much terrible suffering and cruelty as a result. Non-existence is all I could see as desirable, it's the only peace for me from this existence so cruel and torturous, I wish to cease existing as only then is this existence no longer my problem with all finally gone instead but really I never should have suffered at all.

I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything, I wish to permanently cease existing as to me existence is such a terrible, tragic mistake that just torments existing beings until death takes all away for them anyway, I'd never wish for existence but rather I just wish for the absence of it where there is no more pain, no more suffering. I'm always hoping to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in this futile existence just to end up way more tormented. I see existence as so unnecessary and undesirable which is why I only wish for death and always will do no matter what, death truly is all that can bring me peace from this existence I never would have chose, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious unable to suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly in a guaranteed way as non-existence is all I hope for, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly is which is why I just hope and wish for death, I have no interest in suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic cruel mistake in the first place, to me existing really will always be nothing but suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer. All I personally hope for is to die in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and just caused harm, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me, it's something so terrible and torturous that just causes all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I see existing as just waiting to die as eventually no matter what all will be gone and forgotten about in death and to forget about this existence and never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for.

I've suffered for so long in this existence already and I never wished to suffer in the first place, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment just to be tortured by old age and die anyway and existing can very easily get way more torturous and unbearable, it's all so horrific to me. As long as I exist I'll only be hoping for death, only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me, I see existing as just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I don't wish to suffer in any way rather I just wish for the absence of all suffering where this existence is finally no longer my problem and all is gone, I'll always find it so cruel and painful how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die to finally escape from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how I cannot just cease existing painlessly.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just cease existing painlessly to escape from all this terrible pointless suffering, to me existence will always be an abomination that just causes harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel which is why I only hope and wish for death as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer. If I'm dead this cruel, futile existence that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all anway will finally no longer be my problem which is why I only hope to cease existing I find it so terrible how even know this existence was imposed in the first place painless death is denied with suffering seen as to prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards preferring non-existence.

I personally never would have wised for existence and I never would do no matter what, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, to me existence is a burden and it's a burden that jut causes endless amounts of suffering I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just hope and wish for death, there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just simply choose to die in peace and escape from this torturous existence that just causes existing beings to suffer. I'll always see existence as the true problem, to me existence is such an unnecessary harm and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it no matter what, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing and for me peace could only lie in death, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world and I suffer so much from how I cannot just die in peace in a guaranteed way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for some peace.
I personally only wish for some peace, I only hope for the peace of never existing ever again where finally I cannot suffer anymore and all is gone for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this undesirable existence no matter what rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all suffering and cruelty. For me death truly is always preferable to being tormented in this pointless existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I just wish to be at true eternal peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing again, I've always hoped for death and it's all I'll wish for as long as I suffer in this existence.

I see nothing desirable about being conscious in this torturous, meaningless existence rather I find it a burden to exist at all and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from, personally I'll always wish for peace no matter what, I truly was never meant to suffer in this horrific world and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for. I just wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer again with this existence no longer my problem, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy, I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist than prolong the suffering this existence causes just to be tortured in agony from old age, to me existing truly is just terrible pointless suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence I saw as just causing nothing but harm in the first place, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem no matter what and it's something I only wish for permanent peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existence as just waiting to die and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish to be gone, I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty, harm and suffering. It just feels so cruel to me how even know death is all that's inevitable I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing to save myself from all this meaningless, pointless suffering in this existence I never would have chose, to me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it all while one is just waiting to die anyway and I don't wish to suffer rather I just wish for nothingness.

I wish to just die in peace where all is finally forgotten about for me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, for me ceasing to exist is always preferable to suffering in this existence that I just saw as so futile anyway. To me human existence just feels like a mistake and it's one that has just caused endless amounts of suffering, I'll always see it as so burdensome to have to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chosen and it terrifies me how one can suffer for much longer with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, personally I just want non-existence, I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'm always so tired of waiting to die in this existence I never would wish for no matter what, the thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Simply just existing will always be dreadful for me.
Personally I find it so dreadful to simply exist, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence, it's something so dreadful to me to be conscious capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I'd never wish to be conscious but rather I just want some peace instead. I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all as I find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I have so much dread for what lies ahead in this torturous, meaningless existence, for me existence itself will always be the problem, it's something so terrible that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I just wish for the peace of non-existence instead.

Permanently ceasing to exist and never suffering again all I've ever hoped for, existence truly is just deeadful unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I find it so dreadful how I was forced into existence in the first place, I see existence as a dreadful burden, an imposition that just brings pain and I find it dreadful to simply exist in fact I never should have suffered in this existence at all. It's just so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die even know existence is so incredibly dreadful and it can easily get way more unbearable, I'd never wish for the terrible burden of human existence rather such just feels like such a cruel mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for death. Only non-existence can bring me peace from all terrible suffering and cruelty in this existence I never would have chosen, death truly is the only relief for me in an existence so harmful that just causes endless amounts of pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

What appeals to me about death is that it's permanent.
It truly is all that appeals to me about death, all I wish and hope for is to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, non-existence is all I see as desirable as only then will I be at peace from the cruel, torturous burden of human existence. I'd never wish to exist no matter what, the way I see it existence is completely pointless, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and if I cease existing then none of this can concern me, death removes the need for everything, solves all problems for me as it removes the ultimate source of all them and saves me from all future suffering in an existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

Personally I'd always prefer the permanency of non-existence over the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway, if I'm dead then I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way which is why to cease existing is all I hope for, I only hope to be permanently unconscious of this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for. For me personally ceasing to exist would be the positive solution, death is all I see as positive in an existence where there is all this endless, terrible suffering all for the sake of it but I just find it so undesirable and burdensome to have to exist and experience anything at all in general, all I hope for and wish for is nothingness, only non-existence can bring me peace from what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, I only wish to never exist ever again, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to disappear from this existence.
I truly am always hoping to disappear from this existence, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this torturous, futile existence that I always saw as the most cruel mistake. Non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me peace from this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, I just see existence as just being pointless, dreadful suffering all for the sake of it which is why I just wish to disappear as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering in this existence again.

I'd never wish to be conscious at all rather I just hope to be gone, I'd never wish for the burden of existence that I always saw as so unnecessary and undesirable, I wish to disappear as existence itself will always be the true problem for me no matter what and it's a problem that erasing my existence would solve as after all if I don't exist then nothing can concern me and all is finally gone instead. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope to disappear from this existence I never would have wished for, to me existence is such a terrible tragedy that just causes cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just want nothingness, I only hope and wish for the absence of existence where finally I can find some peace, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish I could just disappear from this existence I never would have chosen that only caused me to suffer so unnecessarily, I find it such a dreadful, cruel imposition to have to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being trapped in this existence.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of being trapped in this cruel, futile existence, I just hope to die in peace and never suffer ever again, in an existence I always saw as such a terrible burden death truly is the only peace for me, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable. Personally I find it so dreadful and torturous to simply exist, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, as long as I exist I'll only be hoping for freedom from this existence, I wish for freedom from all suffering, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence I never would have chose that only ever caused me to suffer and to me existing truly is only suffering, it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence.

I suffer simply from existing and I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist which is why I find it so cruel and horrible how I simply cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible, I personally find it tiring to simply exist and I'm so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chosen. Human existence just feels like a mistake to me and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, to me existence truly is the most cruel, painful imposition and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be free from it, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me no matter what which is why I only hope for nothingness, I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally this existence is no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wish for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence is all I'll wish for, it's all that can bring me peace from the terrible suffering and cruelty of existing, I just find it deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence in general. I personally see no value to being burdened with this futile, torturous existence rather I only hope and wish to cease existing and never exist ever again, existence is an abomination to me that just causes harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I see existence as the most horrific tragedy ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering and that is certainly why I only hope for non-existence as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer but I never should have been forced into this existence at all.

I personally find it so painful and tiring to suffer in this existence I never would have chose, the fact that this existence was imposed will always be dreadful to me, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this unnecessary existence that there was never a need for at all, rather I just want non-existence. Only non-existence can bring me permanent safety from suffering in an existence I never would have wished for, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existnce just to end up suffering much more unbearably and tormented by old age, I'll always be so tired of being conscious in this existence, I just hope for nothingness, to never exist again is all I see as desirable and is all I'll wish for under all circumstances, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just caused me suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, it truly feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is so futile.
I'll always see existing as so futile, it's just pointless, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what. Only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented, personally I se no point and value to being conscious at all rather existence is such a terrible, tragic mistake to me that just causes so much harm.

I'd never wish to suffer in this futile existence and what is so terrible to me is how I cannot just painlessly die in peace even know I see existence as so futile, I see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence. As long as I exist I'll only ever be hoping for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I just wish for permanent relief from the cruelty and futility of existing, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, and I'll always see it as so burdensome to suffer in this existence no matter what. It's a burden that only death can bring me relief from, I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong the suffering just to be tortured by old age but really more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this torturous existence that I always saw as so futile, existence itself will always feel like the problem for me.

 

[isolatedl111]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

Life is nothing but SUFFERING

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for death.
No matter what I'll only ever hope and wish for death, I have no interest in suffering in this existence, I never have done and never could do no matter what, to me human existence is such a cruel, torturous burden that only ever brings so much suffering, I personally just want to painlessly die and never suffer ever again. I'm so tired of suffering in this existence and it feels like I've suffered for so long, permanently ceasing to exist is all that's desirable for me personally, it's all I hope for and is all that can bring me any relief, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence but rather I just wish for some peace.

I only hope for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering, existence itself will always feel like the true problem for me no matter what which is why I only hope for death, only non-existence can solve everything for me. I find it so terrible to exist as a conscious being capable of suffering to unlimited amounts in this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake and I just don't see any point and value in being conscious at all rather such is always a torturous, painful burden to me that just causes suffering. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I'd be relieved to never suffer again, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence and I'd always prefer to die in peace than suffer all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to be tormented by old age, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for death, I just wish for non-existence where all is finally forgotten, in an existence so cruel and painful death really is the only peace for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide is the way for me to find safety from suffering.
It truly is the way for me, I'll only be safe from suffering once I no longer exist as after all there are no disadvantages to permanently ceasing to exist as if I don't exist I cannot suffer at all, nothing in this existence can concern me as I'll be permanently unconscious which is all I hope for. All I've ever wished for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone, in an existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age death truly is the only relief for me and I only wish to not exist so I can find permanent safety from all suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

I only wish to be permanently unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in any way rather I just want nothingness where all is forgotten about for me, I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm. To me existence will always be an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering, for me suicide would be suffering prevention and the way for me to find safety from suffering, it's all I hope and wish for, in an existence where there is all this terrible cruelty non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll only ever be hoping to painlessly die in peace which is why it feels so horrible to me how painless death is denied for me, I just want to simply cease existing and never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself will always feel like the problem to me.
It truly always will do, I see existence itself as the problem that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, all I wish for is to cease existing in peace and never think or feel anything ever again. To be conscious in this existence is such a terrible, torturous burden to me, I see existence as something that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway, only in non-existence will all be gone for me which is why it's all I hope for, existence itself will always be the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this futile, meaningless existence just to end up in a situation of way worse torture, it's just so horrific to me how existence causes endless amounts of agony with no limit as to how much one can be tormented. For me existence itself will always be the true problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me and bring me peace from, all I wish for is to cease existing and never suffer ever again, the thought of being enslaved in this existence until old age is so horrifying, I'd never wish for all this meaningless suffering and I'd never wish for existence. I never would have chose to exist and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed at all, I'd always prefer to die and as long as I exist I'll always wish for death, for me non-existence is the solution to suffering as I suffer simply from existing and if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, as long as I exist I'll hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to be tortured by old age.
Personally I'd never wish to suffer for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age, I have no interest in prolonging the suffering for so much longer just to face the extreme agony of old age, to me old age just sounds like horrific torture, I'd never wish for such but rather I just want some peace instead, I only hope and wish for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way. To be enslaved in this existence is an abomination to me, I'm so tired of suffering in this terrible cruel world where there is no acceptance towards not wishing to suffer just to be tortured by old age.

I'd prefer to be unable to suffer at all instead, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable, I just don't see value in the terrible immense suffering of human existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I was personally never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of this, it's just so horrible how painless death is denied as I'd rather escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering. I have so much dread for what lies ahead and it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed. I wish I was never forced into this cruel, torturous existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, to me existing will always be nothing but suffering and to never suffer again in this existence is all I hope for, I just wish for peace from this existence I saw as causing nothing but pain, existence itself will always feel like the true problem to me no matter what, I'll always see it as terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as so harmful to exist.
I truly always will and I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world no matter what, I see it as so harmful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and as well as that existing can easily get way more unbearable causing much more extreme torture as a result. Personally I only hope for death, the only peace for me in an existence so cruel and torturous where there is all this terrible suffering could only ever lie in death, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I only see non-existence as desirable, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering and harm, to me existence is an abomination, a terrible tragic mistake that just torments existing beings.

I'll always see it as a tragedy how this existence was imposed at all even know it isn't like I could be harmed by never suffering at all, I see existence as so unnecessary it just causes suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all. I'll always see existence as something so dreadful, it just causes harm and what is so horrible to me is how the option of euthanasia is denied even know existence is just so harmful, personally I'd never wish to exist rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what. As well as death bringing me peace from the burden of existence and I'll always see it as so burdensome to exist, ceasing to exist would also save me from all future suffering in this existence where there is all this endless agony, the amount of suffering in this reality truly is beyond comprehension, to me existence itself will always be the true problem, it's something I'll only wish to be permanently free from no matter what.

 

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Always so tired of being enslaved in this existence.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of being enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly free myself in peace, more than anything I wish this cruel, torturous existence was never imposed in the first place as it would have saved me from all this unnecessary suffering there was never a need for at all. Personally I find it a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist especially as I was never meant for existing, I find existing to be completely undesirable and I never would have chose any of this in the first place.

Simply just existing is so tiring to me and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep so finally I can find peace from the terrible tragedy of existence, to me existence just feels like a mistake, I wish I could just choose to never exist again and finally be free from it all. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally forgotten about, the only relief for me could ever lie in never suffering ever again, I'd never wish for the terrible unnecessary burden of human existence that just causes one to suffer all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. It's so horrific to me how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to be enslaved in this existence, I'd personally prefer to not suffer at all than to be trapped in this existence where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I suffer so much from how painless death is denied and how the pain of existing just continues instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just seeing existence as so undesirable in general.
I truly do see existence as so undesirable which is why I only hope and wish for death, I only wish to never suffer in this existence ever again. As long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering, I find it such a burden to be conscious at all and it's a burden I never would have chose and never would have wished for, I find existing to be completely unnecessary and it's something that more than anything I wish I never became aware of.

I find it tiring to simply exist, to me human existence truly is just pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway and I see nothing desirable about this, everything about existing is deeply undesirable to me instead and I just don't see value to existing rather I just see it as something that just causes harm instead. Never existing truly would have saved me from all this suffering and it's suffering all for the sake of it, I see no benefit to being forced into this existence rather I see such as a torturous, futile imposition and what I find so terrible is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know this existence was forced in the first place and I never would have wished for any of it, I just simply don't see existence as a desirable state and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, I just want to sleep permanently and never exist again in fact such has been all I've wished for.

 

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Only ever hoped for some peace.
For me personally some peace has been all I've ever hoped for, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, for me peace truly could only ever lie in nothingness where all is finally gone, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for the relief of death where this cruel, pointless existence is no longer my problem and finally I'm unable to suffer for all eternity.

I see existence as just being terrible, pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all so dreadful and torturous to me, I'd always prefer to cease existing but really I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as I just want some peace. For me existence truly is the most terrible, cruel tragedy, there's so much cruelty and pain in existing and it's pain that only death can take away for me. As long as I exist I'll suffer and hope to be gone, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable, only non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way. Peace for me could only lie in being permanently unaware of this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, painlessly ceasing to exist truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence under any circumstance rather I just wish for nothingness instead, I just wish for all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

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Wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I never suffered at all, no matter what I'd never wish for something as cruel and pointless as existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway. For me death truly is the only peace in this existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering but of course I never should have suffered at all but now that I suffer so much as a result of existence and have done for so long all I can hope for is to cease existing in peace.

The only relief for me truly could only lie in never suffering again, I only hope to never suffer ever again as I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist no matter what, I find it so dreadful how this existence was imposed at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get. I just find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence as well, I'd never wish to exist and I never should have suffered at all, I find it such a terrible, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence no matter what which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again. The only relief for me personally could ever lie in non-existence where this unnecessary existence that just created so much harm and suffering there was never a need for is finally all forgotten about, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want some peace instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all I personally see as positive.
In an existence so cruel and futile, death truly is all I personally see as positive, it's all that can bring me any peace from the deeply undesirable burden of existence that just causes all this endless suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence really is the problem, it's the source of all suffering and cruelty. In this existence that I just saw as a terrible tragic mistake death really is all that could ever be positive for me and it's all I'll ever hope for, I'll always find it so burdensome to have to suffer in this existence at all. I only wish for the absence of existence where all is gone and forgotten about for me where nothing can matter to me and nothing can concern me, personally I just want some peace.

I only hope to never suffer ever again, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and torture where existing beings suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony they can feel death truly is all I personally see as positive, it's all that could bring me any relief. In this existence so meaningless and torturous I only see death as positive for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of never existing again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes cruelty and harm until death takes away all anyway. I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I'd always choose to painlessly cease existing than prolong all the suffering this existence so cruelly causes just to end up way more tormented.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can very easily end up way more unbearable.
It truly can which is why I only hope and wish for death, only in non-existence where there is no more pain, no more suffering can I finally be at peace. Personally I find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence, I see existence as a horrific abomination that just causes endless amounts of harm all for the sake of it and is so cruel and futile with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and this existence can easily get way more unbearable causing so much more torture and agony and this can happen at any moment.

It's so horrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much an existing being can be tortured and that is certainly a reason as to why I'd always prefer to die as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence can none of this matter to me with all gone and forgotten about instead, to be permanently unconscious of this existence truly is all I wish for and see as desirable, human existence is such a terrible tragic mistake to me. I find it so painful and dreadful to be enslaved in this existence, I'd never wish to be a conscious being capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts just to be tortured by old age rather I just want some peace instead, I wish for the peace of never existing ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me personally. There is no suffering in non-existence which is why it's all I hope for, I wish for this torturous painful existence to be no longer my problem which is why I suffer so much from the absence of the option to just simply die in peace, it's horrific how even know existence causes all this terrible immense suffering and cruelty human euthanasia is not an option.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel and harmful to me.
It truly is which is why I only hope and wish for death, I only hope to never suffer in this torturous, meaningless existence ever again, there's just so much suffering in existing and it can easily get way more unbearable and torturous which is just so horrific, I just want to die in peace and forget about it all, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way. Human existence is just something so undesirable to me as well, I'dnever wish for the cruelty and futility of existing but rather I just hope for nothingness, I just want all to be gone for me, there's so much cruelty in this horrific world which is certainly a reason as to why I only hope for death.

I'll always find it so harmful to exist especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable all of this can get, I just want all to be gone for me and it feels so incredibly cruel how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from all the suffering in this existence I never would have wished for, denying human euthanasia is so horrifying to me. I need the option to simply escape from this harmful existence where there is all this endless cruelty in peace, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and unable to feel any pain which is why it's all I hope for, to be conscious burdened with this existence is such a terrible, torturous abomination to me that I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence appeals to me.
Permanent non-existence truly is all that appeals to me, it's all I see as desirable as I just don't wish to be conscious and don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just hope for non-existence where all is gone and forgotten. I find it such a cruel, futile burden to have to exist at all, I don't see value in existing rather I just see existing as pointless suffering and it's something I'd never wish for rather it's just something I only want true permanent peace from.

Personally I've only ever hoped for non-existence, what appeals to me about non-existence is that it's perrmanent and if I'm gone then nothing can matter to me and I cannot be harmed in any way, all I wish for is for this futile, torturous existence to no longer be my problem. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want nothingness, permanently ceasing to exist is all I could ever hope for and wish for, I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep to suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake in the first place. I just don't see myself as meant for any of this rather I see existence as a problem that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that was imposed, existence to me will always be a terrible unnecessary imposition that just creates pain and problems there was never a need for at all, in an existence where there's all this terrible suffering death truly is the only peace for me, I only hope to never exist ever again.