Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence, I was never meant for the terrible suffering this existence causes and I never should have existed at all, I was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence. To me existence will always feel like a horrific tragedy and cruel mistake that brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, I'd never wish for existence rather I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence at all, for me existence itself truly is the problem and it's a problem I was never meant for that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

I'd always prefer to die as after all only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering, I see it as something so painful and dreadful to be conscious in this futile existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I find it so horrific how existence causes all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I truly was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish to exist either, I find human existence to be such an unnecessary cruel burden there was never a need for at all that just creates harm. I'd never wish to experience anything at all but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering, I was never meant for any of this and I'd always prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I want to avoid unnecessary suffering by ceasing to exist, only death can solve everything for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering only death can take away for me.

 

[deadeyesnowman]

Getting scolded everyday for the smallest and most mundane reasons is why I'm already hoping that some terminal illness or some murderer or accident should claim my life.

I'd rather burn in hell for all eternity than to live which is befitting for a filthy human. Besides heaven would sound stupid for some garbage piece of shit like me anyways.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in suffering in this existence.
No matter what I truly could never have any interest in suffering in this existence, I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, I've personally only ever wished to cease existing in peace where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, existence will always feel like the true problem to me and I'd prefer to painlessly not exist than prolong the suffering just to be tormented by old age. I have no interest in suffering in this existece and never have done, my wish to die is a result of existence, I see it as such a cruel, futile burden to be conscious and experience anything at all and it's a burden that only ever caused me to suffer, non-existence would always be preferable for me personally and it's all I hope for.

I'd always prefer to die but of course I never should have existed at all and it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die to finally escape from this existence I've never had any interest in, only non-existence where all is forgotten about could ever be desirable to me. I find it so burdensome to simply be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, to me existence will always feel like a mistake, I see existence as something so futile and unnecessary. It just creates suffering there was never a need for and it's suffering that only death can bring me peace from, I'll suffer as long as I exist, in fact I suffer simply from existing, personally I see no point and value to suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to simply cease existing in peace where all is finally forgotten about for me, I'm so tired of being conscious and having to wake again and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always personally preferred to not exist.
I truly have always preferred to not exist and always will do no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than to suffer in this meaningless torturous existence just to die in agony from old age, I wish for non-existence as to me existing is a burden, I find it so burdensome to be conscious and aware and experience anything at all in this existence there was never a need for that just caused so much suffering for the sake of it. I just don't see anything desirable about existing at all rather I just see existence as something so cruel and harmful that just torments existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just see nothing appealing about prolonging the suffering this existence causes rather I just want to die in peace and forget about it all.

To me existence just feels like a mistake and it's one that causes endless amounts of suffering, personally I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and always will do, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I've only ever wished to not exist. I just wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this cruel, futile existence is no longer my problem, for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I have no interest in suffering in this existence, existence to me is an imposition I never would have chose, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, never existing would have saved me from all this suffering in an existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious, to be conscious and aware in this meaningless, cruel and torturous existence will always feel like a burden to me, personally I just want peace from the burden of human existence. I wish to never think, feel or experience anything again, what comforts me about ceasing to exist is that if I'm gone I'll be permanently safe from all cruelty and harm, with their being no suffering in being unconscious for all eternity yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get, it's all just so terrible to me and it terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so long.

I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious, to me human existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake that serves no purpose but to cause suffering all for the sake of it, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. The true problem for me will always lie in existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, I'd never wish to be conscious no matter what and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything. To me existence is the most cruel, harmful imposition and it's one I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of, I wish I never became conscious and as long as I exist I'll only be hoping for the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from all pointless suffering in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I have no interest in prolonging this suffering just to die in agony from old age, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of painless death being denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me with unnecessary suffering always seen as to prolong instead with no acceptance towards preferring non-existence to being tormented in this meaningless existence.
Personally all I've ever hoped for is to die in peace and forget about it all with no risks of ending up in a situation of way more unbearable torture from trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, I wish painless death is accessible for me as non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace, I see nothing appealing about the cruel and futile burden of existing as a human.

I find it horrific how euthanasia is denied for humans even know existence causes an immense amount of harm and suffering all for the sake of it. The way I see it existence just causes pain and problems that were all completely unnecessary in the first place and if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way with nothing being able to matter to me which is why there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace as ceasing to exist would solve everything for me personally as it removes the source of all suffering which is existence itself. I never would have chosen existence, I never would have wished for existence and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence at all that I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, it truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly escape from all future suffering, under no circumstances would I wish to prolong the suffering this existence causes just to decay and die anyway tormented by old age rather I just want nothingness, it's all I'll ever hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always just wished for death.
I truly have only ever wished for death, I've only ever wished for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me, I'd prefer to die as only then will I be unable to suffer but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. To be conscious in this existence will always be a dreadful torturous burden to me that just brings suffering, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is so terrible to me, all I personally hope for is to die in peace and forget about it all, eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable and could ever be for me no matter what.

I was never meant for something as cruel and harmful as existence, it's something I'd wish I was never forced into more than anything. For me the only peace truly does lie in never existing again where all is finally gone and I'm unable to suffer in any way, all I hope for is to never suffer again in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable. I was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me, it's something I see as so terrible and dreadful that just causes so much suffering for the sake of it just tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, only non-existence can personally bring me peace. Only non-existence can solve what the true problem is for me which is existence itself, if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way which is why to die is all I hope and wish for, I just want true permanent peace where all is finally forgotten about for me, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me, it'd solve every problem as after all, all problems are ultimately as a result of existence itself, in fact I'll personally always see existence itself as the ultimate problem and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me. I wish for non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious for eternity, non-existence where all is forgotten about for me truly is all I see as ideal, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there is no suffering in the absence of existence yet there is no limit as to how unbearable and torturous this existence can get that just leads to decay and death anyway.

In fact to me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it, existence just creates pain and problems there was never a need for and I see it as all so futile anyway, personally all I've ever hoped for is non-existence as I just don't see it as desirable to be burdened with this existence, I see it as completely undesirable having to be conscious and experience anything at all. To me existence is the most horrific, terrible tragedy as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, without existence there cannot be any suffering with their being no need for anything in non-existence, all I wish for is to be unconscious for all eternity, non-existence truly would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in an existence I never would have wished for that I saw as completely unnecessary anyway, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can easily get way more unbearable.
And this is certainly a reason as to why I only hope for non-existence because after all there is no limit as to how unbearable existing can get, existing can very easily get way more torturous and agonising especially as we exist in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and that is why I only see non-existence as desirable as after all I'll only be unable to suffer once I no longer exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for, I personally suffer simply from being conscious and I have so much dread for what lies ahead in this futile, torturous existence.

I just don't see value in existing as a conscious being capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I see such as so terrible, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, existence just causes suffering there was never a need for and it can easily get way more unbearable. It's just horrific to me how an existing being is capable of being tortured so extremely, I find it horrifying how one is capable of feeling such immense agony, the amount of suffering in this reality truly is beyond comprehension, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering. I'd always prefer to die no matter what, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me, to be permanently unable to suffer is all that sounds ideal to me, it's all I hope and wish for, I'll always see existence itself as the problem, there's just so much cruelty in existing, all I've ever wished for is to die in peace and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence truly is the only relief for me.
No matter what only non-existence could ever bring me any relief, only in non-existence will I be safe from all cruelty, harm and suffering, to me existence truly is something so terrible and torturous, it just creates suffering all for the sake of it that just torments existing beings until they die anyway and personally I just don't want to suffer at all. Peace for me could only lie in being permanently unable to suffer where all is gone and forgotten about and this existence is no longer my problem, for me personally non-existence truly is always preferable, it's preferable to suffering in this meaningless, unnecessary existence just wishing and waiting to die anyway. I see existence as something so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and what is so horrific to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, personally I'll always see existence itself as the problem.

I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that just creates so much pain all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, non-existence truly is the only relief for me and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unable to suffer in this existence I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake to me. I wish for non-existence as after all if I'm dead I cannot suffer at all and all is finally gone for me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep to finally take away all my suffering and bring me permanent relief from the torment of existing, personally I just wish for nothingness, I don't wish to think or feel at all, I'll always see existence as a dreadful, unnecessary burden that just brings suffering and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to get old.
To me personally old age truly does just sound like horrific, unbearable suffering, I'd never wish for the torture of suffering until old age in this existence I never would have wished for and always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake. It truly terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and personally I just don't want to suffer at all, I've suffered so much for so long and all I wish and hope for is permanent nothingness, I never wished to exist in the first place and never would do under any circumstance.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chose that I just saw as causing nothing but harm, I personally just want peace and peace for me could only lie in never existing again where this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about, to me human existence is such a torturous burden, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway. Existence to me was always something so deeply undesirable and I suffer simply from existing, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just simply die in peace to save myself from all future suffering in an existence that just leads to being tortured by old age. I'd never wish to decay and deteriorate in this existence I always saw as so pointless and unnecessary in the first place rather I just want all to be gone for me, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer again, I'll always see existence as something so terrible, it's horrific to me how existence causes and brings all this endless suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

So cruel to me how I cannot just escape from all the suffering in peace.
I'll personally always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly escape from all the suffering this existence causes in peace, I wish I could just choose to simply not exist and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. It's just so terrible to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence as to me never existing ever again truly is all that's desirable, I'd always prefer to not exist where I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way to the torment of suffering in this meaningless existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I personally never would have wished for and never would have chosen to exist in the first place which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to die in peace, I wish painless guaranteed death is accessible for me with no risks of trying to die leading to way worse agony but of course that is not the case in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty, personally I'd never wish for existence. I find human existence to be such a futile, torturous burden that is completely pointless and unnecessary, all I've ever hoped for is to escape from it by ceasing to exist and never suffer ever again. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep so I can finally be at peace from an existence I just saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem for me which is why I only hope and wish for death, non-existence truly is all I've hoped for.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me non-existence truly would be all that's positive.
It truly would be all that's positive for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me, personally I see the permanent absence of all harm and suffering as something positive, peace for me could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where this cruel, torturous existence I never would have wished for and always saw as a terrible tragic mistake is finally all forgotten about. For me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem that only ceasing to exist can solve and bring me peace from, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes what the source of all suffering is in the first place.

I'd personally always prefer to painlessly cease existing as after all there cannot be any suffering in in non-existence and to be permanently unconscious is all I see as desirable anyway yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get and I just find it a burden to have to be conscious and aware experiencing anything at all. I always saw existence as so unnecessary it just creates suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay and die anyway and it can easily get way more unbearable. Personally I'd be relieved to finally cease existing, non-existence is all I personally hope for, in an existence so cruel and meaningless where there's all this endless suffering never existing again truly would be positive for me, I'd never wish to prolong the suffering of existing just to be tortured by old age but I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I never became conscious at all I'd never wish for the burden of existence but rather I just wish for the absence of it where finally I can find some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just see existence as an unnecessary harm.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence but rather I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing no matter what, painless death truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this meaningless, pointless existence that I always saw as so harmful. To me existence is so harmful because after all as long as one exists there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, existing can easily get way more unbearable causing extreme torture as a result, I see this world as the most horrific place where existing beings are tormented every second, it's all just so terrible and what I find so extremely cruel is how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised despite the fact that existence is so harmful with unlimited potential for it to get way more torturous.

Personally I see no value in suffering in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I hope for, only in non-existence will I be unable to be harmed which is why it's all I personally wish for. To me existence will always be something so terrible no matter what and I have so much dread for what lies ahead, it's horrifying to me how there's all this pointless suffering in existing just for one to die in agony from old age, personally I'd always prefer to die so I can be safe from suffering, I'd prefer to prevent suffering but of course there isn't the option for me to just simply die in peace which is so terrible and the suffering continues instead, there's so much suffering in existing, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnececessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment, it's all so cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I truly am always wishing to erase my existence, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to cease existing no matter what but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I never would have wished for and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me. I wish to erase my existence so that finally I can be at peace, something as terrible as existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it is something I'd never wish for no matter what.

I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence that I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, this existence truly never should have been imposed, I never should have suffered at all. I'll always see existence as the most harmful unnecessary imposition, being able to erase my existence truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in non-existence which is all I personally see as ideal. I just wish for the peace of never suffering again, in fact peace truly is all I've ever hoped for and it could never exist for me in the suffering and cruelty of existing, I've always just wished for all to be gone for me and I really never should have been forced into this existence in the first place, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me. I just want to disappear from it and forget about it all but of course the suffering just continues instead with me hoping and wishing to be gone.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm sorry for the suffering that you go through everyday. I hope you find peace soon from this torturous and hellish existence

 

[FuneralCry]

Only when I no longer exist will I be at peace.
For me only when I no longer exist will I be at peace, for me peace could truly only ever lie in an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering, to me existence truly is something so dreadful and terrible, it just creates suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, terrible mistake and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.
I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I was never meant for that caused me nothing but pain and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so cruel and torturous that just brings and causes suffering all for the sake of it and there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get. For me peace could only ever exist in nothingness, it could only ever lie in being permanently unconscious for me where all is finally gone and forgotten about.

Under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence rather I just wish for some peace instead, I wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, the way I see it existence caused nothing but harm in the first place and is something deeply undesirable. Only in death I'll be at peace where all this is forgotten about and this futile and painful existence is no longer my problem, I truly was never meant to exist in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, torturous imposition, I just want the peace of nothingness and it's all I'll hope for as long as I suffer here, peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence causes immense suffering and torture.
It truly does just cause that which is so horrific to me, I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they suffer in this existence that I always saw as so pointless and futile anyway. To me existence truly was always the most terrible tragic mistake that only ever brought suffering all for the sake of it, personally I'd rather die than prolong this suffering just to risk suffering way more just to be tortured by old age anyway, personally I see no value to suffering in this horrific world and it truly is horrific the amount of suffering this existence causes.

To me existence really does cause nothing but harm torturing existing beings all for no reason and no purpose until death takes away all anyway, the pain of existing truly is endless and very real and it can easily get way more unbearable causing extreme immense torture and agony as a result. To be conscious of all this is such a terrible, painful burden to me, it'll always feel like a curse to me being conscious and aware just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but the torture of old age. Personally I just want non-existence as only in the absence of existence will I be safe from all harm and suffering and unable to be tortured in any way and one can end up in a situation of way worse torture at any minute, it's all just so terrible, I just want peace from it all. I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty, it's so incredibly cruel and horrific to me how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised despite the fact that existence is just so harmful, under no circumstances would I have wished for any of this or chose it in the first place.