Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible to suffer in this existence and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I just wish I never had to suffer.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I'll just always see existence as the problem no matter what, I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so dreadful to me and I just want to be free from it all, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen, I'd just never wish to suffer no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to sleep permanently.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is to sleep permanently and only eternal sleep could ever be positive for me, I just want to never wake, I just want to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the dreadful, cruel and harmful abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I always wish I never had to suffer more than anything.

I really will always just find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I always wish I never suffered. I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel torturous existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from all pain and suffering, I just suffer so much and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chose, I only want to sleep, I just want some peace, I just want to rest, I want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist and I'd just always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered, I just never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace. I just always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from this existence I never would had chosen and I'll always see existing as only suffering, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, painful deeply undesirable existence and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this futile, cruel existence really is just so terrible to me and I just never should had existed at all, only eternal dreamless sleep can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten but of course all the pain and suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I always wish I never suffered, I'd never wish for the suffering of this torturous, futile existence rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence is positive for me, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I always wish I could just choose to never wake again, all I hope for is no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to sleep, only dreamless sleep could ever bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I just always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish to never wake, I just hope for no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for death.
No matter what non-existence is all I could hope for and is just all I see as desirable in this existence so cruel and torturous and no matter what I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake, it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wishI never suffered more than anything, I find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed even know there was just never a need for any of this with their being no disadvantages to never suffering at all, I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and there's just so much cruelty in this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result, I'll just always find it so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering endlessly. To me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence so torturous that I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had suffered in this existence at all, I find it such a terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me, I really would just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the suffering just continues.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering I never would had chosen and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing. It's all so dreadful to me and no matter what I could only ever see non-existence as positive for me, I just want to never wake, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering but of course I just continue to suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen, I'll always see existing as only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, all I want is to never wake ever again, I'd just never wish for the torturous, futile burden of existence that I always saw as a mistake just causing harm and suffering and I really would just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it tragic how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I really will always find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, only eternal dreamless sleep can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, as long as I exist I really will just wish to never suffer again.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence where I just hope and wait for death and I'll always see existing as waiting to die, I just never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway. It's all just so terrible to me and I always wish I never suffered, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never wake again with all finally gone and forgotten for me and I suffer just from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just so terrible to me.
It truly is all so dreadful and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, to suffer in this existence is something I'd never wish for and only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me peace from this torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death.

Only non-existence can bring me any relief but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence that to me is just waiting for death and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently so finally I can be at peace. For me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten, I just want to be gone, I'd just never wish for this dreadful, terrible existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and there's just so much suffering in existing, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for in this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I really never should had suffered in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only peace for me is non-existence.
For me non-existence really is the only peace and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only dreamless eternal sleep could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

I just wish I could choose to never wake ever again, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is gone and finally I can rest, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish to be gone. I wish to be free from it all with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I always wish to just never wake, I really will only be at peace in non-existence where finally all is gone and I cannot suffer in any way, I just hope for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me and is just all I could hope for, I just want this existence I always saw as a mistake to be all gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence, I just want to never wake ever again but of course the pain of existing just continues and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I hope for in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and I always wish I never suffered more than anything. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it, I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel and dreadful.
It really is just so cruel and dreadful and I just wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can bring me relief from.

I really would always prefer to not exist and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw aa a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence suffering so unnecessarily, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it very tragic how this existence there was never a need for was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just an unnecessary harm.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me and I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, futile existence and I just suffer so much as a result of existence, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence. It's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just want to never wake but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I just never would had chosen, I just wish this existence was never imposed, I just wish I never had to suffer at all in this harmful existence I always saw as such a dreadful mistake causing all this pain and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is dreamless eternal sleep where all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous, futile existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable existence and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily, all that existence does is just cause and create suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, it's all just so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most cruel, terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed and I just wish I never suffered more than anything. Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as positive.
It really is all I see as positive and is just all I could hope for, all I want is to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I wish I never existed more than anything and I suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence I just never would had chosen.

For me non-existence really is the only relief in this terrible, dreadful existence I'd just never wish for and I wish I never suffered, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, there's just so much suffering in existing and I just wish I never suffered, I never should had been burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering I just always saw as such a terrible mistake and for me existence really is the problem, it's one only non-existence can solve for me and I suffer just from existing. It really is just all so terrible and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I just never should had suffered but of course all the pain and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful, for me non-existence truly is all that can bring me any relief and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I'll always and only see non-existence as something positive no matter what, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll be at peace eventually.
I truly will be at peace eventually which is all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for, I just want to never suffer again, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I only hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything. I just never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I wish I could just choose to never wake again and finally forget about it all, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I just wish this existence was never imposed more than anything and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake again.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Its pretty cruel that all the good things in life just get taken from you one by one. Life essentially is a prolonged grief state when you think about it.

 

[davidtorez]

Its pretty cruel that all the good things in life just get taken from you one by one. Life essentially is a prolonged grief state when you think about it.

It definitely is. Nothing gets better as you age, entropy makes sure of that

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Its pretty cruel that all the good things in life just get taken from you one by one. Life essentially is a prolonged grief state when you think about it.

Yep, over my 24 years of life that has been my exact experience: loss, after loss, after loss. Aging is nothing but a process of accumulating more scar tissue.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I wish I never suffered more than anything but of course all the pain and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I always search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death. It's all just so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from existing, in this existence where there's all this torture, cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief and as long as I exist I'll only wish for this cruel existence to be gone. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me and is just all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence, it really is all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.