Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, deeply undesirable torturous existence and I wish I never had to exist more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want some peace.

I just want to never suffer ever again and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I just find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I wish I never had to exist at all but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me peace. I just want to never exist again, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence but of course I continue to suffer and as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more suffering, I just want to never wake, I just want all to finally be gone for me and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me peace from this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is just all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and could ever wish for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this torturous, undesirable existence is finally all gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is gone and finally I can rest and in this torturous existence of suffering and cruelty where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel only non-existence can bring me any relief, I just want to never wake ever again with all finally gone and forgotten, in this existence so cruel, torturous and futile the only relief for me could ever lie in non-existence. I just want all to be forgotten for me and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake, only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as just being waiting for death no matter what, it's all just so terrible to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, only non-existence can bring me any peace, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can solve, take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I just always saw as a mistake and to me existence really is the most terrible, dreadful tragedy, it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, existence is a problem only ceasing to exist can solve and take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten and I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this cruel, futile existence where I just hope and wait for death and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all just so terrible and dreadful and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[RoadtoFreedomTwo]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can solve, take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I just always saw as a mistake and to me existence really is the most terrible, dreadful tragedy, it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, existence is a problem only ceasing to exist can solve and take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten and I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this cruel, futile existence where I just hope and wait for death and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all just so terrible and dreadful and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen.

I couldn't agree more - it's such a heavy weight to open your eyes every day, get out of bed, try to have an appetite for coffee or food. I just want it to be over with too, FC, you're not alone <3 Thanks of sharing all these lovely thoughts

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to cease existing than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to cease existing than suffer and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me.

I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see existence as the most harmful imposition that causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just want to sleep, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering just continues. It's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death and I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most dreadful, unnecessary burden and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it truly is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never wake.

 

[davidtorez]

Always preferring to cease existing than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to cease existing than suffer and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me.

I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see existence as the most harmful imposition that causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just want to sleep, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering just continues. It's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death and I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most dreadful, unnecessary burden and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it truly is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never wake.

I agree and feel the same way

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace in non-existence.
For me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I hope for in this existence so cruel and torturous that I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is nothingness, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this torturous existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish to suffer rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want to be at peace. I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, non-existence really is all I could wish for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace and I'll just only be at peace in non-existence, I just want to never exist ever again and I suffer simply from existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is just so cruel and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake no matter what.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence that to me is just so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this futile existence, it really is just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief and peace from, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death. I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel existence and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it truly is all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this, for me non-existence really is the only relief as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace and for me non-existence is the only peace and relief, I just want all to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for no more suffering.
As long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues.

I always suffer so much as a result of this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is just all I hope for, all that existence does is just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all so terrible to me, I wish I never had to suffer more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering. I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want some peace, I just want to rest and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be trapped in this existence of futile unnecessary suffering just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die. It's all so terrible and dreadful to me, I wish I could just choose to never suffer ever again, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently with all finally forgotten for me and there's just so much suffering in existing, it really just is so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to suffer.
I truly would never wish to suffer and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence of suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel existence rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I just always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it really is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist. I just wish and hope for some peace, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is always preferable for me than prolonging the suffering and torture of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it really is all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I just want peace from all the pain and suffering of existing and I'll only be at peace in dreamless eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful and terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything in this torturous existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it only non-existence can bring me any peace.

The only relief for me could ever lie in eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace and relief I search for from this torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so cruel and dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything. Only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the relief from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I wish I never had to exist more than anything, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, for me existence truly is the problem and I'd just never wish to suffer rather I only want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for the peace of dreamless, eternal sleep, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
It truly is always an abomination to me and I just wish I never suffered in this harmful, cruel and torturous existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for.

I'll just always see it as so terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to not exist and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the torturous, futile abomination of existence that I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be permanently free from the abomination of existence and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it truly is just all so cruel and dreadful to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing. I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to be gone, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence just continues and it's all just so cruel, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never had to exist more than anything, I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is just always so terrible to me.
No matter what I really will just always find it so terrible to exist and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so cruel and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering and agony until non-existence takes away all anyway.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is just all I could hope for, I just want this torturous, terrible existence to finally be all gone and forgotten but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this existence I always saw as the most dreadful, terrible mistake just continues and I just wish I never suffered. I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what, it truly is all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it, more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer and I'll always see it as the most terrible dreadful tragedy to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as unnecessary suffering.
No matter what I really will always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all just so terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous, deeply undesirable existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me peace from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I can rest and I'll just always see existing as only suffering. I suffer simply from existing and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, existence to me really does just feel like such a terrible mistake which is why all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, futile existence I just never would had chosen where I'm hoping and waiting to not exist and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could see as positive.
It really is all that's positive for me and is just all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had been burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence and it's all just so dreadful to me, all I could wish for is the peace of non-existence.

I just want to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and cruelty in existing. I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, only eternal dreamless sleep can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering I just never would had wished for and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, I just want all to be forgotten about with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all I see as desirable, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it really is all just so terrible and cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's all so cruel to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed, I always find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away and bring me peace from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can rest, I just hope to never exist ever again, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always something so terrible to me.
It truly is something so terrible to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of eternal sleep and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep permanently.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this harmful existence I just always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I'll just always see existence as the most dreadful, terrible burden and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of eternal sleep could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I just wish and hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily. I wish I could just choose to never wake, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all just so dreadful to me, I just wish I could choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never wake again with all finally forgotten for me, non-existence really is all I see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from suffering.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is peace from all suffering, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, and it's all so dreadful to me.

More than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile deeply undesirable existence of unnecessary suffering and I just always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer and as long as I exist I'll only hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything. I never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that to me is a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone, the peace of non-existence really is all I hope for and is just always preferable for me, all I want is to never exist again, I just want all to be forgotten, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence more than anything, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering only non-existence can bring me peace.

I just want to never exist again but of course the cruelty and suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see it as the most dreadful tragedy to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just pain, cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I just never should had suffered at all and I'll just always find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only dreamless, eternal sleep can solve for me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for true permanent peace from this torturous existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and I suffer just from existing, it really is all so terrible and dreadful to me, all I want is to never suffer again.

 

[curiousbeing]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence more than anything, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering only non-existence can bring me peace.

I just want to never exist again but of course the cruelty and suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see it as the most dreadful tragedy to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just pain, cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just never should had suffered at all and I'll just always find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only dreamless, eternal sleep can solve for me.

Existence is like a burden we are forced to carry. We can't get rid of it easily. They made it as hard as possible, as if escaping existence is like escaping prison. It really is.

We must literally survive torture (drowning, choking, poisoning, getting hit by a train, sent to asylum, surviving CTB with disability etc) to escape it

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wanting to never wake again.
As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake ever again, all I wish for is an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I can rest and I'm just always so tired of suffering, as long as I exist I'll just hope for non-existence and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently to escape from the suffering and torture of existing because of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable in this torturous, futile existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just always so tired of it all, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen and I suffer just from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is peace, I just want to rest, I just want to never exist ever again and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, I just wish to never wake but of course I just continue to suffer, it truly is all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I just want to be free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just unnecessary suffering.
It truly is just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway and it really is just all so terrible and cruel to me, I always wish I never suffered more than anything and only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, I just want all to be forgotten about and I suffer from existing. To me existence really will always be the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and this deeply undesirable existence is just no longer my concern, more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer. I just never should had been burdened with this cruel existence of unnecessary, futile suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I suffer just from existing.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist, it's a burden only eternal sleep can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for this torturous, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. I just see it as so dreadful how I cannot just choose to never wake to escape from all the pain and suffering of existing, only eternal non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had wished for and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful existence I always saw as such a cruel, harmful mistake. I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible and painful to me and there's just so much pain in this existence I never would had chosen, I always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway.