Finally found a suitable tree in an alright location. This is it for me, I'll ctb on Saturday.

[Exhausted546]

It's the outskirts of the woods, past this,there's really dense vegetation that's though to get in even during the day, one thing is sure is that if I do make my way in and find a suitable tree there, I can ctb without being found for months

The other area that's semi-swamp is slot easier to navigate in, which means people head there during the day. It's was tough and creepy to navigate in at night but I could totally try that again, I know for certain I won't be interrupted except by the countless mosquitos feasting on me. I might be found the next day or maybe after a couple days.

Or maybe I could keep looking for an easier patch of woods to ctb in

 

[Exhausted546]

So Im in the woods rn, it's 2pm, these trees are harder hang with, they're just vertical. The one I chose is vertical trees that splits in 2 by 2 inches at a bit above my height, wide enough to insert the rope and use it as an anchor point but i don't think it can be a successful full suspension

It'll end up being partial, which never worked for me

I'm hearing human sounds too, teens screaming of excitement and probably running. Can't tell if it'd be risky for me to take the rope out and do the set up fast.
Edit:
Nobody showed up, the human voices stopped too. I think it's safe for me to do this.

Every spots I find always have something missing. This one could have me found at Amy moment or in a week,idk but more importantly, the trees available are trash to hang from, I'm scared to fuck this up. Unless anyone has any suggestions for fsh

Edit: I'm setting things up, every sound I hear is making me paranoid, I heard a dog bark

 

[Exhausted546]

I don't think I'm doing the anchor point properly
It seems to work (anchor point) but the angle of my neck though the noose is just super awkward and I'm afraid it won't be a clean death if there's not the right pressure on my carotids cause of my neck's angle
It seems to work (anchor point) but the angle of my neck though the noose is just super awkward and I'm afraid it won't be a clean death if there's not the right pressure on my carotids cause of my neck's angle
It seems to work (anchor point) but the angle of my neck though the noose is just super awkward and I'm afraid it won't be a clean death if there's not the right pressure on my carotids cause of my neck's angle

 

[Exhausted546]

Got a bucket to stand on ,I hope it'll make the position of the noose on my neck less awkward. I've stalled long enough, I need to get it all over with for good

 

[ramielle]

Got a bucket to stand on ,I hope it'll make the position of the noose on my neck less awkward. I've stalled long enough, I need to get it all over with for good

wish you luck and peace wherever you end up

 

[Exhausted546]

A bucket is barely good enough, the roots make it hard to stand on it but I'll still try
Neeed to redo it, it works better now but it's in partial suspension mode, might be over complicating things, bugs are eating me up too

Edit:What the fuck I can't even do this right and I can't keep postponing. Can anyone assist me on the anchor knot to use? Or should I hunt for another tree with a easier set up

 

[Exhausted546]

Edit: less than an hour left to figure it out and hang before it gets too dark

How do little children do it with ease and here im struggling

Like I do it right, it looks like the image then when I pull on it to tighten it up it seems like it unties itself.

Maybe the running line knot isn't right in this situation, any alternatives to suggest? This is needlessly bothersome, I don't want to keep postponing either

 

[Exhausted546]

Yeah fuck that, I'll use the tree at the spot I almost got discovered at, it's so much easier to hang from. Just hope it doesn't go on local news ,or generate too much gossip or anything and that I'm not interrupted until I'm dead

From personal experience, the easiest full suspension hanging to pull off is the one with the door frame. I could steal into my father's home and do it. That'd be cruel of me, so I'm struggling with finding better spots and better trees

Anyway ,let's get it over with, I'll wait a couple more hours
Edit: there's still so many people hanging out around and walking around, I'll have to wait until midnight, 1-2 am

I got seem at 2 am last time so maybe 3 am would be safer

Thatd be 5 hours from now

Edit: forgot there's a bank really close, so cars do pass by 29ish meters away from that tree to head to the bank.

Maybe picking this tree is the dumbest decision ever and will have me braindead for life.

 

[Exhausted546]

Alright it's been 29 mins since someone last passed by, I'll wait another hour then do it. Instead of making it complicated, I'll just use an arbor knot on both ends, it should do the trick

 

[Ben 111]

I wish you find peace

 

[Exhausted546]

Almost got caught by someone riding their bike and looking at me. What the fuck is wrong ,it's almost 2 am, why is there still people roaming around.

I was literally just feeling comfortable enough to get my set up started. I'll wait some more.

There's this guy in the parking lot in his car, he's been there for about a hour. (Actually as I'm writing this he's leaning)

Alright I'm finally alone. I hope Nobody shows up anymore

Edit: NVM, 2 ppl going on a walk just looked at me.

This is fkn cursed.

If I do succeed, I can tell there'll be quite some gossip about seeing me before I committed suicide

Edit2:

Someone else walked by and looked at me,I don't want to continue postponing though. At this point, it'd be safer for me to sleep outside and sneak into my dad's house on the 1 day he doesn't work from home and do a full suspension hanging. But I can't do that to him

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm getting the sense that perhaps this just isn't your method. Maybe take some time to reassess & consider other options.

 

[Exhausted546]

I'm getting the sense that perhaps this just isn't your method. Maybe take some time to reassess & consider other options.

This is so embarrassing. I'm not sure, tell me honestly ,the trees I posted earlier,would you find a way to make it work with that? I had already known partial suspension wasn't my thing but I'm not sure I can successfully fsh with these trees

Fsh hanging is easy with a door,I tested it. I could do fsh easily with any horizontal object that's high enough and can support weight.

Playgrounds are full of them but it's morbid. Could hang from metal railing of stairs but it feels too public. The woods around are filled with long vertical trees, the trees I posted earlier was the best candidate in that area

The tree I was trying to hang from earlier had traffic around but when I finally did the set up,I realized there was a risk the rope could potentially slide cause the branch was vertical and the base of the branch wasn't high enough for fsh

Sure there's other ctb methods but I'm not a jumper and I'm broke:& essentially homeless, hanging is my best choice, I guess I simply need a better spot and should have put more efforts in finding one

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

This is so embarrassing. I'm not sure, tell me honestly ,the trees I posted earlier,would you find a way to make it work with that? I had already known partial suspension wasn't my thing but I'm not sure I can successfully fsh with these trees

We are each unique in terms of what we find simple (or simple enough) and hard. My primary method is nitrogen, but I'd be damned if I had to figure out psh or fsh. No idea.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Honestly, it seems like you're rushing. You should feel confident in your knots before you even go looking for a tree and have rope with you. Do you practice e the knots at home? I don't think youve found a suitable tree yet either, right?

Being caught CTB outside would suck on so many levels. You'd need to be much faster and more prepared to do this correctly. You can't be fumbling with a rope for an hour and expect that no one will catch you really need to consider every step of this and be prepared before you start trying to kill yourself outside.

 

[Exhausted546]

Honestly, it seems like you're rushing. You should feel confident in your knots before you even go looking for a tree and have rope with you. Do you practice e the knots at home? I don't think youve found a suitable tree yet either, right?

Being caught CTB outside would suck on so many levels. You'd need to be much faster and more prepared to do this correctly. You can't be fumbling with a rope for an hour and expect that no one will catch you really need to consider every step of this and be prepared before you start trying to kill yourself outside.

Nobody caught me with a rope yet, they just saw me sitting there late at night probably wondering why I was sitting there alone so late.

Someone replied in another thread with a anchor point knot I can use for the vertical surface. If I pair that with a arbor knot for the noose then the set up could work in the woods I was in earlier

 

[Exhausted546]

We are each unique in terms of what we find simple (or simple enough) and hard. My primary method is nitrogen, but I'd be damned if I had to figure out psh or fsh. No idea.

Nitrogen sounds very peaceful, I couldnt figure out where to get a tank of concentrated enough nitrogen when i still had funds. Would have picked it otherwise.

Although my best bet would have been a full suspension hanging over a door frame (that one is so much simpler than the tree stuff) in a motel. Hell if I had motel money I could do it right now

 

[Exhausted546]

Alright time to try again in the woods, this time with the icicle hitch knot that supposedly fixes the issues I've been having with tall vertical trees.

Hopefully things work out this time

 

[Exhausted546]

I waited thinking things through then when I finally made up my mind, saw droplets of rain which isn't a issue but apparently there's a very heavy thunderstorm about to start in 29 mins ish. I'm already in the he woods about to get started now

 

[wreckedforever]

I waited thinking things through then when I finally made up my mind, saw droplets of rain which isn't a issue but apparently there's a very heavy thunderstorm about to start in 29 mins ish. I'm already in the he woods about to get started now

I wish you luck and peace

 

[Exhausted546]

I think tree hanging might not be for me. I fail to turn this into full suspension hanging. I mean I can try partial but I feel like partial is so fkn risky, Too many stories of ppl walking up on the floor with puke and all cause their body twitched so hard it removed the pressure on the right spot. Imagine this while being eaten a shit ton of bugs in the woods and a billion mosquito bites,feels too risky


Reason I want a full suspension hanging is to make sure I don't survive, but I can't seem to make it work on these fucking trees


Edit: so I had my best set up so far noose was high enough for me to be confident it could work. Scheduled my message with my location , then I went to hang.

It was just high enough to be an extremely weird and uncomfortable partial hanging but my feet were still touching the tree roots so it wasn't working and in addition to that it was very awkward to remove the noose from around my neck.

I'm really not good at hanging,wtf. I don't know what to do anymore

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Hanging is harder than you'd think. Need to be fully prepared before you attempt to do it outside (knowing the rope, the tree, date/weather, ways to combat SI). I'm sorry you've had this experience though. We're all here for you.

 

[Exhausted546]

Hanging is harder than you'd think. Need to be fully prepared before you attempt to do it outside (knowing the rope, the tree, date/weather, ways to combat SI). I'm sorry you've had this experience though. We're all here for you.

I appreciate it, I just don't get how to perform a full suspension hanging in this woods. I'd need a ladder to make sure the noose is high enough and to make sure I can put it around my neck and hang

I spent the last 7 months avoiding à sure tested way to successfully hang myself at my father's place to not inconvenience him (the house will be sold for much much less). At this point I feel like I have exhausted my options, it'd greatly inconvenience him but where else am I supposed to hang

Unless I could magically make partial hanging successfully work in these shitty woods. Maybe I have to search harder for suitable trees that fit all the essential conditions (can reach it for full suspension hanging , private to prevent interruption before death

Technically I know a perfect tree that I can climb on, where I'd easily perform a full suspension hanging. I didn't know I had struck gold at the time,I simply chickened out and never returned, visited it when the swamp was frozen solid but it is absolutely impossible to navigate to at this moment.

 

[Exhausted546]

alright I think my mind is made, I'll hang at my dad's. I avoided it after seeing how lethal the set up was and wanting to spare him seeing the rope digging deep in my neck, the house being sold for a lot less and so on. This set up is extremely simple and very lethal, once I kick the chair, there's now way back, the rope will dig into my flesh and cut my circulation off.

If the rope placement was faulty, I'll die an agonizing death, either way there won't be a way back once I kick the chair, I hope to lose consciousness fast
Edit:

It'll be risky to do today, my dad leaves everyday from 4pm to 5 pm, I have a appointment will social workers that won't allow me to sneak in before 4:25 pm ish , I assume it'll take at least 15 mins to psyche myself up, and 45ish mins to be officially dead

So I'll have to wait tomorrow to be safe

 

[Exhausted546]

I'm so fkn impatient. Almost feel like a kid waiting for Christmas, tomorrow 4pm can't come soon enough, I need to make sure everything is ready

 

[aspenjrojas]

Why risk it if you only have a 60 min window? What if something goes wrong, theres a camera, someone finds you in that time? That's just my unfiltered reaction to this. Why not wait and look for a less risky plan? When you have more time and in a safer place? Waiting a day or two longer might be worth it if it increases your chances of success. If you don't succeed AND someone finds you, life could get a lot worse, and I don't know if that is worth risking. If you think you'll be successful, go for it, but that's my honest thoughts.

Other than that, if you do decide to go tomorrow, I do wish you luck in succeeding and hope you have peace.

 

[Exhausted546]

Why risk it if you only have a 60 min window? What if something goes wrong, theres a camera, someone finds you in that time? That's just my unfiltered reaction to this. Why not wait and look for a less risky plan? When you have more time and in a safer place? Waiting a day or two longer might be worth it if it increases your chances of success. If you don't succeed AND someone finds you, life could get a lot worse, and I don't know if that is worth risking. If you think you'll be successful, go for it, but that's my honest thoughts.

Other than that, if you do decide to go tomorrow, I do wish you luck in succeeding and hope you have peace.

To be honest, he's rarely ever back before 5:29 at least, recently he's been gone up until 6-7 pm regularly. In the absolute worst case scenario I only have 1h, most likely I'll have 1h29 ish

On weekends he's home most of the time, he could leave for a couple minutes or a couple hours though, there's no way to tell.

The moments when he's gone for sure fore extended periods of time are on Tuesdays when he doesn't work from home. But I believe this is his last week working this job, so I probably missed on the last Tuesday I had where I could hang without interruption. Although if he works another week, then that would give me the entire day of Tuesday to hang

Isn't 45 minutes more than enough to die however? I do admit the issue is that I'd have to do it immediately,it'd be a race against time,rushing leads to mistakes and with the current subject matter,it could lead to a catastrophic life

 

[aspenjrojas]

okay, fair enough. i'm pretty sure 30 minutes is good enough if you do it correctly. just be careful to do it right, if something goes wrong don't be afraid to abort it, and good luck to you.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

You can prep by having your noose already tied before you even get to the tree. I'd recommend something for anxiety if you have it.

Are you climbing the tree? Did you identify a good branch?

 

[never mind me]

From what I researched it is extremely unlikely that you can be resuscitated after more than 30 minutes. So if you prepare the noose beforehand and set up quickly even an hour or 90 minutes without being interruped will be enough.
If you need to use trees it might help to bring an extra rope or slings as an aid to climb up a tree, so you can use a higher branch for FSH. When I first tried to test a branch for FSH I realized it is not high enough and that I couldn't get any higher, because I am not fit enough to do a pull up and so the next time I came back with slings that are part of my climbing equipment and it made all the difference.