Final Thoughts and Goodbye - SN

[MatthewV3]

Have a safe travel.

 

[fastlife]

safe travel:hart:

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Talvikki]

Goodluck, you will be missed❤

 

[ghostunderthelight]

best of luck on your journey. I hope you will finally find peace.

 

[Everybody_yells]

Wishing you peace with whatever decision you choose to make.
Don't forget, we are all here with you !

**Ghost hugs**

 

[lunarflower]

I'm glad I had the privilege of knowing you no matter what happens. ❤

 

[Chasing Sleep]

I haven't been active in this community long but I know you have a heart full of compassion. You deserved the world

My PMs are open if you need anyone to talk to. You deserve to feel seen and loved during this time. If you're already gone, I hope you are resting in the utmost peace

 

[Sea Turtle]

I haven't been active in this community long but I know you have a heart full of compassion. You deserved the world

My PMs are open if you need anyone to talk to. You deserve to feel seen and loved during this time. If you're already gone, I hope you are resting in the utmost peace

Thank you so much for the kind words

Thank you for the offer as well, I am alright for now but I will reach out if anything changes. Still a few more hours until then

 

[Crazy4u]

Whatever happens, I wish you the best! I hope you find what you are looking for

 

[hopelessgirl]

For sure, I've "written" a bunch but never really up to standards. I've never settled exactly what I want on a note.

Not many people I would need to write to honestly.. but it's a tough situation with my BF because he knows my plans but it's truly a "til death do us part" thing. We still love each other dearly but our priorities in life have just shifted so much. I don't know how I'm meant to put anything to him in words. Sorry I'm just ranting now I know no one can really help me with something so deeply personal

Maybe you could try writing a note? Maybe you can express some feelings through words to express your love to your boy friend. If there is something on your heart this is the last time you can say it. After that you are gone. Dead. No longer Alive. Calm. Non existent. So, it's your choice. Are you ready to let go?

You don't have to answer these words and questions. It's just a suggestion. Since you were wondering if you should write a note or not :-) hope you'll figure out what you're most comfortable with

 

[Sea Turtle]

Maybe you could try writing a note? Maybe you can express some feelings through words to express your love to your boy friend. If there is something on your heart this is the last time you can say it. After that you are gone. Dead. No longer Alive. Calm. Non existent. So, it's your choice. Are you ready to let go?

I'm actually talking to him right now. Over call cause LDR, but yeah. He knows. He knows it's my choice and it's been a long time coming. I don't know what I can do for him. Some part of me knows he might choose to follow me, whatever happens I just want the best for him. I know he feels so similarly to what I have felt. Considering videos/voice recording, sending money I have left, maybe referring this site. Not sure. That's what I'm conflicted on I suppose. Weird situation to be in.
I'm definitely finding it harder to "let go", persay now that it's all so .. real. But I am still ready to do so. Logically I know it won't matter because it's not like I can have regrets :)

 

[hopelessgirl]

I'm actually talking to him right now. Over call cause LDR, but yeah. He knows. He knows it's my choice and it's been a long time coming. I don't know what I can do for him. Some part of me knows he might choose to follow me, whatever happens I just want the best for him. I know he feels so similarly to what I have felt. Considering videos/voice recording, sending money I have left, maybe referring this site. Not sure. That's what I'm conflicted on I suppose. Weird situation to be in.
I'm definitely finding it harder to "let go", persay now that it's all so .. real. But I am still ready to do so. Logically I know it won't matter because it's not like I can have regrets :)

For sure can't have regrets :-) you'll be at peace..

 

[Sea Turtle]

Update 2

Confirmed time they will be leaving the house. Will be taking SN in about 3 hours 40 minutes. Will have at least 3 hours to myself but by that point I'll be beyond saving at least? Reported 40mins-4 hours to death…

Want to cry and reminisce over the good times and just be happy one last time :')

Wondering if it's even possible to conceptualize true death while alive. Conceptualizing nothingness while being something? Not sure if that's in the realm of consciousness.

Food for thought in the last hours I suppose. What a weird thing to think about and to live through.

Much love to you all

 

[hopelessgirl]

Update 2

Confirmed time they will be leaving the house. Will be taking SN in about 3 hours 40 minutes. Will have at least 3 hours to myself but by that point I'll be beyond saving at least? Reported 40mins-4 hours to death…

Want to cry and reminisce over the good times and just be happy one last time :')

Wondering if it's even possible to conceptualize true death while alive. Conceptualizing nothingness while being something? Not sure if that's in the realm of consciousness.

Food for thought in the last hours I suppose. What a weird thing to think about and to live through.

Much love to you all

Beautiful <3

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

Want to cry and reminisce over the good times and just be happy one last time :')

Wondering if it's even possible to conceptualize true death while alive. Conceptualizing nothingness while being something? Not sure if that's in the realm of consciousness.

Food for thought in the last hours I suppose. What a weird thing to think about and to live through.

Much love to you all

Swim free little turtle. We will miss you here at the shore and would welcome you back with open arms if you feel like you aren't ready to face the big unknown ocean yet. I agree, I don't think we can conceptualize death. But if you so decide, I hope the waves will take you gently

 

[Sea Turtle]

Swim free little turtle. We will miss you here at the shore and would welcome you back with open arms if you feel like you aren't ready to face the big unknown ocean yet. I agree, I don't think we can conceptualize death. But if you so decide, I hope the waves will take you gently

Thank you so much for the kind words. I do hope the great unknown welcomes me and everyone else gently

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Update 2

Confirmed time they will be leaving the house. Will be taking SN in about 3 hours 40 minutes. Will have at least 3 hours to myself but by that point I'll be beyond saving at least? Reported 40mins-4 hours to death…

Want to cry and reminisce over the good times and just be happy one last time :')

Wondering if it's even possible to conceptualize true death while alive. Conceptualizing nothingness while being something? Not sure if that's in the realm of consciousness.

Food for thought in the last hours I suppose. What a weird thing to think about and to live through.

Much love to you all

We will be here for you

 

[OnlyWinOnce]

See you on the other side, if such a place exists. If there is a God, He'll understand your decision and treat you with the compassion you couldn't find here on Earth.

And if He doesn't exist, well... then may you at least find the peace you so deserve.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Hahahahah ……. Oh my god I'm cursed.

Guess who's family isn't going out this afternoon because someone hurt their knee?? Couldn't be me

It's looking like a tonight/early tomorrow morning in 12 hours from now … in the cold dark basement with creepy bugs and not in my warm bed... *sigh*

I'm so done with all of this honestly. Nothing ever goes right in my life.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Hahahahah ……. Oh my god I'm cursed.

Guess who's family isn't going out this afternoon because someone hurt their knee?? Couldn't be me

It's looking like a tonight/early tomorrow morning in 12 hours from now … in the cold dark basement with creepy bugs and not in my warm bed... *sigh*

I'm so done with all of this honestly. Nothing ever goes right in my life.

Oh no

 

[Bedrock48]

Hahahahah ……. Oh my god I'm cursed.

Guess who's family isn't going out this afternoon because someone hurt their knee?? Couldn't be me

It's looking like a tonight/early tomorrow morning in 12 hours from now … in the cold dark basement with creepy bugs and not in my warm bed... *sigh*

I'm so done with all of this honestly. Nothing ever goes right in my life.

I'm sorry things aren't working out for you, there's no shame in waiting until you can be somewhere more comfortable. Whatever you choose I hope you find the peace and comfort you're looking for.

 

[Sea Turtle]

I'm sorry things aren't working out for you, there's no shame in waiting until you can be somewhere more comfortable. Whatever you choose I hope you find the peace and comfort you're looking for.

Unfortunately today and tomorrow are the last chances I will get in a while so.. it is what it is I guess. Non-ideal just like all the other aspects of life :)

 

[Sea Turtle]

It hurts to know if one thing would ever go right in my life, I'd already be passed out right now. It's like life always finds a way to give one final fuck you. First the war starting 3 days before my SN and meto were to ship from Ukraine… and now derailing my plans and forcing me to suffer for at least 8 more hours. Some may call it a sign. I don't believe in signs. All up to now has been false hope. Hopefully I can nap away some of the remaining time. Consciousness is torture.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

It hurts to know if one thing would ever go right in my life, I'd already be passed out right now. It's like life always finds a way to give one final fuck you. First the war starting 3 days before my SN and meto were to ship from Ukraine… and now derailing my plans and forcing me to suffer for at least 8 more hours. Some may call it a sign. I don't believe in signs. All up to now has been false hope. Hopefully I can nap away some of the remaining time. Consciousness is torture.

I'm so sorry :/ Don't feel pressured and you can always change your mind. We support you in whatever you think is best and what you decide to do. You're not alone.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

We're here for you

 

[Sea Turtle]

I'm so sorry :/ Don't feel pressured and you can always change your mind. We support you in whatever you think is best and what you decide to do. You're not alone.

We're here for you

Thank you so much, I do know I can change my mind if I wish. I still intend on going through with it in about 8 hours. I'm hoping it's not too loud(?) so I can potentially just do it on the first floor when everyone is sleeping on the second. Not a fan of basements hah… but less of a fan of having a high chance of being found

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Thank you so much, I do know I can change my mind if I wish. I still intend on going through with it in about 8 hours. I'm hoping it's not too loud(?) so I can potentially just do it on the first floor when everyone is sleeping on the second. Not a fan of basements hah… but less of a fan of having a high chance of being found

I respect that. Maybe you should eat something in the meantime since you've been fasting for many hours and it might make you vomit.

 

[Sea Turtle]

I respect that. Maybe you should eat something in the meantime since you've been fasting for many hours and it might make you vomit.

I definitely have considered that, will likely grab a light snack and nap for a few hours. Though I'm quite used to eating sporadically so my body shouldn't fuss too much about it

 

[NoLightRemains]

I'm sorry your initial plan got de-railed, that's so disheartening. I hope you will still find some way to be comfortable in your last moments if you decide to go ahead. I always appreciated seeing your posts even though I'm fairly new here. Wishing you peace.