Final Goodbye (SN)🕊

[ThatStateOfMind]

How is it fairly easy to obtain AE and benzo? need prescriptions and dunno what doctor to go to and what to say

I agree and doctors are sometimes sticklers about prescribing medication. At least mine was, and mine was for genuinely being sick.

 

[lebrodude]

It does always concern me a little when I see these goodbye threads and the user shows last online several hours/days after their final message.

Did they fail in their attempt ? Have they been successful and police/family gone through their phone/computers ?

We can never really know can we , I find that kind of scary.

 

[Obliviate]

Last seen today? I wonder if either OP is still alive or maybe a family member/friend found this account? Was the account disabled before or after OP was seen today?

Either ways hope their ok.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Last seen today? I wonder if either OP is still alive or maybe a family member/friend found this account? Was the account disabled before or after OP was seen today?

Either ways hope their ok.

Can accounts be accessed after they've been disabled? If he survived, he could have regretted it and deleted his account.

 

[lebrodude]

Can accounts be accessed after they've been disabled? If he survived, he could have regretted it and deleted his account.

im sure the account was disabled after their last online stamp.

 

[0000000000000]

This really hits hard...
I hope OP got the rest and freedom he wanted.

 

[LateForTheBus]

I'm new here so didn't know really know Endless, but I'm still sad that he's gone. I think I will be sad when any of us actually ctb, even though we're all here for that reason. Still, I'm glad he found the peace he was looking for.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Does a mod have to access an account to shut it down and so it shows as online for a bit?

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

This one in particular hit hard. So many parallels. The method, the loneliness. A toast to EndlessDespair.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

It's heart breaking to see someone giving up on life at 21. So many people don't have long-term relationships by that age (I know that wasn't the only issue OP had) and I know they didn't want talking out of it, but just sad man

 

[Interloper]

OP was briefly crossed out, uncrossed, now crossed again. And last seen yesterday. You good OP? You still with us?

 

[depressedcooc]

this mystery is making me more uneasy about SN now tbh

 

[missingpeace]

OP was briefly crossed out, uncrossed, now crossed again. And last seen yesterday. You good OP? You still with us?

Probably just the admins doing their thing, if she hasn't gone I'm sure she would come back and let us know.

 

[hunter1313]

Farewell my friend!

 

[FriendofDeath]

I believe the line through a name means the person was successful in their attempt (I think he asked mods to close his account if they didn't hear from him. There may be other reasons someone is removed.

 

[Interloper]

I believe the line through a name means the person was successful in their attempt (I think he asked mods to close his account if they didn't hear from him. There may be other reasons someone is removed.

Being crossed out is just a manual disable of the account or a ban/mod disabling the account. He was crossed out not long after his final post. But then a few days later he wasn't crossed out any longer and he was active. Now he's crossed out again and his last activity was yesterday. Why would staff be playing with his account?

 

[Source Energy]

It's heart breaking to see someone giving up on life at 21. So many people don't have long-term relationships by that age (I know that wasn't the only issue OP had) and I know they didn't want talking out of it, but just sad man

life tells you what it's gonna be like from early on
I first got suicidal at 13.
at 42 now, I look back at a wasted life, and feel the same. I got suicidal again over similar circumstances, just different places and faces
the "oh but they're so young" is bs forgive my saying.
better an early ctb than a wasted life.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@SourceEnergy I get what you're saying. It's a fine line for me knowing what to say, because I hate to stray near pro-life territory, I respect anyone's wish to CTB if they are of age and they are really sure. It's hard because we are not therapists and we don't know what someone else's life is like or how fixable it is. But 21 IS young to give up on life and think it'll never get better, especially on the relationship side. It's not hopeless, maybe it was for OP or maybe it wasn't-we can't know that, not from what little they posted. They might not know that either. And yeh things didn't get better for you or me (also suicidal since early teens) and hell I wish I'd CTB years ago, but people have said it did get better for them, so it's possible. You can't know it would be a wasted life, and either way it's still sad.

 

[Source Energy]

True...you don't know either way.
But if someone who is "oh so young" ctb and their life would have improved - they won't cry for missing out on that, because they are in peace
But if their life never gets better, looking back at 20/30 years of heartbreak and disappointment is a wasted life.
I'll take non existence over that any day.
I'ld never try to dissuade someone based on their age.
Life imo is only worth putting some fight if you have someone for whom you mean the world, and/or you brought children into this hell and now you are abandoning them here. Otherwise, it's fair game to quit at a young age.