Final Goodbye (SN)🕊

[moparman97b]

I hope to find the peace you have now

 

[EqualibriumWithin]

i hope you found the peace you seek, friend

 

[DreamEnd]

Are you still with us?

 

[djhelljgel]

Hope you found solace friend, rest well

 

[Ra4v]

Are you still with us?

I don't think so :(

 

[HybridSpectre]

I'm comforted knowing you're now in eternal peace friend. So long, ✌.

 

[grosz]

I hope you are in a better place bro, farewell, tell God I say hi

 

[ElfenLied]

Rest in peace, sweet angel..

You are in a better place now.

 

[bestbefore053121]

Rest in peace

 

[valkyrie]

Farewell. All the best wishes. I hope if all went as planned that you're at peace.

 

[Zegers]

Hope you find the wellness you have not found on earth.

 

[Source Energy]

wow, he made it! it's been 5 hours. Sleep safe, E. Free and and at peace, like you deserve.
Soon it's my turn. Reading a success with SN gives me hope.

 

[Hahem]

Rest in peace brother

 

[evanescent]

good night, sleep well

 

[krxbs]

fuck, i was in chat when you were talking about this. rest easy. wow.

 

[fizi22]

@EndlessDespair was active 30 mins ago

 

[missingpeace]

@EndlessDespair was active 30 mins ago

He would surely update this thread if he had a failure (hope so)

 

[CantWait2D1E]

What does the line through their name mean on this site? Are they banned? Or did they delete their account?

Anyway, the fact he was seen on here again worries me about the SN method. Another failure thread it seems like. I learned of this method through this site and thought it was legit. Now I'm starting to think it's some kind of sick prank meant to cause desperate people more distress.

 

[EqualibriumWithin]

What does the line through their name mean on this site? Are they banned? Or did they delete their account?

Anyway, the fact he was seen on here again worries me about the SN method. Another failure thread it seems like. I learned of this method through this site and thought it was legit. Now I'm starting to think it's some kind of sick prank meant to cause desperate people more distress.

i can only assume its for the safety of the forum that they are removed. as of now nothing has been confirmed but we have various hypothesises

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

What does the line through their name mean on this site? Are they banned? Or did they delete their account?

Anyway, the fact he was seen on here again worries me about the SN method. Another failure thread it seems like. I learned of this method through this site and thought it was legit. Now I'm starting to think it's some kind of sick prank meant to cause desperate people more distress.

Idk what the line means, would have to ask a mod.

The account being active Is likely someone snooping around as OP was active after they drank the sn, assuming they succeeded. People have confirmed seeing his name in chat room but not if anything was said.

 

[ilo]

Hello everyone,

As you can tell by the title, I have made my decision to finally use my bus ticket . My bus departs in 2 days (Feb 13).

Short Life Story

I have been depressed and suicidal ever since I was 13 yrs old. Every year I thought my life would change for the better, but I was left disappointed each time.

I've been alone for as long as I can remember. I went through my school years without making a single friend. This was mostly due to my social anxiety and low self esteem. I've tried for many years to overcome my SA, but when you've been suffering for that long it can be hard to gain social skills and make genuine connections.

I always thought that when I turned 18 if nothing changed, I would CTB, but instead I waited 3 more years to see if being an "adult" would change things, and boy was I wrong.

I am now a 21 year old Virgin, a college dropout with 10k in debt, and still got 0 friends, and have never had a girlfriend. I don't see a future for me worth living, and would rather not continue suffering with no purpose in life.

*End of story*

My method is going to be SN. I don't have a lot of fancy stuff, just gonna use what I found easy to get:

- SN from ic (25g).
- 2 cups of 50ml water.
- ibuprofen.
- dimenhydrinate (gravol).
- Benzocaine (Mouth sore gel to numb my tastebuds to help with the saltiness).
- might smoke a blunt before as well.
- Plan to fast for 8 - 10 hrs.
- booked hotel for 3 night stay.


That is all I will be using to ctb. I will also be messaging in this thread to document my symptoms and pain during the attempt.

I will say my final goodbye to everyone when the time comes.

For now, if you have any questions, please ask them below, but please avoid trying to talk me out of it. I have made my decision and do not plan on backing out

What is SN? Where do you get it?

 

[Saltedcoffee]

What is SN? Where do you get it?

Sodium nitrite. You can order it online

 

[lukas19]

Drank it
Throat burning
Haven't vomited yet
Farewell everyone
Right now pain Is at 2
Heart starting to pick up a bit
Not sure if i have enough str to keep updating
Not sure if i have enough str to keep updating
If I'm not back within 24 hrs mods pls close by acc
Going to sleep now
There's a place In heaven waiting for me

sorry x

 

[Decided98]

I didn't want to say anything at first, but OP's regiment is a recipe for disaster.
It screams "failure" from a mile away... only 1 glass of 25g and no sufficient AE?
She will vomit her guts out and we'll be reading about yet another SN failed attempt... well, duh, no shit?

OP, I wish you all the best, a LOT OF LUCK, and I wish you a safe travel and may your guardian soul meet you by tonight.
But if we meet again here... it's OK. Every school is paid for.

You can cb without AE

 

[moonlightwhisper]

May you be at peace, wherever you go

 

[Source Energy]

Idk what the line means, would have to ask a mod.

The account being active Is likely someone snooping around as OP was active after they drank the sn, assuming they succeeded. People have confirmed seeing his name in chat room but not if anything was said.

Maybe he failed and was too embarrassed to post. There is no shame in that, but I see how one can feel like a failure. Especially if it was because they changed their mind...
I hope OP is in a better place now, physical or ethereal.
It just makes one wonder how reliable this method really is.

 

[looking_for_peace]

Maybe he failed and was too embarrassed to post. There is no shame in that, but I see how one can feel like a failure. Especially if it was because they changed their mind...
I hope OP is in a better place now, physical or ethereal.
It just makes one wonder how reliable this method really is.

without AE, it is a gamble. I sincerely hope OP didn't fail... but who knows :(

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

If OP did fail, I suppose a main perk of SN is with failure, there aren't huge risks like hanging, jumping, gun, etc. I hope he is doing okay right now, and he is at peace with whatever happened.

 

[randy]

Going to sleep now
There's a place In heaven waiting for me

sorry this life was unbearable for you.
I hope you are in heaven and finding happiness

 

[RUPA]

That won't work for avoiding expelling harsh stomach contents, you need a serotonin receptor agonist type AE to really suppress the intense nausea that SN would cause.

Benzodiazepines are used to put you to sleep so you don't feel the discomfort of the SN. PPeH recommends quite a high dose. Especially because they are obtainable legally, they are essential for the "peaceful" part of the regimen.

This is why it's really important for people to chemically understand the "peaceful pill" combo they choose... No one deserves discomfort for an already huge decision to ctb, and I feel like OP who is already in pain doesn't deserve more pain.

I'm leaning towards a diff method for myself but AEs and benzos are fairly easy to acquire. I just want OP to understand the risks of going forward without a complete regimen.

How is it fairly easy to obtain AE and benzo? need prescriptions and dunno what doctor to go to and what to say