I'm so sorry. I don't have fibromyalgia, but I do have cfs as one of the symptoms of my illness. Fibromyalgia can be so disheartening. Being trapped in a futile human body is bad enough as is, but when you have physical ailments, it makes it so much worse.
Remember to try not to feel bad about yourself or anything like that. Having this disease is one of the worst things someone can have. You're obviously pretty strong for having dealt with it as long as you have.
Do you find any joy in life right now? Is there anything that reduces the pain? Do you use any painkillers or get injections? Are you seeing a doctor currently about ongoing treatment? Have you tried a 10s device at all(
electric stimulation)? Is there anything you enjoy doing in bed to help distract yourself? Or is the pain too bad to even focus?
I'm really sorry that you have to deal with this. I have migraines, but compared to fibromyalgia, it's nothing. I can't imagine what you're going through. I really hope that somehow, someway, something magically comes along that helps you.
It's been a while since we've talked. It's nice to see you again by the way...